I don't own twilight
Bella POV
I still couldn't believe I was pregnant, or that Alice just walked out on me like that. What was I going to say to Paul? He's going to be mad when I tell him, I'm sure of it. He is probably going to yell at me and leave just like E- he did.. No Paul isn't like that. Get yourself together Bella. He is going to find out sooner or later if you don't tell him.
Maybe I could hide it. When I start showing I'll just wear bigger clothes so nobody notices. That will only work for a little while. I reminded myself, after about five months I'm probably going to be huge. Forget five months I'm probably going to be huge by month three. What will the kids at school think. What will my Charlie think?
Oh my god I forgot about Charlie! He is going to kill me. No wait. First he is going to kill Paul then he will kill me. He'll shoot us both. Me for getting pregnant. Paul for making me pregnant.
I've seen how Alice reacted and she use to be - unless she was faking the whole time- my best friend. The kids at school are sure to react worst. They will probably start gossiping like they did when I first moved here. I could already hear the things Lauran and Jessica would say 'Oh Bella is such a slut' 'I heard she got knocked and she doesn't know which dude from la push is the baby daddy.' I swear I hate them. I never hated anything or anyone until I met Jessica and Lauran. They make me so angry that I want to punch something.
Bella calm down their not even here and your getting all worked up.
My thoughts were interrupted when I heard my name being called from downstairs. Crap Charlie's home!
I scrambled to get up then ran into the bathroom and picked up the pregnancy test and the box it was in and hid it. I didn't want Charlie to find it. I heard him call my name again. "Bella?" I wasn't sure I could answer. But then he started coming up the stairs, I ran into my room and tripped once. I put my ipod on a random song and put the ear buds in, I picked up a random book to make it look like I was reading and listening to music.
Charlie opened my door and poked his head into my room. I looked up and pretended to be surprised. I took out one ear bud and said as regularly as I could. "Oh hey Charlie." I put on a fake smile.
"Hey Bells, just wanted to let you know I'm home and didn't get eaten by any fish" he chuckled at his own joke. "did you cook anything?" he asked me.
Crap, getting distracted by Alice I forgot to cook something for Charlie. "umm no, sorry I forgot." I said without looking directly at Charlie.
"well that's okay kiddo. Because I brought some pizza. Want some?" Charlie asked with a smile. I shook my head no. "I'm tired, I think I'm gonna go to sleep for the night." I said and Charlie went back downstairs.
I stayed up more then half the night thinking. My brain wouldn't shut up. Around midnight I finally went to sleep.
That next morning I woke up hoping yesterday was just a dream, but a strange feeling told me it wasn't. I got ready for school. I didn't even pay much attention to what I was wearing, I just picked up some clothes and put them on.
I slowly walked downstairs hoping Charlie had already went to work. To my luck he had. I quickly ate some cereal- which I didn't throw back up thank goodness- and was on my way to school.
That was the longest day of school I have ever had, it seemed to go by more slow then ever. I was extra quiet and Angela noticed. She kept asking questioning my quietness but I just shrugged it off and acted like it was nothing.
As soon as the last bell rung I rushed to my truck, to avoid anymore questions. I walked into my house and saw a note on the door from Charlie. How'd I miss that this morning? I wondered as I picked it up and read it. It said:
Bella, I'll be working late tonight. don't wait up for me.
At least now I can avoid any awkward conversation with Charlie.
I walked straight up to my room. It took me less then an hour to finish my homework. So I just sat there thinking about how I can tell Paul that I'm pregnant. I cant just come out and say, 'hey Paul how's it going? By the way I'm pregnant with your baby.' That is not a good way to tell him. Maybe I can wait it out, until I start really showing. No that might make him madder. How can I tell Paul without freaking him out or making him mad? He is probably going to be mad. This is all my fault. Why didn't we use protection?
What am I going to do about the baby? Abortion? No I cant kill my baby. Adoption? I cant put my baby in a foster home. Wait a minute, when did I start thinking of it as 'my baby'? I don't know but what I do know is, even if Paul doesn't want this baby I'm going to keep it.
AN: sorry its so short. This chapter is mostly just about what's on Bella's mind. I promise next chapter will be better.