As Phillip lay watching Lilly sleep that night his mind was plagued with memories. He couldn't force them from him head. All he could think about was how he felt when all this shit started. With a sadistic smile he thought it was no wonder he was so heartless at some points. As much as he hated it, Phillip let his mind slip back into that memory...

Phillip hated the way he felt the moment Lilly's father said she was gone! It was like instant heart break! He had wanted nothing more then to take he with him and keep her safe. They had only been together a couple of weeks but Phillip was in love with her. He wouldn't admit it though. It had taken him almost a year to tell Sarah that he loved her.

As Lilly's father gave her that "You are not good enough for my daughter. You are too poor" expression Phillip wanted to kill him.
"Do it. Kill him and go through the house. Make sure she isn't here!"
The voice in his head said coldly. Phillip looked at her father darkly before walking back to his car furiously.

"Where is she daddy?"

Penny asked as he got in and slammed the door. He looked back at her through the rear view mirror. Penny's tiny face looked terrified as she huddled next to Brian.

"He said she was gone somewhere else. Fucking figures."

Phillip said coldly as Brian looked through the window at the mayor who was looking at them with a warning expression. Brian knew right away that the man thought Phillip wasn't good enough for his daughter. What the asshole didn't know was Phillip would be great for her. At least he would be able to take care of her.

Phillip sat looking coldly out the window. He knew good and well he might as well kiss his Lilly goodbye. She was probably a bitter by now. He tried to think about her being safe in some fancy house. Was she thinking about him too? If she was a upset as him that they wasn't safe together?

"She's dead. Forget her. She's not thinking about you anymore. Fuck her."

That cold voice in his head whispered. Phillip rolled his eyes. He couldn't just forget her! Maybe god willing he would find her again.
"Don't get your hopes up."

He mumbled ignoring Brian and Nick who were watching him like was about to have a nervous break down.
"You'll NEVER see her again!"

Lilly moving in Phillip's arms pulled him out of his memories. He frowned as her eyes fluttered open before she snuggled closer to him.

"You're still awake?"
She asked gently. Phillip nodded trying to relax. He didn't want to tell her about his feelings. That's all he needed was Lilly thinking he was going soft.

"Yea. I was thinking about going to check out some of those abandoned houses around the area to see if there was anything we could use here. Alex and Suzy will need more clothes before long."

Lilly nodded. She probably won't get to go with him this time. After the fiasco that happened earlier her days of going on supply runs was probably over. She wouldn't argue with Phillip. There would be no point in it.

"Just so you know my family has a vacation home not to far from here. I know there is stuff there."

Phillip looked a little annoyed at this information,

"And why are you just telling me this?"

Lilly shrugged puling away from him getting the feeling be was about to slap her. However Phillip didn't move just sat looking at her.

"You never asked me. I wasn't for sure how far from there we were. When we went to the hospital I seen the road."

Phillip nodded. He would get Merle to the along too. The idea of taking Brian was still kinda sketchy. He didn't really trust Brian to be able to handle himself if things went to shit. Sure he thought right an saved Lilly. But how often did his brother really think clearly?

The next morning Lilly sat feeding Suzy when Phillip walked into the room pulling on his shirt. He hasn't said anything to her about today's mission. She knew was avoiding the subject so she wouldn't ask to tag along.

"Be careful."

Lilly said as Phillip put his gun in its holster. His icy eyes rolled up to her face. Phillip knew right away she wanted to go but he wasn't risking her life again. He knew she was probably angry with him as we'll. One big reason he didn't want her to go was Phillip feared she would have an emotional breakdown. Seeing her old life may make her spazz out and send her into a depression. Phillip didn't have time to deal with an emotionally distraught wife.

"I always am." He said with a smile before kissing Lilly and the babies.

"We should be back by the time Penny gets home from school."

Lilly nodded sadly as he walked out of the apartment. Suzy made a small crying noise as Lilly kissed her head, "I know. He worries me sometimes too." Something was different about Phillip today. He seemed like he was returning to that dark side that scared Lilly. She stood walking to the window. Phillip stood talking to Merle and Brian who looked a little uneasy.

