The young master gasped and fraught as he came back around as though even breathing was to difficult and soon much as predicted the his lungs stopped working again. It was horrible to watch but the earl wasn't in as much pain as it appeared, most of his body numb and his mind hazy from the opium based pain medicine.
Sebastian took the boy's hands into his own and squeezed them gently as he watched him breathe in and stop all over again. "It's okay, Ciel, I am here." he mumbled, as if it would help much. "I'm still here with you."
This time the boy begun to dangerously lose color before he could breath again. Taking a deep gasp only after what felt like forever. His conscious was gone now, not responding to the demon at all.
The demon made a choking noise in his throat and held tighter to the small Earl. "Ciel..." he almost sobbed, dark lashes strangely wet, along with his cheeks. "Please do not go.. I'm sorry." He ran his fingers through his hair, away from his face.
It took hours but slowly the boy came back through, though Sebastian knew that it probably would't last. The boy tugged at his butlers shirt a little, edging closer to his bare chest and rubbing against it.
He stirred lightly, having been almost falling asleep with him in his arms like that. "Bocchan..?" He murmered, cradling him gently as the earl rubbed up against his chest. "You want me to-" he didn't bother finishing it though, and quickly stripped his shirt off, tossing it to the side. Immediately after, he had his arms back around him. "Better?"
The boy nuzzled in and sighed deeply. It felt much better after the shock of crashing so hard.
Sebastian adjusted his grip on the boy and then began gently running his hand up and down his back, trying not to put much pressure, afraid he'd only hurt him more. "Rest."
The little earl soon gave a soft gurgle that even the demon knew was just a precursor to death. He had watched people being tortured and they almost always made those same soft sounds in the hours before there breathing ceased. Sure enough it was moments later that the small boy started to shake a little once more, losing control of his little bladder before his body fell still and breathing stopped.
Sebastian's eyes were wide as he stared at the frail boy in his arms, dying. It sent a strange sensation through his body, and made him feel like he had been plunged into icy waters. "Ciel..?" he whispered, cupping his cool cheek lightly. "Breathe!" he then begged. He drew over him and kissed his mouth, releasing his own air into his tiny body. "I'll breathe for you forever if it keeps you here."
The little earl didn't respond at first but the kiss left his lips tingling and slightly warmer the next time the raven touched them.
Sebastian placed a hand upon the earl's chest as he leaned down again to give him another breath of air, hoping he would feel the beating of his heart begin again.
Thud... Thud thud... ... Thud...
The boys heart was missing beats and sometimes stopping all together.
Feeling his heart beating, even though it was erratic, gave the demon the will to continue forcing air into the boy's lungs. He could feel tingling when he pressed his own lips to the Earl's, and even noticed they were getting warmer, or still warm, and that too made him more determined to continue the CPR.
The tiny body was on the verge of stopping all together but wherever the demon was still pressing seemed to stay warm and pink while the rest of his body cooled and paled. The harder the demon pushed on the boys chest the less erratic the weak bears seemed to become and the more he breathed into the boy the warmer his lips felt. Or was that an illusion?
Sebastian didn't like to give in to hopeful thoughts, when things seemed so grave, but he couldn't help but wonder if he was really seeing the color still in his body, and feeling the heart beating, though skipping a bit. He carefully maneuvered so he sat almost on the boy's lap, and pressed them chest to chest, breathing deeply into his mouth as well. He hoped that by rubbing flesh to flesh he could warm him and bring him back even more. It was all a desperate test of course, but it was worth trying. Anything to keep the Earl alive.
The boy wheezed out one of Sebastian's breaths as though trying to speak though still unable to even breath let alone talk. "ehh?" it was weak, barely audiable but loud enough for demon ears.
Sebastian paused in giving the earl another breath of air when he heard the noise, it was a good sign, but he couldn't stop, or he was sure the boy would just fall back into his corpse like state. He pressed his lips to Ciel's once more, but didn't push air into his mouth, faltering a little as he kept his hand on his chest and felt the somewhat steady heartbeat. He just let his lips stay pressed to the other's and for a moment was at a loss at what to do next.
