CHAPTER TEN- "IN DARKNESS"
He sat there, looking at the blue stone that would transport him to Earth-so to speak. Young was standing off to the side, watching as he lifted his hand. They had been over everything; the fact that once he was there, no back up could be provided. He knew he could also risk blowing his cover, and possibly being killed by the Lucian Alliance. Still, he was the only one who could go and find the answers. To find out if Colonel Telford had been the mole this whole time; who compromised Icarus Base and ultimately, caused all this hell. He glared over at Young; he was trying to make it very clear about his final request, before going back and letting Telford control his body.
"You have to tell Lily where I'm at, and what's happening."
"We've been through this Rush-"
"And I don't give a damn. She has a right to know. Not telling her, would be a very dangerous risk."
He stressed, his face telling Young that he was not being sarcastic. Young shook his head before smirking over at him.
"You've been visiting her, when she's supposed to remain in confinement."
"Kind of hard not to, since she is carrying my child."
Again, he gave Young a look, as if saying it didn't matter what Young could say or do. As far as himself and Lily were concerned, they'd do whatever they damned pleased with one another. The baby being a huge factor into that equation. Young sighed as he gave up trying to fight with him.
"Alright."
Once he got the affirmative from Young, he nodded as Scott, Greer and Riley stepped into the room. Young took his leave as he placed his hand upon the stone and closed his eyes. When he reopened them, he was on Earth. He could feel the stress and worry within his mind about accepting to take this secret mission. What could happen to him and how it would absolutely crush her if something did happen to him. But, pretending as if he's Dr. Morrison, followed Staff Sergeant Graham out of the room. What he didn't know was Young had used the stones to report to General O'Neil, to inform him of what it was he was doing and to get someone to follow him discretely.
She heard the knock on her door, knowing who it was on the other side. Finally, they were allowing her some time to be out of confinement. She wanted to be there for T.J.'s baby shower, even if she was going to be late. Riley had told her a little earlier that Young needed his assistance with something. So that's why she was running late. According to Young, any time she was let out of confinement, she needed an escort. Frowns a bit, knowing Nick was probably up to his elbows in work. But she assumed baby showers probably weren't his cup of tea. Still, just to show T.J. that he cared, she would express the gift was from both of them. It was risky; may hint to the others that she was becoming a little more to Nick.
It was true. Ever since that night, that secret night together that had ended with her kissing him, they had been spending more nights together. Sneaking off when everyone else was asleep or busy, going to the Observation Deck, and just watching space go by. He put on a different face and act around everybody else. But when he was with her, during those secret rendezvous, he was a completely different person. She knew, aside from Gloria, she could be the only one to make him comfortable enough to be that person. Nicholas Rush wasn't just egotistical, sometimes crazy, and obsessed with his work. With her, he was relaxed, comforting, kind. They started to have long chats, and it was nice to hear him laugh from time to time. Still, she didn't cross that lovers' boundary. She was afraid of pushing him too far, when he wasn't ready to cross that path yet. He'll come around. She was content with the way things were going now. But she did long to kiss him again; for him to kiss her.
The door opened and she smiled as she saw Riley, picking up the gift for T.J., that she had wrapped in a blanket. Riley gave her a smile as they walked out of the room. It was nice to just be able and walk around the ship some, even if it was with an escort. But Riley was always cool with her; he even knew about Rush coming to visit her at night. He knew, and continued to allow it. Riley just knew how much it meant to her. And she honestly believed Riley knew she wasn't a threat. He knew she could be, but not because she wanted to be. Nick knew this too, now that she's been able to express what's been going on in her head. She was hoping some day soon, she could show the positive effects of the aliens changing her and controlling her. How she started to understand Ancient; and could now write, read, and even speak it. Not like she had in the past. She even felt she could give his equations a try-to help him solve them.
"They've already started, but you haven't missed much."
"Thanks Riley, I appreciate it. We appreciate it."
"How is the baby?"
"Good. I haven't felt the fluttering in a while, but she's probably just asleep."
"Have you thought of any names?"
"No. I mean, I've batted around a few, but I much rather get Nick's opinion too."
She felt a nudge from him, making her smile and laugh. She knew what the nudge meant; Riley definitely knew there was a shift in their relationship.
"Yes Riley, we're "getting" there."
Chuckles again, meaning to Riley that her and Nick had crossed colleagues and somehow skipped the line of friendship completely. To her, in her heart, she felt as if Nick was some kind of secret guy of hers. That always made her stomach get butterflies, to think that, for now, Nicholas Rush considered her as a close girl. She was going to ask Riley a little later if she could sneak into the Control Room and check up on him, before going back to her room. But she forgets for the moment as she sees T.J.'s bright face.
Everyone was gathered in the Mess, a little pile of gifts next to T.J., as she held up a present Chloe had sewed for her. She says a little "aww" to herself, at how nice the gift was. She hoped, that even though she's on edge with everyone, they would think to get her baby some gifts. They were going to need it. Eli was taking pictures on his iPhone, and she gave him a smile. You could always count on Eli to document the important things. She gave him a little squeeze on his shoulder, smiling. Eli trusted her, he was just making sure he didn't get in trouble by not following orders. She could understand.
