I woke up the next morning with a pit in my stomach that could have taken down a small elephant. Kennedy lay sleeping next to me. I lay there just watching him breathe for a few minutes before my eyes started to fill with tears.
Trying not to wake him I climbed out of the bunk and placed my feet firmly on the ground. It was cold. Unnaturally cold. Slipping out of the bunk room I was greeted by a groggy John Ohh who was making himself some tea.
"Rough night?" I asked.
"Ehh," was all he could reply before heaving over the sink.
"How are you going to perform tonight, you can barely stand up straight."
John looked over at me, his face laced with a green complexion.
"You should probably go back to sleep," I suggested.
"I uh, I know. I know you're secret."
He shot me an investigative look and my body felt like I had fallen into a pit of needles.
"What, what are you talking about John?"
He smiled, "I uh, I found the test in the bathroom, Britt. You're pregnant."
I let out a deep breath and almost cried in relief. "You caught me," I chuckled.
"That's so exciting!" John tried to exclaim but retracted back to his hunch over the sink.
"Do you want something? I mean I have a bunch of medicine and stuff."
John shook his head, "I'll be fine." Pulling the tea up to his lips he let out a deep breath and finally took a sip. Before I could turn and leave he began to speak again.
"He loves you, so fucking much. This is going to be the greatest thing that's ever happened to him. I really mean it, Britt."
My heart sank and I felt my eyes tear up again. Quickly wiping them I replied with a "thanks John."
Stepping off the bus the chilly Colorado wind whipped my hair in my face and I shivered. I hadn't even slipped on shoes before leaving the bus. I just had to get out into the morning air. I approached Rocket's bus and steadied my breathing. Looking ahead I saw Eric and Justin standing outside, as usual, having a cigarette and their morning talk. As I walked up Eric looked up at me and winced.
"Hi," I lightly greeted him with a shy smile. "Can we go talk?"
Nodding, he threw down his smoking butt and marched onto the bus. Justin flashed me a tight smile as I followed Eric up the stairs. He led me to the back room and made sure I shut the door behind myself. Sitting down, he let out a long sigh.
The smell of smoke filled my nostrils as I sat upon the bed next to him. He did his best to avoid my eyes. I reached for his hand and he quickly pulled it up to his face, lightly scratching the side of his head he finally spoke.
"So what did you want to talk about?"
"Did you hear about last night?"
"Yes."
We sat in silence for a few seconds before I finally admitted what I had wanted to say last night, "the only reason I said yes is because I'm pregnant, Eric."
His eyes got wide and he turned to me, "are you fucking serious? You're pregnant?"
"I took a test the other day…"
"One test? It, it could be wrong you don't know. How could you do that, how could you marry someone just because you think you're pregnant!"
"People do it all the time, Eric! I can't raise a baby alone!"
"You are not like other people, Britta. You're so much better than that!"
I softened my tone and replied, "I'm sorry Eric, I really am. But this is the best option right now."
And that's when he said it; what we both knew had to be said.
"That is not your best option and you know it! You belong with me."
My eyes swelled with tears as I tried to find the right thing to say.
"I'm so sorry."
Relaxing his tense posture he sighed and pulled me into a hug, "please don't do this."
"I have to, Eric." I dug my head into his shoulder and cried harder.
"Please, just. We can do this. We can make it work. I love you."
My heart stopped for a second. I pulled away and locked eyes with the broken man in front of me.
"Eric, I love you too but I can't do this to you. You have a future, and a family, and the band. I will never ever ruin any of your chances to make something beautiful of your life by raising someone else's child!"
Eric began to shake his hands as he erupted into a fit of words, "that doesn't matter. My life will be something beautiful no matter what as long as I'm with you."
That started me crying again as I replied, "I'm sorry, I just can't do that to you. I can't have you raise someone else's child."
I knew what he was going to say next.
"How do you even know it's not mine!"
Whoa whoa whoa! So it looks like Britta and Eric were doing a lot more than kissing. Or else that's how you get pregnant these days. Stephens back! I'm sorry we haven't chatted in a while guys but I've been dealing with my own drama. We'll get to that later. I'll let you soak up what's going on here and throw you some Sierra. See ya soon!
Sierra's POV-
Garrett liked me. He had liked me all along. And John was the reason he never said anything. John was the reason I was alone. And Lacey was about to have everything I ever wanted. Whore.
I woke up to a knocking on the van window. Peeling my eyes open I sat up and yawned. Blake lay across the middle seat and Devin was nowhere to be found. The knocking continued and I finally blinked my eyes to a clear sight of vision. Sliding down the seat I reached for the door handle and pulled it open. Garrett stood outside the van with a ratty army green jacket and an apologetic smile.
