I Don't Miss You
It had been two weeks since Naruto moved in. And I would be lying if I said I wasn't enjoying it. I mean the guy would walk around in just his boxers when my parents weren't home. I had seen Naruto in ways I had only dreamed of. He knew that I was Shade and that it was me who kissed him that night in the club. And yet he didn't act any different with me, I thought that kiss had made my feelings for him known. But he's just so oblivious to all of it, or maybe he was just messing with me and waiting to see if I was going to act on those feelings again. Whatever it was that he was trying to pull I was going to get to the bottom of it one way or another.
At the moment we were at school walking the halls during passing period. Sasuke was with us and we were discussing the lyrics to some new songs we had been working on. The good thing was that the beat for them was already done, now it was just a matter of getting the words right.
I was so into the conversation that it took me a moment to realize who I was looking at down the hall. The red unruly hair is what gave him away. It was my Garaa my ex-boyfriend, I never thought he would show up here again. I stopped walking and let memories of us come to my mind.
All the good time, but mostly how he cheated on me with someone from a different school. And tried to play it off like nothing happened. It hurt being with him, because he knew that I knew about this other guy. But yet he wanted to have me too. Finally after almost six months of dealing with this shit and realizing he wasn't going to stop seeing this guy. I broke it off with Garaa and made the bad mistake of telling Sasuke. Needless to say Itachi had to come bail us out of a detention center. It took a lot of bribing to get Itachi not to tell my parents about it. That man is nuts beyond all comprehension.
"Hey Shikamaru are you okay?"
Naruto asked.
"Yeah uh let's head to class."
I looked at him and then at Sasuke. I shifted my eyes in Garaa's direction. He looked at him and his face showed more hate then mine had shown shock.
"Come on were going to be late."
School; I hate school, to be honest I saw no point in it. Good thing it was Friday and time for school to let out. I got lucky and didn't have to see Garaa for the rest of the day.
So now we were all on our way to the recording studio Madara had set up for us. I think if I wasn't so pissed and shocked at seeing that cheater I would have thanked him. Because seeing him today finally made the lyrics for one of our new songs come to me. It was perfect and now it was time to lay down the music for the song.
Getting the beat recorded was the easy part, but singing these lyrics was setting us back. I've been standing in this box with headphones on for almost two hours and it still didn't sound right. I hadn't really thought about how hard it would be to make a CD.
"Shikamaru it just sounds to grungy and it's not really fitting the beat."
"So what do you suggest I do?"
"Soften it up a little man, make it more punk."
"Yeah easy for you to say."
"Look let's give it one more go and then call it quits for the day."
"Okay, start the track."
We ran through the song about five more times until I finally got the vocals right. The song was perfect and it was suiting the way I felt right now. It was time for me to finally move on from this and start new. Now I wasn't second guessing myself on confronting Naruto about my feelings and finding out his, if he even had any. I don't want seeing Garaa every day at school to upset me anymore. He's my past and I'm ready to look forward into my future with someone else.
"Dude, it's good we have our fist track. Now let's get out of here I'm hungry."
"Hold on Sasuke I want to try something. Play that other song we were working on."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, I know what I'm doing."
I could hear the beat playing in my ears and the words just came to me. Yeah this would work out perfectly.
You keep calling it a crash and burn
Just waiting your turn
You might have time to speak
There barely was a lesson learned
'Cause it will return no favors back to me
I'm sure it tasted oh, so sweet
But it was never good enough for me
I bit the tongue behind my teeth
It was never good enough for me
You say you always keep your word
Show me what you're after
I thought you'd promise me the world
Tell me what you're after
Go on and take it way too far
'Cause here we are waiting once again
You say you always keep your word
Show me what you're after, just a little faster
Am I the only eyes that see so subtly?
This cut and dry routine
Even when you're by my side
I still need time to feel the company
I'm sure it tasted oh, so sweet
But it was never good enough for me
I bit the tongue behind my teeth
It was never good enough for me
You say you always keep your word
Show me what you're after
I thought you'd promise me the world
Tell me what you're after
Go on and take it way too far
'Cause here we are waiting once again
You say you always keep your word
Show me what you're after, just a little faster
Just a little faster
Hold your breath now, the bad was wearing thin
From the pavements settles in when we learn too much too soon
Hold your breath now, the bad was wearing thin
From the pavements settles in when we learn too much too soon
You say you always keep your word
Show me what you're after
I thought you'd promise me the world
Tell me what you're after
Go on and take it way too far
'Cause here we are waiting once again
You say you always keep your word
Show me what you're after
It was never good enough for me
Show me what you're after, just a little faster
One the song was over I stepped out of the booth and went to stand by Sasuke.
"Shikamaru what are you smoking?"
"What?"
"Seriously man you need to share that shit. That's two songs we just finished."
"Well I'm not smoking anything. I was just really feeling inspired today."
"Whatever, come here I was working on something while you were in there most of the time and I think you're going to like it."
Sasuke handed me a paper he had been writing on, there were crossed out lines and some words written in different colors to show what was being said and where he changed things over and over. I handed the paper back to him.
"That's pretty good man."
"Yeah I even got somewhat of a tune for it. If you want we could try it out."
"Sure let's do it."
Sasuke got out his guitar and started strumming a few keys so I could get a feel for it. A few beats in I started singing the lyrics.
Shikamaru: I have no room, no space to move around.
And this box is getting smaller
I'm trying to get out.
How did I get so far from where I was.
When did I decide to lose my way.
What have I become.
Sasuke: I've got a new low
All 52 cards in a row.
I see now that I won't let go.
No I won't let go.
Well who am I?
A cold shoulder left to cry.
You feel bad, well so do I.
Yeah so do I.
Together: I've been right, I've been left.
I've been wrong, I've been left behind.
I've been up, but mostly down.
I've been right, I've been left.
I've been wrong, I've been left behind.
I've been up, but mostly down.
Shikamaru: I cannot help feeling like
I have so much at steak.
So I lock myself inside my head
And I just run in place.
So many directions.
I don't know which way to go.
I'm so busy doing nothing.
I've got nothing to show.
Sasuke: I've got a new low
All 52 cards in a row.
I see not that I won't let go.
No I won't let go.
Well who am I?
A cold should used to cry on.
You feel bad, well so do I.
Yeah so do I.
Together: I've been right, I've been left.
I've been wrong, I've been left behind.
I've been up, but mostly down.
I've been right, I've been left.
I've been wrong, I've been left behind.
I've been up, but mostly down.
Shikamaru: I make mistakes
Just like everybody else.
But instead of letting it go
I can't forgive myself.
Sasuke: Well I did my time
In the window-less box
Like it or not
All I got now is today
Tomorrow ain't here
And yesterday is gone dead on me anyway.
Together: I've been right, I've been left
I've been wrong, I've been left behind
I've been up, but mostly down.
I've been right, I've been left
I've been wrong, I've been left behind
I've been up, but mostly down.
I've been right, I've been left
I've been wrong, I've been left behind
I've been up, but mostly down.
"This is genius, please tell me you recorded what we just did somehow."
"I'm not stupid man of course I did."
"Good because if you didn't I might have to hurt you."
"Whatever call Naruto and tell him we'll pick him up on our way to my house."
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Okay I know this took a while to update but here you go hope you all enjoy. –Itachiluv89