She allowed Riley to give T.J. his gift, and watched from the sidelines as T.J. opened it. She noticed some of the civilians seemed a little nervous with her in the room, so she was making sure to keep her distance, and show she meant no harm. Her eyes widened when she saw the amazingly constructed toy truck. She chuckled when she realized the wheels moved and everything. She never knew Riley was so crafty. She was curious as to if he actually did make a mini version of Destiny for her baby, like he said he would do. T.J. really liked the gift, and she didn't even notice Eli had stepped into the corridor to speak with Brody and Volker. She hesitated at first, before gently placing her gift on the table.
"I hope you like them T.J. I sewed them, but the gift is from myself and Dr. Rush."
Some people seemed really surprised by this, and probably knew it was more so her trying to involve him. But they all watched as T.J. opened the blanket, and held up the booties and cap. She smiles, pointing to the cap.
"I can always go back and sew the baby's name on the cap, whenever you and Young decide on a name. A baby can always use something warm for its head and feet. And let me know if you ever need more. I could make a bunch of those, no problem."
"They're so lovely, thank you Lily."
She bent down, to give T.J. a hug, relieved that she liked the gift so much. She got lost in the chatter of everyone around T.J., just enjoying the time being out of confinement. When she glanced up a moment, her eyes sparkled a bit, surprised to see Nick actually walk in. Then, her face turned into a questioning one, as she noticed he was dressed in fatigues. They were in FTL, so she knew there were no planets, and definitely no countdown clock. She didn't mind the fatigues, that was for sure, but there was no reason for him to be wearing them. She heard him tell T.J. "Congratulations" as if he didn't know she was pregnant. Then ask if he could speak with Camille. Something was going on, and she looked over to Riley, who was in the middle of a conversation. She walked over to Scott, giving a timid smile, before pointing in the direction Nick walked off to.
"Why is Dr. Rush in fatigues Matt? We're in FTL, so there's no countdown. Fatigues are for off-world missions."
She didn't know that Young had instructed all military personnel to keep the mission under wraps. So when she got an answer she wasn't looking for, she frowned. She nibbles on her bottom lip in worry and frustration. Because she made one big mistake, now no one could give her a straight answer when it regards the father of her child. With that in mind, since everyone else was so busy, she retreats back to her confinement room. She knew if she tried to follow Nick, all hell could break lose, and she didn't want him to get blamed. She lingered out in the corridor, hoping maybe she'd catch him once he was done talking with Camille.
He sat there, slightly defeated. He had looked through everything. Drawers, paperwork, files, cabinets. And yet, not one single piece of evidence to confirm Telford had been hiding any information regarding Icarus or the Lucian Alliance. After a moment of sitting there, trying to come up with another possible solution, he looks to his right. He noticed a square, wooden candle holder, and that caught his attention for a moment. His mind flashed back suddenly, to a moment in Lily's apartment.
"I left my report on the desk, Dr. Rush."
She told him, as she scrambled around her apartment to gather her things. Of course, it was the night prior to their summer break. She had missed his class to go see her drug counselor, so the report he requested get turned in, never got turned in from her. And since she lived in an apartment down the road from him, he went to go retrieve it himself. And wished he hadn't, as she dashed and hurried around her apartment. She was in the middle of finishing getting ready and collecting items she would need for a trip. She was just about to escort him out the door, until she gasped and turned back around.
"Oh yeah, forgot…"
He watched her go over to a black glass candle holder, picking it up. He was about to question why on Earth she would bring a candle on a road trip. But when he watched her take a compartment out of the bottom and withdraw a wad of cash, his face was stunned for a moment.
"You keep money…in there?"
"Just some savings. I know it'd be smarter to put it in a bank. But it's quicker to have some cash on hand, than to go withdraw it from the bank. Pretty neat though, huh? That they make books and candle holders into secret hiding places for jewelry, money, or whatever small and valuable items you can put in them. It's like they say, Dr. Rush, things are not always what they seem."
He heard what she had said, as she led him back to the door, and they exited the apartment together.
He made a face as he examined the candle holder closer; this one looked just like hers, except it was wood. He leaned over and picked it up, before giving it a shake. He heard the distinct rattling sound of what seemed to be metal. So the candle holder just appeared to look like wood, and was actually some kind of aluminum. He found the plug and peeled it off, shaking the holder to reveal what was hidden inside. He opened his hand to find a key, a key that appeared to belong to a safety deposit box. What caught his interest were the numbers engraved on the key: 314. He turned the key over in his hands a few time, as his face became frozen in thought. He thought back to the papers he had just sifted through on the desk nearby. He recalled seeing those numbers on one of the papers. He started to sift through them again hurriedly, coming to a sheet towards the middle of the stack. Straightening it out, he saw the name "District of Columbia Mutual" as the header, and saw that Telford did have a safety deposit box with them-with the number 314.
He smirked and gave a light chuckle. Once he would return to Destiny, he'd have to thank Lily. She managed to help him without having any knowledge of it. Making sure he straightened up the place as much to its original state (so much for the broken window), he went into Telford's room. He would have to dress the part too, these army fatigues might be too much for the workers at the bank. So, changing into some clothes and a leather jacket, he was off again.
She finally caught him alone, staying hidden around another corner as she watched Camile and Colonel Young leave him. Her mind wondered just what it was they all had been discussing, but she immediately put a smile on her face and wrapped her arms around his waist. She felt the hesitant, caught off guard response to her hug, but just assumed he was worried they'd get caught. Chuckles as she grabbed his hands and looked up into his face.
