Chapter 10

The next morning they all left Hogwarts. The Weasely's insisted that Harry and Hermione come to the burrow with them and stay at least until after all the funerals. Harry reluctantly agreed to do so. He could barely speak to Ginny anymore. He felt like he was numbed to everything. Hermione was worried about Harry. He rarely left Ron's room except to use the restroom and eat. He wasn't talking to anyone. And it had only been a few hours.

Harry sat on his cot staring at the wall alone. Ron was downstairs helping clean the house. Harry's mind raced over the past few days events. The battle still tormented him daily. He wasn't sleeping much because every night the nightmare would come. He had tried every thing he could do to keep everyone from knowing that it was happening. He was sitting there thinking when the door opened and Ginny walked in.

"Harry, Dinner is ready." She said loudly. "HARRY"

"Oh What? I'm sorry I didn't hear you come in."

"I've noticed. Come on we can walk to dinner together."

Harry stood up and slowly walked with her out the door. He walked with his head bowed and wasn't really looking where he was going. Ginny noticed and stopped putting her hand on his arm.

"Harry talk to me. What is going on? You don't talk to us or look at us anymore."

"I don't know why."

"Harry don't give me that. I know you know why your like this."

"I'm trying not to be. I honestly wish I could talk to someone but I can't. Every time I do I remember every one that was lost and I can't allow you all to burden yourself with me."

"Harry your not a burden. We want to care. We all want to help."

"I am sorry I'll try to remember. For the most part now I feel pretty numb. I feel like a part of me died when we lost them."

Some where in the house a radio had been turned on and a song started blaring as they started walking again. The song got louder as they neared the kitchen. They quickly found their seats across from each other. Harry looked down at his plate and never met them in the eye. Molly tried to pretend she didn't notice but Ron was getting angry. He was tired of feeling ignored by his best friend.

Ron glared at Harry before finally speaking. "Harry why are you even here?"

Harry looked up into his best friends dark angry eyes and just shrugged his shoulders. Hermione gasp as she looked between her friends. Molly looked like she could kill her son.

Harry looked uncomfortable as his friend looked ready to kill him. The rest of the family started to eat quietly. Harry just stared. Ron felt his blood start to boil.

"If all you can do is shrug your shoulders and stare maybe you should just leave. I don't know about anyone else but I'm tired of being ignored."

Harry stared at all the family. Hoping that one person would tell him to stay. But no one did. It was like they all wanted him to leave. He lingered on Ginny as he looked at her. But even she wouldn't ask him to stay.

Harry remembered all those sweet moments between Ginny and him. Pain shot threw him like an electric bolt. He felt like he was hit by another killing curse. He loved her so much but now it seemed like she didn't love him in return.

Harry thought about everything that had happened to him and the Weasely's. Of course they wouldn't want him there. They were just being nice. It was all his fault. They wouldn't hurt if not for him.

Harry looked around again and looked at Ginny one more time. Tears started to fall from her eyes. That was enough for Harry. He couldn't stay and cause her more pain.

Harry stood up abruptly causing his chair to slam against a cubboard behind him. "Damn it all to Hell I'm done." he yelled.

He quickly strode his way over to where Ginny was sitting. Pulling her to stand in front of her he gently kissed her as the passion grew between them. Then he quietly pulled away from the kiss.

He looked at her before he spoke. "I'm sorry but Ron's right I shouldn't be here. I've caused every one too much pain."

"I'm sorry every one. If I don't see you all again Have a great life." Harry said sadly. He quickly walked out the door and apperated hearing several cries behind him.

He arrived at Grimmwald place and walked into the parlor where he fell asleep almost immediately. It had been a very emotional day.

Back at the Burrow, Ron had never wished that he could keep his stupid mouth shut more in his life. After his mum was done yelling at him, Ginny started and where Ginny left off Hermione took up. An hour later every member of his family had yelled at him including his father who never yelled at him.Harry woke with a start to a noise down the hall. All of a sudden Kreacher popped into the room saying men in black robes had gotten in. Death eaters Harry thought immediately. He quickly closed the door and fixed a spell to keep it shut for a while. He instructed the house elf to go to the ministry and tell Kingsley right away and then to the burrow for help. The elf quickly popped out of the room. Harry braced himself for the onslaught of death eaters that he knew that was coming in. He could hear them now out side his door. With a flash of light it burst in and a killing spell shot towards him. He managed to dodge that one as he sent a stupefy spell towards the death eater who he could not recognize. Soon he had several he was dueling at one time.

The burrow was silent as the angry Weasely's sat in the parlor not talking to anyone. All of a sudden Kreacher popped into the parlor with them.

"Master Harry needs help. Men in black cloaks have entered and Master is alone."

Arthur jumped up followed by Bill, Charlie, Percy and George.

