Chapter 10
After a long day of filming Sasuke was tired, and he wanted nothing but to go home. He'd had to pretend to be in love with that annoying bitch again. Apparently he was doing it well because the director actually came by his private changing room to congratulate him for his good work.
"I was worried at first because you're new to all this, but I gotta say Sasuke, you're more professional and talented than many famous actors in the industry!"
"Thanks Sir," he bowed politely.
He let out a relieved sigh when the director left him alone. He wanted to just change into his own, comfier clothes and go home…
But then he remembered he had a meeting with his agent.
"Fuck my life," he muttered to himself.
It had been a month already since they had started filming the movie. It was exhausting. Days were so long and full that Sasuke didn't really see time pass by. They were pretty much doing a few scenes per day, and they were repeating them over, and over again until the director and producer were both satisfied. Sure there were times when it was satisfying and even fun, but mostly it was just tiring.
As he took the public transportation towards his agent's hotel he thought about the reason for this meeting. It wasn't about his modeling career. That was put on hold for now, during the filming of the movie for obvious reasons. It was about his novel, actually. He had followed Naruto's advice and sent it to his agent. He didn't really know why he had done it.
And now Shisaki wanted to meet him to discuss it. Sasuke wondered what the hell he wanted to discuss so badly… It was just a stupid silly story after all.
He didn't bother stopping at his place first. As always when meeting his agent, he didn't really care what he looked like. He wore black jeans, a matching sweater and a warm jacket. His hair was windblown and he probably looked tired.
Well, when he got there, if his agent noticed he didn't make any comments. He simply invited him inside his hotel room with a smile.
"What would you like to eat Sasuke?" he asked.
"Anything warm," he answered, still shivering from the cold.
"I feel like miso ramen," Shisaki said, "what do you say"?
"Sure," Sasuke chuckled. It wasn't exactly his favorite food, but it would make him think of Naruto.
Shisaki placed the order using the hotel's phone, and then he came to join Sasuke, sitting in the sofa chair in front of him. He crossed his legs and smiled at him.
"I absolutely loved your story."
"You did?" Sasuke raised a brow.
"Yes! Sasuke, I'm starting to believe you have every talent! It's an amazing story! I know a lot of people in publishing houses, so with your permission I will send it as soon as possible."
"Well, yeah, sure, we can give it a try but…"
"Great!" his smile widened, "I'm positive it will get published. And I'm sorry in advance for being so ambitious, but it's my job, isn't it?"
"What do you mean?" Sasuke inquired.
"Well, I'm thinking you could work with an artist and adapt this story into a manga. Then I'm pretty sure you'd be asked to sell the rights to turn it into a short anime series..."
"Wow calm down," Sasuke chuckled, "I think you're being a little too ambitious."
"We'll see," Shisaki smiled. "Anyway, tell me how's the movie coming along?"
Their ramen arrived, and they ate while talking about the movie project. At some point Shisaki started talking about Sasuke's story again, and he asked him to choose a title as fast as possible.
"Do you have any ideas?" Sasuke asked.
"I've got a few," he shrugged, "but I'd like you to come up with it. I'm sure your ideas are better than mine."
After they had finished their meal, Sasuke left right away because he was really tired. He almost fell asleep in the subway train on his way back home.
As always his apartment felt too empty, but he was slowly getting used to it. He prepared some tea and opened up his laptop. He had no new email from Naruto. He frowned; it had been a while now…
But then he noticed that Naruto was online, and that he was inviting him to a live webcam chat conversation. He accepted right away. He smiled when he saw Naruto on his screen. He wore a dark orange t-shirt. It was one of his really old t-shirts, which were too large for him. The old Naruto didn't exactly have a very good fashion sense. His hair seemed a bit wet, and Sasuke thought that maybe he was coming out of the shower. He looked hot like that, with his bangs falling in his face instead of being all spiked up.
Sasuke suddenly felt self-conscious. What if he looked like shit? He nervously ran his fingers through his hair. But it was no use, Naruto could see him already anyway.
"Hey what's up?" Naruto said.