"That was so sweet of you to come and visit T.J. today, it means a lot to her. But why are you in fatigues babe? No way you can be going over world now."
His face looked slightly confused before it turned into one of slight surprise.
"You mean, no one told you?"
"Told me what? Nick, what's going on?"
After another moment, she watched his face turn into a smirk before he started laughing. He shook his head a moment before looking into her face again.
"Everett didn't tell me that you were calling him Nick now."
Her face suddenly dropped, and slight anger crossed her features. This wasn't her Nick; he would NEVER address Young as Everett. And this person's last statement, confirmed that Nick was not in his own body now. As he tried to reach out and grab her again, she smacked his hand away quickly, almost growling.
"Don't you touch me. I demand you tell me who the fuck you are!"
"You better watch the way you address a commanding officer Ms. Dalhberg. That's Colonel Telford to you."
"Why should I?"
"I'd watch it if I was you. We all know what it is you've done to the people on board, including your precious Dr. Rush."
"If you're trying to knock me down, don't. Nick understands exactly what it is I've done and has forgiven me."
She heard him bust out laughing, and it took all of her willpower to not try and punch him in the face.
"Whatever you say, princess."
"I demand some answers. Why did Nicholas use the stones?"
"You won't be getting them from me."
"Fine. I'll go get my answers elsewhere."
She heard him chuckle, as if she was joking around about going to get her answers. She knew where to go and took no time getting to the room where they held the stones. She saw Riley, Scott and Greer back in there, and they all seemed to flinch when she walked in. Colonel Young was already in activation with the stones and before anyone could say anything, she grabbed a free one for her own.
"Lily, you're not allowed-"
"I don't give a damn what I am and am not allowed to do Scott! I'm getting some damn answers from General O'Neil, since no one else can be straight with me on board!"
With that, she placed the stone on the panel and closed her eyes. Within moments, she opened her eyes and noticed she was at the Pentagon. She stepped up to the security guard on duty, not even realizing whom she had switched places with.
"I demand to speak to General O'Neil. I have no authorization and frankly, I don't care. My name is Lilith Dalhberg, and I've come from the Destiny."
This guard, obviously had not had someone with no authorization just demand to see the General. Because after a self-conflict within himself, he told her to follow him. They walked the short distance to General O'Neil's office and she felt her skin crawl some when she heard him address Colonel Young.
"General, Ms. Lilith Dalhberg is here to speak with you."
"You had no authorization-"
"Calm down, Everett. Sit down Lily."
She was a bit surprised that the General was being so calm about her obviously, stopping in unannounced. But, in the past, he seemed to be a pretty cool guy, so this actually didn't seem that surprising. She took a tentative seat and took a breath, before facing the General.
"Simply. What is going on with Nicholas? Why has he used the stones and what is his status now?"
"Ms. Dalhberg, I am not in any obligation to give you any details on this mission-"
"With all due respect, Sir, that is the father of my child you're dealing with here. That should account for something."
"Maybe it's best you have come today. Everett, you're dismissed. Check back with me in a half hour, for another report."
"Yes Sir."
As Colonel Young stood up, they both locked eyes, his showing no emotion. She showed that same dominance and dishonest towards him, like that day on that planet. When he purposely left her and Nick stranded, left for dead. She felt like he was doing the same thing all over again.
"We will talk later, when you return."
She brushed off the comment, showing she didn't care whether they did talk or not, and watched him leave the room. She looked over to General O'Neil, as he sighed and stood up, pacing some.
"As you know, we are aware of everything that is happening on board that ship. We know about you and Dr. Rush being stranded on that planet. We're well aware of the situation with the aliens having captured the two of you, and how they have genetically changed you."
"And how they impregnated me, against our will, correct?"
"Yes, we know."
"I just want everyone to understand, my unborn child has not done anything wrong. She should not be punished. I know how it is to live without a father and a mother. I want nothing more, than for her to have the two of us there for her. I need Nicholas for that, General."
He sighs, nodding his head and grabbing a binder off a shelf.
"We believe Colonel Telford has been a mole for the Lucian Alliance. The last time Dr. Rush switched with Telford, he left some residual memories within Rush's subconscious. Rush went to Colonel Young about these dreams he's been having. Explaining in great detail he was Telford, and he was meeting with some people, about files and documents regarding Icarus Base. Dr. Rush felt, he was the best person, to try and infiltrate the Lucian Alliance, and confirm our suspicions towards Telford."
"And you all just, let him? Without any reasoning, just like that?"
"He was very well aware of the danger concerning this mission. And he is also aware that if his cover is blown, we cannot intervene."
"Wait, come again? Cannot intervene? If he gets in danger, you all better do your hardest to get that man back to me!"
"You better not be demanding me, Ms. Dalhberg…"
"Sir, I know I have no "legal" rights over this man. I am not married to him. But we are expecting a child, and despite that, isn't it clear to everyone by now that I need this man? Haven't I been through enough? Okay, my mom died in childbirth, I can live with that. My father left me with no regard towards me. I can deal with that. My adoptive parents turned me into a heroine addict, beat me with every last inch of my being, and sexually abused me as if I was a sex doll. I can tolerate that. But for you all to stand around, and treat this man as if he doesn't matter, and tell me that he may get snatched away from me. I won't live with that-I won't accept it. Please. I will do anything, just please, don't allow Nicholas to get hurt."
