Chapter Ten

Will's p.o.v.

A week later

I was laying on my bed thinking of the events that have been going on since last week.

After leaving Tessa's room last week I had been trying hard to avoid her. I knew that I could not tell her what I really wanted to tell her when I had her pinned up against the door of her room. I wanted to tell her that I love her, but the fear of my curse keeps making it harder for me to tell her. It's been twice now that I've wanted to tell her but some how it's not possible. I do not want to be the reason she passes. No matter how mean and rude I can be, I just can't bring myself to let her love me. So for the past week I have been trying to think of a way to make her hate me.

I could tell her that I don't love her, but she knows that is a lie. I could tell her that a shadowhunter can never be with a warlock, but we are not sure if that's what she is yet. I keep thinking that if I just avoid her then she'll forget about me.

All the thinking and avoiding has been great for my rest though. As I slowly began to close my eyes the images of her started to pop into view. Her beautiful grey eyes and her long brown hair. I drug the image of her with me into a deep sleep.

Tessa's p.o.v.

As I was sitting in the library still reading the Shadowhunters Codex, my mind slowly went to thoughts of Will. I began to think about how he had left me standing alone in my room after he had told me he could not be with me. Tears had began to rise in my eyes after he left. He had hurt me and then on top of it all he had been avoiding me for nearly a week now.

He was never at breakfast nor dinner. When I would come to the Library he was never here and the couple times that I had went to the attic he was not there. After about three days I stopped looking for him, realizing that he did not wish to be found. It hurt but I knew it was all because of his curse. He is worried about me dying. Which if I had to think means he possibly loves me more than I thought, to be that courageous to give up love for me. I was quickly taken out of my thoughts by Jem, who I had been spending a lot of time with here this past few days.

"Tessa you want to come down for dinner?" He asked.

"Sure Jem. Just let me finish this page," I replied back.

"I'll wait with you then." He replied with a smile, and quietly sat down next to me.

A few minutes later I finished the page and quickly got up and placed it back on the shelf.

"I'm ready now." I said.

"Okay well lets go then." He replied as he rose from the sit he had taken beside me.

We walked slowly to the door of the Library. We then entered into the hallway when I looked over at Jem and spoke,

"Why is Will avoiding me?" I asked.

"I did not know he was." He replied calmly.

"Well I have not seen him since you and him helped Henry last week."

"Really?" He seemed interested to hear what I was telling him.

"Yes." I replied back as we finally entered the dining room for dinner. We sat down nest to one another, I gazed around the table to see that Will still was not there. I didn't want it to seem like it bothered me in front of everyone so I pretended that I was fine by talking to Jem the entire meal.

After we completed our meal we walked to our rooms together and split up at our doors. I went straight to my bed and climbed in without getting out of my dress. All the worrying about Will was draining my energy. As soon as I laid my head on my pillow I was fast asleep.

Jem p.o.v.

I rushed into my room, Leaving Tessa at her door. I needed to figure out what was going on with Will. When I heard Tessa's door close, I quietly opened my door and peered out to make sure she was inside. Realizing she was, I quietly walked out and closed my door behind me. I rushed down the hallway to the attic. When I finally got there I saw Will sleeping peacefully. I quietly walked over to his bed and placed my hand on his shoulder.

"Will." I whispered.

"Will wake up." I whispered again. He began to move around, waking from his sleep.

"Jem? What's going on?" He asked hastily.

"Nothing. Nothing Will. Everything is fine, aside from Tessa." I explained.

"Tessa? Is she alright?" He asked as he quickly rose from his bed, propping himself up on his elbows.

"Tessa is hurt Will."

"What happen? Where is she?" He was starting to rise from his elbows, and off the bed. I needed to tell him that she wasn't hurt physically, but as I was getting ready to an idea rose in my head.

"Will she's hurt, Charlotte was able to help her. She's asleep now in her room. Go! Go see her. She's asking for you." I could not believe I had just lied to him like that. But I knew that was the only way to get him to go to her. With that he ran out the door, not even changing his pajamas, or putting on a shirt. I smiled and told myself that Tessa is going to melt over a shirtless Will. I began to think about what I ha done. I know that my actions will have repercussions, I am just hoping that Will takes it easy on me. Maybe he'll be so happy he'll forget I lied. With that thought I began to walk back to my room. When I reached the hallway where my door and Tessa's door was I saw Will again.

"Will?" I asked curiously.

"Jem, I don't think I can go in." He explained, I wondered if he knew his voice was shaking.

"Why not?" I asked.

"Because she can't love me Jem. I'm not what she needs in her life. I'm not good enough." He explained with sadness in his eyes.

"What makes you think your not good enough?" Tessa asked. I looked away from him surprise. I didn't even hear her come out of her room. Will's eyes glared over at me then over to her, and back over to me.

"Jem I thought you said she was hurt?" He asked me with anger in his voice now.

"Umm-" I began to try to explain when Tessa interrupted,

"So you would come here to see me only if I was hurt?" She asked with a hint of anger in her voice.

"Tessa stay out of this. This is between me and Jem." Will demanded.

"It's not between just you and Jem if your talking about me. Will I am tried of this crap. You avoid me all week after you kiss me and tell me you can't be with me." She paused for a moment to motion me to leave with a nod of her head. So with that I quickly said,

"Will I did this for you. I'm tired of you running away from your feelings." I then rushed off into my room, slamming the door and locking it behind me. Of course I sat down against the back of my door to try and listen to what they were saying to one another, but I could hear nothing. So I decided that I had had enough for tonight. I put my pajamas on and laid down in bed, knowing I was to restless to sleep, I got up and began to play my violin.

I hope you all enjoyed this Chapter. I decided at the last minute that Jem needed some more time in my story. :) I'll be typing the next one soon. Enjoy and remember if you love this story check out my others. Review & Follow. Always, M. Marvin