Seeing him and hearing his voice, even though it was through the computer, felt very nice and comforting. He missed him so much.
"Nothing much, you?"
He took a sip of his tea.
"Same… Oh are you drinking my tea?"
Sasuke chuckled, "Yes."
"Yay!"
Naruto was so silly sometimes.
"How's school?"
"Pain in the ass," Naruto shrugged, "except my psychology class. It's awesome."
"You should consider going into psychology at the university instead of social work."
"Yeah," the blond seemed thoughtful, "but I'll at least finish the semester."
"And how's work?" Sasuke asked.
"Costumers complaining, being complete asses, the usual."
"Well if it's any consolation, being an actor isn't exactly glamorous…"
Naruto made a face, "Aw, your co-star is still being a bitch?"
"She's reaching whole new bitchy levels."
"That sucks…"
"Yeah… hey I'm glad we're finally talking like this. I mean emails are great but this is nice."
"Yeah I'm sorry I couldn't do it before. When my roommate is here he kind of… takes all my attention," Naruto chuckled, "but he went to see his parents for the weekend so I finally have a little break, and I can talk to you!"
"Cool," Sasuke said, "so he takes up all your attention huh?"
"Yeah actually I wanted to tell you but… I kinda wish I could tell you in person."
"What?" his heart started beating faster, but not in a good way. He felt a little anxious…
His fears were confirmed when Naruto replied, "Well we're kind of…"
"What?" he said again, trying to sound casual.
The blond shrugged, and ran his fingers through his hair. "We're boyfriends I guess."
Sasuke's heart sank. He felt so jealous… he felt so helpless. Far from the eyes, far from the heart… He supposed it was true.
"It's nothing too serious," Naruto went on, "I don't know if I love him, I don't think so. We're just dating. No big deal."
"Experimenting?"
"I guess you could say that," the blond chuckled. "But we don't have to talk about it. Tell me about you. What're you up to these days, except the movie?"
"Honestly, I'm spending pretty much all my time on the movie set. But hum… I met with my agent today, and he really likes my story. He wants to try to publish it."
"See!" Naruto exclaimed, smiling, "I told you it was good! That moron Gaara doesn't know what he's talking about."
Sasuke smiled back, but his heart wasn't into it. He didn't even feel like talking about his story. He didn't feel like talking about the movie. He had only one thing on his mind, and it was painful…
Naruto had a boyfriend. His new roommate.
"Are you okay?"
Sasuke jumped slightly, "Ah, yeah, sorry, I was totally spacing out I guess I'm tired…"
"You do look a little tired. Drink your tea and then go to sleep."
Sasuke rolled his eyes.
"Oh and Sasuke?"
"Yeah?"
"I know I told you a thousand times but, I really loved the ending to your story. Guess I want to tell you instead of just writing it in an email but… I loved how Kaito found the courage to kill himself to be with Narim, even though he knew he would become a demon. It was really intense, the way he was scared, but wanted to be with Narim no matter what…"
He couldn't help but smile, "Thanks."
"We never really talked about this but… the two main characters, they're inspired from us right?"
Sasuke shrugged helplessly, "It was that obvious, huh?"
"Well," Naruto chuckled, "yeah…"
"I'm glad you liked the story," Sasuke said simply. "Well, good night… I hope it works out with hum…"
"Fukami."
"Right…"
"Thanks. Sasuke?"
"Yeah?"
"I miss you."
Sasuke looked at his computer screen, and he wished from the bottom of his heart that Naruto would be here with him at this moment, instead of being so far away…
"Miss you too."
They ended their conversation after that, and Sasuke closed his laptop. He sighed shakily as he got up and went to his bedroom. As he went to sleep he wiped his eyes, and realized he was crying. Silent tears kept rolling down his cheeks, and he couldn't stop...
…
Days passed, and days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into months. Sasuke felt a little bit… numb. And lonely.
Suigetsu and Gaara kept telling him that they would visit him soon, but he knew all too well that with their jobs and lifestyles it wasn't possible.