Poor Brian...she thought sadly. She knew he wasn't like Phillip. He was no brave leader that didn't care to kill someone. Brian just seemed like a normal guy thrown into something he didn't ask for. Lilly hoped Phillip wouldn't get angry and kill his brother. She wanted Penny, Suzy, and Alex to have their uncle in their lives. Family was hard to come by.

Phillip followed the directions Lilly had given him. He had expected a nice house especially with her father being rich. Sure enough it was one of the nicest houses he and Brian and ever stepped into.

"Damn"

Brian swore under his breath. He glanced at Phillip who was shaking his head.

"If your thinking you still ain't good enough for her I'm gonna punch you in the face."

Phillip looked at Brian with a raised eye brow. Brian had never threatened to punch him. It was usually Phillip who had to threaten violence.

"I wasn't actually but thanks. I was thinking must be nice to be rich."

Brian nodded as Merle walked to the door and opened it. He glance inside making sure there was no bitters hiding out to make a meal out of them. He turned giving them a nod that the coast was clear.

Phillip walked into the house with a frown. The house had a large open floor plan complete with a huge overstuffed sofas. A large fireplace was in the middle of the room with photos of the family all over the place. Phillip walked closer looking at the pictures. His eyes flickered over all the pictures. Phillips eyes stopped in a picture of her with her twin sister and what had to be her brother. He smiled seeing the necklace he had bought her on their second date.

He kinda felt bad that all the people in the photos were dead. Lilly's mother looked like a nice lady. Her father could just stay dead for all Phillip cared. The man stopped Phillip from having with him from day 1 of this hellish disaster.

Phillip turned walking up the stairs to find stuff Woodbury needed. After shoving stuff in a few bags he walked into what had to have been Lilly's room. He walked to the closet as a picture on her beside table caught his attention. It was the picture she had taken of the two of them on their first date. Phillip slightly smiled thinking about how much her parents probably hated this.

"Hey Phillip I didn't know she was like Picasso or something."

Phillip looked up seeing Brian holding a letter. He crossed the room taking the paper from his brothers hands reading an acceptance letter to Juilliard. Phillip frowned seeing the year would have been the fall the zombies took over. Lilly had never told him about this. As he was about to say something Merle walked in,

"Governor we got some company in the back yard. Several bitters headed this way I think we better get going."

Phillip nodded feeling extremely angry with Lilly for not telling him about moving for college. Was he just some joke to her? If things hasn't went to shit he would have fell in love with her and she would have left. He would have been just a play thing for her.

Lilly walked into the apartment that afternoon surprised to see Phillip sitting at his desk. Penny smiled happily running to Phillip climbing on his lap. He gently kissed her her as she laid her head on his shoulder.

"Where at Alex and Suzy?"

He asked carefully before shooting Lilly a glare. Lilly frowned feeling chill bumps go down her back. Penny smed not noticing a thing,

"Oh they are at aunty Michonne's."

Phillip nodded looking back at his little girl with a smile,

"Penny why don't you go on down to Michonne's too then? Mommy and Daddy have a dinner later tonight."

Penny nodded jumping off Phillip's lap and hustling out the door. Lilly turned to Phillip as he stood pouring a glass of whiskey.

"I'm just a big joke to you huh?"

He said icily. Lilly frowned crossing her arms. What in the world was he going on about? Lilly stepped forward putting her hand on his back only to be pushed away.

"Phillip what in the heck are you talking about?"

He smiled angrily as he threw the acceptance letter at Lilly. She frowned looking at the paper,

"When did you plan on tellin me? You let me get attached to you then disappear?"

Lilly frowned feeling angry. Did Phillip even realize he was getting mad over nothing? She put her hands on her hips angrily.

"Phillip your dark side is coming out again. You're not making any sense! If you think for one minute I was gonna leave your insane! Phillip I told them I didn't want to go there when you and I got together. I told them no because I wanted you. Phillip I'm not arguing with you. You just get angry when I do."

She turned to walk into the other room but Phillip grabbed her arm,

"You need to stand up for yourself even to me!"

Lilly looked confused and held up a hand,

"Phillip I don't know why you are so angry about that letter. I didn't even accept to go. I wanted you! What is wrong with you today? You act strange whenever my life before us is mentioned. I don't understand Phillip!"

