Disclaimer: Well guys I'm STILL Trying but to no avail and i don't own the song either.
Millie's point of view
The super came into the over spilling CID area and called for silence but didn't get any.
"Pub? My shout!" shouted the Super. The whole of CID cleared out whilst the uniform went to get changed. I made my way downstairs to the locker room. I opened my locker door and there was a single red tulip on my shelf. Of course I already knew who it was off. It was one of his tricks from the very first date. One single red tulip representing 'undying love' I closed my eyes as I inhaled the sweet smell of the tulip and smiled to myself. I placed it back into my locker carefully. I put on my black skinny jeans, white vest top, black leather biker jacket, black beads and Ugg Boots. I applied some bronzer onto my cheek, some soft eyeliner, mascara and clear lip gloss. Mel was now changed so we both made our way out and into the back yard ready to leave. We walked along linking arms, laughing and joking. Max came out behind us. I turned.
"You coming to the pub guv?" I asked.
"erm yeah, I think I may." He said as I smirked at him. He walked along beside me and Mel who were linking arms; I was in the middle of them both. We made our way to the pub and my usual of Vodka and Coke, Mel's usual of Bacardi and Coke and Max's bottle of Stella Artois was waiting for us. I thanked the super. Max bought our next ones, then Smithy, then Stevie, then Jo, then Callum, then Terry, Neil, Mel, and me until everyone had bought a round. Then we all began drinking separately. I could feel myself getting drunker and drunker, louder and louder. I decided it was time to sing a song on the karaoke. So I stumbled along towards the Karaoke machine. Max sat and watched intently as I got the chap to set the song up for me. He passed me the microphone. And the Music began and I began singing:
Too much of anything can make you sink
Even the good can be a curse (curse)
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt.
Is it better? Is it worse?
Are we sitting in reverse
It's just like we're going backwards. (backwards)
I know where I want this to go
Driving fast but lets go slow
What I don't wanna do is crash nooo.
Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back to the
Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's' worth having, it's worth fighting for oh-oh-oh
Now everyday ain't gon' be no picnic
Love aint a walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark.
Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back to the start.
Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for oh-oh-oh
I don't know where I'm heading
I'm willing and ready to go.
We've been driving so fast
We just need to slow down
And just ro-o-o-o-o-oll.
Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more.
repeat x2
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for oh-oh-oh
I sang it for me and I sang it for Max, to let him know that I love him, and that I'll fight for this love as its worth it. But we need to go slow because we don't want to crash at high speed. And like the song says 'when it gets tough gotta fight some more' and 'We've been driving so fast, We just need to slow down, And just roll.' We need to be steady. Because even though I kind of hate him at the moment, I just can't stop loving him. Although everything needs to go slow. We have to give it a chance, because it may just work out. Mel was pissed along with Jack, Neil, Smithy, Ben, Roger, Nate, Leon, Jo, Stevie, Terry and Banksy. Callum is relatively sober however they have all left. So it's just Max and me finishing our drinks. I knocked my drink back and let out a loud belch.
"Ooopsies!!" And then I was hysterical, Max stood up from his bar stool and wobbled, keeping himself up using the bar. And then we were both in hysterics. We made our way out of the pub, wobbling and into the stood with me as I waited for my taxi, typical Max, ever the gentleman. I hadn't realised how cold it was until I started shivering. Max saw me shivering so he put one arm around me and I pushed myself closer to him and up against him. Right at this moment, I know it sounds silly but I needed security and I felt secure up against his warm muscular chest. I wrapped my arms around his waist; he tightened his grip and rested his chin on my head. I pulled my head from his chest, leaned up and kissed him. He leaned deeper into me as we kissed more passionately and harder with every move. I couldn't deny that I wanted him. He hitched my leg up around his waist as he pushed me up against the wall, I put my hand up his shirt and gently ran my fingertips down from his chest to the waist band of his jeans, I teased him with my hand moving it around the waist band of his trousers, growing ever closer. I pulled him up closer to me and I felt his protruding erection against my hip. I moved away as my taxi pulled up, I smiled and took his hand and gently guided him to the taxi, we both got into the back. He pulled me towards him as I put one arm around his waist my head was against his tight, sculpted chest. We nestled together until I arrived at my flat. He paid for the taxi whilst I searched for my keys. I walked towards the door and fumbled even more for my keys, I hoped I hadn't left them at the station. As my hand began to dig even deeper in my handbag, I felt an arm wrap around my waist and then another one, I was caught off balance but nonetheless managed to remain upright. I felt his soft lips on my neck, he left a trail of kisses going up my neck to my jaw line. Before kissing my cheek and trailing back down my neck, I could feel his soft breath whistling past my skin. As I moved my hand around my bag, I clasped onto the key ring I had my keys on. I pulled them out, found the right key and went to put them into the key hole, as I aimed for it my hand shook and I missed the lock, the key scraping on either side of the lock, I eventually managed to steady my hand and unlock the door. Max followed me in and we both kicked off our shoes. He shut the door behind us and kissed me tenderly on the lips, we made our way into my bedroom. I stood on my tiptoes in order to reach up to his mouth. I began unbuttoning his shirt whilst he slipped my coat off, I began with kissing his chest moving down to his waist band where I unbuttoned his jeans and let them drop, I came back up to his mouth and kissed him. He pulled my vest top over my head and unzipped my jeans, before pushing me onto the bed, he positioned himself on top of me, using his arms to support his weigh and the rest was history. A teardrop escaped and ran down my cheek; I hoped Max hadn't noticed, he had. We lay down under the quilt of the king size bed. I curled up into a ball and nestled into him. And he just comforted me as I cried bucket loads.
"Mills, please talk to me....." he begged.
I remained silent.
"Mills, please, you're worrying me....." he tried again.
Still I remained silent.
"Mills please tell me what's wrong you are really worrying me....." he really sounded concerned.
I swallowed a sob.
"Why do you want to be with me?" she asked.
"Millie, you are beautiful, smart, kind, caring, stubborn and you see the good in everyone, even me. Millie, I don't know what you ever saw in me, but I'm so glad you saw something, whatever that was." He smiled
"Max, you shouldn't be with me?" I said matter of factly.
"Why shouldn't I?" he asked
"Because I am a huge failure." I sobbed
"No Mills, you're not."
"Max, I can never give anyone any children, if we were together I couldn't give you a child." I cried even more is I said this.
"Millie, I do want children, but if you can't I'm okay with that, because I'd rather have you."
"Max, you deserve someone who can give you everything you want. I can't do that. I want you to have sons and daughters and if I can't give you them then what is the point of us."
"Millie I don't care about anything as long as I have you."
"Max, I think it's best if this was the last time we saw each other outside of work."
"Please don't do this Mill, I want you and only you, I don't care about anything else." He begged.
"You will......" and that was it.
Thanks to everyone for reviewing. The song just in case you dont know is 'Fight for this love' by Cheryl Cole.