(unedited - i wrote some of this in the middle of the night, some in the backseat of this car while driving those 500 km and waiting to get to mcdonalds so forgive me for any typos)

Oli started to stir, he felt someone whispering near him, and that someone was also really warm, so he cuddled closer.

"He's waking up." he heard someone whisper. He knew that voice. Was it mom? Probably.

He opened his eyes and looked up. Right, it was Jay next to him - the one who's really warm.

"Morning." Erin said to him.

"Slept well?" Jay asked and ruffled his already messy hair.

"Yeah," he said and sat up. "Really well. You're really warm. I really liked it." Oli chuckled.

"Right? I said that too." Erin smirked and kissed Jay's cheek.

Oli gasped a little and then Erin gave him a questionable look.

"You guys kiss now?" he asked with a little smirk.

Erin burried her face in Jay's neck and mumbled "Shit."

They both agreed that they won't tell Oli that they're together right away, and now she blew it.

"Mommy! Don't say such words! It's not nice."

She lifted her head then and chuckled at him "I'm sorry sweetie. You're right, it's not nice."

"Hey, I thought you were sleeping on the couch." Oli turned to Jay.

Great, Erin thought, he won't let it go now.

"Um." he turned to Erin, not knowing what to say. "I guess we can tell him, right? He's a big kid now, isn't that right, Oli?"

"I sure am." He smiled proudly. He loved when Jay told his mom that he's a big kid already.

"Well, tell him then." Erin shrugged her shoulders. She had no idea what else to do. She wouldn't lie to Oli, and he was pretty mature for his age. He'll understand.

"Well," Jay started "I took your wise words seriously the other day. And just like you said that mommies and daddies should only go out with eachother, I also think mommies and daddies should sleep in the same bed and kiss eachother sometimes, don't you think?"

Oli just smiled and nodded his head. Jay actually took his advice. He felt important. Really really important. Plus mommy weared those cute dimples of hers now. She rarely did.

"So, mommy told me that you came here last night, saying you really really want us to go to Chicago." Jay said.

"Hey, how'd you get here last night anyways? You can't walk with that cut." Erin interrupted.

"I hopped on one foot." Oli said quietly, hoping his mom wouldn't be mad for breaking the doctor's no-walking-rule.

"That's... impressive." Jay chuckled and Erin slapped his arm.

"Stop it! Oli, you shouldn't be walking, you know that sweetie. Just wait a day or two, okay?"

"Okay."

"Yeah, I'll carry you around for a couple of days, so you'll heal quick and then we can go to Chicago." Jay smiled.

Oli's eyes widened and his smile appeared again. "Really? Mommy said yes?"

"Yep, she did."

The little kid threw himself over Jay, his arms around Erin's neck "You're the best mommy in the world." he whispered into her ear.

Erin just stroked his hair and looked at Jay.

He mouthed 'I told you' to her and smiled. Ugh, that smile. It made her feel things since the day she first saw it.

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"Mommy! Jay!" Oli yelled from his bedroom one morning, like really early. Too early, to be specific.

Jay came rushing in, and there was worry on his face. "What's wrong? You okay?"

"Look!" he smiled. He was standing next to his bed, his pyjamas still on, and the biggest smile on his face. "I can walk! My foot's alright!"

"You sure? There's no pain at all?" Jay asked him carefully and kneeled down to him.

"We can go to Chicago now!!" He threw himself in Jay's embrace and Jay hugged him back with no hesitation. He loved this kid. Their kid.

Oli pulled back after a few seconds "Where's mommy?"

"She went to work just a few minutes ago. You wouldn't have to get up so early tho."

"I wanted to because I was sure today I'd be alright." he couldn't stop smiling.

"You know what? We can call mommy and tell her that she can quit and come home so we can start packing. What do you say?"

"I'll get your phone!!" Oli ran out of his room, happier than ever.

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"Hey guys." Erin greeted them as she entered the apartment and took her shoes and jacket off.

"Mommy! Look!" Oli jumped down from his chair, totally forgetting about his breakfast and ran towards Erin.

"You're alright!" Erin said, lifted him to her lap and kissed his forehead. She carried him back to the table so he could finish his breakfast when Jay came out of the kitchen, carrying a plate of toasts. He wrapped his free arm around Erin's waist and pecked her lips with a quick kiss. The kind that says We'll have more time for that later, I love you. "Hi."

