Author note: I would like to thank Eveliina for being my top reviewer. I hope my story is good because it is only my first one. I am trying to improve, so thankyou for your support. Keep reading all readers and please enjoy, because an unimaginable twist is coming your way.

Chapter 10: Clean And Pure

Shuichi stared into the eyes of the man who towered over him. Shuichi was angry. Fear was no longer a part of him. The man was trying to stare daggars through him, but he could see that it wasn't working.

"Why, did you bring Yuki to New York Kitazawa?" Shuichi asked angrily.

Shuichi was standing next to Yuki's bed with Yuki's hand in his. He squeezed it in a protective manner.

"Why, I believe that is none of your business. What are you even doing here? Yuki told you not to come here."

"He probably knows that I wouldn't listen to him anyways," said Shuichi.

Kitazawa stepped to the side and sat in the chair by the bed. He let out a long sigh. Shuichi studied Yuki's sleeping face praying and hoping that he would wake up soon so they could get the hell back to Japan.

"So, why are you here Shuichi?"

Shuchi turned to face Kitazawa.

"Isn't it obvious? I'm taking Yuki home when he wakes up and is ready to leave the hospital.I'm sorry, but Yuki doesn't love you in return, despite how you may feel about him and that is your own fault. Yuki's heart remains broken ever since that incident... the one he hardly ever talks about. He has changed since then you know? He told me that."

"Hah! You truly are a fool. He still loves me. If he didn't then why has he been suffering for so long? It was guilt... yes guilt for killing the only person he cared about. Raping him had nothing to do with it. I mean, he was so young and he didn't know what sex was so... I showed him. Although, it didn't take too long because he shot me. He also shot my friends and killed them to."

"Your sick."

"Sick? That isn't sick. I was teaching him. I was teaching him what lovers do when they have feelings for one another. He got scared and pulled a gun from my friend's pocket and shot us all."

"You're a bad liar Kitazawa. That still doesn't explain why your friends gave you money for him to, you lying bastard. I should..."

"You should what? Kill me? What is it, that you should do? So what, if I don't tell the truth. Why is it that Yuki and you, just have to know why I did that? Shuichi just go home. It is Yuki's turn to suffer."

"No! Just what the hell is that supposed to mean anyways? You deserved all of the suffering you got, but you left Yuki a scar that will never heal."

"Enough with the stupid questions. I cannot understand what Yuki sees in you. You are a normal boy. There is nothing special about you."

"I want you to leave now. I want you to stay out of Yuki's life because I want him to suffer. I want him to suffer only in my arms."

Shuichi gritted his teeth in anger. He had no idea how to talk to this man. His personality seemed to change constantly. At one point he would be talking almost dreamily, or calm as some would say. The next thing you know he was angry and threatening.

"I wont,"Shuichi said finally.

This forced Kitazawa to stand up angrily, knocking the chair down. It had happened so fast that somehow he now had Shuichi cornered. Somehow Yuki's hand had slipped from his and now he seemed to be too far away from him.

"I don't like you Shuichi. You have been in my way for far too long. Maybe I should make you experience what he experienced in that abandoned apartment building. Yes... you are cute after all. I will make you enjoy having me inside you."

Fear struck Shuichi like a tidal wave. This sick twisted man who had him pinned against the wall intended to rape him right in the hospital, right in front of Yuki.

Kitazawa began to run his tongue down Shuichi's neck. He then smiled his mouth still near Shuichi's neck.

"I love having the power Shuichi. I am a dominant person and I wanted Yuki to know that. Now you to will know what it is like to run in to me. No man that confronts me, will escape my contorted fingers. I will ravish you all over Shuichi. I will leave you hurting and begging to die. I will leave you emotionally distraught. Because I have the power to do that. It is one of my traits. I am able to break people and cause them to be broken forever."

He suddenly nipped Shuichi's neck, making him cry out a little.

"You had better be a good boy for me. If your not Yuki may not make it this time."

Tears began traveling down Shuichi's face. He tried to control his fearful sobs. All of a sudden he saw movement from the bed behind Kitazawa. A ray of hope dawned on him. Shuichi smiled with hope that Yuki was waking up and that Yuki would save him from the horrible experience that he knew he would have to endure from this horrid man if Yuki wasn't waking up. Shuichi suddenly felt the urge to push the man off of him.

"Stop this, you bastard!"

Shuichi heaved with all his might and tried to push the man off but the man was too strong.

"You better be quiet Shuichi. It wont take too long."

Shuichi whimpered as Kitazawa went for Shuichi's neck again.

Shuichi began to pray in his mind. "Please Yuki. Please wake up and stop him. Somebody help me."

Shuichi woke up in the chair beside Yuki's bed. He looked around. Kitazawa was nowhere to be seen.

"Was it just a horrible dream?"

Shuichi was dismayed when he realized he was in pain. His arms and legs were bruised, but it had happened so fast.

"It wasn't a dream. How I wish it was."

