A/N: So... I know what I'm going to do with the story now... I know I took so long to update, but things are still happening in my confusing life and fast. The original ending can (for the time being) actually turn out to be a somewhat happy ending and I could easily fit it into the story here with no problems. However, whether I do that or not is a surprise. XP I've already told some of you guys what I was planning on doing and I'm still gonna go somewhere along the lines of that idea I had. So... yeah. That being said, I know I said I'd update "soon" yet it never happened and I'm really sorry! I keep having these stupid break downs and... getting myself to write is getting harder to do. I may not always be quick with updates, but as I've stated before, I won't abandon this, okay? Thank you guys, really. I have the best supporters here. I was not expecting to have so many people with advice and help and everything... I love you guys so much! You all made me realize I really am (somewhat) good at writing and this is all I've ever wanted to do in life is write. So thank you guys, you give me way more support than I deserve for making you all wait so long. Well again, thank you all, I love you guys! Well, enough babbling, okay? Time for the actual chapter to start! Oh and I was too stupid to think of any ethnicities for Matty and after a while just ended up with Russian. .-. If this makes no sense, feel free to rant.
A few days went by and I was actually pretty happy. I hadn't been cutting, I wasn't burning, and I still smoked but I was down to three or four cigarettes a week. Mello and I weren't really public about our relationship, but I didn't really mind. I was just happy to be with Mello at all. When we were in our room, which was most of the time, we'd act the same as usual—just video games and joking around. We'd hug here in there of course, although we didn't really kiss that often. So, maybe I wanted to kiss Mello a little more than I already did. So what? But it was hard because we always got so awkward every time an opportunity came up.
Today started out as a regular Saturday afternoon. We didn't really do much the first half of the day. Mello just studied while I played video games. After a while though, I heard him sigh.
"Matty," he said. "Let's go do something."
"Like what?" I asked, not bothering to look up from my game of Kirby.
"Well, first, put that damn game of yours away," Mello said.
I saved my game before turning it off and setting the game boy down on my nightstand. "What do you wanna do?" I asked.
"Well….. We could always make out," Mello said, grinning. My whole face turned red and he started laughing. "I'm kidding! Sorta… Well, we could, but little Matty is just too nervous to ask, now isn't he?"
"S-shut up!" I stuttered.
"Awww! You're nervous now and I'm barely even talking about it! How cute!"
"I-I am not cute!"
"But you are," Mello teased.
"Just… Stop it!" I finished with a slight Russian accent. Crap. After being in Wammy's for a long enough time, you develop a somewhat British accent. I on the other hand, have a tendency to go back to a Russian accent whenever I'm spazzing out enough.
"Stop what?" Mello said, imitating my accent. Damn it.
"Cut it out!" I shouted, still unable to stop talking like that.
"Cut what out?"
"Stop talking like that, Mells!
"Like what? I'm just talking!"
"Mello, you're just making fun of my accent! Stooop!"
"But I don't want to stop. It's fun!"
"It is NOT!"
Mello just laughed.
"You don't see ME talking with a Slovenian accent just to make fun of you!"
"True," Mello said, talking somewhat 'normal' again. "But I don't talk in an accent when I'm angry."
"….. I can't help it…" I said, returning to a more English accent. "It's not like I've always talked like this…"
"Fair enough. In any case, you're just adorable, Matty! Especially when you get all worked up and start crossing your arms just like you are now. Then you look away and try not to talk in an accent and usually fail at it anyways."
"I am not adorable." I said, uncrossing my arms.
"Okay relax, I'm joking so chill."
I sighed, resisting the urge to roll my eyes and call Mello a dork.
"So what else do you wanna do?" I asked.
"Well, we could always just find something to do. We're always closed up in this damn room like shut-ins."
"Should we go somewhere?"
"Let's go… to the library."
"All you'll do is study. Just come over here real quick."
"Why?" Mello asked. He still got up and walked over to my side of the room before sitting down next to me on my bed. I scooted over closer to him and wrapped my arms around his waist while leaning my head on his shoulder. "Don't we do this enough?" Mello asked, his tone almost teasing.
"No," I answered. I always felt so safe and warm in Mello's arms.
Mello laughed but ignored how ridiculous I was at that moment anyways. He hugged me back and kissed me on the forehead. I looked up at him and placed a soft kiss on his cheek. Then he just smiled at me and ran his hand through over and over again. I lifted my head up for a moment and kissed him quickly on the cheek. I relaxed my head on his shoulder again, smiling to myself. I could honestly stay like this forever and I'd be happy just like this.
But after a while, Mello suggested we actually go do something, so we broke apart before getting up and walking outside of the room. We walked down the halls, looking for somewhere to go. After enough walking, we saw Jason standing in front of a corner in the empty halls with his back to us. I don't think he noticed us, of course. I would have ignored him and kept on walking, but then I noticed that he had some poor kid cornered. Not only that, the poor kid was Near. Wait, what the hell?! So he's the bastard who's been picking on Near?! Why didn't I see this before? He just sat there on the floor in the corner, looking down, holding a broken robot toy. I couldn't really see his face that well but I doubt he'd be showing any emotion, though. I bet anything it pissed Jason off when Near never gave the type of reaction he'd be looking for.
"Answer me, ya little piece of shit!" Jason shouted at Near. "I know that you know what's going on!"
I took a small step forward and was stopped by a hand on my shoulder. "Matty, leave him," Mello whispered. "He can take care of himself." He sounded like he actually regretted what he was saying. I know that even though Mello pretty much hated Near, but I also know that he didn't wanna watch Near take a beating any more than I did. He didn't want me jumping in and getting my ass kicked, though. I shook my head no, taking another small step closer. My gut was telling me that this was something I needed to hear. Mello just walked away, probably expecting me to follow. I didn't though, my feet were rooted to the ground.
