To See You Again Chapter 10: A Life, Lost Edward's POV, a twilight fanfic

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A Life, Lost - Edward's POV

Death

is not the greatest loss in life.

The greatest loss

is what dies inside us while we live.

Age 24

As I walked back down the long hallway to Bella's room, with my family trailing behind me, I began to worry about the state that Bella would be in when we got there. I knew that Carlisle had the intention of telling her about the baby when I walked out the door. Neither Carlisle, nor I, knew how she would react to what has happened. I had warned my whole family before bringing them back here and had asked them to not come in the room for a minute or two so that I can go and make sure that she's alright.

When I got the door, I didn't hesitate this time. I just walked straight in. But when I saw Bella just staring off into space I got worried. I looked at Carlisle who, also, had a worried expression. I walked over to the bed and sat in the edge beside her, being sure not to do anything that would cause her harm or pain. I reached for her hand. The second our hands touched, she began to slowly turn her head towards me. He expression was extremely vacant. But, as soon as her eyes met mine, they began to water and a frown came over her face.

"I'm a terrible person." She whispered it so low that I almost didn't hear it. Then, she burst into painful sobs and put her face in her hands, I quickly moved towards her, took her in my arms and held her tight as she cried. I rubbed her back and whispered soothing words in her ear. Eventually her crying calmed and her breathing had evened out. Her hands were still grasping the front of my shirt so tight, I worried that she might hurt herself. when I finally looked up and took my head out of her beautiful hair, I saw my family watching us. they knew that I still loved her, who wouldn't. But, i'm not sure if they realized just how much damage had been done to her. Especially Rosalie or Emmett. Carlisle was holding Esme close to him as a few tears went down her cheeks. I knew that it must be tearing them up inside to watch their other daughter go through this. Alice was, to my surprise, trying to soothe Jasper. This surprised me only because Jasper is usually the one who always did the soothing. And I mean always. I knew that Alice was hurting to but, it was nice that she understood how hard this was for him. I then looked to Rosalie and Emmett. This was an even more... bizarre sight. Rosalie was standing, alone, crying into her hands, while Emmett was standing only a few inches away, by himself, looking completely reserved, when he realized I was looking at him, he took his eyes off of Bella and met mine. I saw the undeniable pain and suffering in them. After only a few seconds, he turned from me and back to Bella. But, Bella looked up and into his eyes and gasped at what she saw in them. Emmett looked at her for only a moment longer and then sprinted from the room. I went to go after him when I felt Bella grab onto my shirt even tighter and whisper to me.

"Please don't leave me..."

How was I to respond to that ? I couldn't leave her when she talked to me like that. I looked at her and leant back and held her tight. I looked up at Carlisle and he immediately got the message. He kissed Esme on her head and walked toward the door to go find Emmett. Esme then moved towards Rosalie and comforted her. I was taken from my surroundings, however, by some sniffles and scattered breathing coming from beside me. Bella had started to cry again but, this time it was different before. It wasn't as heavy, but still sounded like she was in enormous amounts of emotional pain. I kissed her head reassuringly, letting her know I wasn't going anywhere and she just held onto me tighter in response. After a few more moments, Esme lead Rosalie from the room, to go and find Carlisle and Emmett I assume, followed by Jasper and Alice. They closed the door behind them and we were alone at last. I pulled away from her, but only as far as I had to so that I could see her face. It was red and puffy from crying, and her cheek and right eye had bruising on it. But despite all of this, she was still as beautiful as ever. She was still my Bella. I stroked her cheeks and wiped the remnants of her tears away. I smiled at her and she gave me a very small grin back, but it was something.

"Are you alright ?" I knew it was a completely retarded question. But I needed to ask. I had to know what kind of state she was in. Her smile quickly disappeared and she looked away from my face and at her hands, which were still securely wrapped around the front of my shirt.

"This is all my fault. Everything...everything that's happened today and...over the last few months. And i'm sorry." At this she looked up into my face again and had more tears coming down her face. "I'm sorry I came here and messed up your life. I hurt everyone by coming here and... you're all being so nice to me even after I left all those years ago. I don't deserve it." She looked down and began to let go of my shirt and to pull away from me. I immediately went into panic mode and reached up to catch her face between my hands. I looked her straight in the eye and spoke in a smooth and calm tone. Or as calm as I could get it in considering my current semi-panic attack.

"That's not true Bella. You haven't hurt anyone. you've done nothing wrong." I prayed that she wouldn't be as stubborn as I remembered her. But then again, she wouldn't be my Bella if she wasn't.