"Hey you." she smiled to him. "What have you two been up to?"

"We watched Dory and then we decided it's time for breakfast and then we ate and then you came!" Oli said, all in one breath.

"Dory? Again?" she chuckled.

"What? Do you have anything against Dory?" Jay said with a suspicious voice to make Oli laugh. Jay knew he liked it when they ganged up on Erin.

"No," she threw her hands up in the air "Nothing at all."

"Can we start packing now?" Oli asked when he finished eating.

Jay looked at Erin. It was up to her.

"Sure." she smiled to the little boy.

"Then go wash your hands and go gather all your toys, and me and mommy will clean up and then we'll come help you, okay?"

"Yay!" he said while already running to the bathroom.

Jay and Erin picked the plates up and carried them to the sink.

Erin turned to Jay, wanting to ask him something "So-" She couldn't even start, because suddenly Jay's hands were on her hips, pulling her closer. His lips landed on hers in a second, kissing her slow and deep. She put her hands on his waist and ran them up and down his sides gently. He pulled back when they were both a little bit breathless and leaned his forehead against hers. Now that's a proper hello, Jay thought to himself.

"Hi." he said again.

"Hey you." she smirked.

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"Last night in this bed, huh?" Jay said as they were tucking Oli in.

"Yup. But, I'm too excited. What if I won't be able to fall asleep?"

"Oh you have to. Because if not who's gonna help us to finish packing tomorrow?" Erin asked and snuggled her nose to his. "Goodnight sweetie. I love you."

"Night mommy. Night Jay." he jawned.

"Night monkey," Jay ruffled his hair and Oli chuckled at his new nickname "Love you."

He didn't get an I love you back, but he didn't mind. He knew he can't force him. It'll happen one day. Just like with Erin.

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"Puppy?"

"Got it."

"Backpack?"

"Got it."

"Books?"

"Yup."

"Erin?"

It was in the late afternoon, the sun was just about to go down and Erin was standing by the window, looking at the street below them.

Jay didn't get and answer, so he went to her, wrapped his hands around her from behind and leaned his chin on her shoulder. "You alright?"

"Jay I... I don't know if I can do this."

"What?" he turned her around and took her hands in his. "You were totally up for it two days ago." What has happened that she suddenly changed her mind?

"Saying it and actually doing it are two different things," she said quietly and looked away, unable to look any of them in the eyes.

"Erin, I'd wait a couple more days but I have to be back at work in two days."

"I know, Jay. I know. I'm sorry. Maybe you should go. You shouldn't miss work."

"What? No, Erin-"

"I can't, not now." A tear slipped from her eye and she looked down to hide it.

She couldn't. She didn't even say a proper goodbye to her coworkers. Not to Jenny. And what would she say to Hank? 'Hey, long time no see, look this is my kid.' And everyone in Intelligence? They probably hated her for what she did to Jay and when they'd find out that she didn't tell him about Oli either? She wouldn't be able to take all of that.

"Babe-"

"Jay," she whispered "Please go."

It broke Jay's heart. Correction, it was ripped out of his chest and thrown down the stairs.

He kissed her cheek and lingered his lips for a few seconds. He couldn't believe they're separating again.

He picked up hus duffel bag and then kneeled down to Oli who was silently watching from some distance.

"Hey, don't cry," he wiped a tear off his freckled cheek and kissed his forehead. "You can call me everyday and we'll talk okay?"

Oli just nodded quickly and then threw himself around Jay's neck and Jay felt his warm cheeks press to his neck. "I'm really really going to miss you" Oli whispered.

"Yeah, I'll miss you too. I'll come see you sometimes, okay?"

"Okay." he pulled back and tried to smile, but only more tears came.

Jay stood up and walked to the door. "Bye guys." he said quietly just before he closed it behind him.

"Oli-" Erin started.

She didn't get an answer, the kid only dropped his backpack to the floor and ran to his room.

She ran after him, and when she got to his room he was laying under the comforter.

"Sweetie, I..."

"No, go away!"

Now it was Erin's heart that broke. He never told her to go away before.

There's no way she'd leave him now. She knew how good it was to have someone by your side, even if you told them to go away.

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sorry for not uploading for two weeks, I'm back from croatia now and I'll update some more:) i hope you like it:)

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