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Chapter 10 -Forgiven But Not Forgotten

Last Time…

Esme guided us to sit. Bella sighed settling on my lap as I brought her back to my chest, hugging her, and welcoming her warmth. "Ok, ask away," the way her voice wavered foreshadowed our long grief-stricken night.

Carlisle started "Bella, dear, if it isn't too much to ask how did you become a… a -"

Before Carlisle could finish, Bella finished for him, "a vampire?"

He nodded.

She smiled sweetly, but her eyes were hunted with deep grief, "Well, Carlisle, do you guys remember when Edward had to suck out James's venom?" She subconsciously rubbed the crescent scar of her wrist, with a far away look in her eyes.

We all made noises agreement.

"Well, you said that my blood smelled clean, but it wasn't! Some had seeped in to deep for even your refined senses to detect," our gasps made a small sadistic smile paint itself on her lips, "Days after the attack I would get little burning sensations here and there, but I kept it to my self, until they converted into hour burning sessions. They were unbearable and I had to tell you, but when I decided not to keep it from you anymore, Edward said you guys were leaving. He said that you were already pushing your age, and people were starting to get curious. So I decided to keep my suffering under wraps, he said how I was a distraction and how everything will be like you guys never existed, like he never existed!" Her voice was strong, but tears cascaded down her pain stricken face.

"That my human mind would forget, I would go on with my life, but what he didn't get is that you guys are my life!" She turned to me with a fiery gaze, "You were my life Edward!" She yelled.

My dead heart sank, 'what have I done!'

"After you guys left I was a zombie for months, I ate when I had to, I went to school, and I only talked when directly spoken to. Charlie couldn't take it anymore, so he exploded threatening to send me back to Jacksonville with my mother. I yelled at him to let me stay, he screamed he wanted his daughter back, but then he collapsed right there. I ran to him crying, I was terrified, and he whispered he loved me while clutching at his heart. I said it back holding him whispering my apologies over and over, and just like that he was gone…" Her voice broke.

But she kept speaking firmly, "Renee and Phil were going to fly down for the funeral, and take me back with them, but the engine on the plane they were on exploded, they died just like that! God–if there is one–wiped my life clean of love, and companionship… Alone I stood with the world on my shoulders. Visiting my parents' graves made it all real to me, I broke down and everything hit me so fast! Suddenly nonexistent, hot white flames were drowning all my senses, licking at my insides, turning me wholly immortal," she shuddered remembering the pain.

She wiped her tears and smiled softly, "But if I could go back I wouldn't change a thing, because I met a family who put me back together." She looked lovingly at her family, then back at us.

"Oh, dear we had no idea, I just wish that you can find it in your heart to forgive us, we never meant to leave you or hurt you believe me," Carlisle said, sending me a quick un-characteristic glare which I couldn't hold against him.

She seemed thoughtful for a minute, then she spoke, "I forgave you long ago, but I did not forget!" She finished strongly, her smile washed off her features, "But I'm willing to try," she whispered compassionately, while kneeling before Carlisle. "Dad, I missed you."

Carlisle sobbed and hugged her tight which was out of character for him.

She turned to a mutely sobbing Esme, "Mom, I missed you terribly as well."

Esme hugged her to her lap whispering apologies and reassuring things in her ear.

Her family watched with joyful eyes, which were underlined with jealousy and sadness. I understood why they felt threatened they didn't want to lose her, and damn it all, neither did I, and I would fight for her if it came down to it.