Chloe and I nearly shared our first kiss tonight. I keep replaying the moment in my mind, over and over. It was perfect, well, almost perfect. Her lips were so close to mine. Our faces were so close, probably the closest we've ever been apart from hugging. I swear she could of heard my heart beating fast in my chest. There was nothing more I wanted than to feel her lips against mine, except for being hers, of course. I should of leaned in closer, faster. If I did, this night would of probably turned out different. She might of maybe known that I had feelings for her. But Jesse had to leave Aubrey for one fucking minute, and it had to ruin our almost moment. Chloe ended up taking her to the toilets to clean her up after that. I was left alone then. I guess it wasn't Aubrey's fault, she was drunk. She didn't know what was happening clearly. So I can't really blame her... Even though I keep doing so in my head.
It's now 1am and I can't sleep. I can't get Chloe off my mind, and nor do I want to. At this present moment, I was about ninety percent sure Chloe had feelings for me back. The song, what she said before it, What Amy said, her touching my fingers, her almost kissing me, her being into girls... It all has to add up, right? But there was a ten percent I wasn't too sure about. Chloe was beautiful. Not in just the way she looks, not just in what she says or does, but just her in general. She was almost a perfect human being. And I am completely opposite. Why would she be... In love with me? I chuckle to myself. Imagine that. Chloe Beale... My... Crush, being in love with me back. My heart flutters once again.
Okay Beca, you must sleep. You have to sleep. It's Chloe's birthday tomorrow. Wait... It's her birthday right now.
I sit up in my bed and quickly grab my phone on my side table. I turn my phone on, and quickly go to Chloe's name. Before I type anything out, I stop myself. Chloe apologized at karaoke and she invited me over for her birthday. She even nearly tried to kiss me... So that means we're on talking terms, right? I hover my fingers over the keys. I really hope she replies to my message this time. If she doesn't, I'd probably die a little inside.
"Happy B'day Chloe! Can't wait to see u tomorrow." I type out and the press send.
I get a message back, nearly straight away. My heart begins to race.
"Thank you, Beca! :-) PS. Thinking about you... X"
It's late. Chloe's probably in bed. She probably can't sleep either. And she's thinking about me. Me. I'm on her mind. I'm her late night thought right now. I double check to the message, just to make sure I'm reading it right, and that it is in fact from Chloe. I can't help the smile that's on my face right now. I drop my phone next to me and cover my mouth with both my hands.
"She's thinking about me." I whisper to myself happily.
I have never seen myself like this before. I feel all... Happy inside. Damn Chloe for making me feel all these new things. I pick my phone back up and re-read Chloe's message over again, until I feel myself falling asleep.
Fat Amy knock's on the front door of Chloe's parents house. This is my first time being here and I've already got a nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach. There were various coloured balloons out on the front porch and I could hear music coming from inside. I was about to see Chloe any minute now, and my heart could not keep still.
The door opens and Chloe appears on the other side with a wide smile. She's wearing a navy blue play suit and her hair is curled perfectly, like always. She looks breathtaking, I can't help but stare at the redhead in front of me. Fat Amy walks towards her first, with open arms.
"Heeey! Happy birthday, you old fart!" Fat Amy says as she pulls Chloe in for a hug.
Chloe laughs, and I couldn't help but laugh also.
Amy finally releases Chloe from her. Chloe's eyes are on me now, and I swear her face starts to blush. I look back into her eyes, and feel my heart start to beat fast. "Happy birthday."
She's smiling again, and I can't help but smile back at her.
"Don't I get a hug?" She says with a smirk on her face.
I step closer to her, and she meets me half way. Chloe wraps her arms around my neck, and my arms move to her back. I've missed her hugs. I've missed her touch. I've missed being this close to her. I move my hands lower down her back, and pull her closer to me, my face buried in her hair. She smells beautiful, she smells like strawberries and vanilla. I didn't want to let her go, to be honest. I wanted to stay like this for a while. But Fat Amy coughs loudly, watching us, and we break away from our moment. I start to feel a little bit awkward at the fact that Amy was watching... But I also feel a little proud.
Chloe invites us both inside and shuts the door behind us. Another older redhead starts to make his way towards us.
"Oh, and who are these two?" He asks Chloe with a wide smile.
"Dad, this is my friend Amy." Chloe says as she points to the blonde beside her. "And this is Beca." She says lastly, looking at me.
"Oh, Beca. Nice to finally meet you."
I raise my eyebrows. Finally meet me? What?
"Dad..." Chloe says quickly, her voice sounding annoyed.
"I've heard a lot of things about you." Chloe's Dad says as he winks at me.
Oh my God. What did I just hear?!
"Dad!" Chloe says again, nearly angry this time.
I look at both of the redheads with my mouth open while they just stare at one another. I then look at Fat Amy while she tries her best not to laugh at the situation.
"Um... I gotta go to the bathroom, so I'll just be going..." I say awkwardly, so I can get away.
