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Chapter 9
Back to Sean's POV
After leaving Jen the way I did, I felt real guilty. Knowing I had no intention on seeing her later. Even when I said I would.
Jen only wanted me because she was heartbroken. Because I was there, being her friend. And I would comply because I, myself was lonely.
The party was in full swing now, music blasting, kids dancing, drinking, smoking. I walked inside to grab my fourth can of beer when I ran into Nessa. "Shady, what's going on?"
"Huh?" "What the hell's going on with you and Jen?" My eyes got wide, Oh, God, did she see the kiss or something? "What?...Nothing!" I sputtered, trying not to look guilty. "Bullshit! I've seen her eyeing you and rolling her eyes all night. When I ask her what's wrong, she seems distracted, but says she's fine." "Honestly, It just might be the break-up..." Nessa lowered her voice. "Shady, did you fuck her?" "What? Vanessa, no." Not yet. "Well, something is wrong with her. She's upstairs and won't come out of her room." I had a blank expression on my face then, I'm sure of it. "What? you want me to talk to her?" "Please Shady?" She won't open the door for me, and I know how close you two have gotten..." She trailed off. "Fine. But can I at least finish my beer?" "Of course. Thanks Shady!"
Vanessa gave me a small hug, and disappeared into the crowd. I sighed, thinking, 'Might as well do this before I'm completely plastered.' I walked towards the staircase, taking big swigs from my can.
When I got the room Jen was sleeping in, I paused for a minute, then knocked. "Jen! Can I come in?" "Sean?" "Yeah, it's me. Open the door." I heard her footsteps. She unlocked the door and opened it. I stared into her eyes, dark brown. Not honey colored like...like Emma's.
"What's wrong?" "Nothing. Why?" She seemed really...calm. A lot calmer than Ness made her out to be. Could have something to do with the thick haze of smoke filling the room.
"Nessa just, thought you..." "Nessa doesn't know anything about my needs." "Listen, if you want to talk, I'm here." "That's why I like you Sean. But I don't want to talk." She lit another blunt, took a toke, then passed it to me. "What is it that you want?" I puffed two, three times. Jen giggled. "You." But I already knew that. I raised my eyebrows, then smirked. I wondered what Em was doing. She was still smiling when she kissed me. She wanted me, and all I could think of was being with my ex-girlfriend.
Jen took the beer can from my hand as I took a few more drags from the cigar. She took that from me too, putting it out. She kissed me again, slipping me her tongue. "I need you Sean." She told me in a raspy voice, fiddling with my belt buckle. I didn't want to. But I did.
I didn't even like Jen that way, but here I was about to slide a top hat on my snake and let him slither. I kissed her back. I just wanted it to be over. She was lying on her back on the bed and I straddled her, watching her face. "Jen, you know I'm your friend right?" Trying to remind her there was nothing romantic between us. "I know we aren't going to be together Sean. I just need you." She leaned up and kissed me again. "Just this once." She whispers.
Yeah, just this once.
A/N- We all know the drill. Please read and review. Let me know what you thought, and what you think I should add or even if I should off my new characters. I will consider almost anything. Also, on my last chapter, the name is supposed to say, 1 Heartbreak plus 1 Best Friend equals True Love, but stupid ff took my signs out. Later.
Krissy