In March, the movie was almost finished filming. The official title and release date had been announced to the press. Moonless Night. It was some sort of reference to the girl character's name in the movie, Tsuki. Sasuke didn't really get it. But there was nothing much to get.
Other than that, well, thanks to Shisaki's efforts and contacts, his novel would be published. The title would be Personal Demons. It was pretty much as lame as the title choice for the movie Sasuke was playing in. But the publishing house wanted something catchy. Of course, first there would be a lot of editing and reworking. At least Sasuke had to meet with them and approve with the changes before it was released. It wouldn't be in a while anyway; they wanted to wait for him to become more famous before actually publishing it. In other words, they would wait for the movie to come out, and for his popularity to climb up.
He also had modeling contracts coming up in spring. His career was into overdrive, and he would be making a lot of money really soon. He had recently transferred some money to Naruto's bank account actually, so that he could work fewer hours and concentrate on his studies more.
In his spare time, he was writing. His agent was being his ambitious self, and he was encouraging him to keep working hard. But Sasuke was doing it because he was bored, really, and also because he was inspired. His new work was a lot darker - the main character was suicidal actually. Gaara would be ecstatic.
There was one thing Sasuke was looking forward to and dreading at the same time. Naruto was coming to visit him for spring break.
But he was bringing his boyfriend.
"Break's over," the director suddenly announced.
Sasuke shook his head to clear his thoughts. He returned to the set, taking off his jacket. His character always wore really light clothes even if he was standing outside in the cold like an idiot. The girl character also wore really light clothes. Movie ratings and stuff…
"Aruki! You're up in five minutes!" the director shouted.
She whined, "But my hair looks too flat like this! I don't like it, and my fans won't like it either!"
One of the other actors raised a brow at her, "You're supposed to have been held hostage for days…"
"So what!" she replied.
"Fine," the director sighed, and spoke to the hairdresser, "do something about her hair… please hurry up we don't have all night..."
Sasuke face palmed. He deserved a very prestigious award for playing a love struck idiot obsessed with that girl…
…
In the airport Naruto was practically bouncing. Saying that he was excited was a major understatement.
"Calm down," Fukami exclaimed, laughing.
"I can't!" Naruto replied, smiling widely, "I miss him so much!"
"I know," the brunet said, crossing his legs, "you've only been telling me everyday for the last three months."
The blond chuckled, and finally sat down beside his boyfriend.
"You don't understand. This is the first time in our whole lives – well from what we can remember anyway – that we're apart for so long."
"I know," Fukami smiled fondly, "to be honest I'm a little jealous."
"Well I told you," Naruto shrugged, "if you want to be with me you have to accept my best friend too. He's always gonna be in my life."
"You didn't let me finish," Fukami leaned closer, "I'm a little jealous, but I think it's amazing that you have a relationship like that with someone. It's rare."
He kissed him softly, and Naruto smiled.
"Thanks for respecting that."
"Of course. And hey I can't wait to see you play guitar for him. I bet he'll be in for a surprise!"
"Yeah," the blond laughed, "I didn't even tell him I was playing really well now."
"More than well. You're amazing," the brunet said sincerely.
"All thanks to you!"
Their flight was announced and Naruto jumped to his feet. He practically sprinted to get to their plane, and Fukami followed more slowly behind. When Naruto turned around he urged him forward.
"Come on, hurry up!"
"You're insane," Fukami replied, chuckling and shaking his head in disbelief at Naruto's antics.
In the plane Fukami slept pretty much the whole time, his head resting against Naruto's shoulder. The latter was too excited to sleep though, so he listened to music in his IPod – recently purchased thanks to Sasuke's money, but he intended to pay him back eventually.
At the coffee shop they had refused to let him go on this little trip for spring break, so Naruto had basically told them to go fuck themselves – not using those exact words, but he had thought them – and he had decided to quit. He could find another job when he came back.
Fukami was really lucky. He didn't need to work. As long as he was studying his parents were paying for everything. He had invited Naruto to come with him to visit his parents on some weekends, but the blond had declined. Meeting parents made him way too nervous.
