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Chapter 10

To say the very least, I hate break-ups. Let's back track…

When I walked in the door…

My remaining conscious family just stared as I stalked past them. The tears made it hard to see but I almost instinctively was able to get to the stairs without any trouble.

"What happened?" Charlie asked chasing after me and into my room.

"Jacob b-broke up with me!" I screamed at him with my back to my wall. I broke out into a full sob as I slid down to the floor, repeating the words over and over in my head. I wrapped my arms around my knees and buried my damp face into my dress to keep myself from falling apart. Charlie didn't say a word to me but he sat down and held me in his arms.

"It's going to be alright Maggs. I know it will be." He tried to comfort me. No it wasn't. Nothing would ever be the same.

Charlie moved me to my bed and held me until the tears stopped. Then he kissed my forehead and slowly got up and left my room.

The next morning, well, I tried to get up a few times but my body didn't allow it. I completely shut down. I turned into Bella. No, I won't allow this. I got up and shuffled into the bathroom.

My reflection in the mirror showed a broken girl with black river's staining her peach cheeks. Her eyes were red and puffy, as was the rest of her face. But her eyes had lost their color. They were almost completely grey.

"Pathetic." I said to the image in the mirror. I turned the water on in the shower and let my dress drop to my feet. The cold water pounded on my throbbing face and body soothingly. When I was done, I wrapped a towel around my body and looked in the mirror again. The black rivers had disappeared and my face was no longer red and swollen but my eyes were still grey.

"Better." I said cruelly to myself. I left my dress lying on the floor and took my undergarments back into my room.

A chill brushed up against my wet body when I closed the door. I turned towards the suspect. My window was open wide and the winter air drifted into my room. Without hesitation I stomped over to my window and slammed it shut. I then locked it and closed the curtains. No one is coming in my room today or any other day for that matter.

I dried myself off and got changed into a new pair of clothes. Instead of just a towel, I was wearing an over-sized dark blue cotton jersey t-shirt with a pair of black leggings and black over the knee suede boots with a three inch heel. I replaced my chandelier earrings for black hoops and I added a black necklace with various beads. I put on some heavy eyeliner and mascara with some lips my hair up in a messy bun then grabbed my black trench coat and purse and left the house.

I don't think my mom will mind if I borrow her car. I unlocked the doors and got in. It took a few minutes for the car to warm up and I was out of there. It skidded against the cool ice and slush that rested on the concrete of the road but I could manage. Between skidding on the road I turned on the radio to drown out the silence. I sang along as a song too perfect blasted through the ancient speakers of my mom's car. (My Happy Ending- Avril Lavinge)

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

The all too familiar warm liquid was running down my cheeks again before I could stop it. I quickly wiped them away and tried to focus on the road but that was hard to do when different shades of colors wove through the trees that were lining the back road.

I pulled to the side of the road angrily and kicked the door open.

"Are you people going to hide behind the trees or are you going to come out and talk to me like civilized human beings…oh wait, that'll be a little difficult since you aren't!" I yelled out. Within just a few seconds, Embry and Seth came out of the forest.

"Hey Maggs." Seth said walking up to me.

"Don't call me Maggs. Why are you stalking me?" I crossed my arms and narrowed my eyes.

"We were told to make sure you…were safe." Embry lied right through his teeth.

"What you are really trying to say is that you were told to babysit me so that I wouldn't do anything stupid, right? Newsflash mutt, what I do is none of your business nor is it your Sam's." I spat.

"Sam didn't tell us to…Jake did." Seth admitted.

"Oh did he now? Well you could tell him to go straight to hell where he belongs. What I do with myself is not his concern."

"You're still his imprint Maggie. He needs you alive." Embry stated.

"He should have thought of that before he broke my heart, now shouldn't he?"

"Imagine what it would do to Charlie, to your mom…"

"Shut up already. I'm not going to go kill myself. Who do you think I am? Bella? Please! Boys aren't worth jumping off a cliff for. I'm going to Port Angeles to meet some of my friends to try to make this a 'Merry' Christmas."

"Fine. Do whatever you want but we can't protect you up there. You get yourself killed, it's not on our hands." Embry spat.

"That's exactly what I was aiming for…well, the you not being there part. Are we done here?"

"Yes. Seth, let's go." Embry turned around but Seth just stood there and stared at me. The expression on his face made my heart melt but I had to stand my ground.

"Don't blame him, okay? He didn't want to. He was literately forced to." Seth said before turning away.