Phillip crossed his arms over his chest with an angry scowl,

"Maybe I'm not good enough for you!"

Lilly felt her mouth drop open as she stood looking at Phillip. Had he really just said that? Did he really think that? As she was about to say something Merle came trotting in. Lilly silently cursed him for always coming in at the wrong moment.

The next few hours seemed endless for Lilly. She sat quietly most of the evening while Milton rattled on about an experiment. Phillip must have been feeling as crumby as she did because he had hardly said anything as well. Lilly looked up to see Brian looking at her then at Phillip with a questioning expression. Lilly shook her head looking down at her wine glass.

Lilly finally got into the conversation Andrea was having with the girl Merle brought. They were talking about how fairy tells fuck with women's prospective on things. Lilly glanced at Phillip as Andrea turned to her,

"Lilly here knows that I'm still waiting on my prince charming. I guess I better go look for him. The poor fool may be stuck in a tree someplace."

Lilly sighed rolling her eyes,

"Andrea there's no such thing as prince charming! He's just a figment of your imagination. No man is that good!"

Andrea looked at Lily concerned. What was wrong with her friend? She glanced at The Governor who had obviously heard the whole thing too. His face looked furious as he looked at Lilly.

"Oh Lilly!"

Andrea said with a smile trying to lighten the mood. Lilly shook her head not noticing Phillip stand up. He had picked her up throwing her over his should without caring everyone was watching.

"You want prince charming baby girl? Well your gonna get him!"

Phillip said angrily before taking Lilly in the bedroom and slamming the door behind him. Everyone else sat at the table as an awkward moment of silence fell on the group. Brian glanced at Merle who was silently laughing.

"Did that just happen?"

Merle asked bursting into a fit of laughter. Milton's face was blood red as he nodded and Brian chugged the rest of the glass of whiskey. Andrea sat with her mouth open unsure of what to say. Brian stood looking at her carefully,

"We'll blondie I think it's safe to say our dinner party is over. I can walk you home."

Andrea nodded following Brian out. Merle, his date, and Milton quickly followed not wanting to stick around for anything else. Regardless of how amusing Phillip'a little outburst was no one wanted to be there when he came out.

Meanwhile, Phillip had thrown Lilly on the bed before getting on top of her. He yanked her dress up and began to undo his pants before pushing into her.

"You want prince charming your gonna get what you want!"

He hissed as he began to pound into her. Lilly gasped underneath him causing Phillip to stop. Something in his eyes flickered and he stopped looking down at her with almost a "unsure of himself" expression. Lilly starred back into his blue eyes with a tender smile,

"Don't stop."

Phillip didn't need anymore assurance. He lowered himself where Lilly could wrap her arms around him.

"That's it! You got her where you want her!"

The angry voice in Phillip's head said happily. The previous night all Phillip wanted was to be the man he used to be but tonight he was back to being "The Governor." He could honestly say it had never felt so good!

Lilly lay ontop of Phillip her head on his chest. They hadn't made love like that in along time. Lilly felt complete. She smiled thinking about what everyone ha to be saying when Phillip just carried her off like King Kong.

"What's so funny?"

Phillip asked running her fingers through her sweaty hair. Lilly looked up with a smile,

"I would have loved to have been a fly on the wall to see everyone's reactions when you threw me over your shoulder."

Phillip was smiling now. He looked at her beautiful face,

"Yea we'll be gettin some stares tomorrow. It was totally worth it though."

Lilly nodded before remembering how he almost seemed filled with rage when the whole thing started. She leaned up looking at him carefully,

"Phillip your more then good enough for me! Just because my family may not have thought so doesn't mean your a bad person. I would have given up everything to have been with you and Penny. If the zombies didn't take over so what if we were poor? That's doesn't matter to me. What matters to me is that we are together, safe, and happy."

Phillip looked please with her answer. He gently pulled her down beside him,

"Well baby. Your man isn't going anywhere. We are together forever."

Philip watched as se began to doze off in her arms. He smiled to himself,

"Yes I have got you forever...exactly where I want you."