The boy shivered unexpectedly at the affection, little sparks going through his body and causing him to take one single sharp intake of air.
Sebastian drew back when he felt the other take a breath in. He blinked a few times, to clear his vision, and ran his fingers over his cheek. "Bocchan..?"
The boy whined as he exhaled but couldn't take a breath in again, As though the last was simply a fluke. But it was still enough to hold him alive just moments more.
The demon took that as his cue to continue breathing for him, and rubbed his chest gently as he brought his mouth down to the earl's yet again, breathing deeply for him.
"nn...nnnn!" the small boy snorted and groaned for a few moments. Scrunching up his little face uncomfortably and then going flat once more, just rag dolling under the demon.
Sebastian desperately gave him another breath of air. He rubbed at his chest fervently and kept breathing for him, big breaths in through his nose and out into Ciel's mouth. "Bocchan.. please.."
As though he were listening the weak little lord whined again, just a soft noise to show his butler he was still in there.
He put a little more pressure on his chest and gave him longer breaths of air between a few small ones. He knew his young master was still alive, barely, but it was enough. "I'm going to save you."
The boy took another breath, this time it seemed to be triggered by the gentile pressure on his chest.
Sebastian noticed that the pressure seemed to be doing well for him, and slowly placed both hands on his chest. He pumped his chest gently as he gave him air, still very cautious of hurting him further.
Soon the boys heart settled into the same rhythm as the demons hands while the boy gasped lightly every few breaths. It wasn't much, but ciel was holding on and responding.
Sebastian got into a pattern after a while that seemed to work well. Breathe, push on the earl's chest, breathe twice, spend that same time giving pressure. It looked like the Earl was gaining his color and warmth back, but he didn't let himself feel too much relief about it.
Time sorted by, had the butler been human he would have been far to exhausted to keep the pace the boy needed but on the third hour the boy gasped again and his eyes snapped open, pain washing over him. "s-s-east-ahhh!"
Sebastian nearly fell back when the boy awoke and gasped. He stared in shock at him before shaking out of it. "Ciel? Bocchan..?"
The boy whimpered, tears in his eyes. The raven had been pushing on cracked, already painful rib and it was a horrible feeling of stabbing pain through his chest.
Sebastian fumbled for a moment, and grabbed the cream the doctor gave once again, and began rubbing it onto his chest. "I'm sorry." he whispered, kissing his mouth softly and slowly and very brief, each time he said a word. "I'm so sorry."
Slowly screams of discomfort died down and the boy found himself softly kissing back, wanting more of the tingling feeling.
the ravened male was surprised to be kissed back, but he made no mention of it, and kept placing soft small kisses to his mouth. He felt elated when they kissed, the connection they both shared making several emotions stir in his stomach.
The lord soon became to tired to continue kissing back but managed to reach up and catch a hold of the demons thick, black hair. "s-softer... T-then you... Look... Sebas...tian..." the boy tried to tease, though he was clearly in the grips of death even now.
Sebastian managed a smirk at the master and kissed the corner of his lips then, up his jaw to his ear, which he promptly licked. "Of course. I have to soften up because you're such a fragile made of glass boy." He teased. "You would break if a feather hit you."
The smaller scrunched up his nose in distaste but said nothing.
Sebastian smirked a little and sat up, running his hands up and down his master's chest. "I am.. very happy to see you awake again."
"d-don't be s-silly... Demons... Like y...you dont care... F-for humans..."
"The rules don't apply anymore.. not to me." he said, his hands moving down to his stomach and going back up. "I witnessed the death of someone I cared deeply for, and felt brief pain and mourning. I have fallen victim to so many human- emotions because of you, Bocchan."
"death?" the boy questioned, looking more then a little distant. His one good eye just wasn't
as bright as it should be.
He nodded and cupped his cheek, stroking the soft skin there with his thumb. "You died.. maybe only for a second, but you were dead. I have never witnessed someone die like that. I never want to see it again."
The boy was more then a little shocked to hear this and once more pulled a face Sebastian didn't quite recognize. "you h-ave killed... Before..." he coughed out.
