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Song for Chpt. 9: Paperweight – Schuyler Fisk & Joshua Radin

BPOV

After a shower I settle into the love seat in the hotel.

Mom tells me story after story of life in Arizona.

I remember all of them.

That's not my problem.

I laugh when she reminds me of when Jacob and I told her we were moving in together.

She was so happy, she knew me and Jacob were meant to be.

We talk for hours.

Once again, never about after I moved.

I'm beginning to think she doesn't want me to remember.

I'm not sure I want to.

I would never want to know how I was living without my mother.

She is my lifeline.

Why Edward and Charlie don't understand that baffles me.

Mother puts the radio on as she goes to take a shower.

I lay back on the sofa and listen to the low acoustic music filling the room.

I feel my eyes close and my brain start to wander.

"You want the sunrise to go back to bed,

and I want to make you laugh.

Mess up my bed with me.

Kick off the covers I'm waiting.

Every word you say I think I should write down.

Don't want to forget come daylight.

Happy to lay here,

just happy to be here,

I'm happy to know you.

Play me your song,

your newest one.

Please leave your taste on my tongue.

Paperweight, on my back,

cover me like a blanket.

Mess up my bed wit-"

"Bella what are you doing?" my mother asks me mouth agape.

I sit up abruptly and look at her.

"Singing?" I ask confused.

"I see that, but why." She says curiously.

"I don't know." I half whisper.

"What song was that?" she asks surprised.

"I- I uh- I don't know." I shake my head.

"Honey, you sang every word, what do you mean you don't know?"

"I don't mom, I didn't even notice I was singing until you said something." I say unsure. "It must be a song I knew and my memory remembered it. I should call Dr. Carlisle and ask him." I say as I grab my cell phone.

"NO!" mom says quickly. "I'm sure there's no need it's probably a common song." She says as she takes my phone from my hand. "Why don't you go lay down in your room and rest, we need to leave at 4am for the airport, our flights at 6am." She says as she hands me my coat and overnight bag.

I enter the room in the suite and throw my coat on my bed. An envelope falls out onto the floor. I quickly close the bedroom door and sit on the bed as I hold the envelope Alice gave me tightly.

I'm so frightened.

I can only imagine what this letter holds.

I open the flap and slowly pull the letter out of the envelope as if it will blow up if I jostle it.

"Dear Isabella,

Words are something that usually comes so easily to me. In this situation I'm so short on words. I don't want to hurt you anymore than you've already been hurt this past month, but I also can't sit back and watch my sister, brother, father, and everyone else involved break in two. Edward has asked all of us not to disclose any information about your past. So I will respect that. But I will fill in some holes.

You and Edward are married, you knew that already though. The night of the accident, you and Edward were celebrating your five year anniversary, he doesn't know this but you were planning on telling him you were pregnant that night. You had known for a week and had only shared the surprise with me, we were so excited. Well, that's when you guys were hit by the 18 wheeler. Edward never left your side in the hospital. Dad had to make him go home to shower just to get him to leave. Edward was so worried. I know there is so much more you want to know and it will come to you soon. Just hang in there and remember how much we love you.

One more thing, the night of the accident, while Edward was in ICU, the EMT's gave me your belongings, along with your purse and coat, there was a letter gripped in your hands, Edward wrote it for you the night of your anniversary, it is quite beautiful. I enclosed it with this letter incase you'd like to read it.

I love you and miss you sister, best friend.

Until we meet again,

Ali"

I wiped my eyes of the traitorous tears that ran down my cheek. I gripped the second note folded in the envelope and pulled it out. It was crinkled and had soot all over it. I felt my chest get tight as I kept hearing the voices in my head.

"Do you want me to read it out loud?"

"Up to you lo-"

Tires screeching

Impact

Blackness.

"I remember." I whisper as I cover my mouth with my hand.

The snippet of memory scare the living daylights out of me but I can't put the paper down.

I unfold the three folds and ready myself for the memories that may or may not come flying back to me.

I exhale and begin reading.

"Did you know that you are everything a man could ever ask for?

I didn't believe in soul mates until I met you that day and you took everything I believed in and turned it around.

You say I gave you life, but love, you are my life. I thank God for you every day when I awaken and pray to God to keep you safe every night before I sleep. He could give me forever with you and a day and that still wouldn't be enough time.

Words could never express how much you mean to me love. I can't wait to continue forever with you. You will forever hold my heart in your hand.

My promise to you dear love, no matter when you feel like giving up, I'll be there to tell you to go one more round. When you feel as if you can't hold the burden's life deals you, I'll wrap my arms around you and carry you to where you need to go. And if you ever feel alone, I'll be there to remind you that you will never be alone another day in your life.

I love you my wife, my paperweight.

Forever yours, Edward"

I stare at the note over and over again. No memories, but I can feel the love he expresses in his letter and it tears me apart even more. His love for Bella is ever deep. He must be in shambles without her.

I'm sorry I'm not your Bella, Edward.

I wish I could love like you.

But that's not me.

I wipe my watery cheeks and tuck the letter back into the envelope.

I had to finish packing, I was going home.

It's that time of the week again my lovies!
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~SR~