I was picked up when I wasn't looking, "congrats baby girl!" Uncle Hunter said while squeezing the life out of me. Once I was put down I whined, "Eww you're all sweaty! Now I have to shower again!" When I turned around I ran right into Matt and Jeff, I looked up and growled as I stormed off. "What's wrong with her?" Matt asked, "She hates being touched by sweaty people after she is showered," Hunter said. Dad walked up glaring at Hunter, "you love to tease the child. She was kicking people here and there! She kicked me!" I walked up to dad and hugged him, "sorry dad, didn't mean to kick you," I turned to Matt and Jeff, kicking both of them in the face, I watched as Uncle Hunter laughed, "nothing like Sweet Chin Music!" I smirked and kicked him as well; while dad laugh, "Daddy I'm going to go back over Jeff's, once there fully back to here and now, tell em' where I'm at. My book calls!" I said as I walked off.

'When I walked away from my past I though it was all over. Even the pain; but pain is my uncontrollable friend. I way to myself it won't hurt me again, as I walk into my bathroom quietly closing the door I open the cabinet up and to find what was there; it was such a great bore, the same blade that was there the very first time I cut my wrist the very first time I attempted suicide. The same blade that actually slid smoothly across my neck; kneeling to the ground I slowly press this blade upon my skin, but the more I do. I think of you, it makes me so angry I could just scream. I'm now cutting deeper and deeper, I think if I keep going I might hit a vein, but I have this uncontrollable anger on you and everything you put me through.

Now the blood is running so far down my arms, dripping on the bathroom floor. I get up to walk away but slower goes my pace, I start seeing unclearly, so I wipe my eyes, the blood that was once on my arms is now dripping down my face. With my eyes rolling to every part of my head; I heard a voice that said something so mysterious to me I really didn't know what t was supposed to mean. The voice said clear your mind forget this horrible time for tonight, you look upon this memory as if it were a dream.

Once more I walk away but only to find that everything that I had been through, everything that passed by my eye's it was all lies. Finally making it up to my room I hear this voice again. This time it says take a deep breath my friend. I close my eyes and then open them for the very last time, slowly I say goodbye to all in the world but after tonight the world might be right. Slowly closing my eyes never to wake up and return to this horrible time.

Eye's closed, all feelings are dead and slowly my soul starts to fade away, lying here once again my eye's roll to every part of my head suddenly I stop breathing now, I'm here dying and there is nothing to do about the bleeding.'

I put my pen down, and then looked up at the door to find Jeff standing there, "when I get out the shower I wanna discuss what you wrote." I looked up and nodded, looking at the rusty blade that was in my palm, I was squeezing it so tightly that I felt it press into my skin. Tears flown freely as I watched my knuckles go white; a sob came softly from my lips as I squeezed tighter. "Tanya, you're bleeding," I looked up and gasped letting go of the blade as I heard the cold metal fall to the ground with a thud. I looked up at Jeff to find him in only boxers, "come with me so I can clean your wound and bring the book." Jeff said as he took me into his bedroom and cleaned my wound, then he read my poem as I played with the bandage. I looked back up to see tears in Jeff's eyes as he whimpered, "What's this?" I looked up and sighed, "It was about four summers ago, I begged dad to let me come with him, but mom said no. But he took Tommy; I went depressed because dad was always doing things with Tommy; that's when I cut myself. From the wrist all the way to my shoulder, mom found me barely alive, she called dad and rushed me to the hospital. They lied about me, and said something about a fire, not even Uncle Hunter knows." Jeff embraced me in a hug as I whimpered, "They tried to hide there daughter for the longest time." Jeff swiped away a tear as he whispered, "your not alone, dad always picks Matt over me, Tanya, and I'd never hide you." I looked up at Jeff and that's when I realized it, "Jeff…I love you." Jeff looked down at me as he stared, "Tanya, can I show you, am I allowed to show you how much I love you?" I nodded. Jeff gently layed me down on the bed as he slowly kiss my neck, I moaned when I felt him gently caress my breast. I grunted when Jeff removed his shirt, light lightening speed I attacked his nipples as he moaned, I looked up and seen Jeff's head back fro the bite, I swallowed then started to undue his pants; Jeff's head snapped, "don't," Jeff said knowing what I was about to do, I looked up confused and pulled away, "but I though you wanted that?" I asked. Jeff pushed me back down, "no sweety. No! I would never! Just let me do all the work," I looked up and nodded as Jeff slide off my clothes as he took everything in; I started to cover myself when Jeff stopped me, "go you so beautiful. So innocent, yet naughty; I like those piercings," Jeff stated as he seen the spiked bars come from my skin just right above my sex. I smiled "yup those were painful," I watched as Jeff looked down at me and smiled then lowered himself between me. I felt his hog breath hit my thighs; I closed my eyes as I felt his tongue slide slowly and forcefully on my clit. Moaning I pushed myself into Jeff as he chuckled, "like that?" I nodded as he lapped up my juices; I looked up and smiled to see Jeff leaning over me, when I felt him slide into me, arching my back I grabbed Jeff's arms when I felt him slam back into me, slow fierce stokes into me, as we looked each other in the eyes. "Tanya, I love you," I looked at him and wiped away a tear, as I sniffed, "Jeff I love you too." Jeff looked at me as he slammed even harder as I screamed into his chest as we released. I looked at a panting Jeff who fell against me.