Neither one of them look at me as I leave the awkward eye contact war between them.
I don't know where I'm going exactly. I start to walk towards a hallway. There's about four different doors, I probably should of asked where the bathroom was before leaving. Idiot. I walk over to a door handle and carefully twist it open, peeking inside the room. I look to find that it was bedroom. Chloe's Dads, I'm guessing by how it's set out and decorated. I close the door and walk to the next one. I carefully open it so see a piano in the corner of the room. It was beautiful. I decide to go further into the room, and over to it. It was shiny, it almost looked new. I sit myself down on the seat in front of it. My hands move to the keys, I know I probably shouldn't touch it at all, but I couldn't help myself. I slowly hold down a key with my index finger and listen to the sound it makes.
I then see a redhead appear in the middle of the door frame.
"Beca?"
"Chloe. I um, I was looking for the bathroom." I say quickly, getting up from the seat and moving my hands behind my back.
Chloe starts to walk over to me. "Oh, no that's okay. I can show you where it is." She says with a smile.
"Hey, um, why did you play the piano in the rehearsal room when you've got a piano here?" I ask Chloe out right, curiously. It didn't really make sense to me. This piano was beautiful, and much more better than the one we've got.
I watch Chloe's face as she starts to blush. She moves over to me, and sits in front of the piano. I sit back down next to her.
Chloe tilts her head to look me in the eyes. "Because... I was hoping to see you there. And then I did, and I don't know... I just got scared."
"Oh..." I say as break our contact and look at the keys in front of me. I'm sure my face started to blush.
I had an idea then. This was probably the perfect moment. I get up from the seat, and walk over towards the door and carefully close it shut. I then walk back and sit back down, next to Chloe again.
"Beca? What are you doing?" She asks me.
I unwrap my purse-sized bag around myself, and look through it until I find the item I am looking for. I place my bag onto the floor, and then place the sheet music on top of the piano in front of me.
"What is this?" Chloe asks, almost confused.
"It's... It's your song. I finished it for you." I say. I remember finishing the song a while back, when Chloe and I weren't talking, but I always kept the sheet music in my bag, just in case. I couldn't think of a more perfect moment to finally show her. This could be my birthday gift to her, since I didn't really have time to get her anything else.
"Beca..." Chloe starts to say. Her voice almost sounds like it could break.
I don't look at her. I look at the keys instead. I poison my hands in front of me, and slowly start to play, with Chloe still sitting by my side.
"All we do is hide away All we do is, all we do is hide away.
All we do is chase the day.
All we do is, all we do is chase the day..." I start to sing.
My hands continue to glide over the piano keys. I don't dare to look up at Chloe, scared of what her face might be like.
"All we do is lie and wait.
All we do is, all we do is lie and wait...
All we do is feel the fade.
All we do is, all we do is feel the fade." I continue.
I really hope Chloe likes this, I hope I'm doing it justice. I'd be honestly really sad if I wasn't.
"I've been upside down,
I don't wanna be the right way round...
Can't find paradise on the ground."
I feel Chloe's eyes on me, but still I look away, having all my focus on this song, on the keys. Hoping to perfect it for her.
"All we did was play it safe.
All we did was live inside a cage.
All we did was play it safe.
All we did, all we did..."
"I've been upside down,
I don't wanna be the right way round.
Have found paradise on the ground..."
I'm coming to the end of the song, and my heart is being faster as my fingers press down on the keys. I hope Chloe realizes that I changed a few words in her song... I want her to know that I do feel this way, I'm hoping her song would help.
"All we did was chase the day.
All we did was, all we did was chase the day.
All you did was win today,
All you did was win today...
All we do, all we do..."
The song is finished, and I place my hands by my side on the seat. I then basically force myself to look at Chloe. Her mouth is open, and there's tears in her bright blue eyes. They even looked beautiful like this. Unbelievable.
"Say something...?" I say to her. The room was quiet now, and I'm a bit scared of what her reaction might be.
"Beca... That was beautiful." She says as she wipes a tear away on her face.
I smile back at her in relieve. She liked it. She actually liked it.
"I wrote this song... About you. But you changed it. You made it even more beautiful."
"Me?!" I say, my voice nearly high pitched.
Chloe smiles and then nods. "Yes, you."
Chloe then slowly moves her hand up to my face. My heart beats faster at her touch, as she carefully, and slowly, tucks a piece of hair that was in my face, behind my ear. She leaves her hand there for a moment, almost hesitant, then slowly lowers her hand to cup my face. I feel her fingers then start to caress my face lightly. I couldn't help but smile at the redhead next to me. Chloe then licks her lips slowly in front of me, then moves her body closer, with her hand still on my face. She closes her eyes, then leans in towards me. I close my eyes close too, and wait patiently for her next move.
Could this finally, be our first kiss?