Fukami had insisted to come with him to visit Sasuke though. He had claimed that it would be an honor to finally meet Naruto's best friend and most important person. Fukami was really good at sweet talk. Naruto hadn't been able to say no. Besides he was bringing his guitar and Naruto really wanted to play for Sasuke. So what if he wanted to show off a little?
It felt like forever until they arrived to Kyoto. Naruto was having a really hard time sitting still, and he was fidgety. Really, he wondered how Fukami was able to sleep.
But they finally made it safely to their destination. They picked up their luggage, and Naruto kept looking in every possible direction; Sasuke was supposed to meet them at the airport.
"Just calm down," Fukami told him for the hundredth time.
"No!" Naruto exclaimed stubbornly.
He continued looking everywhere like his life depended on finding Sasuke amongst all those people.
"Just tell me what he looks like," his boyfriend suggested.
"He's tall and skinny, he's got black hair and… piercings… and he's always dressed in black…" Naruto described as he continued looking.
"Is that him?"
Naruto followed Fukami's gaze. And he smiled. The guy Fukami was looking at was indeed his best friend. Sasuke was walking towards them, stylish as ever, bangs hiding one eye, hands in his pockets and looking casual. Naruto thought his heart would burst out with happiness or something. God he had missed him.
He dropped all of his things carelessly and ran to throw himself in Sasuke's arms. Naruto laughed and held him tightly.
"Fucking missed you…"
"Missed you too," Sasuke smiled. "Hum, you can let go now…"
But the blond wouldn't let go of him. Instead he pulled him up in the air and Sasuke had no choice but to wrap his arms around his neck.
"The fuck are you doing?" he asked but he was still smiling.
"I missed you," Naruto simply repeated.
He finally put him down, and pulled away. But he didn't look away from those beautiful, big dark eyes he had missed so much. He couldn't stop smiling.
"I'm glad you're here," Sasuke said.
"My boss wouldn't let me go so I quit," Naruto shrugged.
"Why am I not surprised?"
Naruto chuckled, but didn't reply. He suddenly remembered they weren't alone. But he knew his boyfriend wouldn't blame him for treasuring this moment with his best friend. He went to pick up the things he had dropped a few moments ago.
"I don't think introductions are needed," he said, addressing both Fukami and Sasuke.
The shorter of the two smiled, and held out his hand, "It's good to finally meet you Sasuke, I've heard so much about you."
The raven shook his hand with a polite nod, "Same here."
"Only good things I hope," Fukami chuckled.
Naruto laughed, "That's a secret! Just kidding, of course it was only good things. Now guys, what should we do first?"
"Well I've got a taxi waiting for us outside," Sasuke said, "so if you guys wanna go drop your things at my place, and then we can visit a little I guess."
"Sounds great," Fukami exclaimed.
"Let's go," Naruto added as they started walking.
In the taxi Sasuke sat at the front, and Naruto and his boyfriend in the back seat.
"So is the movie finished?" the blond asked.
Sasuke turned to look at him, "We finished filming like two days ago. They still need to work on it but as far as I'm concerned, my job's finished."
"Sweet! So when are you coming back to Tokyo?"
"As soon as I find someone to take my apartment here."
"Awesome," Naruto smiled.
"Where are you gonna stay in Tokyo?" Fukami inquired, "Naruto told me you guys gave up your old apartment."
"I haven't figured it out yet," Sasuke answered.
"So how's being an actor?" Naruto asked after a moment of silence.
The driver glanced at Sasuke sideways, probably wondering if he had someone famous in his car.
"I've only told you about it a thousand times," the raven chuckled.
"By email! It's different! Now we're actually talking."
"What would be your overall impression?" Fukami asked.
Sasuke glanced at him, and then back at Naruto. "I'd say interesting, but mostly tiring. When you have to do the same scene for the thirtieth time because the other idiots screw up their lines… it's just annoying."
"I can imagine," the blond chuckled.
Fukami leaned forward in his seat, "Hey I read rumors in a magazine about you and that actress Aruki dating."
