Ok so first off I want to thank everyone for there amazing reviews they were really great to read. I would have updated last night but I was too tired that last chapter took me a few hours to get just how I wanted it, but when I reread it I still found mistakes and I was mad. But anyway...here we go.

I was sitting on Alice's pink fluffy bed. I had stopped crying but I knew my eyes were still red and puffy. Arizona was on her little puppy bed that I had set up staring at me concerned. Every few minutes she would wine and let out a little bark. I decided I had spent enough time up here wallowing in my own misery, that and I also never got to eat dinner. I got off the bed and opened the door I gaped at how many hallways there were. I looked at Arizona and sighed.

"Lead the way" I told her and she looked smug that she knew this place better then me, but then again her nose was probably able to smell the Cullens from where ever they were. She lead me down mazes of hallways and suddenly stopped in front of a door, I knew we weren't anywhere close to the bottom of the house.

Arizona suddenly looked very sneaky, she gave me a smug grin and suddenly bolted down a hallway. She was going so fast I knew I would never be able to catch up with her and end up getting more lost. I slumped down wall and sighed.

"Oh great now how am I going to get downstairs" I said and then the door I was next to creaked open and Edward walked out and rose his eyebrows, and extended his hand leaving the decision for me to take it or not up to me. With a smile I took his hand in mine and he lifted me up.

"I could take you" He said and I gave him a grateful nod. I noticed how great it was to have his ice cold hand in mine, like tons of tiny little circuits in my body were sparking. I was glad to know that this little experience that happened in the woods hadn't dashed what little trust I have developed. Soon we were in the living room and when I saw Arizona play fighting with Emmett I had to laugh. Arizona had her butt raised and was shaking it before pouncing after Emmett. What was funny was that Emmett was in the same position as Arizona, with his butt raised he would shake it and avoid her pounce.

When everyone heard my laughter they stopped like they never heard a person laughing before. Except for Arizona, she's heard my true laugh many of time mostly because she was the cause of it. When there mother whom I had learned was called Esme saw our entwined hands I could see her glowing.

"Come one Bella lets go get you some food" Edward said and as soon as the word food was uttered from his mouth my stomach grumbled causing everyone to laugh and my face to flame. He lead me too there massive kitchen and looked nervous.

"I really don't think we have much, Uh Esme hasn't gone shopping yet" Edward clarified and I nodded. I got up and looked into the refrigerator, they had bread and jelly, all I really needed. I started to fix up myself some dinner when I noticed all the Cullen children had came into the kitchen also and was watching me intently fix up a sandwich.

"Want any" I asked them and held up the bread. They all made a face and shook there head. I shrugged my shoulders and took a big bite of my sandwich. It was so good my eyes rolled into the back of my head and I let out a moan.

"I haven't eaten since lunch, so this is like heaven to me" I told them as they were watching with curiosity. There eyes were making me nerves so I walked out onto the porch with Arizona following. Outside was once again peaceful. Edward walked out and sat next to me.

"You know I like being outside in a clear night, seeing all the sparkling starts and such a bright moon it gives me hope" I told him while Arizona sat on top of my feet keeping them warm.

"I know what you mean Bella, nights like these are beautiful" He said. The wind whipped by and displaced some of my hair into my eyes. Very slowly, Edward reached his hand forward and put the lock of my hair back behind my ear. He then cupped my cheek and I nuzzled my nose into his wrist. I liked being with Edward like this, it made me feel normal. Like I wasn't worthless, broken, tarnished, he made me feel wanted. I wanted right then and there to tell Edward of my love but of course I didn't how could I.

"I never though I would think of Forks has my home, honestly it was only supposed to be my escape at least until I went to college. Sometimes though I just want to give up, it seems so much easier. It gets hard sometimes to live day by day, to have nightmare after nightmare but I do. I'll never give up, I want to be the same Bella I was before all that happened. I'm getting better Edward and because of everyone being there for me, providing support and I guess I just want to say thanks. I was so scared that after tonight any progress that I had made with trusting people would be lost. You have no idea how comforting it is to have your hand on my cheek. Edward you make me feel....special, this is the first time in a while I've been treated like I was normal" I told Edward.

"Bella, I'm glad that Forks can be your home. I'm also glad you haven't given up, if you had many people would have been hurt...especially me. I'm sorry you have nightmares and I promise to help you through them if you want me. I have felt honored that you would let me help you, that I have earned your trust even if I don't deserve it. I'm also sorry that I wasn't there to protect you but so happy that Arizona was there. She loves you and is a very faithful dog, you made a right choice choosing her. Bella I'm the only one that I want to make you feel special, you deserve to be treated well, much better then what you have been. What I guess I'm trying to say is that Bella I love you" Edward said and I stopped breathing. I lifted my head from his palm and looked him in the eyes. This was so wrong he deserved to have a whole girl.

"Edward I love you too, but I'm not the right girl for you. I have been broken and tormented, I have emotional problems that aren't your problems to deal with. You deserve a girl who will be able to kiss you and love you like you deserve. You want a whole girl, Edward and she's just not me" I said through tears, and a saying comes to my mind. If you really love someone you'll let them go. Edward just smiled a sad smile and kissed the back of my hand.

"Bella you don't quite understand me. See for me you are a whole girl, you are deserving of my love, you and you alone will be the only girl to ever hold my heart. I don't care that you won't be able to do everything in a normal relationship right away, I'm not ready for that and I'm perfectly content to wait for you. We'll go at your pace and no faster. Bella you are a whole girl and I can't wait until I'm the person who gets to prove that to you" Edward said with his golden eyes sparkling in an emotion that I now understand as love. I had tears running down my face a his declaration.

"Do do you promise Edward, that we'll go slow" Edward smiled and nodded.

"Yes Bella, I never want to hurt you, your my everything" He said and I smiled and leaned into his side. He slowly carefully, as not to startle me wrapped his arms around me. I had decided right then and there that I would be everything for Edward, I will be the person who he deserves.

After a few moments of silence Edward spoke. "Bella do you trust me enough to be alone with me tomorrow" He asked and I had to think.

"were alone now Edward so yes I do trust you enough" I said and he smiled.

Ok so now Edward and Bella are in a relationship but trust me they'll be going slow. Bella needs something good to happen after almost being attacked. I guess you know by now where Edward will be taking Bella, but then again I might shake things up a bit the only way to find out is to....REVIEW -please-