"Oh, and one more thing, he wanted you to have this. He was going to give it to you but he had other…orders…" He handed me a small package and another tears escaped.

"Thanks Seth." I hugged him tightly. Just the warmth of his body made me shudder.

"I love you Maggs, we all do. Don't ever forget that. " He whispered.

"I love you too Seth. Get back to Embry before you get yourself in trouble." I kissed his cheek and pulled away.

"Merry Christmas." He waved one last time before he returned to the woods.

I scanned the small present that was wrapped in old newspaper and some duct tape. I contemplated as to whether or not I should open it. If I don't, I'll never know what's inside and the curiosity would kill me. On the other hand, if I open it, memories and feelings will come flooding back and that alone would kill me. From what I concluded, whatever I do is going to kill me so why not open it.

I lent up against my mom's ice cold truck and unwrapped it gently. Inside there was tissue paper protecting what was within. When I finally got to the object, I picked it up out of its wrapping. Dangling from a silver chain was a small, home-made wolf and a round Quileute tribal symbol swaying next to it. On the back of the symbol were poorly carved letters.

J

M

Forever

In my peripheral vision I could see a russet wolf watching me but it did not come closer.

"You are not making this any easier!" I called furiously not looking up from my gift. I heard a small whine come from the wolf's direction but neither of us moved. I shoved it into my pocket and opened the car door forcefully and got in. I slammed the door and revved the engine. I sped off without a second thought towards Port Angeles but a distant howl made my heart sink…well, whatever's left of it anyway.

I didn't know what I would do in Port Angeles but it was far enough away from Forks and all the drama comes with the nearby territory. The stores were open and I brought my credit card.

"Merry Christmas Margaret. Let's go celebrate." I said to myself as I sped up.

I decided to get my hair done along with my nails. I cut my hair so it was now three inches below my shoulders when straight and had layers. My nails were trimmed down to form a perfect French manicure, including my toenails. Pleased with my new hair and nails, I went on to shop for clothes. I ended up in Victoria's Secret, buying a wonder bra that lifted the girls up to where they were supposed to be and a pair of matching undies. I also bought a black pair of slinky silk lingerie but I made it clear to myself that they were cute and they were for me and not anyone else. After that I shopped around for a little bit, bought some more shoes and clothes, including a long pale tan dress that I could wear something nice on New Year's Eve, which is tomorrow.

"That should do it." I said satisfied after shoving all of my bags into the car. Is there anything I could do today? Nope nothing. I could…no…that's…too perfect. I shoved my hands in my pockets, looking for my phone and pulled out something completely different. I held the necklace in my hand and looked at it for a moment. Scenes of what happened last night played in my head and my heart. I forcefully shoved it back into my pocket and pulled out my phone. I took a deep breath and waited for someone to pick up.

"Hello?" an enchanting voice chimed into the phone.

"Bella?"

"Maggs? Wow. I haven't heard from you in a long time."

"I know, I know. Hey, are you free today?"

"I don't know. I'll have to ask Edward. Why?"

"I was wondering if I could come over. Charlie is at Sue's with my mom and Lil is…with the pack." I said reluctantly.

"Why aren't you there too?" I gulped.

"I really don't want to talk about it over the phone. Can I?" She paused.

"Sure."

"Okay. I'll see you in a few Bells."

"Alright."

"Hey Bells?"

"Yeah?"

"Thanks."

"Anytime." We hung up and I started the car. I am so going to get in trouble for this but I so don't care.

I pulled up to the Cullen's residence and parked out of the way of others.

"Maggs!" Bella said with her arms wide open from the doorway.

"Hey Bells!" I jogged over to her and hugged her tightly. She was way colder then I remembered her to be.

"Hello Maggie! My name is Alice. Come inside." A small girl said from behind us. She was inhumanly beautiful and pale with golden eyes like the rest of her kind but she had this…pixie aura about her. She is thin, like, model thin. Also, she has large and her hair is cropped short, spiky, and dark black.

Bella pulled away and moved so I could walk in.

"You're doing great Bella." She said placing a hand on my cousin's shoulder.

"Thanks Alice." She said from behind me.

"Please, sit." Alice said to me. I sat down on the large white couch that was taking up a great amount of the space in their living room.

"So, tell me. What happened?" she asked as she and Bella sat down next to me. I told them what happened, word for word, every specific detail of every event that occurred except for me comparing myself to Bella. I don't think that would have gone over well.

"Jake would never do that unless he was ordered to. He ended our friendship once because Sam said that he had to, but there were some loop holes. Maybe there are some in this situation." She thought out loud.

