The next day, we arrived at their first concert of the tour. The boys were trying to convince me to go check out the arena

"Just go. What's the harm? You have to be curious!" Carlos attempted to persuade me

I shook my head

"Please"

I shook my head again

"Just check it out. Come on" Kendall tried

I shook my head one more time

"You are officially the most stubborn person I know" Logan told me

I smirked. Truthfully, I was dying to know what it looked like on the inside, but I knew that the boys were up to something, so I wasn't going to leave the bus until their show had started

"You're going, whether you like it or not" Carlos said

He grabbed my wrist, right were the majority of the cuts were. I winced in pain, and attempted to pull it back, but just my luck, Carlos saw me wince, and he was now suspicious. He grabbed my arm with his other hand. He pushed my sweat shirts long sleeve up, exposing the number of cuts

He gasped when he saw them. "Autumn..." He trailed off, his voice was barely a whisper

That's when I realized what he was thinking

I shook my head, begging him to understand

"Why?... Why would you do this to yourself?"

I shook my head

"Is this because of Summer?" His voice was starting to sound angry

I shook my head

"Why are you denying it? I can see it with my own eyes, Autumn!" He was yelling now

I shook my head again. I pointed to my phone with my free hand

Logan grabbed it and gave it to me

'Please understand. It's not what it looks like!' I typed on my phone

"Then what is it?" He shot back

'I can't tell you!' I was starting to get angry, he was my own brother! My flesh and blood! And he didn't believe me? When had I ever lied to him?

"WHY NOT? I TAKE YOU IN WHEN MOM KICKS YOU OUT AND THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY ME! YOU CAN'T EVEN TELL ME?"

Okay, I'm not going to lie. The comment about mom was a low blow. That really hurt. A lot. I ran out of the room and into the bathroom. I locked the door and sat on the toilet. I had no intention of coming out anytime soon

"Autumn...Autumn, please unlock the door. I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I didn't mean it. I was just mad" Carlos pleaded

I, of course, remained silent

"YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M NOT SORRY! YOU DESERVED IT. YOU WON'T TELL! I DESERVE TO KNOW! MAYBE YOU SHOULD GET LOST! JUST GET OUT! GET OUT OF HERE FOREVER!" And that was the last thing I heard from Carlos

"Autumn, just give him time to cool off. We have to go now, but we'll be back" Kendall promised

Not a single tear fell. If Carlos wanted me gone, maybe I should go. If Carlos wanted to give up on me, too, then maybe I just needed a change. I couldn't really rely on anyone, could I?