After a moment, she saw General O'Neil smile, before nodding his head.
"You remind me of your mother. She had that fire, that fighting spirit for what she believed in or loved."
Her eyes widened and she felt her heart thud against her chest as her brain tried to process just what the General had said. He mentioned her mother, as if he knew her. Yet, her mom had never been involved in the Stargate Program. She felt the tears stinging her eyes before the question even left her lips.
"Wh-what? How do you know my mother?"
"There is plenty you don't know, Lilith. About your mother, where you come from, where you may go. It's actually faith, or destiny if you will, that you're here today. Your mother had not been involved with the Stargate Program, no, but she had been offered. Just like Dr. Rush's father had been as well. Do you know anything about the ATA gene?"
"I know, little of it? But what does that have to do with my mother, or Nick's father…"
"What do you know about the gene?"
"That, it was passed down from the Ancients. And its genetic code, somehow, makes the person with the gene able to control Ancient Technology, like a genetic key of sorts."
She watched him nod, before sliding over a binder. She grabs it and opens it up, shaking her head some as her mind was overwhelmed. She didn't want to scare or clue anyone on the fact that she could now read Ancient. And half the text on these pages were in Ancient.
"What am I looking at?"
"This is, although loosely based, a recollection of every being that has been an Ancient, or may have a link to an Ancient. Whether through the ATA gene or otherwise. It dates incredibly back into history, back into the distant B.C. eras."
"Okay, I still don't understand-"
"Keep flipping through."
For a good 40 minutes, she sat there, flipping through the pages. It seemed like a huge family tree of sorts, listing details and information of all the humans and beings that were Ancients, or linked otherwise. But as she flipped through the pages, it seemed more humans who were born with the gene, the gene was either not very successfully used or "inactive." When she got towards the end of the binder that was when she couldn't believe her eyes. She had never seen a picture of Rush's parents before. He hardly spoke of them. She just knew he really didn't have a mom, for whatever reason, and his dad had been very hard working and much like Nick. But there was a large picture of his dad and she smiled, as she saw some similarities. Her eyes scrolled down the page, listing he had the ATA gene and it was "active, but only 20% effective."
When she turned the page again, she couldn't contain the shuddering breath that left her. She only had so many pictures of her mom, the pendant, and diary pages to remember her by. Her fingers touched the picture of her mom below her; she looked so vibrant and full of life. She looked so much like her mom, it was scary. She felt like she was almost looking into a mirror. Her eyes scrolled down the page, reading "ATA gene active, but only 18% effective." She lingered on her mom's page a minute longer, before flipping a few more. When she got to the very end, her eyes widened, her breath halted.
There was a picture of Rush and a picture of herself, side by side.
She remembered when she was assigned to live at Icarus Base, they had made each of them take a blood test. But she thought it was for the purpose to make sure they weren't bringing any illnesses or diseases to the base. She felt herself swallow a lump in her throat as she looked down at Nick's picture. She was so worried about him now, it was insane. But her eyes scanned lower, reading the text. "ATA gene, inactive." That made her frown. If his gene had been active and functioning greatly enough, he could have controlled Destiny probably with thought alone. She swallows, looking below her picture and starting to read the text there. "ATA gene, inactive."
So, her gene was inactive as well. She closed the binder and after a long moment, looked back up at General O'Neil. He nods, taking the binder back from her and shelving it again.
"We meant to tell you two earlier. About you two possessing the gene and how one of your parents had. But we just recently got the results of the genetic testing, once you two were on board the Destiny. We needed to let you know, now, because there is a possibility of the gene being passed on to the baby. And, it isn't common, but two inactive gene holders have been able to pass the gene onto a baby, and the gene be active."
Her eyes widen, this time in fear, at those words. Sure, if their little girl did get the active gene, she could be the key to getting them home. But, it could also be very dangerous for them. Because she could be useful to other alien species. She swallows, sucking a shuddering breath.
"…do you think that's why the aliens chose Rush and I?"
"We're not sure. It is a possibility. I wouldn't rule it out."
"This is a lot to take in…"
"I understand. Please know, that we do not believe your father left you, because of any doings with us. What your mother did know about the Stargate Program, she kept very hidden. When we had offered her to come on board, she did consider it. However, when she discovered she became pregnant with you, she decided to simply become a mother. And we've had tabs ever since. Of course, when you were shipped from orphanage to orphanage, and especially when you were adopted and your name changed, we lost contact. It's why we were happy that you had joined Dr. Rush's class when you had. Those visits from Dr. Jackson, were to make sure you two would be vital to us."
"I can understand Rush's position, but why me?"
"Because of your undenying passion. You had expressed on many occasion, your excitement to explore the galaxies. Also, you're able to push Rush harder."
She looked up at him and he smiled.
"When Gloria Rush died, he was ready to pull the plug on not just us, but everything. He may have never expressed it to you, but you were that extra push he needed to come on board. He said you told him he couldn't give up on his dream, because she would have wanted him to go on."
"Well, that's the truth. I promised her I would take care of him for her. I'd never back down on a promise."