"What do you think sweetheart?" She said. I was confused for a second but then remembered. Vampire hearing.

"I think you are right, love." He said smiling.

"But he broke up with me. He wasn't ordered to stay away, just to not be with me." I stated as I played the whole night over in my head.

"We'll find a way for you two to be together again." Alice chimed. I don't remember asking for help…

"Don't mind her. That's just Alice." Edward stated. Alice stuck her tongue out at her brother playfully in response. I almost forgot. Edward can read my mind…Dude, get out of my head before I start thinking up really nasty things.

"Fine." He chuckled before walking out of the room with Bella.

"In the meantime, Merry Christmas!" Alice said happily.

"Crap…I forgot. Sorry, I didn't mean to intrude with my problems."

"Oh no no no! It's not a problem. I bought Bella these new clothes but she refuses to wear them. I'm sure they would fit you like a glove…wait…they do! Come with me!" She took my hand in hers and dragged me up the stairs. After a few hours of dress up, Esme, their 'mother' made Renesmee and me dinner. She is one cute little girl and now that I understand what she truly is, I'm no longer confused. Then we opened presents and they sang Christmas carols.

"I've had a great day with you but I really have to get back." I said standing up. I continued to visit my cousin a couple times that week. I can honestly say that vampires aren't that bad of company no matter what the pack said.

"Aw, come on! Please stay!" Nessie said perfectly as she wrapped herself around my right leg like she likes to do every time I have to leave.

"Sorry sweetie. I'll come back again…if I can." She pouted until I picked her up into my arms and kissed her rosy cheek causing her to giggle.

"Bye Bells. Thanks for being there for me." I hugged her tightly, then the others.

"I'll see you soon Alice and I can't wait for our shopping trip." She giggled excitedly and clapped while she jumped up and down.

"Bye!" I called one last time before leaving the house.

On my way home, it started to pour. Thunder rolled and lightning flashed, scaring me enough for me to speed up. But different colors weaving through the trees like before caused me to slow down.

"Shit!" I said slamming on my breaks. Only the headlights from the car gave me any view of the scene before me. The rain dropped to the ground, causing miniature waves as they met. But there was another sight that had caught my eye. In the middle of the street was Jacob with his arms crossed and his face showing obvious anger.

"Are you trying to kill me? Better yet, are you trying to kill yourself?" I yelled still gripping the wheel tightly. His expression didn't change nor did his stance.

"Ugh!" I climbed out of the car into the rain and walked up to my…ex…boyfriend.

"Where do you keep going?" He said with his teeth clenched.

"None of your business. I thought I told Embry to tell you that you have no say in my life now." I shouted over the rain.

"Yeah, well, I didn't listen to him."

"Apparently you didn't listen to Sam either." I stepped closer to him.

"He said I couldn't be with you right now, not that I couldn't see you."

"So it was Sam's order. Sorry to break it to ya babe, but you can't have both. Either be with me and see me, or else stay the fuck away from me and out of my life." I spat reluctantly. His angry expression changed to a sad one.

"Is that what you want?" His voice was broken, like he was. I swallowed and looked away so I wouldn't cry again for the five hundredth time today.

"Is it?" He asked again moving closer to me.

"First, you answer me this. Why can't you be with me?" I asked looking at him again. He hesitated and dropped his gaze on me.

"Sam thinks that if I am with you, George will keep coming back to fight for you."

"That's a load of crap Jake and you know it. If you leave me, I will be unprotected and alone, giving him the perfect opportunity to get to me." He shook his head.

"You would never be unprotected…you just wouldn't have me. Sam thinks that George is drawn to the competition."

"And you believe him?"

"It doesn't matter if I do or not Maggs. I have to obey him. You don't understand how much this kills me." Tears welled up in his perfect brown eyes as he glanced back up at me.

"I know how you are feeling Jake, trust me." I caressed his grief-ridden face.

A howl rippled through the woods as if it was warning us not to get any closer. We stood only inches apart and gazed into each other's eyes. I don't know if I could I forget my feelings for him nor can I just brush off everything that happened between us. Another howl broke me out of my thoughts.

"You have to go. Sam's calling you." I said dropping my hand back down to my side and slowly backing away. I glanced up at him he looked as if he was confused about something. I turned back to the car and shuffled my feet slowly.

"Screw Sam." Jake growled from behind me.

"You're going to…" Jake picked me up into his arms and his lips found their way to mine. He kissed me tenderly, not caring about the freezing rain that was running down our soaked bodies