"Ron you stay here to guard the girls. I need you girls to stay here and gather medical supplies. We have no idea what we are coming up against." Arthur said as he led the older boys out of the house and apparated to Grimwald place. The quickly made their way to where Kingsley and a group of aurors were gathered to get ready to go in.

"Arthur what are you lot doing here?"

"Harry sent for us."

Kingsley explained the plan and they all started to go in. Arthur leading his boys in behind the aurors. As they entered the very large room no one noticed that they had entered. They stood in awe watching as Harry dueled eight death eaters at one time. Suddenly two purple flashes lights hit Harry in both shoulders. He stumbled back but threw back another curse back at them. He was losing his will to fight slowly. They watched as Harry dropped his arm as a death eater started to cast a killing curse at him.

In unison Aurors and The Weasely's all cried out Protego casting a shield around Harry. Soon they all were dueling. Twenty minutes later the Death eaters were all captured thanks to the fact that they could not apparate inside of Grimwald place anymore.

Arthur and Kingsley were talking as the other Aurors took them to jail cells to await trial.

"Why was he here alone?" Kingsley asked.

"Harry hasn't been doing very well. He rarely talks unless spoken too and my son Ron finally had had enough and said some things he really didn't mean." Arthur said.

"What exactly did he say that would make Harry leave?"

"He said that if he wasn't going to talk to anyone maybe he shouldn't be there. We tried to get Harry to stay but he apparated away too fast."

Slowly they turned back to where Bill and Charlie stood watching Harry. Harry was bleeding severely and was about to pass out. Bill ran forward followed by the rest.

"Why do you bother with me? Don't you know by now I only hurt people. I'm not worth it." Harry said as he passed out. Charlie caught him. Quickly they headed outside. Arthur apparated before the boys got outside and ran into the burrow.

"Everyone is alive. Harry has been hurt they will be here in a moment. Ron you will stay in the parlor we still need to have a long talk."

With in seconds Charlie and Bill walked in carrying Harry. Molly directed them upstairs to Ron's bedroom. Percy and George walked in to see pandemonium in the house. George took Ginny and Hermione up to Ginny's room where they could talk in private. Percy left for his flat in London for a few hours. Bill and Charlie along with Arthur and Fleur came down stairs and went into the kitchen to make some tea and talk. Kingsley was in the kitchen when they arrived.

Arthur and Kingsley discussed the ministry and what happened tonight as Molly entered the kitchen. Every one looked up.

"Harry is fine. He is no longer bleeding and his cuts are healing. He is sleeping right now. I think this might be the first real sleep he has gotten in some time.""

Arthur put a spell up so that no one could hear their conversations.

"Kingsley, Molly I believe we have to worry about Harry. Before he passed out He said some things about bothered me. He asked why we bothered with him. That all he caused was pain and he wasn't worth it. I don't understand why he said that."

"It sounds like he is still blaming himself." Molly said sadly.

"What can we do?" Bill asked.

"We can't leave him alone. And we can't allow him to leave right now. His mind set is to delicate for him to be himself." Kingsley said.

George and the girls were talking quietly. George had put a charm on the room so that no one could hear them and they couldn't hear anyone else.

"Well he hasn't been talking very much" Hermione said.

"He talks to me." Ginny said so quietly that they barely heard her.

"What?" Hermione asked in surprise.

"He talks to me when I can get him alone. Today when I got him for dinner we talked. He told me why he doesn't talk to anyone."

"Why?" George asked.

"He feels like he is burdening us. If he talks to us all the loss just comes back. He doesn't want to be a burden to us." Ginny said sadly.

"He isn't a burden He's family." Hermione said.

"Hermione you have to understand. Harry has never had a real family that worries and cares about him. He is used to holding it all in and taking care of it himself. Remember how he was when Sirius died? Well that was him taking care of it himself. Instead of being angry this time he is depressed." George explained. "He asked us why we bothered with him. That all he causes is pain and how he wasn't worth it before he passed out. I don't think he has really slept since the night after the battle.

Harry was in a dreaming state he remembered well now. Slowly he visioned himself walking through Hogwarts as he neared the corridor where Fred died he saw Fred's body and his ghost standing there. The battle was still raging but Harry couldn't hear any of that. As he got closer Fred's ghost looked at him with anger filled eyes.

"Why Harry did you let this happened?"

"I'm sorry Fred. I didn't mean this to happen."

"you killed me. I fought for you and you got me killed."

Harry spun into another scene in the great hall to face Remus and Tonks ghost to hear them say the same things but adding the fact that their son was now an orphan because of him.

He spun to see Sirius and Moody who blamed him too.

Then spun to a scene with Voldemort. Voldemort was standing in the great hall pointing his wand at Ron, Hermione, and Ginny.

"Now Potter before you die you will watch as your friends die first."

Harry was bound by ropes that he struggled with frantically.

