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Chapter 10: Complicated situation
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Shizuru looked back at Natsuki smiling slightly. If this was her end so be it. She was able to see her love one last time. That was all she ever wanted.
I love you Natsuki.
She closed her eyes ready to let the wolf end her life . . .
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Natsuki saw the woman smiling at her and without her knowing silent tears started trailing down her cheeks.
Why is she smiling? She is going to die but still . . . wait a moment . . . why am I crying?
One hand felt the moistness on her cheek. Tears?
There was a painful stab in her hurt as she saw the scene before her eyes.
Just as she wanted to call out to Duran to stop, he lunged forward . . .
"Miyu!"
It happend all so fast.
Shizuru had closed her eyes, awaiting her death but nothing happend. So she opened first one eye then the other. In front of her stood Miyu Grear, fighting with the huge blue wolf.
"Fujino-san? Fujino-san . . . you're alright?"
Shizuru was in a slight haze. I'm not dead? Why did she save me?
"Get a grip, Fujino-san! Don't throw away your life so easily!"
"Sears-han? What . . . I . . . " She was very confused.
"I thought you wanted Kuga-san back? What if she remembers who she is and then you're dead? Killed by her own hands?"
She is right. I want Natsuki back. I shouldn't give up like this. No. . . I wil fight for her if nessecary!
She pulled herself together and faced Natsuki.
"Natsuki . . . please stop him. I don't want us to fight. If you don't want me near you it's ok, but please let me talk to you first. . . "
Natsuki wasn't sure if she should trust this woman. Would talking change her mind? No . . . she didn't want this woman near her. She was . . . afraid. She didn't trust herself if this woman was around her. But still . . . her eyes . . . they looked so . . .so sad. Why?
"Duran . . . stop." The wolf hearing his sisters command stopped in his tracks to look at her as if she was crazy.
"But sister . . . they tried to hurt you! Why do you want me to stop?"
"Please . . . "
He growled angrily at the three women but followed Natsuki's wish and backed away.
"Ok . . . now talk."
"Thank you."
Shizuru didn't know where to start. I should try to convince her to come with me first.
"Natsuki . . . I'm sorry that I kissed you . . . but please understand . . .I lost you and thought that I would never see you again. I was happy to finally be with you again. I couldn't contain my happiness."
She saw Natsuki's slightly blushing face. But didn't get another response. So she started to speak once again.
"I want to help you to gain your memories back. Please let me. I promise that I will do nothing to make you uncomfortable or force you to do anything. And of course Duran can keep you accompany. . . What do you think?"
She hoped that Natsuki would consider her offer and say yes. On the outside her facade was perfectly in place but inside Shizuru was a big turmoil. Will she come with me? Or will I loose her forever?
Natsuki looked at Duran and whispered: "Duran? What do you think?"
"I don't know little one. But she looks honest. Either she tells the truth or she is a really good liar. I can't tell. But it is your decision. I will go wherever you want to go."
"Ok . . . I think it is worth a try."
Looking back at Shizuru she saw the hopeful glint in the other womans eyes.
"Alright. We accept your offer. But if I think you are not trustworthy, Duran will kill you."
"I understand. Then shall we go? I think it will start raining again soon."
"Ok."
The group went out of the cave. Miyu and Alyssa went to their car and Shizuru wanted to follow them but was stopped by Natsuki's hand holding her in place.
"You are going with us as coverage. If they try anything funny . . . "
Shizuru nodded.
"But how will we follow the car? Is Natsuki intending to carry me?"
Natsuki blushed heavily.
"NO! Duran will carry us."
Natsuki hopped onto Duran's back and motioned Shizuru to do the same.
"Hold on tight."
Shizuru did as she was told and hugged Natsuki. Her arms circled around Natsuki's waist. After this Duran started running. He was fast, faster than the car. So the three of them got to Shizuru's mansion before the other two woman.
"Wow . . . that is a huge house."
"Yes it is. But it can be really lonely to live here alone."
Shizuru unlocked the door and went inside before Natsuki and Duran followed her. Inside she was greeted by the cute little pup barking happily that all his masters were finally back. The puppy saw the huge wolf and run past Shizuru to greet the new guest. He was not afraid that the wolf could possible hurt him because the animal was with his master. So he had to be friendly to him too.
The blue wolf saw the small pup and smiled.
"I think you got yourself a new friend Duran."
"Yes . . . " You could hear that he was happy to see another small "wolf" running around the house. So this Shizuru woman must be nice after all.
"Natsuki? You want to see your room?"
"Y-yes. Duran? You coming?"
"I think you are save by yourself. Can I play with him a little bit?"
