"Hey, Clarke?" Bellamy's voice carries from another room.

"What?" "Can you come here? I don't feel like yelling." I sigh softly and set my book down on the night stand, the lumber off to find him.

Bellamy is standing in the kitchen, his phone in his hand. "What's up?" He pauses for a moment and takes in my appearance: a pair of shorts I had in college and a sweat shirt that I'm pretty sure hasn't been washed in two months; my hair is up in a messy bun. "Were you planning on getting up at all today?"

I make a face at him, "Shut up, it's Saturday. Not all of us work every day of the week and find the need to be business attire all the time." "Hey!" Bellamy says, defending his choice in apparel, a suit. "I have a meeting in, twenty minutes."

I roll my eyes. "Okay, what did you need?"

"Alright so I'm going to be gone till probably eight, so you'll need to figure out dinner by yourself, or I can pick something up on my way back." I nod. "Yeah okay, I'll text you what I decide."/p

He grabs his briefcase, and phone and starts heading toward the door. "And if you could foolproof the apartment, remember Octavia and her family are coming over tomorrow."

"Right." I make a mental checklist of what will need to be done. He gives me a quick kiss on the cheek, and then leaves.

Roughly a half an hour later, after I've made sure there's no trace of Bellamy and I's deception to be found, Raven shows up at the door carrying a pizza. The scent of warm cheese and pepperoni overwhelms me. "Thank God."

"Human Sex Toy is out for the night, so we finally get to hang out." Her tone is playful, a smirk resides on her face. I laugh. "He's good for more than just sex, you know." I smile a little at my ability to immediately lie.

"Regardless," Raven continues, "we barely hang out because you are always doing something with him." Guilt fills me slightly. Raven and I aren't the best of friends, but she is a great, genuine person and I feel bad that it I've ignored her. "I'm so sorry, I haven't meant to-"

Raven smiles widely. "I completely understand. You've been busy planning your wedding and spending time with your fiance. I don't blame you. I mean, I've seen the way you guys look at each other." I pause at her words; the compliment is bittersweet. We're convincing, so we won't get caught, but the fact that we are unsettles me. I know things have been off between us, but I am not sure if I want to just ask Bellamy what's wrong. What if he's getting cold feet or doesn't think I'll be a good fake wife? What if he regrets making a deal?

"You just totally spaced out there. You okay? Thinking about your fiance naked?" I roll my eyes while trying not to blush slightly. "No, just thinking. Do you want to be one of my bridesmaids?"

She squeals excitedly. "Of course!" I smile. "I've been meaning to ask you, I just-" "Have been busy." She finishes for me. "I understand."

A hour later we've broken out the vodka and are somewhat tipsy, laying on the floor in the living room just telling stories and giggling.

"And that's why I really hate birds." Raven finishes. "Oh my god." I say between fits of laughter. "How could that even happen?" "I know, right? One of the worst days of my life." I laugh again, just imagining it.

"So what's being in love like?" Raven asks, sobering up a bit. Oh lord. "It's..." I pause. I'm not actually in love, how am I supposed to explain it? I decide to stick as close to the truth as I can. "It's having someone who always is there for you, to have someone who looks out for your needs even when you don't ask for it." I think of all of the little things Bellamy has done for me like helping me deal with my mom and being there when I saw Finn. "It's never feeling alone, never waking up alone." I pause. That part hasn't been as bad as I thought it could be. Waking up to Bellamy making coffee or sometimes breakfast has actually been really nice. "It's wonderful." I sigh softly.

AN:

Hey! I'm back! I'm so incredibly sorry it's been so long. I kind of was at a standstill with the story, and I have a full time and a part time job, so I've been pretty busy. But this morning on my way to work, I thought about the story and thought I would at least look at it again. And so when I got home I read all the reviews and knew I owed you readers more. I will finish! I promise! Sorry about the shortness of this chapter, but I have a little surprise that I'll be posting soon so hopefully that'll make up for it.

Thanks for reading :)