"Wanna go for a walk?"
"Right now?"
"Yes right now, get up loser."
He backed away from the van, hands in his pockets and motioned for me to join him in the dense Colorado air.
"Can I at least put on something a little more fit for the weather?"
"You got two minutes."
"Okay Adolf," I replied with a snap in my tone.
Garrett flashed me a daring smile and I hopped out of the van. Walking around to the back I quickly snuck a peak in the window. My hair was crazy and I had mascara pooling under my eyes. As I reached for the hatch I swiftly wiped my eyes and fluffed my hair.
After grabbing a down jacket and some old converses Garrett and I began our walk.
"So why are you up so early?"
"Si, it's like 11:30…"
"Oh really," I embarrassingly replied, "I uh wow I slept in. Well we were up pretty late last night at Britta and Kennedy's engagement thing."
We both got silent after that. We were still the only two that knew the secret. The secret of Britta and Eric.
"Do you think she's going to tell him before they actually get married?" Garrett asked.
"I really don't know," I replied, "a part of me wants her to, but sometimes I think it wouldn't end great."
"Yeah," Garrett shook his head, "especially since she's pregnant."
"What!" I exclaimed, "since fucking when?"
"Oh you didn't know!" Garrett laughed, "John told me, I figured he would have told you too, you know since you're madly in love."
"Oh dear god, gag me with a rusty knife."
"John's not that bad, really, he's just out there."
"I know that, and that's why I love being his friend, FRIEND. I have no feelings for John."
Garrett cleared his throat, "but you have feelings for someone else."
"Yeah, I do."
"Me," he replied, "it's me right?"
I shook my head. It was dangerously quiet.
"It's really cold, should we go back to the bus…"
His lips quickly met mine before I could even finish my sentence. My eyes instantly closed. My knees went weak. My fingers were numb. My head was swimming. The earth was still.
He slightly pulled away and I tried to form words to say but I couldn't bring myself to do it. My brain had disconnected from my mouth.
"You're right, it's getting cold."
Garrett started towards the other way and I stood still where I was, trying to take in what really had just happened. Quietly I turned around and caught up to Garrett.
"You meant to do that right? You didn't trip and your lips fell on my lips?"
"I meant to do that," Garrett quickly replied, "but I shouldn't have."
"What do you mean?" I stopped walking and felt my heart beat slow.
"I can't, I just, I'm sorry, Si. I shouldn't have done that. Let's just forget about it."
"Garrett! Are you kidding!" I exclaimed, "I can't just forget the fact that you just kissed me."
"Well you have to!" Garrett spun around on his heels and stared into my eyes, "Sierra, no one can know about this."
"Sorry," I marched forward, "I only allow a one secret limit per friend."
He took off after me and lightly grabbed my shoulder, "Sierra please."
"You are such an asshole," I muttered.
"I'm sorry," Garrett pleaded, "I just, I wish that this had happened last year and not now. Any time but now."
"What's so wrong about now?" I anticipated my response. Garrett just stood there breathing in the cold air for a second, exhaling clouds of steam.
"Right now, I, I'm kinda in a thing. I mean it's really nothing now, just uh..well."
"You're fucking a girl with a boyfriend."
I cleared my throat and turned away from him. I didn't care whether he followed or not. I didn't want to be around him as much as he didn't want to actually kiss me.
Suddenly I heard behind me, "she's going to break up with him!"
My first reaction was to laugh, and then I actually felt sympathy. "You are setting yourself up for a disaster."
Garrett finally reached my side and heaved another cloud of steam, "why would you say that?"
"7 years Garrett! Lacey and John have been together for 7 fucking years. You can't just end a relationship like that and walk away with the shake of a hand. And do you understand what would happen if John found out about you guys, and I'm not even talking about him finding out you were together after they broke up, I'm talking about right now. What you're doing right now. You're hurting John, and you don't even care."
"I do care…"
"No Garrett, you don't. If you did you never would have started this bullshit with Lacey in the first place."
"Hey she came onto me! She made the first move, not me."
"Well aren't you just Mr. Fucking Irresistible!" Rolling my eyes, I stomped away and had no intention of turning around again.
"Well you sure seem to think so!" Garrett called after me.
With my middle finger raised I walked my happy ass all the way back to the van without even a glance behind me.
Hey guys it's Stephen again. Sadly I do know the secret about my brother, but I just can't bring myself to tell him. But for some reason I feel like the secrets going to get out soon…I guess we'll find out soon. BTW, you still need to know my story…I guess we'll get to that soon too ;)