Hi everyone! I hope you like this new chapter… I strongly recommend you to listen "awkward love" from As one (it's in Korean, thou…) because I feel like is the accurate melody for the things happening here. I got a really strong LevixPetra felling after hearing it.

I'm accepting request incase you'd like to and any comment is welcomed.

Vale: hola! Qué hacienda por acá? xD

Our hands barely touched and for the first time I noticed his face blushing. We were in his office that day, along with the rest of the squad doing some paperwork we needed for the weekly meeting with Commander Erwin. Casually I handed him a folder and felt the warmth of his hand next to mine. I'm sure nobody noticed it.

It's been a while since I have a crush with Capitan Levi, but I've always kept it as my greatest secret; when nobody observed I used to watch him walking in the yard or sitting in the dining hall, always without a hope of him being interested in me, much less of something happening between the two of us, so the reaction he had that day in his office made me wonder what would had happened.

A few days later something similar occurred, only this time our eyes suddenly met in the middle of the crowd inside the barn. I spent the whole time restraining myself from seeking his silhouette among the crowds but I couldn't stop myself anymore and as soon as I did it, I saw him looking at me with his piercing eyes.

I blushed a lot as soon as I noticed that and then looked down for an instant but when I turned to see him again I realized he had done the same. As soon as our eyes met again I smiled at him and looked somewhere else, but in that moment Oluo interrupted me saying something about his horse being sick, completely spoiling the moment.

I have to see the Capitan every day. After all, he is my chief and I'm part of his squad, so I have to be near him pretty much all day. Lucky for me there are just a very few times when we are alone. Since I started to be aware of his nervousness around me I avoided at all cost to be alone with him. Who knows what might happen in that case or the kind of predicament I would get myself into if I wasn't discreet enough.

It has been a month since that happened and it continues nowadays. Is not like I'm complaining; to the contrary, I feel so good and even my training performance had gotten better, but the possibility of something else happening between the Capitan and me had been stuck in my head for the last couple days.

It appears like we have created our own language of glances, touches and silences, in which we could state our feelings without using words. And I feel comfortable like this, as if all the pieces fit perfectly without saying anything and at the same time I'm sure Levi feels something for me too, but I don't know how far he's willing to go.

I don't know how we came to this point: him and me sitting side by side in a hill near the castle we use as barracks, in complete silence and enjoying the pure air that smells like fresh grass; I am immersed in my memories and he lost in his thoughts, both of us inside an instant so peaceful that makes me forget about the titans, the walls and the army.

After today's morning training Capitan Levi told us that we could have the rest of the day off and I wanted to take the opportunity to ride my horse around the fields, letting myself have the illusion of living in a free world, but I cannot remember the moment when my crush decided to accompany me. Suddenly I woke up from my lethargy and saw him sitting next to me, without a clear idea of what was going on.

I couldn't say if what I feel is love, attraction, a great admiration or I'm just a silly with with a crush, but there is one thing I know: this is something new for me and is so intense! My heart will explode if I don't do something but, what to do?

My experience in the matters of love is near zero. I had a boyfriend when I was in the academy, but I never took it seriously. I have never been in love before, if that's what's happening to me. As for Levi… I can tell he isn't experienced at all.

I find rather funny the way we act, like two shy teenagers wanting to get closer and without gathering enough courage to do it.

Why? Why am I this way? I don't have any problems on facing a 5 meter titan; much less would have it humanity's strongest soldier. So, what's wrong with us?

The cloud of thoughts inside my head was interrupted when I feel a hand res on mine, that hand I was using to lay on as sitting in the grass. Quickly I turn to see our hands entwined; his holding min with the perfect balance between strength and gentleness. A sensation that is way better than I could ever imagine.

Then I see his gaze lost in the horizon before us, a feint pink color on his cheeks and his fraught neck, as if trying so hard not to turn. I can only put a silly smile while I squeeze his fingers inside my hand.

I sigh and feel the temperature increasing. My nerves are about to betray me, but I feel a deep joy inside my chest and I try to keep calm watching the landscape painted with clouds and flying birds, and then I feel his hand over my cheek and his soft lips above mine, pressing softly. It's the sweetest kiss I've ever had and at the same time, the one I've longed for the most.

After his lips abandon me, we lay in the grass and I hug him as tight as I can, in silence; everything had been stated and words are useless right now.