"I do believe, ultimately, he wants to see you succeed. As do we. We are sorry for what has happened to you, or what may happen. But do know that we have your best interest in mind, along with that baby. We're working hard on getting everyone home."
"…General O'Neil…I never did mean for any of that to happen on board. This mind control implant…I can't do anything to remove it without killing myself. If…I do die from childbirth, I'll let everyone know to remove it then and keep it. So that you all may study it. It may become useful one day in the future."
"That's very thoughtful of you. But I don't believe you'll die in childbirth kiddo."
"It happened to my mom."
"True."
She sighs before standing up and pacing a bit, before turning to him again.
"Did Nick's mother leave his father, because of the Stargate Program?"
"We suspect she may have known something of it, but we don't believe that was the case either. There are just some right down bastards in this world. Just like your mother, his father thought it would be better for Dr. Rush to be a father for him, rather than a scientist on board."
"…Nick told me his father was a ship yard worker in Glasgow."
"That's what he became, to help raise his family. His father was incredibly smart as well. Went to Oxford as well, had a doctorate in Physics and a Masters in Medicine. It was a shame when we heard about his death. Dr. Rush was all alone when he worked his way through college."
"…how did he die?"
"He was working in the ship yard, like normal, but fell off the edge of the peer after he slipped on a patch of black ice. Even though his father knew how to swim, no one had noticed he had fallen in. And the water being so cold, your body will shut down in no time. He ended up drowning."
"Oh my god."
She held a hand over her mouth, shaking her head. She wiped a tear that fell down her cheek, still shaking her head.
"I believe it's why Dr. Rush has a phobia of water. Or well, being submerged."
Her head snapped up and her eyes widened. She never knew this, but it made total sense. If her mom had died drowning like that, she may have been afraid of water as well. She felt her heart reach out to Nick, remembering those aliens had kept them submerged in those water tanks. And her memory flashed to when she had subjected everyone to that hallucinogenic, when she had managed to tap into Rush's nightmare. How he was freaking out, and how he was calling out for help. She felt bile rising into her throat, but controlled it, frowning over at the General. And she hated to ask this, after being revealed something so tragic involving the same thing, but she sighs.
"Could I have a glass of water, please?"
"Of course. I'll have someone bring you some water and a plate of food. It's not the same as being in your own body, but it should do nicely. In the meantime, relax in here, and I'll go check in with Dr. Jackson. We sent him to keep tabs on Rush, per Colonel Young's request.
She gave the General a stern look before shaking her head.
"He requested it because he thought Rush was the mole."
"…We don't know if he is or not."
"Are you serious? Of course he isn't!"
"Calm down. We have to take every precaution Lilith, you're probably very aware of this now. You cannot trust anything or anyone out in the universe."
"I guess you're right."
"Wait here."
"General O'Neil, trust me, he's not the mole."
She saw him nod at her before exiting the room. She sighs as she rubs the worry out of her face, shaking her head.
"You better be okay Nicholas."
She had panicked; that's the only explanation she could give to everyone and especially herself. A huge part of her had wanted to stay there, to do as much as she could to help get him back. She was not just going to accept that he had blown his cover, that he was probably now in hyperspace, and captured by the Lucian Alliance. Why had she panicked and asked to go visit her home now? She felt the tears stinging her eyes, she felt empty deep inside, even if she wasn't in her own body. She frowned, as she didn't even have her pregnant belly to touch-to offer a shred of comfort.
She slowly got out of the taxi, not feeling right about any of this as she slowly made her way up the stone path. She lifted up a rock, picking up the key she had hidden and placed it in the lock. Her hand shook as she fought to unlock her door, shoving the door open. She managed to close it before dropping the key on the counter. She felt herself wanting to collapse, slamming herself against the wall, before sliding down it. She wept-wept for him, wept because she wanted him here, safe.
After a long moment, she screamed out all of her sadness, anger, frustration, everything. How could Young just react like he did? He was acting as if, he didn't give a damn if Nick was killed. Thank God for Dr. Jackson, being there to calm her down like he had, and assure her they were trying their hardest to return him back to the Destiny. She appreciated it, but it wouldn't do her any good until she could physically touch and see that he was fine, and back to her. She realized, this feeling now, unsure if she had lost him or not, was worse than getting over her previous heroine addictions. Worse than getting beaten and sexually abused, worse than anything in the world.
And it wasn't that she didn't believe in Nick-but he really wasn't a physical fighter. He was more of an intellectual fighter, and she wasn't sure how far that would take him. She knew of the Lucian Alliance, how ruthless they are. She shakily got onto her feet, averting her eyes of the pictures she had of herself or of Nick-happy moments. She was upset, she was frantic and worried, and she had every right to be. As she walked, she disrobed, knowing of the only solution to help calm herself, at least a little. She got to the shower and turned the hot water on full blast, letting it warm up before stepping in.
The hot water was nice and would have been inviting on any other time. Any other time. Her whole being shook and she had the worst pit in her stomach and the worst impending doom feeling in her heart. Swallowing back another sob, she shook her head, talking to no one in general. Asking, no begging, for help.
"If anyone is listening, please, tell me what it is I have to do to get Nick back to me. Let me know what the hell is happening to him!"