Sasuke laughed, and so did Naruto.
"Yeah that would never happen," the raven said.
"Why would they make up that rumor anyway?" Naruto raised a brow.
"I don't know," Sasuke shrugged, "to sell their stupid magazine. I mean we went out for coffee once. Once. And I accepted to be polite."
"You're totally right," Fukami said, "it's just to sell their stupid magazine."
Sasuke paid for the taxi when they arrived in front of his apartment building. He helped them carry their luggage inside.
The apartment was small but really clean and neat. Well Naruto wasn't surprised at all; Sasuke was kind of a neat freak.
"This place is really nice," Fukami complimented him.
"You'd probably have a heart attack if you saw our dorm room," Naruto laughed.
"It can't be worst than your bedroom at our old apartment," Sasuke argued.
"Believe me," the blond made a face, "it can."
Sasuke smiled, "You're unbelievable. I still can't understand how someone can live in such a mess."
"It's partly my fault," Fukami admitted, "I'm not so tidy myself."
Sasuke changed the subject, "So you guys can have the living room while you're here. This…" he walked up to the couch, "turns into a bed, and it's like, queen size, so you should have enough room…"
"Of course," Fukami smiled, "we're used to sleeping together in a really small bed so it should do just fine."
The raven glanced away, and cleared his throat. Naruto's smile faded. Sasuke looked uncomfortable. But maybe he just needed to get used to the idea of him having a boyfriend. He tried to save the situation.
"Thank you so much for having us," he exclaimed, "it's really cool. That way we don't have to pay for a hotel."
"It's no problem," Sasuke brushed it off.
"Can I see your bedroom?" Naruto asked and before waiting for his answer walked to the next room.
He frowned, disappointed. It was so… empty compared to Sasuke's bedroom in their old apartment.
"I didn't feel like decorating or buying too much stuff," the raven explained, "I mean I wasn't planning on staying very long anyway so…"
"Makes sense," Fukami commented.
Sasuke invited them out for dinner, to a sushi restaurant that he really liked. Naruto agreed to the idea excitedly, while Fukami hesitated. He wasn't a big fan of sushi. But he finally complied, and they went outside, following Sasuke's lead.
"I still can't believe you don't like sushi," Naruto exclaimed.
Fukami shrugged helplessly, "It's not that I hate it, it's just not my favorite food is all."
"It's okay I forgive you," the blond said teasingly, and he put his arm around his shoulders, "you like ramen so it's okay."
Sasuke rolled his eyes, and glanced away. Naruto frowned slightly. He removed his arm from around his boyfriend's shoulders. Maybe if he didn't show too much affection to his boyfriend then it would be okay. But before they walked inside the restaurant Fukami kissed him on the lips, and Sasuke looked uncomfortable again. So much for that…
As they sat around a table near the window, Sasuke asked them about school.
"I love the music program," Fukami exchanged a smile with Naruto.
"He's trying to convince me to change," Naruto laughed, "my program's kinda boring…"
Fukami chuckled and leaned closer to kiss him.
Sasuke raised a brow and looked at his menu. Naruto pushed his boyfriend away softly.
"Stop it..."
After that the waitress arrived and they placed their orders. Naruto was really hungry so he ordered a lot of sushi. Since Fukami wasn't a big fan of this type of food he ordered all sorts of different things they had on the menu. As for Sasuke, he only ordered a very light meal.
"Still anorexic huh?" Naruto teased him when the waitress was gone.
"Yeah."
"You guys shouldn't joke about that," Fukami said on a serious tone, "my sister was anorexic when she was younger. It's really not funny."
"It's just an inside joke," Naruto shrugged, "but you're right, I'm sorry."
"It's okay," the brunet smiled and took his hand.
Sasuke looked at their linked hands, and then he looked away and ran shaky pale fingers through his long hair. No one else would have noticed his uneasiness, but Naruto knew him too well.
When the waitress arrived with their glasses of water Naruto used this as an excuse to pull his hand from Fukami's hold. He took a few sips of water and cleared his throat.