I was walking into the bathroom when my cell went off

"Yes Jeff."

"Come outside."

"Okay, where will you be?"

"Near the bridge."

I hung up the phone and walked outside, I sighed, I was on my period, great hell. I walked a little further and found Tommy, Gil, dad, Uncle H, Shannon, Matt, and Jeff. "Whoa what is this?" I asked. Dad got up, "it's not everyday my daughter turns twenty four, tonight were taking you to a club." I looked around and sighed "fine, I'll got get ready." I turned around a left towards the house. Tommy got up and ran to me, "Tanya, what's wrong?" I looked back, "oh nothing, yet again I have a birthday and our mother never shows," Tommy looked at me, "she is busy Tanya. It's my day to!" I looked up and yelled, "She already spent it with you! I'm not stupid! Everything is Tommy, Tommy, Tommy!" I went to turn around when Tommy spun me around, "that's not true!" I turned back and sneered, "every time I asked mom to come watch me do that motocross shit did she come?! No! Why? Because of your football! Dad didn't even come! I am even the first born! And now only dad is either shipping me off or spending time with me? Why? Because your there! Face it Tommy!" I walked off in the house.

Later that Night

I walked into the living room wearing a black skirt with thigh high fishnet stocking with a red tube top. "Well, looks like Jeff's getting some," Matt said, I shot my head toward him and glared, "I'm pmsing!" before Shannon could open his mouth, "it's called a tampon!"

I was dancing on the dance floor when a guy came up, "may I dance with you?" I nodded and started to dance when I seen Jeff walk up, "excuse me may I borrow my girl from you?" I looked up and smiled while I started to grind on Jeff getting grunts and a few moans from me.

I went to the bar and got some drinks when the same guy came up to me and grabbed my arm and started pulling me towards the door as he clamped a hand against my mouth as I kicked and screamed. He started walking out the door when he looked at the bouncer, "she is drunk, gotta take home my little sister." I spotted people looking when I spotted Phil (CM Punk) getting up as I was pulled outside and behind a building. I felt my body get thrown into the brick wall, as I whimpered, I looked up and found the guy pointing a gun to my head, "you're going to listen to me, now take off your clothes!" I shook my head no; to soon get his fist connected with the side of my head as I fell back into the wall crying. I felt in my already broken ribs as I screamed, "If your not going to I will." I felt my top start to rip as well as my bra and skirt. "Hey you!" I was to busy to look up; "Tanya is that you?" I looked up trying to cover myself as I cried and looked away, Phil dropped to his knees, "here take my jacket." I looked up and wrapped it around my body, I started to hypervenalate when Phil held me and called Jeff's cell.

"Ello?"

"Jeff its Phil, come out back."

"Aight, do you know where Tanya is? Were about to tell everybody it's her birthday."

"Jeff just get most of us and get out here now!"

Phil was holding my crying frame and trying to cover me fully with his body in the cool night. "Tanya you need to calm down or you'll get sick," I looked up and whimpered, "My ribs…kicked them." I gasped as my body went limp in his arms, "TANYA! STAY AWAKE SWEETY! COME ON!" Phil panicked as he layed me down feeling my chest rise and fall. "Phil…oh my god! Tanya!" Jeff shouted, he heard another groan and looked to his side to find a guy who was sprawled out on the ground, Jeff grew angry and kicked the guy in the ribs screaming, "You dick!" Jeff heard something snap, "Jeff come on! Get off!" dad yelled, Jeff looked at him laughing, "No! You should be kicking his ass!" Jeff swung a fist which connected into Tommy, "don't fucking hit him!" dad yelled and swung at Jeff. Which caught Jeff in the mouth, Jeff stumbled and swung at Shawn as he hit him below the eye, Uncle Hunter held dad back as Matt restrained Jeff. "See you always stick up for him! Tanya was right! Shawn tell Tommy about that little house fire! Or was it really a house fire Shawn?" Tommy looked at dad, "what are you talking about?" Uncle Hunter let go of dad a little, "yea, what are you talking about?" "Oh, just a certain little girl named Tanya, who wanted to go on the road with her dad and brother! Shawn you told her no, but you take Tommy! What happens? Tanya gets depressed, cuts herself, luckily her mother who doesn't give a shit about her finds her almost dead! And all you can say was a house fire!" Soon they heard sires. "Shawn! How could you lie to me?! I'm your best friend!" Uncle Hunter yelled as he pushed dad.