She gasped, her hand suddenly clutching at her heart. She cried out, as she had never felt a pain like this before, it making her crash down in the shower. After another moment it passed, and she felt the bile rising into her throat before she could manage. She took a moment after she got sick before leaning back against the shower wall. It was a crazy theory, but she somehow knew her sudden and very bizarre heart pain, was because Nick was hurt or being hurt. She collected herself and got out of the shower, getting changed quickly. She had never felt this before, but she knew she was getting this new energy, this new passion, because of him.
Nicholas Rush was her man, her lover, and she be damned if ANYONE hurts him. She was going to march her ass back to the Pentagon, back to Destiny, and if she had to do it all by herself, she was going to get her man back. Period.
He laid there, feeling his body shake and convulse with the torture it was receiving. Even though it wasn't his own body, it still hurt and it was still torture. Even with his intelligent mind, he couldn't come up with anything he could say, to avoid this. His mind was begging him to make it stop, to make them stop. She didn't enjoy this, seriously? She didn't seem to mind watching her henchmen do this to him. And it was extremely barbaric. He felt his body try to attempt to relax-a calm before the storm.
He heard the electric hum first, before he felt the blinding and searing pain of the electrical charges, this time dangerously close to his heart. It made his body arch up, in response, and he felt himself standing on his tiptoes. Death had to be better than this. When it stopped, his body slammed to the ground, hard. He couldn't even get away if he wanted to, not with these shackles. He heard himself panting, felt his body shuddering anew. The pain in his chest, coursing all through his body, and now putting a new memory to mind. That he never, ever, wanted to experience something like this again.
As he lay there, panting and trying to collect himself, his mind flashed to something very different. He felt his heart stop as he swallowed the lump forming in his throat. He had come to a realization. Maybe he suddenly knew that he wouldn't be able to get out of this. Maybe he knew he'd probably be killed. But his mind was suddenly filled with visions of her. Thinking of her, was the only calm he was experiencing since being captured.
He envisioned her beautiful face, her smile, that he hated to admit, could make anyone want to smile. Her voice, calm and soothing, always saying something to encourage him. Her embrace had always been just as comforting. How she was so dedicated to him, how much she loved him. His eyes widen suddenly, at a new revelation. What if he did succumb to this? He'd never see her again, never get to express how he loved her. And what would happen to Lilith and the baby, with no one there to protect them? He felt his blood go cold with sudden dread. He heard Kiva asking him one more time to reveal who he was, not saying anything. She had promised she wouldn't kill him if he just gave his name. Could he honestly trust her? He heard the hum and it all clicked: for his lover and his baby, he had to give in. He had to survive.
"Rush!"
He felt the guy back off and couldn't help the shuddering breath that left him.
"I'm Dr. Nicholas Rush…"
He laid there, panting and staring at the ceiling above. Kiva was wrong; he did have something to lose. Two, very important people to lose, if he didn't fight to survive.
It wasn't any more comforting being back aboard Destiny, or being in her own body. However, her fire for Nick didn't die and she stormed the corridors. She ignored the looks from others, ignored any military requesting she have an escort. She knew who it was she needed to speak with. And he was right, they needed to have another talk. She caught him walking out the quarters they gave Telford for now. Her blood was boiling, not respecting Telford much either, but she faltered a bit when she saw the state Nick's body was in. More evidence that further boiled her blood. They didn't say anything to each other, once they met in the corridor, and he told Greer and Scott to stand down. They had beef that needed to be settled between them, and it couldn't wait any longer.
She followed him down the corridor and into an unused corridor, closing the door before turning to her.
"We need to talk."
"I agree."
"You are in confinement. That means you are not allowed out without an escort, or are you allowed to use any of the equipment onboard, unless you are being supervised. This is for your own safety and the safety of others on board."
"Cut the crap Colonel. Why is Nick's face bleeding? What did you do to him now?"
"Telford and I, got a little out of hand, and so did Greer."
"Ah, so let's beat Nick's body to a pulp, he'll live with it, right?"
She heard him chuckle and shake his head.
"You're a lot of work, just like him."
"Yeah, and? What of it? And as far as confinement goes, as long as Nick is not on board this ship, I should have full access to everything."
"No. I am overseeing this mission-"
"No you are NOT! You're not the General!"
"Neither are you."
"No, but I'm the only one on board that truly, gives a shit about this man, and you know it. Everyone knows it. If they don't, they've been blind for almost 8 months. Plus, as the father to my unborn child, I think I stand more rights to determine what happens to Nicholas far more than ANY one else on board, much less in the entire universe. There is a BIG difference between your intentions for him and mine. You could care less what happens to him. You've demonstrated that more than once now. I care about him. I love him, and I'll be damned if anything happens to him. In the hands of anyone or anything. From now on, I don't want anyone laying another FINGER on him. I don't want anyone even LOOKING at him the wrong way. I don't care if that is Telford in his body or not, I want Nicholas's body unharmed as much as humanly possible. And nothing better happen to him. Because if I find out that he's dead, or he's hurt severely, when this was all you fault. …I don't even want to think of what I'll be capable of then."
She slammed her hand on the door button, walking out and shutting the door behind her. That was the end of that discussion, and he could take it however he liked it. They had no idea how fragile she was, and in what condition she has been in for some time now. And she never knew Nick had tried to warn him. She had tried to warn him.
"I had try to get some answers from Scott, but he just said this would all be over soon. I let him know whatever happens, we'll all have to live with it."
"You're right in telling him that, Camille."
