This song reminded me so much of what this chapter goes like.

Save you - by simple plan.

Take a breath, pull myself together just another step
till i reach the door.
You'll never know the way it tears
me up inside to see you.
I wish that i could tell you something; to take it all away.
Sometimes i wish i could save you.
Cause' there's so many things that i want you to know.
i won't give up till it's over. If it takes you
forever i want you to know.

Jasper's Point of view.

I was pacing back and forth around the living room. How could this have happened.?

Me loving Bella? No, it was impossible.

Why is it impossible? One side of me said. She's beautiful and smart and..

Shut up! This is just a mistake.

No it's not and you know it. You're in love Bella.

I sat down and shoved my face in my hands. If i thought these thoughts were bad, it was nothing compared to the fact
that even though Alice has been gone for days. The burning desire to be near her was not as strong, or even possibly gone.

I could not deny that inside, i wanted to be with Bella. Or at least just see her face. I looked at the clock, it was midnight. She would most likely be asleep.

I could go there for a second and just see her, then i could tell if i do love her or if i'm just being an idiot.

It took me a good, three minutes to reach her bedroom window. A routine that i had gotten strangely use to.

When i looked in i could feel her emotions before i even looked at her face. She was...Shameful?

I took a closer look at her. She was sitting Indian style a book in her lap and her hair thrown in a high messy bun, just like that she looked gorgeous.

My fist clenched angrily, how could i let myself fall in love with her.?

At that exact moment a shingle broke and cracked in my hand making a loud splintering noise. Bella's hand snapped up, and she looked at the window, hoping.

I smiled, the thought of her hoping i was here made me happy.

"Jasper?" She said, quietly.

"Did i wake you?" I asked, already knowing i didn't.

"No, no." She said as i leaped softly through her window and into her room.

"How was your day?" I asked sitting down on the farthest edge of her bed.

"it was...Great" She was the worst liar i have ever encountered in my hundreds of years.

"Suuuuure" I said, laughing.

"Alright it sucked!" She slammed her book shut and threw it on her desk.

I gave her a sad smile, and it felt like my insides were freezing up while the another side of me was full of joy just to be in her presence.

She smiled back and I knew, without doubt, or any hint of hesitation. I was in love with her. I could not lie to myself, God i was in love with my
wife's best friend and my brothers ex-girlfriend.

How could i have gotten myself into all this shit?

"Can i ask you a weird question?" Bella said abruptly.

"Go for it"

"Have you ever...like...I don't know cared for someone in the way you care for Alice but to someone else?"

I could have laughed at the irony of her question.

"Yes" I said honestly.

"For who?"

Crap. Do i lie to her? Or should i tell her the truth? Should i just keep my mouth shut?

While my mind was racing, Bella stared at me, waiting for my response.

"Well" i finally said after a a few long seconds. "i care a lot about you"

She smiled, a dazzling smile. That made my heart feel like it migh explode out of my chest.

"I care very much for you too"

I don't know about this chapter.

It was just a quick thought that came to mind.

But still the same, i hope you liked it.

Sorry for my grammar errors, i'm to lazy to correct them ;P