Ron was in the parlor sitting on the couch feeling as low as he had ever felt. He could hear screams of I'm sorry and I didn't mean to coming from upstairs. He slowly realized it was Harry. He jumped up and noticed that no one else seemed to hear him. He quickly ran up the stairs to his room and opened the door. Harry was asleep but struggling with unseen obstacles.

"NO DON'T KILL THEM. TAKE ME I'M THE ONE YOU WANT."

"Harry wake up. It's just a dream."

"RON! NOOOOO" Harry screamed as he continued to struggle ripping one of his newly healed wounds open again.

"Come on Mate you have to wake up."

"HERMIONE NOT YOU TOO." Harry cried out as he ripped the other one open as well.

"GINNY OH GOD NOT HER TOO. JUST KILL ME NOW. I WANT TO BE WITH MY FRIENDS. JUST LET ME BE WITH THE WOMAN I LOVE AND MY TWO BEST FRIENDS." Harry screamed as the killing curse on his chest reopened.

"FRED, REMUS , TONKS, COLIN, SIRIUS, NO YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME I DIDN'T MEAN FOR YOU ALL TO DIE."

Ron stood for a mere second before running down the stairs to the kitchen. He couldn't get in with the spells that his dad had cast. He could see his dad at the end of the table and with tears falling down his face he tried desparately to get his attention. He started to throw furniture at the doorway to try to get their attention. Finally after throwing his dad's favorite chair his mum and dad came rushing out.

"RONALD BILIUS WEASELY WHAT DO YOU……" Molly started as Ron grabbed her hand wordlessly and dragged her up the stairs. "THINK YOU ARE DOING?" She finished before finally hearing Harry's screams.

"Mum…..Harry……wounds……opened…….back……up…….killing one……too." Ron managed to say between sobs. "Do……Something."

"Ron go to Ginny's room with the girls and George after you get your father." she said as she went into the room. She stared in fright at the sight in front of her. Blood was covering Harry and his sheets. He was still dreaming. His screams surrounded her like a cloak she couldn't take off. Arthur and Kingsley followed by Bill and Charlie entered the room and looked like they were going to pass out at the sight. Bill and Charlie left quickly to go to the room with George and the girls. Fleur stayed in the kitchen making more tea.

George was shocked to find a sobbing Ron on the other side of the door when he finally opened it. Relunctantly he let him in and took a seat next to him on Hermione's cot. Soon Bill and Charlie entered the room and sat on the floor.

"What is going on?" George asked.

"Harry was having a nightmare and Ron went to check on him. He has opened every wound on his body back up in his sleep. Mum is trying to fix him up now." Bill explained.

"Any idea what the nightmare was about?" George asked.

Ron looked up and after a few minutes he settled down so he could speak. "I'm not sure but he kept saying he was sorry and that he didn't mean it to happen to fred and the others. Then he was screaming no and it was like he was tied up or something. He was screaming no and he mentioned me and Hermione and Ginny. When he got to Ginny he couldn't control himself. He was begging for death it seemed."

"Ron is this the first time you have heard him scream in his sleep?" Charlie asked.

"No"

"He wouldn't have. Harry hasn't been sleeping." Ginny said as tears fell from her eyes.

"Ginny how do you know that?"

"He told me the other night. Begged me not to tell anyone. He says everything comesback to him when he sleeps."

"He talks to you but not anyone else?" Bill asked.

"He says he talking brings back all the memories of those gone and it feels like he is burdening us."

"He's my best mate. Why would he think he was burdening me? I want to help him."

Ginny took a long breath before she looked into her brothers troubled eyes and said "Ron Harry knows that we all want to help him but right now he doesn't even know what that might be. He is still feeling guilty and even though he knows we don't blame him and that it really isn't his fault He still feels it. Mostly because we are the only family he has ever known. And we are member short because of Fred's death. And it was because he met us and became close to us that we started fighting. Do you think any of us would have fought half as hard if it wasn't for him? I don't really think I would have. Fear would have ruled for me. He was what made us strong. And because of that he feels responsible. He has always had to be strong. And for the first time he can depend on some one else and it's hard for him. He's never had some one who would help him pick up the pieces."

"Gin when did you get so wise." Charlie asked staring at his sister as if it was the first time he had ever seen her.

"When I gave my heart to a man who doesn't realize he deserves to be loved." She answered.

No one said anything for the longest time. Molly knocked on the door and poked her head in "Harry is ok. I've stopped the bleeding and he is on the mend. I've made arrangements for some dreamless sleep potion to be sent over and soon he will finally be getting some real sleep. Now every one come down for some tea. Ron your father and Kingsley both wish to speak to you so I suggest you just stay here. They will be in directly."

They all left Ron looking scared and alone. It was never a good thing when the minister of magic and your father wanted to speak to you.