The Mess got silent, as it was just her, Volker, Brody, Becker and Camille in there. They all looked at her, questionably, and she shrugged.
"What are you saying, Lily?"
"I'm just saying, if Nicholas dies, you all will have to be the ones to explain to my baby, why her father isn't here. What happened to him, that we all sent him, blindly, on a deadly mission. And refused to even tell me about it."
"Well, Rush didn't tell you about the mission either."
"I know this, Volker, and when he gets back, I will deal with him accordingly!"
"If…he gets back."
Growls a bit, standing up, and actually spooking them with the growl. It had sounded so alien like, and she hadn't realized it came out. She rubbed her forehead some, before nodding to them.
"He will get back, and if he doesn't, like I said. Everyone will have to live with the guilt. And trust me, I won't back down in reminding everyone how we all sent him to his death."
With that, she stormed out the mess, shaking her head. Everyone wanted to play with Nick, and not give a damn, because they thought he didn't give a damn about them. If she had to, she'd show everyone they had no idea how ruthless she could be and not give a damn about them. And could make them feel guilty, make them suffer if Nick doesn't come back to her. She'd make them pay.
"You are not authorized to be in this section."
"I don't care Sergeant."
"Lily, just calm down and go back to your quarters-"
"Calm down? Why the hell should I calm down? What good does that do me or Nick, Scott? What good will me calming down help Nick to get back to this ship? No, I will not calm down, no I will not stand down. Now damn it, that man needs me, and I will not just hang around in the background and hope he ends up being okay. I need some answers, and I need them now!"
She saw the Corporal leave, rushing to him.
"General?"
Frowns as he didn't answer her, the connection was cut, and saw Camille rush in.
"Okay, this has gone on long enough. You have to cut the connection."
"I can't do that."
"Bullshit, yes you can. Look, I'll go fucking do it myself-"
"Don't you dare, Lilith."
She glared at Young, and actually stepped up to him, in his face.
"You're going to physically hold me down and make sure I don't? Didn't think so…"
"No, I will not hold you down, but the military personnel overseeing the communication stones will."
"Dr. Rush's life is in danger!"
"Finally, someone else who realizes this…"
"That's more important than getting any intel on the Lucian Alliance!"
"I agree completely."
She watched Young look at Scott, who admitted to believing it was better for them all if Camille knew what was going on. She watched Young lift up his radio and activate it.
"Control Room, this is Young."
She knew Volker, Brody and Eli had been there earlier, and probably still were. She heard Brody answer the radio.
"This is Brody."
"Bring up the life support controls for this section."
"Why the hell would you need those?"
She felt Scott grab her and pull her gently back some, grunting and forcing her arm out of his grasp, glaring daggers into Young.
"I got it."
"Begin venting the atmosphere in Colonel Telford's quarters now."
"What?"
"Sir!"
"Oh hell no, don't you fucking dare!"
"Say again?"
"Begin venting Colonel Telford's quarters now."
She tried to run at Young, but felt Greer holding her back now. Actually hoisting her off of her feet, even though her feet kicked and she tried to force herself out of his grasp. She was beyond furious and she felt her heart racing, in a panic, for Nicholas.
"Don't you dare. Everett, please don't!"
She begged, feeling the shuddering gasps of breath before she even realized she was gasping for air already. She saw Camille and Scott standing in front of the doors, trying to convince Young not to do this either.
"What the hell are you doing?"
"Camille, stay out of this."
She watched Young step in front of Greer, and Greer let her go briefly to allow him access to the door.
"He can't do this! Lieutenant!"
"I…"
"You're damn right he can't do this. You son of a bitch-"
Both herself and Camille tried to grab Young. She actually had grabbed his sleeve and pulled back, before Greer grabbed them both and forced them away.
"YOUNG!"
She yelled out, flinching when anyone touched her. She felt her blood boiling, but also going stone cold. She felt her pulse racing, her heart beating uncontrollably. She was having a panic attack and she damn well knew it. When she heard Young warn Telford, she felt the tears start to flow. She tried to grab Young again, only to get forced back.
"Damn it!"
After another moment, she started to hear the hissing, and she felt like her own air was being taken from her. She grunts as she tried to push past Greer, sobbing out. She looked to them, even as she heard Young threatening Telford in the background.
"David! I'm venting the atmosphere in your room. You've got five minutes before you die of suffocation."
"Please. I won't ever ask for anything anymore. Don't let him kill Nick."
She looks to Scott, and saw him turn his face away, guilt ridden.
"Please!"
"Your only hope is to tell me the location of the Alliance base."
"You're bluffing. Kill me and you kill Rush."
"I know. But right now, I'm thinking of the greater good. So: what's it gonna be?"
"Greater good for who? God damn you Everett! Let me go! I said let me go!"
She struggles with Greer, fighting him as best as she could, but she couldn't control her own emotions, her body failing to even budge in his grasp. Greer stood by his Colonel, his commanding officer. And she couldn't even do a damn to stand by her man. Her heart was heavy with guilt-Nick didn't deserve her. She couldn't even protect him or fight for him. She was one big let down and one big failure. She sobs out, clutching at her necklace.
"God mom, what should I do? Don't let them take my soul mate away from me…"
"They do not care for you. We do. We can take care of you and your little one. Join us…"
"No…"
"Young! Open this damn door!"
