WPOV

It hasn't even been a day yet and I already missed Ian like crazy. Jamie was trying to keep me entertain so I wouldn't get bored or anything like that. The truth was I wasn't bored far from it was so funny watching Jamie think about what joke to tell next or make up a totally fake story and try to convince me it really happened.

"Jamie I think you should start heading off to school now" he looked like he was about to argue but I just gave him a "don't even try it" look and he hugged me and walked off to class. I walked/wobbled all the way to the kitchen to see if I could help out a little in there and I bet the baby wouldn't mind if I baked a couple rolls of bread.

"Hey Wanda can I help you with something" lily smiled when I came into the room

"Um, no thank you lily I actually came in here to help you out" I looked at her with pleading eyes hoping she wouldn't say no and send me back to my room.

"Um, Wanda I don't think that's a really good idea"

"Come on lily I know the baby wouldn't mind if I just baked a couple of rolls for everyone" I smiled

"Fine you could mix and knead the dough" lily shrugged

"Thank you soo much lily" I ran up to her and hugged her the best I could. We both went right to work getting lunch ready for everyone; I was just so happy that I was finally allowed to do something around here; I finished rolling up all the rolls and putting them into the oven.

"Here you go Wanda" lily smiled throwing me a shiny green apple I loved apples and everyone in the caves knew that I was about to bit into my juicy apple when I felt like I was about to be sick. It wasn't like I was going to throw up but the thought of me eating the apple way going to make me throw up at any minute I put down the apple I waited a minute waiting for the feeling to go away I picked it back up and tried again…no luck.

"No thank you lily I don't think the baby like apples" I smiled I could tell it was an awkward one I threw the apple back to her.

"Are you sure Wanda are you all right" she came over to the other side of me and tried to lead me out the door by holding on to my elbow.

"No I'm fine lily I promise I'm okay" I tried to stop her but she was just so strong.

"I can take her" I looked around trying to find out were that voice came from.

"Thanks she needs to go see doc" lily responded; I was still looking all over trying to find the voice's owner. Just then I saw Mel; it felt like my heart dropped down into my stomach and couldn't find its way back up into my chest. I missed her so much but I had no idea how to act around her anymore she kissed my man and wasn't even sorry about it.

She hates me and I know it, I yelled at her and called her all theses names and cursed her out, if someone did that to me I wouldn't like them very much. Lily patted me once on the back before heading back to the kitchen to clean up; leaving me here with Mel, I didn't even wait for her to say anything I just started walking down the tunnel that lead to my room. Mel didn't say anything she just walked quietly behind me which I was fine with I didn't mind being followed down a dark tunnel one bit. I got to the door and pulled it aside contemplating whether or not to let her come in. I decide to let her come in because I knew she would just move the door and come in if I decided to keep her out side. I walked straight to the mattress and sat down in Ian's side so I could breathe in his sent that I missed so much.
"So Mel…what do you want" I turned around to address her trying to keep my voice steady and calm but my voice still broke at the end. She looked like she was crying or just tired.

"I-I wanted to talk to you privately" she looked straight at me with a gaze that was strong and powerful which instantly made me mad why couldn't I do that.

"About what" I thought my voice would sound strong any powerful just like Mel's eyes but it just came out in a horsed whisper she came over to the bad and sat down in front of me and looked down at her hand for a second before focusing her attention back on me.

"About what happened between us in the fields" she sighed looked everywhere but at me.
"When you say us do you mean me and you or you and Ian" I wasn't trying to be smart or anything I really wanted to know. I felt something wet fall on my hand I looked up at the ceiling trying to see past the crack in the ceiling for any signs of rain. Nothing just blue skies and a few wandering clouds I looked around trying to find the source of the water I felt something tickle the side of my cheek I put my palm up to my cheek and realized I was crying…great just when I was trying to be all strong and powerful I start crying and don't even know it. I looked at Mel and saw she was looking down at her lap crying too; In my heart all I wanted to do was go over to her and comfort her and tell her everything was all right …but in my mind I knew I couldn't because everything was obviously not alright.

"Both" she whispered

"Well okay then which one do you want to start with" my voice came out a bit harsher than I intended it to be.
"ever since I got my body back I've been feeling these feelings for Ian and I ignored them thinking they would just go away…but they didn't. all I want was Ian and me to be together and have him all to myself, every night I would dream about how good it would feel to have him arms wrapped around me and not you…knew it was wrong and I tried hard to push those thoughts and feelings out of my mind and focus all my attention on Jared…but, it seemed that Jared was more interested in you than her was with me. He thinks I don't see the way he looks at you but I do. And I felt jealous Jared was suppose to love me and not you that's what we were fighting for all along…but it seemed everything back fired in my face. Then one night I came over to your room to try to tell you about these feelings I was having for Ian and how I thought Jared might love you more than he should…but then when I got to you door I hear you and Ian having sex and I lost it. I was extremely pissed, hurt, betrayed and confused I had no idea how to respond to any of it. Then that night something in my mind convinced me it would be okay and hurt you by trying to steal him from you. So few weeks later when we were all sitting around eating and you got sick and ran off to the bathroom I decided that I would follow Ian to your room and try to get him to fall in love with me. I followed him all the way to your room and waited to see what he would do next I felt like an insane psycho path just sitting there watching him walk around the room waiting for you. I could see him trying to decide whether to go check up on you or just stay there. Finally, he laid down on the bed and closed his eye I moved away the door and walked up to him and laid down next to him I kissed him on the lips…I expected him to kiss me back but he didn't I felt his body freeze under me. He pushed me away and started yelling at me and started saying all this stuff about how could I betray you like this and all this other stuff that made sense. Then I instantly felt pissed and hurt and-all these other emotions. Then that night at the soccer game I saw the way he looked at you and saw how happy he was and I was just so angry that I wasn't the cause of it. So I dragged you out to the fields and lied to you. And every little thing you said you me that night was true I betrayed you, I pretended to be happy with you when I obviously wasn't. And then you told me you were pregnant then I felt even more disgusted with myself than I was before. An-and I realized I messed up everything between us and I hated myself a little bit more everyday for trying to ruin your happiness just because I was being a selfish bitch." Mel was sobbing uncontrollably now and was shaking; I instantly understood what she was going through and why she did the things she did. I should have known Mel would never hurt me like that.

"it's okay Mel I forgive you…and the whole time we were fighting I still loved you with all my heart" I scooted closer to her to a could hug her and try to make her feel better but it seemed my apology just made her even more upset I sat there rocking her back in forth in my arms trying to calm her down and show her how much I loved her.

"I'm so sorry Wanda" Mel cried over and over again I sat there and kept telling her it was alright and that I loved her; She stopped crying about 2 minutes ago but, still held on tight to me.

"Wanda…I-is it okay if I f-feel you stomach" she looked down at me like she was afraid of what I might say.

"Well, of course you are it's auntie after all" I smiled up at Mel and hugged her one last time before I pulled up my shirt so she could see my bulging stomach. Mel smiled at me and put her hand on my belly and rubbed it softly.

"Wanda?" Mel looked up at me with a weird expression on her face

"Yea Mel" I looked down at her trying to find out what the problem was.

"I'm so happy that I got you back" she smiled at me and pulled me into another hug

"Me too" I hugged her back the best I could and held on tight to her refusing to ever let go.

Yeeaahhh! Second one today I'm still really sorry about not posting for three days but I'm just gonna tell you to deal with it lol jking (sorta…just a little) keep review and Thxs for all the hits!

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