"I am not aware of what is currently 'going on' as you have worded it."
"Don't play dumb! You eat lunch with them all the fuckin' time!" What…?
"That does not necessarily mean that-"
"Just tell me! Is something goin' on between them?!" Was Jason….. no, that couldn't be it, could it?
"Perhaps, Jason, if you were more specific about your question, I'd be more…. Capable of answering it. But I do not understand what you mean by that. Please elaborate."
"Is Matt goin' out with that fuckin' blonde?! You have to know at least that much!"
My eyes grew wide and I gasped. Jason didn't seem to hear me, though. Why was it any of his business? Why did he even care? More importantly, why did he sound so jealous? I'm nothing to be jealous over and he doesn't even like Mello. Besides, I'm pretty sure Jason was straight so it's not like he could be jealous over me dating Mello… Oh! It was probably because he can't fuck with me now that Mello's around. I bet he was pissed off about that. And if Mello and I were to start dating, well it'd be even harder for him to do whatever the hell he wants, right? It kinda made sense….
When Near didn't answer, Jason continued to talk. "Well?! The way those two have been acting lately… Something has to be up…" His voice got really quiet. "So….. W-what's going on between them?"
"I do not know the answer to those questions. I am sorry."
Jason sighed out of frustration. "Whatever… " He kicked Near in the stomach, leaving him gasping for air. He did it again three more times, making him fall over. He just left him there, crumpled on the floor, trying to catch his breath.
"Jason!" I found myself calling out before I could even stop it. He froze and turned around to look me in the eyes with pure anger and hatred in them. I flinched back a little. Then, when he seemed to realize who he was looking at, his expression changed into something I couldn't quite read. It almost looked… sad, but that wasn't exactly it. "Don't hurt Near," I said, sounding much more confident than I felt.
He walked over to me and grabbed me by the shoulders, pushing me into the closest wall. I was so terrified. I tried to stand up for Near, and I was just going to get my ass kicked for it. I didn't regret saying anything. I felt good standing up for him. But I did regret that Mello left me behind and that Jason was going to kill me. I knew that I couldn't always depend on Mello's help, though. That would get me nowhere. I flinched a little, waiting for him to just hit me and get it over with. My eyes were squeezed shut, but the blow never came. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Jason looking right at me.
"You are mine," he quietly said through gritted teeth. "Understand? Mine."
"W-what?" Okay, so maybe I was wrong about Jason being straight.
I felt his lips press against mine in a rough, forceful… kiss?! What the fuck was going on here?!My eyes went wide as I struggled as I struggled to get away or push him off- but to no avail. Why was he doing this?! And why now of all times?!
Then I saw someone push him off to the side and I was relieved when I saw that it was Mello.
"Keep your filthy hands and your possibly disease ridden mouth off of Matty," he said venomously. "He is notyours." He glared daggers at Jason as he clenched his fists, breathing hard out of his nose. Jason just stood there, glaring at him.
"Or what?!" Jason called out. "He'll send you to fight his battles for him? Fuck you, Mello. I'll kick your ass this time. I'm ready." They were throwing insults back and forth. I tried to get Mello to stop, but he just wouldn't listen. Then I saw Jason punch Mello in the face.
Now, I was pissed.
I approached Jason, no longer in control of my movements. Then, I just sort of blacked out.
…
What exactly was happening?
"Matty!"
Where was I again?
"Matt, no!"
What was I doing? I didn't even know anymore.
"Stop!"
What happened before this?
"Matty!"
Was this a black out?
"Stop it, Matt!"
What caused me to black out?
"ROGER!"
What did I do?
"Wammy, please help Near!"
…Near…? Why did Near need help?
"MATT!"
Mells?
…
By the time I was aware of myself and everything else again, my hands were hurting along with my nose. I could taste something metallic and I realized that it was blood. Was my nose bleeding? Was my lip busted? Jason kicked my ass again, didn't he? Damn it… I was sitting down. I looked around me. I was in the hallway still. I was suddenly aware of someone's arms around my waist. I saw Wammy standing near me, holding Near who was passed out. Roger was standing to my right and had this disappointed look on his face. I looked down to see that I was sitting on top of Jason whose nose was bleeding. He was actually crying, too.
I was so confused. What the hell just happened? Why is Wammy here? What happened to Near again? Why was Mello now pulling me off of Jason? Better yet, why was I even on him in the first place?
"Way to go," I heard the voice say. Damn it! Just when I thought I was rid of it. Why was I even hearing a voice in the first place? "He's not fucking with you anymore."
Huh?
"Matty!" I heard Mello calling out. "Calm down! It's over, okay?"
I was breathing hard, my fists clenched and my heart pounding. Jason stood up, sporting a busted lip and… I think his nose was broken. His left eye was swollen and his beanie was all messed up, showing some tufts of messy red hair and a few bald spots. He looked scared. Was he… afraid of me? I decided to use that to my advantage.
"Don't. Touch. Mello." I said.
"Matty…" I heard Mello say from behind me. I realized that he was still holding me with his arms wrapped around my waist. I leaned into him just a little and placed my hands on his. I calmed down and my breathing and relaxed a little in his arms.
"All of you," Roger spoke up, "I am going to talk to all of you. At once."
"Roger, perhaps we should wait to-" Wammy started but was cut off.
"I am going to speak with them, Wammy. Whether it be in the infirmary or my office, I am not going to wait." He was clearly losing his patience.
"Perhaps," someone from behind me said softly, "that is best for right now. I myself would like an explanation as well as you would, Roger."
What the hell was going on?!
So... yeah. Thanks for reading! Please leave a review, and let's hope the next chapter is up faster than it took for this.
Ja ne!