Shuichi realized that his pants were soaked in stains from Kitazawa. Pain seared through his entire existence. Shuichi stood up from the chair, almost in a daze. His mind kept fading in and out as he staggered toward the bed. He slowly climbed in next to Yuki and snuggled up to his usual warm body, but somehow it was very cold. Shuichi pulled up the blanket so it covered the two of them. Shuichi sighed.

"Yuki, why didn't you wake up. Somehow, I get the feeling that you were trying to. I need you now more than ever. Most of all I want to take a shower but I don't want to have a shower alone. I need your help to be clean again. I'm...dirty."

Suddenly the door opened. Shuichi had his face beneath the covers. He pretended to be asleep so that Kitazawa may not bother him, not until he woke up again at least. Would Kitazawa do that again? Would Yuki hate him now?

"It looks like he has fallen asleep."

Shuichi immediately noticed that it was Hiro's voice. Hadn't Hiro only got a drink? What took him so long?

"Well, it's understandable. He has been dealing with a lot."

That was noticeably Touma's voice. Why was Touma here? Hiro and Touma must have went out for a bit but wasn't hiro supposed to get water? Shuichi didn't care anyhow. He was too humiliated to let them know he was awake. He also didn't know how he looked at the moment. They would probably notice right away that something was wrong. There was some movement, and he heard the chair drag across the floor.

They're going to wait until I wake up.

"Something seems off," said Hiro.

"What?" Asked Touma.

"I don't know. Something just doesn't feel right. I mean, shouldn't Kitazawa be back by now? And what am I supposed to do with this?" He asked holding up the bottled water.

"He'll probably want that when he wakes up."

"Yeah, your right."

Hiro looked toward the two sleeping on the bed. A look of suspicion on his face. Touma was standing against the left wall. He began to shift nervously.

"What's wrong?" Hiro asked.

Touma looked at him with a questioning look.

"Do you think that maybe Kitazawa has been back?"

As if struck by lightning Hiro ran for the bed to check on Shuichi. He threw back the covers. Yuki didn't stir, however, Shuichi lay there with a frightened look.

"Shuichi," Hiro said.

"He hasn't been back," Shuichi said suddenly.

Shuichi had no idea what to say. His mind kept telling him to lie. It would cover up the humiliating shame he felt. The shame of being weak and vulnerable. It was way worse than the feeling he got when Aizawa from the band Ask had taken pictures of him being raped. Why was it worse though? Why did this seem worse on so many more levels?

Am I ever going to be the same again?

"Shuichi are you ok?"

"Yeah, I was just cold and felt like snuggling with Yuki."

Hiro, stared at him in disbelief. Shuichi forced a smile, that he was sure looked as fake as it felt.

He decided to change the subject.

"Did you bring my water? What took you so long anyways?"

Before he could anser Touma's cell phone suddenly rang. Shuichi and Hiro watched in anticipation as Touma answered the phone.

"Hello?"

...

"What do you mean? No, he isn't here."

...

"Are you absolutely positive?"

Touma shot a curious look at Shuichi.

"Everything seems fine," He said in an unusual tone.

"Alright, we'll leave as soon as possible."

Touma hung up the phone.

"I'm not going anywhere," said Shuichi.

"According to K, Kitazawa entered the hospital over an hour ago, do you know anything about that?"

Not knowing what to say, Shuichi hung his head.

"You do, don't you? Your acting really strange Shuichi,"said Hiro.

"No." I haven't seen him." His tone of voice was defeated and quiet, almost like a shy persons voice.

"Shuichi, why have you been crying?" Hiro asked.

There was a long silent pause as Shuichi tried to make up an excuse.

"I have just been worried about Yuki a lot."

Shuichi sighed and made for the door.

"I'm going to take a shower."

Shuichi didn't care if he was allowed to use the hospital bathrooms or not, he just wanted to get the grime from that man off of him. He wanted to scrub all remnants left on him clean away. Shuichi left Hiro and Touma with Yuki.

"Something seems different about Shuichi," said Hiro.

"I'm willing to bet that he had a confrontation with Kitazawa. If that is the case, where is he now?" Touma replied.

Shuichi found a small bathroom in a side hallway. He stepped inside and at his dismay, there was no shower. Shuichi noticed the sink and closed the door behind him.

I guess the sink is better than nothing. I must be clean. I must be clean and pure for Yuki.

Shuichi continued to run the exact thoughts through his mind as he turned the faucet completely over to hot.

I must be clean. I must be clean and pure for Yuki.

Shuichi stripped from his clothes and held back tears that were fighting to escape. He was in much pain from Kitazawa's rough hands. Shuichi stuck his hands under the hot steamy water and cringed from the heat. His hands at already turned raw pink. He didn't care though.

I must be clean. I must be clean and pure for Yuki.

Shuichi scrubbed his whole entire body, starting with his aching bottom. He then ran his face under the hot water, cringing as the hot water flowed over his eyes and mouth. Shuichi made a sobbing noise, but refused to cry anymore. He would not show his weakness anymore.

I must be clean. I must be clean and pure for Yuki.