Chapter 10- One Small Step
Teyla's eyes narrowed to slits as she looked at John. She thought she had made it clear she did not want to go down this path with him, but he was not listening. "I thought I said we should not discuss this John. Why won't you abide by my wishes?"
John shook his head, "I don't recall you ever saying that. Everything is different now.""
"How is everything different then it was a few hours ago?" Teyla could not understand his logic. She did not want to face what was in her heart. There were many things that the Athosian was not afraid of, but there was something about fully opening up to John that truly terrified her.
"I realized something after I talked to Jennifer. That you should not waste time on being scared," he turned his attention to Torren for a moment.
"You spoke to Dr. Keller on this?" Teyla did not like having her private matters talked about behind her back.
"No. She mostly yelled at me, thinking we gave up on Rodney. Actually, she sounded a lot like him. Did you know he was going to ask Jennifer to marry him yesterday? But, he got scared and never asked. Now he may never get that chance," he hoped Teyla would get what he was hinting at. "They fought earlier in the day and now..."
Teyla cut John off before he could go any further. Her heart was pounding in her chest so most of his words were lost upon her. "John, don't. Please not now. You are upset about Rodney. We all are, but don't let those feelings cloud you better judgement."
John stood up and placed Torren on the couch. "I've never been clearer about anything." His eyes locked onto Teyla's, not sure what he saw looking back at him.
Teyla turned away from the man who frustrated her to no end, as she did not want him to see the yearning in her eyes. It was a basic human need to want someone to love them. Some might deny it, but they are only lying to themselves or in this case too scared to give up control of your emotions. Teyla had prided herself in always keeping herself in control, but the one night they spent together she gave up control and it was both exhilarating and frightening.
"Teyla, look at me," John placed his hands on her shoulders and pulled away after the woman flinched.
"John, I think it would be best if you left now. We should all rest. We are going to need our energy when we search for Rodney." It was a perfectly valid excuse, but still an excuse.
John knew she was trying to get rid of him, but she did have a good point. He did not want to leave everything in flux as it were. It seemed to be the norm lately and something had to happen to break it. Without thinking, John pulled Teyla in for a kiss.
Now it was up to her to respond to push him away. It was time for Teyla to make up her mind once and for all.
To be continued...
A/N: Thank you for reading and reviewing. Feel free to drop me a PM if you have and ideas or whatnot. This is unbeted so all mistakes are mine. Sorry for the long break in updating. Life has been very busy lately and other stories' muses have been biting me.