2016-17 Review
Agent Fox Mulder and Agent Dana Scully
I am much older and wiser I grumble to myself as these FBI Partnership Reviews crossed my desk today. I have almost every review done now and my slight headache that I have learned is specific to Mulder has now crept across my forehead. I know what pair of partners are about to enter my office and I still cannot seem to actually grasp Mulder and Scully are together again throwing X File case reports on my desk once again. Twenty-five years is a long ass time. Together as partners, best friends, and maybe even lovers again. That I am not sure of at this point. Tossing my pen and leaning back in my chair, I allow myself to walk down memory lane. So many intense cases. So much sadness, trust, love, intelligence, happiness, pain, depression, angst. After contacting Agent Scully eight years ago about a case Mulder would want to investigate, I had witnessed them together again for the first time since 2012. We had meeting about Mulders thoughts on pending colonization that had not happened yet. I could feel the concern and sadness off of him back then and sensed the heartache and worry on a Scully's face as they gripped hands.
I do know now that within the last few years, they have been living separately and even without the explanation from anyone I know why that is. Mulders isolation, depression and obsessive nature would destroy him without The X Files. Scully fights her own battle with uncertainty and depression about William. Keeping her emotions in check and hidden from Mulder and herself tore her up inside. Codependency between them did not help the relationship without knowing their personal truths. It has been very obvious to me they are still in love because I know these agents too well. More than I want to. Shit, my soft spot for my now admittedly favorite pair has grown a little bigger this year.
The door swings open as Mulder holds it open and as Scully walks in while they stare at one another. The review begins and I find myself actually following the FPR question guideline. I offer Scully her grief counseling option yet again for her mom's death this year. Mrs. Scully was an amazing woman and always treated Mulder like her own son from the beginning. Mulder slides his foot out to touch Scully's. I sigh loudly. Oh my God, I'm an ass not even offering help for Mulder. I tell him that the offer for counseling is just as needed for him as it is Scully. He meets my eyes with a pained look. His eyes slightly shiny as he looks anywhere else. Scully instantly reaches out and twine's her fingers with his and grips his knee with her other hand. They share that same knowing look they have had since day one. The atmosphere in my office has shifted to just them. It's so damn intense I catch myself with my mouth hanging open. I have absolutely no worry about the partnership in front of me, so I dismiss them and like always I watch mesmerized. His hand on the small of her back, her hand holding the door for them to exit together.