Mulder and I were sitting on the couch together when I heard my Mother opening the back door. I had been sitting sideways in Mulder's lap and moved off him when I heard Mom enter the kitchen.
I could not tell if he was upset because I'd moved or simply because he wished we could have stayed like that. It was different, nice even. We sat for most of the morning whispering to each other, talking things through.
I had forgotten how wonderful it felt to be affectionate with someone that you love. Though I consider Mulder the only man I have ever truly been in love with, the times in the past were not even close to the feelings I was experiencing now. It is nice to be intimate, to share things.
I still feel giddy about the shower incident this morning. It's not like I'm a virgin over here or anything but wow...What happened this morning was border line pornographic! It's not just how it happened though; it is the fact that it did happen, Mulder and I? Have intercourse? Well, we did and it was extraordinary!
Perhaps my experience has been quite vanilla in comparison to Mulder's although I suspect his collection of videos that aren't his have something to do with the moves he pulled in the shower. Perhaps the fireworks that are going off in my body are just from the excitement of it all. I hadn't been touched by a man in so long and it has definitely awoken some lady instincts that were until very recently quite dormant.
So what? I can go almost five years with no intimate contact and now I want to do it again after less than four hours? I'm a doctor; I know how these things work.
I didn't have long to have this internal debate before my Mother decided to enter the room. She stopped short and looked at us strangely. Straight away I thought something had given us away. Then I noticed how far away on the couch I had moved from Mulder and realised the problem.
"Is everything alright dear?" Maggie enquired looking between Mulder and I.
Mulder stayed quiet, obviously he wasn't sure either so I jumped in quickly to smooth things over.
"Everything is fine Mom, just sitting on the couch with Mulder" I said calmly.
She seemed to accept my answer and shaking her head left the room.
"You alright Scully," Mulder finally steps in.
"Yeah, I'm fine," he was frowning. "Really Mulder, everything is okay".
"Are you going to jump ten feet away from me every single time your Mom comes into the room?" he sounded so sad.
I hated that I was making him upset. He already spends enough time blaming himself for everything that is wrong in my life when ironically he is what makes everything right in my life. I knew I needed to explain my feelings to him, Mom had gone upstairs to wash up so I knew I had time.
I climbed into his lap moving my legs both sides of his hips and wrapped my arms around his neck resting my forehead against his. "I love you" I whisper.
He nuzzles me and I stare into his eyes, it was now or never.
"I don't want you to misinterpret my behaviour Mulder so I am just going to explain it the best I can, okay?"
"Sure, go ahead Scully". He smiles.
"Mulder...you know I haven't had an intimate relationship with anyone for a long time".
He nodded.
"Well, after this morning I think you really woke up the dragon, so to speak" I knew I was blushing.
His eyes widened.
"I have all this nervous energy, I haven't felt like this for a long time and I'm having trouble keeping my hands to myself! If you know what I mean" I looked up at him.
He was smiling "that's not a bad thing Scully," he whispers against my lips.
I smile against him, "we are in my Mother's house!" I whisper loudly as if this explains it all.
"So what you're trying to say Scully, is that, you are hot for me and our sexual chemistry is off the chart right now, and even though we had incredible shower sex this morning you are feeling frustrated and angsty because you are craving me" he was being smug.
I was too preoccupied to be angry with him for being smug, my eyes were closed and I was trying to breathe deeply, trying to calm down. The proximity wasn't helping things.
"I wish you wouldn't make fun of me Mulder," I stated simply.
"I'm sorry Scully. I know this has sort of snuck up on you" he was settling on being more serious now.
I couldn't contain myself any longer. "Why did we EVER wait to do THAT?" I whispered loudly and hung my head until it rested on his shoulder.
He chuckled lightly. "What are you thinking about Scully?" He asks.
"I'm thinking this is going to be the most difficult week of my life" I sigh. "I can't not spend this time with my Mom Mulder, but I so badly want to just take you home and ravish you for a week" I blushed at my bluntness.
"I'm certain we can find creative ways to get around being in your Mother's house Scully" he whispers seductively.
Normally, I would not even consider planning sexual encounters under the same roof as my Mother but I felt a desperate need to be close with him again and soon.
"Make it happen Mulder" I kissed him passionately.