I then feel Chloe's breath on my mouth, she was so close, closer than our 'almost' first kiss at karaoke. I could almost feel her lips on mine. I move myself just a tad closer to her, and I swear I could taste the softness of her lips already, but then suddenly Chloe's hand drops from my face, and we both break away from each other as soon as we hear the door open.
"There's the birthday girl! Everyone's looking for you!" Chloe's Dad says excitedly.
So close... Once again. Dammit. All I want to do is kiss this girl. I'm definitely going to make the first move next time, I swear.
Chloe's gone to talk to some family members and I'm left by myself. I hardly know anyone here, only Fat Amy and Aubrey, and now Chloe's Dad. I'm surprised Aubrey is even here at all, I thought she would of been hung over, but she's still standing. I'm sat on the lounge while others are up and chatting with one and other. I don't feel bored, I just feel awkward. I glance over at Chloe who is still talking to some family members. She must of caught my gaze. She looks at me and gives me a short smile, then brings all her attention back to the other redhead in front of her.
My mind cannot fathom the fact that Chloe, not me, but Chloe, has actually tried to kiss me. Twice. And that she's been talking about me to her Dad? I was one hundred percent sure now that Chloe has feelings for me. It still sounds impossible in my head, but my heart says that she does. I wish I could just ask her out right, but I know I could never do such thing.
"Alright everyone! Time for birthday cake!" Chloe's Dad says as he claps his hands.
I watch as people make their way over to the table in the middle of the room. I swear I can see drool starting to drip from Fat Amy's mouth at the sight of the cake. The cake did looked delicious, so I can't blame her. I'm guessing it was Vanilla flavored, by the colour of it. It had strawberries all around the top and in the center of the cake, the words 'Happy Birthday Chloe' were written in chocolate with a love heart at the bottom.
Chloe stands at the front of the table. To her left is Aubrey, Fat Amy, then me, and then some other people I don't know. To Chloe's right, her father stands, again with other people I haven't met before.
Chloe's Dad lights the candles on the cake and everyone stares at Chloe. Everyone in the room joins in on singing happy birthday, and there's a smile plastered on the redhead. She looks so happy. She looked so unbelievable cute right now too. Why does Chloe have to be so adorable? Dammit.
Once everyone stops singing happy birthday, it's time for Chloe to blow out her candles.
"Make a wish!" Aubrey shouts loudly.
Chloe moves her red hair out of her way. Before she blows out the candle, she looks towards me and smiles. Of course I smile at her back. She finally looks down at the cake in front of her. She blows at the candles, and I watch as they go out.
Everyone claps for her then. I even join in too.
"Oh, shoot. Chloe, do you mind grabbing the plates from the kitchen?" Chloe's Dad asks her, realizing as he starts to cut the cake that he has forgotten about the plates for everyone.
"Oh, sure! Um, Beca, can you help me...?"
My eyes light up and I nod my head in response. Chloe starts to walk off and I follow her into the kitchen - She walks over to a cupboard and collects the plates and then places them onto the counter. She then turns towards me.
"Do you know what I wished for?" Chloe asks out of nowhere, as she starts to walk over to me. She was getting closer and closer, too close. I feel my nerves starting to play up inside me. I step backwards, but my back hits another counter behind me, and I'm suddenly trapped.
"W-What did you wish for?" I ask her, stumbling over my words as she stops right in front of me.
Chloe moves her hand to my face. Her fingers lightly caress my face like she did earlier; as she gently strokes my cheek. Her touch alone sends chills through my body this time. She pulls up her other hand, now completely holding my face in both her hands, forcing me to look into her bright blue eyes. She only stares at my parted lips now. I know I told myself that I would make the first move next time... But God dammit. Chloe just makes me so nervous, it's hard for me to focus. My own eyes stare at her parted lips then too, her beautiful, soft lips. I crave for them to be on mine, but I can't seem to move myself. I feel my face start to blush.
"I wished for you... I wished for this." Chloe says as she starts to move her face closer to mine again, her mouth just inches away from lips now. I close my eyes and lean in, hoping to finally meet her lips, third time lucky.
But of course, once again, something has to stop us.
"Everything okay in here? Thought you gotten lost or something!" Chloe's Dad says, with a chuckle.
Chloe pulls away from me and I feel disappointed, once again.
"Fuck sake." I hear Chloe mutter under her breathe. I chuckle, I never really hear her swear, so hearing her like this amuses me.
"Did I interrupt something?" The other redhead says as his daughter passes him the plates from the counter.
"No..." Chloe lies. You can hear it in her voice that she was lying. You could see it on her face, in her eyes. Her Dad looks at me, then back to Chloe. He finally catches on then.
"Oh... Shoot. Sorry." He says.
Disclaimer: I do not own Pitch Perfect.
Songs mentioned:
1. All We Do by Oh Wonder (though I changed some of the lyrics)
I'M SORRY guys, okay. I couldn't help myself. Please don't hate me. I promise I'll make it up in the next chapter though. Pinky promise. ;)
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