Natsuki smiled softly at Duran and nodded. He looked like a pup himself. She just couldn't say no to him even if she was afraid to be alone with Shizuru in this house.
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Yes, of course."
"You can't remember anything right?"
"No, it is as if there is a huge wall inside my head that blocks all my memories. Duran thinks that I will remember something by time."
"Yeah, I hope so, too." She sighed.
"Shizuru? Why are you so sad everytime you look into my eyes?"
"Sigh . . . It is all my fault. Because of me you can't remember anything. Just as I got you to love me like I love you it all disappeared and I'm alone one more time. It is as if it's my destiny to be alone. If I hadn't invented this substance than I would be still happy . . ."
Tears started to leak out of Shizuru's eyes.
"Gomen . . .Natsuki . . . I don't know how to help you. But I will do my best to find a solution. I promise."
Natsuki was stunned. This woman just said that Natsuki's condition was all her fault. At first she was angry but as soon as she looked at Shizuru's face it all disappeared. She looked so hurt. I must have meant a lot to her. I wish I could at least remember you Shizuru.
"Don't worry Shizuru. I'm sure we will find a way to restore my memories."
"Thank you Natsuki."
The two stood in the hallway in an akward silence. Shizuru desperately wanted to hug Natsuki and bury her head at the bikers soft neck. But she knew that she would cross a line that she wasn't allowed to cross. At least not now. So she started walking again and stopped at Natsuki's room.
"Here's your room. If you need something just ask. I'm going to cook something so you can take your time and look around."
"Thanks."
Shizuru walked out and closed the door behind her.
This is going to be harder than I thought.
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Just as she wanted to enter the kitchen there was a loud knock at her front door. Duran and Duran junior looked up and observed the situation.
"It is you."
"I never thought that this wolf would be so fast. So . . .we just wanted to say goodbye. But if you need help than call me."
"W-wait . . .I thought you would help me . . . why . . ."
"Don't panic. I will help you but I need my lab to do that. I'll call you in a week. Maybe I have a solution by then. See ya . . ."
"Thank you . . . " A sigh of relief esaped her lips.
The two woman went back to the car and drove away. Leaving behind a group of strangers trying to get to know each other.
Shizuru closed the door, finally went into the kitchen and started preparing the meal.
The two animals fell asleep soon after the door was closed and Shizuru was in the kitchen.
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Natsuki finished examining the room. She wanted to be sure that there were no traps set up for her or Duran. She didn't trust Shizuru completely and it was better to check everything than to be sorry afterwards.
Slowly she went to her bed and layed down. The day was exhausting and all she wanted was to take a short nap before having dinner with her hostess.
I don't know what I should do. This woman is confusing me. I get these strange reactions everytime she is near me or looks at me. And . . . this blushing thing is very . . . I don't know how to call it. . . Maybe it was a bad idea to come here. My head hurts. I should stop thinking this hard. If she just wants to hurt me or Duran we will kill her. It is that easy.
With this last thought Natsuki drifted off to sleep.
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Shizuru knocked at Natsuki's door but got no response. Maybe she fell asleep.
Silently she opened the door and saw her beloved blue-haired girl laying on the bed, soundly asleep. She looks so cute.
Natsuki lay sprawled out on her stomach and drooled slightly onto the cushions she was laying on.
Shizuru approached Natsuki and wanted to sit down on the edge to look a bit more at her cute puppy. But just as she wanted to sit down Natsuki woke up and growled at her. Not recognizing Shizuru immediately she grabbed her wrist and trapped Shizuru under her on the bed.
Materializing her blue glowing sword she held it near Shizuru's throat until she smelled the familiar scent.
"Shizuru . . .?" Natsuki asked confused.
"Y-yes."
Natsuki looked down and saw the small blush on Shizuru's face and then she realized the position they were in. As fast as she could Natsuki jumped off Shizuru and stood beside the bed. Facing away from the brunette.
"Sorry."
"No, it was not your fault. I shouldn't have come into your room without your permission. Gomen . . ."
Shizuru recovered quickly from her near death experience and her mask was back in place. In this moment she was very afraid of Natsuki. If she had recognized me one second later I would be dead by now.
"The food is ready. So if you're hungry, you can join me."
"Yeah sure. And . . . you are really fine?"
"Yes, don't worry. You just scared me a little. I am fine now."
"Ok."
They both went downstairs and set down at the kitchen table. They were shortly joined by
Duran and Duran junior.
They ate in silence because nobody did know what to say. So it was safer to stay quiet and enjoy the meal.
After that Shizuru washed the dishes and declined Natsuki's offer to help her. She said she could play with the two wolfs and enjoy herself.