"So what's the title of your book? You didn't tell me in your emails."
Sasuke looked up at him, "Personal Demons."
"It's a cool title!"
"Yeah I don't really like it," the raven chuckled, and drank some water.
"Kinda too obvious," Fukami agreed, "I mean if it's a story about demons."
"Publishing house wanted something catchy," Sasuke muttered.
"Well you should be the one to choose," Naruto shrugged.
Fukami asked, "Did you have any other ideas?"
Sasuke played with his ear piercings absent-mindedly. He did that sometimes when he was nervous.
"I don't know something darker, that recalls the theme of suicide…"
"It would probably be better," Fukami said.
"You didn't even read the story," Naruto told him, and his boyfriend just shrugged.
Their food arrived and they didn't lose any time to start eating.
"I'm starving," Naruto said.
"You're always starving," Fukami teased him.
During most of the meal Fukami and Naruto talked about random things, like the things they wanted to do and visit in Kyoto, and how they weren't looking forward to the end of spring break, while Sasuke remained quiet. Naruto was a little bit disappointed but then again, Sasuke was never one to talk a lot. He felt like even though they were reunited, they were so far away. And Sasuke seemed so sad, although he was trying to hide it.
Sasuke wanted to pay for everyone but Naruto protested.
"You're already letting us stay at your place. Let me pay for dinner at least…"
The raven finally complied, "All right…"
"Besides you barely even ate anything," Naruto told him.
They walked back quickly towards Sasuke's apartment. It was a cold night for the end of March. Fukami was shivering and pressed himself closer to his boyfriend for warmth. But Sasuke also looked really cold and Naruto couldn't help but think, if he was single, would things be different? Would he be holding Sasuke close instead of Fukami?
Did he regret bringing his boyfriend here?
He didn't want to admit the truth to himself, but… he did regret it a little.
Once they were inside Naruto and Fukami sat on the couch and Sasuke brought a chair to sit in front of them. But he still wasn't very talkative.
Fukami exchanged a knowing glance with Naruto, "Do you wanna… play?"
Sasuke raised a brow, "Play?"
"Guitar," Naruto laughed, "I wanted to play for you, to show you my new skills."
"He's got some skills all right," Fukami smiled and kissed his lips.
Naruto didn't kiss back, instead he pushed him away softly and bent over to grab the guitar case.
"Let's hear it," Sasuke made a little smile.
Naruto felt nervous. He really wanted to play well to impress Sasuke. He had asked Fukami to teach him a particular song. It had been one of Sasuke's favourites ever since middle school. It was rock alternative, with lots of cool guitar solos. They had been listening to it together often in their apartment.
This moment was special for Naruto. He tuned the guitar, and then he looked up at Sasuke and smiled, right before he started playing. As expected, the raven recognized the melody straight away.
His smile made it all worth it. Fukami was also smiling proudly of course but Naruto barely noticed. He was playing for his best friend right now.
When he was finished Sasuke was speechless. Fukami broke the silence by clapping his hands.
"You were amazing!"
Sasuke snapped out of his daze, "You really are amazing, learning to play guitar so well, so fast… And I love that song."
"I know," Naruto smirked.
Their eyes were locked together intensely, but Fukami broke the moment by yawning.
"I'm tired you guys… Maybe we should just go to bed?"
"Sure," Sasuke said, "I'll show you how to…"
Illustrating his words instead of finishing his sentence, Sasuke walked over to the couch and they stood to let him set up the bed for them. He brought his extra set of sheets and with their help made it as comfortable as possible. Fukami thanked him warmly, before stripping to his boxers right there and crawling under the sheets.
Sasuke raised a brow, "Okay… well I'll let you guys hum…"
Again he didn't finish his sentence, and he went straight to his bedroom.
Fukami was practically asleep already.
"I'll be right back," Naruto said, and then he went to join Sasuke in his bedroom.
He closed the door and smiled apologetically, "Sorry about that…"
"About what?" Sasuke shrugged and looked down.
Naruto stepped closer, until he was standing right in front of him.
"I really missed you, you know that?"