"But what about Emmett. He was so upset and...he left. And Jasper. I've never seen him look so upset and solemn. Not since he first got here. And Carlisle.. he started crying today. It was only for a minute but he was crying. I've never seen him cry before. And Esme, Rosalie and Alice... they were all hurting soo much. I did that to them ! All of them ! And you, you're so upset and tense. I can feel it. I've always been able to. Ever since we were little. I did this... I did it all. I don't want to be a terrible person anymore. It's my fault he died...it's all m-my f-f-fault." After that, everything she said came out in mumbles and was muffled by sobs. I pulled her in close and she cried into my shoulder. After a little bit her sobs began to calm, I pulled away from her and looked into her face. When she looked up, she didn't look at me, she looked over my shoulder.

"It's not your fault Bella. You haven't done anything wrong." It was Alice speaking. I hadn't realized that my whole family, plus Rosalie, Jasper and Emmett had joined us again.

"Bella we love you. No matter what." exclaimed Rosalie.

"We weren't crying because of you Bella, we were crying for you. We all lost something when you left. You took a piece of each of us with you when you left. And having you back here, with us is simply amazing. We're all overjoyed that you're here with us. We just wish that you weren't in the state that you're in now." Of course, Esme was the voice of reason.

"You know how much I love you Bella. I always have. I just... couldn't bear to see my baby sister like this. It just... I never knew anything could hurt this much." Emmett spoke, and i'm certain he astounded everyone, though no one seemed to show it. Rosalie took his hand then and I saw him squeeze it without breaking eye contact with Bella. Then, Jasper stepped up to the bed and looked at me and I instantly knew what he wanted. I took Bella's hands in my own and kissed them both and then, stepped away sp that Jasper could have his moment with her.

"I'm soo sorry I hurt you Bella. In the bedroom... I panicked and I didn't know what to do. And i'm sorry for how I acted earlier. It's just... like Esme said. you took a part of me with you when you left. A part of me.. I don't think I was even sure I had until then. You know I love you right ? you're still my baby sister... forever... like we promised. Remember ?" His voice was so hopeful, it almost hurt. I turned to see Alice with nothing but love for the both of them in her eyes. My eyes went back to Bella and I saw the love in them. I wasn't jealous, because I knew what kind of love it was. It was a very special kind of brother sister love. A love that, I don't even think I had with Alice. Bella nodded and whispered something to him that I wasn't able to hear and attempted to lean forward to hug him, but she winced from pain. Jasper saw it and leaned into her instead, obviously not wanting her to be in pain, but wanting to hug her just as much as she did. They hugged for a moment then Jasper pulled away and kissed her forehead and got up to go back to Alice, but not before mumbling, "Love you sis."

I went back to sit with Bella and as I pulled her close she looked up at me and I knew she didn't feel as bad as she did before. She felt much less tense now and I made a mental note to give a huge thank you to everyone later.

After the sentimental, everyone started to talk as if everything was normal. Talking about school and their lives since she had left. Bella was very quiet but listened intently to how everyone had been since she had left. I knew it hurt her to hear about how everyone had got along. to a certain extent, to her, it must have sounded as if we had just forgotten her after she left. I saw the sparkle of worry and sadness in her eyes. She may be smiling, slightly, but I knew her better than that.

when it got late, everyone left and Carlisle checked her over before he went home for the night. He reminded me that I had work in the morning but I told him I would be staying here for the night. He left and I went to check Bella's vitals for myself. Just to be extra sure, of course. She looked at me and watched me with worried eyes.

"Edward. You have work in the morning. Its and internship and it's really important. Maybe you should go home and get a proper night's sleep." He voice was getting weaker now as the pain and sleepiness crept up on her. I knew that she didn't want me to leave, and that she was only thinking of me. But I couldn't stand to be away from her. No again. No anymore. I went over to her bed, took off my shoes, jacket and shirt, leaving me in an undershirt and sweatpants, which Esme had brought for me during Bella's surgery. I slid under the covers next to her, but not before turning out the lights. I pulled her into my chest and she got comfortable. I kissed her forehead and started rubbing soothing circles on her back to help her sleep. But, before she drifted to sleep I whispered to her.

"I love you, Bella. And i'm not going anywhere. Ever."

A/N: Alright. A nice, lengthy chapter for you guys. I'm sorry for the delay and I promise to have another update to you guys soon ! I have 3 tests, a project and an essay due on Monday, so you may not get an update till Tuesday. But i'll do my very best to get one out before then.

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