After dinner we decided to go back to the hotel everyone was staying at and hang out.
Dean, AJ, Seth and Liz were in the living room watching TV and Phil and I went outside and sat on the balcony. He poured me a glass of wine and himself some mineral water.
"So how have you been." he said handing me the glass of wine.
"Thank you. Things are good. How's the road been."
"The road it's been rough, good but rough."
After he told me about the road I just looked out at the lights of the city and I think phil noticed.
"Hey you alright."
"Hmm oh yeah I just have a lot on my mind."
"It's been 7 months since john died. I got a letter from his mom a couple weeks ago. She was going through some of his personal papers and she found a letter that john had written me. He wrote it 2 months before he died."
"What did the letter say."
I could feel the tears building up in my eyes. My whole body started to shake. Phil could tell I was upset he took the glass from my hand and put his arms around me.
"He wrote to tell me he knew he was dying. When I read it to myself it felt like he was sitting right there next to me. I was so angry after I read the letter. He knew he dying and he told me nothing he hid it from me. Maybe if I knew about it I would have been able to accept it better but kept this from me."
"I wish there was something I could say to help you but I can't."
"Just having you here really helps phil. Thank you."
"Anytime I'm always here for you."
I smiled at phil, he kept his arms around me and held me tight.
Over the next couple days liz and I spent all our time hanging with the guys and it was fun.
One warm afternoon everyone was over at Liz's place cooling off in the pool.
"Seth stop it I mean it don't you dare dunk me."
"Oh come on Lizzy your no fun. It's just water you won't melt."
I stood there and watch Liz tunr her back on Seth which was a mistake he picked her up and tossed her in the pool but liz turned around and grabbed hold of Seth's sleeve and they both went into the pool.
Me, Aj, Kaitlyn, Dean and Phil could not stop laughing.
Later that night Liz went with the gang to get some pizza and munchies and I stayed behind with Phil.
Phil and I decided to go for a walk in Time Square. Phil was worried he would be recognized so I gave him something to wear she he wouldn't get recognized.
"Lisa are you sure no one will recognize me in this get up."
"Well you relax if no one could recognize me in it they won't recognize you. But if any one ask you're my friend from California."
I took phil everywhere. When he's wrestling he never really has time to go sightseeing. One of the places I took him to was on my favorite ice cream parlor. We got some ice cream and then headed to a park with a great view.
"Wow lisa this place is gorgeous."
"Yeah I would come here a lot."
I looked over and saw a group of children playing I didn't even realize it but I let out a sigh and phil heard it.
"What's wrong lisa."
I didn't answer him I just kept watching the kids playing.
Back at liz's place we settled in for a night of movie's, pizza and munchies.
Liz sat on the floor next to seth with Aj and dean and kaitlyn next to them.
And I sat on the couch with phil.
While we were watching the movie I placed my head on Phil's shoulder. Then phil took his arm and put it around my shoulder and his hand brushed the back of my neck and within seconds I felt the butterflies when his hand touched my exposed skin.
I guess Phil felt me shiver which made him tighten his arm around me.
I was so relaxed I fell asleep before the movie was over.
"Phil I think she's asleep."
I could feel phil remove his arm from under my head.
"I hate to wake her, she hasn't been sleeping much lately."
"Where's her room I'll take her there."
"It's just down the hall second door on the left."
I could feel phil pick me up and without even thinking I put my arms around his neck.
Phil took me to my room and placed me gently on the bed. I could feel him brush a piece of hair off my face. When he did that I felt something I didn't know what but it was something.
I wonder if phil was starting to feel the same way or if he just thought of me as a friend.