Shizuru took this time to think about this whole situation.
I think I lost her forever. I don't know how I will be able to activate her memories. And I don't want to hurt her once more because of one of my experiments. I should give up. Natsuki looks like she is happy the way she is. She has Duran. I shouldn't destroy her happiness because of my selfishness. But . . . I love her so much. I can't live without her.
Shizuru started sobbing. What should she do? Life was so cruel to her. Just as she found love it got destroyed.
A few minutes later Natsuki stepped into the kitchen to get something to drink but she stopped dead in her tracks as she saw Shizuru.
What happened? Why is she crying?
She carefully walked closer to Shizuru and heard clearly the silent sobs.
"Shizuru?"
Her body tensed up when she heard Natsuki's voice. Immediately she started to rebuilt her mask and hoped it was enough so that Natsuki didn't get suspicious.
"Ara . . .Natsuki I didn't hear you coming. What can I do for you?" She turned around and smiled at Natsuki as if nothing happened.
"Um . . . I . . . " Stop smiling! You don't mean it . . . I can see that you are not happy.
"Why were you crying?"
"Crying? Natsuki must be mistaken. Why should I be crying?"
"Don't talk to me as if I were stupid! Tell me why you are so sad!"
"Sigh . . . Natsuki . . . "
"NO! Don't "Natsuki" me. I have been here for two maybe three hours and everytime I look in your eyes, you look so sad. Is it because I can't remember you or this experiment gone wrong? Or because I don't love you? Tell me!"
Shizuru was speechless. This Natsuki doesn't love me. Of course, I am a stranger to her. Why should she have feelings for me? Oh Natsuki . . . don't you know how much your words are hurting me?
"I . . . I know that you are not my Natsuki. It hurts to see you and not be able to embrace you. But I said I don't want to force you into anything and that I'll help you as much as possible. If you will never remember me . . . so be it."
Shizuru hoped that Natsuki would drop the topic but she should have known better.
"Maybe it was a bad idea to live here. I just hurt you more if I stay in your house. I am sorry that I can't be what you want me to be."
"No, I didn't mean it that way. Please don't go."
"You sure?"
"Yes, I can handle this situation. And even if you are not my Natsuki I want to help you."
"Ok . . ."
Deciding to let the topic go . . . for now . . . she grabbed a water bottle and left the kitchen to play with the animals. Her thoughts were still running at high speed around this sensitive topic. Maybe I should talk to Duran later.
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Later the two woman went into their seperate rooms.
Natsuki decided it was time to talk to Duran about Shizuru.
"Duran?"
"Yes, sister?"
"Today I talked a little bit with Shizuru. I asked her why she was so sad."
"And what did she tell you?"
"It is because of me."
"Could you explain it a little bit more?"
"Um . . .you know . . . because I don't love her the way she loves me."
"But you can't remember her. She should . . ."
"Yes . . . she knows this. She said she wouldn't force me into anything. But seeing her like this . . . it hurts . . .here." Natsuki placed a hand above her heart.
"Sigh . . .I don't know what to tell you . . . She said you loved her before you lost your memory. Maybe you will love her again."
"I am not sure if I want that. . . " Natsuki sighed. Did she really want to love Shizuru or was it just out of pity?
"I think you should sleep now and we talk some other time."
"Ok . . . Night Duran."
"Goodnight sister."
Duran had heard the slight footsteps on the other side of the closed door. So he suggested to go to sleep. But it seems that he was too late.
She heard our conversation.
She wanted to make sure Natsuki had everything she needed therefore she just wanted to knock but stopped as she heard the conversaton between the two.
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"Sigh . . .I don't know what to tell you . . . She said you loved her before you lost your memory. Maybe you will love her again."
"I am not sure if I want that. . . "
"I think you should sleep now and we talk some other time."
"Ok . . . Night Duran."
"Goodnight sister."
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Shizuru stood shocked at the door. No . . . that can't be. Natsuki . . .
She felt as if she just jumped off a cliff and hit the ground head first. Tears started streaming down her face. Shizuru started to walk to her room and changed her clothes. She seemed like she was on auto pilot. I have nothing to loose anymore.
Silently she stepped out of the front door and started walking. She didn't know where her feet were carrying her. But it didn't matter to her. She wanted to be as far away from Natsuki as she could be.
End chapter 10
Yeah I know it is another cliffhanger . . . I am so bad ;)
What will Shizuru do? Where is she going?
See . . . I didn't kill Shizuru nor Natsuki . . . Thank you for not killing me. I hope I am allowed to live a little bit longer to write another chapter. Please??
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