He kissed Ciel's forehead and fluffed the pillows behind him, just for something for his hands to do. "This was different. This was you. That changes it all."
The earl snorted, shifting a little and wincing in pain. "your t- the one w-who will... K... K...I...ll me..."the small boy was struggling hard to keep himself alive, breaths short and ragged.
"Don't push yourself, Bocchan!" He nearly shouted, rubbing at his chest. "Small breaths.. don't speak.. just.. conserve energy."
Another small snort escaped. Whatever was killing him wasn't over. "I... M-must...l-look pathetic t-to a d-demon..."
"On the contrary you look quite appetizing in just your underwear." The demon winked at him, massaging his chest. "Breathe.. slow small breaths."
The boy pouted slightly and his breath hitched as he looked up at his demon butler.
Sebastian frowned and kissed his mouth, breathing a small puff of air in. "Come on, Ciel.. stay with me."
The boy shuddered but accepted the help with a small nod.
He gave him one more deep breath and sat back for a few moments' break. Being a demon was a very good thing at that moment. No human could have done this, he knew. Ciel would have died if he were a human butler. He shuddered at the thought. "Let's get you cleaned up, and fresh warm blankets, hm?" He half-asked. He stripped the young noble of his soiled underwear and began clearing the bed as well, letting him stay comfortably nestled against the pillows. "You're going to get better now."
"when you l-leave..." the boy whispered. "I'll die... W-won't I?"
"I'm going to clean you up, and then carry you with me." the demon replied. "Like a baby on its mothers hip, hm? I think it'll be easier if I keep you with me while getting you things. So we are not apart."
The smaller crossed his arms defiantly. He didnt want to be carried about, just moving hurt.
"No? Well I am sure I have clean blankets stored in here somewhere.." he muttered, standing and checking around. As he predicted, the butler had indeed stored a complete set of sheets, pillowcases and blankets in case it was necessary. He set them at the end of the bed and turned back to Ciel. "Do you want a bath, Master? it might make you feel better."
The boy nodded slowly, already missing the little tingles their contact created.
Sebastian nodded and quickly made the bed again, though not nearly as neat as regularly. He just got the blankets on the bed and crumbled them up enough so the earl could easily crawl into the middle of them. He then scooped Ciel into his arms and headed into the bathroom.
Ciel sighed, enjoying the all to brief contact. It seemed to be the only thing that relieved the tightness in his little chest.
Sebastian drew water into the bath, filling it a little less then usual. He let his lips brush against Ciel's again as he leaned forwards to turn the water off again. "Do you think you can try a little water or soup?" He asked.
The boy shrugged. It was hard to tell if the water would in fact make it better or worse.
After he watched the water for a moment, the demon dipped a cloth into it, and brought it over the earl's chest. "I am not sure you should get in.. If you have another of those seizures in water it will not bode well."
The smaller nodded in understanding. He was far too weak to argue and the demon was most likely on the money. He usually was.
He washed his young master as gently as possible, like he were a china doll. He ran the cloth over his face and neck, and then cleaned his chest and stomach,making doubly sure his chest was warm at all times.
Ciel gave sebastian a small smile. "this is good... I like this..."
"You do?" He asked, returning the smile. "I like this as well." He agreed, wringing out the cloth over his chest before he began scrubbing down his thighs and legs. "Is the water warm enough for you?"
"it would f-eel... cold to me even if it s-calded my skin." the gruff little earl replied
"I wouldn't have it that hot though." He reminded him, cleaning all the way down to his toes.
The boy was just relaxing back when bardroy came busting in, "sebbastian! I need ya help now!"
Sebastian jumped and let out a low growl from his throat, wondering why he hadn't locked the door when he'd come in. "What is it Bardroy?" He muttered, frowning. "The kitchen better be on fire if you are barging in like this." He sighed, dipping the cloth again.
"no! No is lil finny!" the chef almost screamed.
"What about him? .. is HE on fire?" He asked, almost afraid he was going to say yes. He didn't want to stop bathing the young master just yet, it was nice and intimate in a way, but he had a feeling it was done now.
"no he's fallen an he won't get up! We were jus drinkin a lil of that stuff from the otter night!"