Die?

We had gone down two hallways and one flight stairs , when Smith moved.
I let out a soundless groan as Smith suddenly shoved me against the wall.
Surprised when he kissed me hard , I closed my eyes on instinct.
'Hmmmm, don't let it end. Why couldn't he have done this before? '
As suddenly as he started it , he stopped and I slowly opened my eyes.

Asking "W-w-why did you ... ? I thought ? " I shook my head and caught my breath , dizzy from pleasure and returning pain.

He replies to my soundless inquiry
" It doesn't matter , if those guards had seen you they could have become Jones and Brown.
I will not have you get caught if I can help it. "

Dizzy as I was I couldn't help thinking 'Guards? I didn't notice any Guards. '

We started walking , really he started walking , I was limping from being shoved into the wall.
Sharp pain radiating down my back into my legs.
I kept looking at him every few seconds, I couldn't help it.
Once I thought I saw him licking his lips.

'Why would you kiss me , Smith ? If it doesn't mean anything.
Even if you don't care what humans think ? Why ?
Was that an experiment or something , Mocking my feelings for you?
That you'll never feel anything more for me .
Why ? It doesn't make sense.'

We had gone down a few hallways and flights of steps .
And paying too much attention to Smith , I didn't make sure the hallway was clear.
I paid for it a few seconds later as a bullet flew past my head , painful as it was I ducked and turned.
To feel a bullet enter my right shoulder , 'Great, more pain. Just what the Doc' ordered. '

Then Smith's voice cold enough to start an Ice Age "What do you think you are doing , Captain ? "

"Uuhh, I was ? I was... a, a . S-subduing the escaped Terrorist ? , Sir "

I could have laughed at how uncertain the man sounded.
I put a hand against the new wound , wondering if I was some sort of joke to the Matrix and life.
Smith puts a hand on my shoulder , my newly wounded shoulder and then says

" Captain , does this Terrorist look strong enough to escape for more than a few feet ?"

"No, Sir . He doesn't. "

" I can handle him more efficiently than you could Captain. There are far more dangerous Terrorists in this building. If you want to shoot a Terrorist , go and shoot one of them. This one belongs to ME. "

I grimaced as he pushed down on my shoulder , more pain shooting from it , up my neck to my head.
The Captain turns and walks off without a word to go shoot one of my friends.

I glared at Smith as he let go and mouthed what he could go and do.
He smiles, mocking and says " What if I don't want to do it myself ? What if I want YOU too?"

I felt myself choking as those words filtered through the pain and sudden dizziness.
I got even more confused about him and slightly angry.

'You know Smith , I don't think I like your humor if you're going to mock me.
AND put those images in my head , dang you.
Someone just let me die already, this is way too much.'

I heard ,more than felt myself fall to floor. Actually, get tackled to the floor, as the walls seemed to spin.
I saw a flash of white sleeve, Focused on it so time slowed , Switch.
Thank God , it was Switch I thought it was a guard.
Then Smith says "Stop " , I lost Focus and I turned my head , Apoc was pinned against the wall.

Switch " What the Hell do you think your doing ,Agent ?"

Smith lets go of Apoc and then says " I am going Rogue that is what I am doing. My name is Smith. "

" I'll be damned , you're supposed to be their best aren't you ? Why would you have a reason to ?" Apoc asks him. Smith didn't awnser him , just glared and put the earpiece back in.

Switch helps me up, "Neo you don't look fit for anything. " I felt like saying

'Really , Switch you mean you don't just get tortured , kissed , mocked and shot in the space of a few hours and you don't look fit for anything. And here I thought I did. '

I couldn't imagine a worse day in my entire life , than this one. Switch, Apoc , Smith and I kept going.

Apparently , Trinity and Cypher were waiting with Morpheus on the bottom floor as a bomb went off.
The wall behind us fell in , I had a feeling with the way Smith glared it wasn't an accident.
I picked myself up and Switch looked around "Great. We're trapped , just great. "

Then the floor fell through , I groaned a small sound finally coming out as I landed.
'Yeah. More pain and dizziness. Hurrah.'

"We need to get to Morpheus , Trinity and Cypher. " Apoc says.

Smith replies " Jones and Brown have already surrounded them. It is too late for them. "

"Shut-up. We're going after them. "

What felt like hours , really minutes later we were walking right into Jones and Brown.
I was so full of pain and dizziness , I hardly cared as I got thrown into the wall.
I thought I heard the wall shatter from the force of my impact , but that could've just been my skull hitting the wall.

I could hear my heart beating , it was beating so fast and everything was slowly , so slowly fading out.
Morpheus , Trinity , Switch, Apoc and Smith in a circle. Jones , Brown and Cypher on the outside , looking in. 'At least the stupid pain is going away finally.'

I heard the sound of voices , the sound of a gun-shot and a body falling.
'Who was that? Apoc or Morpheus ? I can't tell. Please don't let it be Morpheus.'

More voices' shouting this time even more indistinct , one rising above the rest in my mind.
Though I couldn't tell what it was saying , it sounded ... worried? , could it sound worried ?.
A string of incredibly dull pain , like the taste of blood in my mouth.

It felt a thousand miles away , like it was happening to someone else.
I felt my heart beat slowing down , too much.
First everything faded to black then ... I felt my heart stop.

'Is it finally over ? Did I really die? Am I really dead ?'

Black and purple light brightened until I was surrounded by silver and gold light.
It was beautiful and calm , I could stay here forever.
No more pain , no more being mocked - no more ... , no more ... who ?, Who ?

A dark , drawling voice breaking into the lights - making them swirl and dance.

"NO. no. Neo , I should not have done what I did. I shouldn't have mocked you.
I'm sorry, I didn't understand what I was doing , why I was doing all this.
I understand now , I Love You Neo." A slight pressure , before it was gone.

The dark voice continuing , first sad fading away and then returning coldly furious and shouting.
" NEO, Neo , please I've never loved anyone before. Please come back. I know you can.
... JONES .Damn you, I'M GOING TO KILL YOU. "

' I-Who was that ? I can't remember they sounded sad. I don't want that.
I-I-I kn-know who that is?, S-s something S -Smith. Brown hair , beautiful cold blue-eyes, dark voice.
I KNOW WHO THAT IS ! Dear god, Smith just said he loved me. He loves me, SMITH LOVES ME.
Something's happening to him, I've gotta stop it. '

A voice old but young " You don't have to Neo. You could stay and see what this place looks like. "

The silver and gold light evaporating like mist , to show briefly a place I couldn't ever hope to describe.
It was too beautiful to exist , like something out of a story - the most beautiful story that was ever written.I knew somehow that if I stayed here I wouldn't get glared at or called something awful , it wouldn't matter here. It wouldn't matter that I was in love with Smith , it wouldn't matter that he was a Program.

But... but " I don't want to stay if Smith isn't here. I NEED to help him.
And my friends their in trouble too.
The Agents are there and Cypher, somebody got shot besides me .
Jones is going to try and kill Smith since he went Rogue. I need to help them."

It almost felt like that strange voice was smiling at me.

"Good , I hoped you would say that. It'll be a very long time before I see you again.
Good luck with them Neo. This is your next life , you are the One. "

Silver and gold wrapped around everything , before it gently faded into purple-blackness.
Feeling my heart beat , I opened my eyes.