"I think you told me a hundred times just today…"
The blond chuckled. He lifted his hand to cup Sasuke's chin, and he lifted his face. Dark eyes slowly looked up at him.
Naruto held his breath. Sasuke was so beautiful… He looked at his lips, such perfect, kissable lips…
They kissed softly, but then Sasuke pushed him away.
"What the fuck…" he lowered his voice, "are you doing?"
"I wanted to kiss you," the blond whispered.
He reached out to hold Sasuke in his arms. It felt so right to be holding him… He kissed his neck, breathed in the sweet scent of his hair… He caressed his arm, and he noticed the braided bracelet on his wrist. He smiled.
But again Sasuke pushed him away.
"Your little boyfriend's right there in the next room…"
"I know…"
"How old is he anyway?"
"Twenty."
"He looks sixteen."
Naruto didn't deny it.
"Do you love him?" Sasuke asked.
"I don't know."
"Does he love you?"
"I… probably."
"Then why the fuck are you kissing me?"
"You used to kiss me all the time when you were with Suigetsu," Naruto leaned closer.
Sasuke stepped back. "It's different. Things were fucked up between us. You were confused. Now you're not confused anymore. That guy's your boyfriend, and I'm your friend. We can't both be your boyfriend."
"I'm not an idiot," Naruto said.
"Well stop acting like one then."
"Sasuke…" he whispered and reached out to him again.
The raven stepped back, but now he was leaning against the wall.
Naruto had no idea what he was doing. All he knew was that he really wanted to kiss him. He placed his hands on the wall on each side of Sasuke and he leaned closer…
"Just one kiss," he whispered.
Sasuke was holding his breath. He looked so nervous, so vulnerable… Naruto placed his hand on his chest softly.
"Your heart's beating so fast…"
Sasuke closed his eyes.
"How much did you miss me?"
Naruto was like in a daze. He kissed him softly, and then waited for his answer.
"I…"
"Yeah…?" Naruto kissed his neck, more and more intensely.
He bit his ear and Sasuke repressed a moan. He turned his head and their eyes met for a split second. The next they were kissing. Sasuke wrapped his arms around Naruto's waist. The blond ran his fingers through Sasuke's soft hair and explored his mouth with his tongue. He loved his taste, his smell, his feel. He loved how their hips were at the same height; their bodies seemed to be melting into each other.
Naruto's hand ventured dangerously low, inside Sasuke's jeans and boxers…
Then the raven pushed him away. His breathing was very fast and loud. But he looked down, letting his bangs hide his face. It looked like he wanted to disappear inside the wall.
"What's wrong?" Naruto whispered softly.
A tear rolled down Sasuke's cheek.
Naruto leaned closer.
"Just go back to him," Sasuke hissed.
"But… we kind of have an open relationship I mean… we never really talk about it but… we're not really official or exclusive…"
"It's not that," the raven whispered.
"Then what is it?" he reached out to him with his hand but Sasuke pushed it away.
He finally looked up. "I told you to stop acting like an idiot."
Naruto frowned, "If you want me to break up with him just say it, and I will."
Sasuke shook his head in disbelief, "Just… leave me alone. I'm tired I wanna sleep."
"Okay… I'm sorry if I upset you."
Sasuke didn't reply, and he didn't return his glance. So Naruto just left his bedroom and closed the door softly. He sighed and looked at Fukami. He was curled up on his side, and he was sleeping soundly, his breathing even. Naruto just sat for a moment, with his head in his hands.
He really was an idiot… Playing with Sasuke's feelings like that. He shouldn't have brought his boyfriend here, it had been a mistake. But what to do now? How could he make things right?
It took him a long time to fall asleep that night. He kept looking at Sasuke's closed bedroom door. Sasuke… what was he thinking about right now? Was he able to find sleep at all?
Naruto closed his eyes, and he fell asleep at last, but it was troubled with confusing, disturbing nightmares…
In the morning when he woke up, he could remember only one thing about those nightmares. He was losing Sasuke forever.
A/N: it's okay, i give you the permission to hate me