"Open the fucking doors!"
She yells out to Young, but her plea gets unheard. He stands there, cold and unfazed by any of this.
"We both know you're not gonna kill me!"
But even as Telford said that, she shook her head. Young cared for Telford, she knew. But for Rush…there was no hope at all left. She started to hear Telford breathing even more heavily, and starting to hit and kick at wall panels. She sobs out shaking her head.
"Oh my God…"
She watches Camille suddenly snatch a radio and activate it.
"Mr. Brody, this is Wray. You need to restore the atmosphere…"
"This is Young. Please disregard that request."
"By letting this happen, you are participating in not only the murder of Colonel Telford, but Doctor Rush as well."
She gets out of Greer's grasp, finally, and snatches Camille's radio, activating it.
"I know you're all in there. Eli, Brody, and Volker. Let's not forget that by killing Nicholas, you're not only killing me, but hurting this unborn child. What life will she have without her father? Do you, SERIOUSLY, want to live with that guilt? Do you want to be the ones to tell her, who really killed her dad? ANSWER ME!"
She throws the radio down, looking back at Scott one more time. She's clutching her stomach, as if trying to tell him that this baby needs Nick just as much as she does. She watches Scott walk up to Young, shaking her head. Yeah, that's right Scott. Tell him how wrong this is. Young should understand, he has a child on the way too.
"OK, sir, you've made your point."
"I'm not trying to make a point."
She looks at her watch, shaking her head and physically shaking now. It's been too long, and she can hear the commotion behind the doors.
"C'mon, open the door, sir, please!"
"I know what I'm doing."
"What you're doing is killing him!"
"I know that, Lieutenant."
"And you just don't fucking care? You cold, callous, son of a bitch!"
"Brody!"
She briefly could see in the window, and saw Rush's body gasping for air. She cries out, shaking her head no, scared or what was happening to Nick, wherever he was.
This was a completely new pain-mindless pain. He felt his lungs on fire and he honestly couldn't breath. One minute he had been working on these equations, the next, he found himself on the floor. Arched on his toes as he struggled to breath, as others gathered around him.
"What's happening to him?"
His mind briefly went to her, through the soaring pain, and honestly felt he was going to die. And that his last thought would be of her, his angel.
She was being held back again, but this time, even Greer had a look of indifference, of guilt on his face. She heard Telford struggling to breath, though her ears picked up the pain sounds of Nick's voice. Gasping, suffering, begging for air.
"Oh God, please stop it! Oh God, take me instead please!"
She begs, shaking in Greer's grasp, also gasping for air. She felt her own lungs hurt, like she was being suffocated.
"All right, now, sir, I cannot ..."
She watches Greer push Scott away, gritting her teeth in anguish. This wasn't how it was supposed to be. She was supposed to grow old with Nick, and she had honestly wanted to be the first to go, not the other way around. She couldn't face the world without him. It wasn't the same. He had given her life back, it was unfair to watch them take his away.
"Oh my God…"
Now she was regretting the day. How she didn't get the chance to tell him she loved him. To give him a goodbye kiss. To ensure to protect him. She had failed him and Gloria, and she felt like she was the scum of the universe. And these people, who she thought was family, really did want to hurt her. No one could be trusted. She heard the breaths inside getting shallow and less frequent, before she heard silence. Young stepped away from the door, and she rushed to the window with Camille. The image inside, she felt her heart literally stop. He was gone. In her heart, she knew he was gone.
"You've killed him."
Confirmation. She felt her whole world crumble. Felt herself crumble. She felt someone grab her before she could fall, but she pushed him away. She didn't say anything, her feet suddenly running and darting off down the corridor.
"Lilith-"
She heard Scott call out, but it was too late. She ran and ran for what seemed like forever, not even realize she had stumbled upon an unused part of the ship. A lone corridor. She crumbled to her knees, mouth opening in a silent cry, before her voice found her and she screamed.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"
She felt her fingers claw at the cold floor, body convulsing, sucking in shuddering breaths.
"It should have been me, not him! Why God? I can't breath…I can't breath…why did it have to be him? Why is everyone wanting to hurt me? Oh God, why didn't I protect him more, love him more? I don't deserve him. God Nick, why? Why did you have to be a hero? You should of just stayed behind. I'm so sorry. Oh God, Nicholas, I'm so sorry. I don't deserve your forgiveness. They killed you…I killed you…"
She struggled to take a breath, she struggled with herself. All she felt was guilt.
"I don't deserve this precious baby. I don't deserve to even be alive. God, take me! Please take me! I don't want to live without him! I can't live without him. Someone help me…please…"
"That's right. There is no one there anymore to love you…to care for you. We can care for you. We helped get your pregnant, it's only right. Come to us. You were once a Tau'ri. Look at the damage they have done, the damage you have done. Think of all you can do if you become an Omega. Join us…"
"No…I can't…"
She clutched her head suddenly, as she screamed out once more. Except not in her guilt, but in pain. She felt her very being getting snatched away and locked up, never to come forth again. Everything she was before suddenly left her and when the pain stopped, so did she. Tears did not fall; she did not weep for Nicholas or his wrongful death. She stood up, as if nothing has happened, but she did have new purpose. A new mission. She did not know what she was doing, but she knew exactly what it was she was doing. She wanted revenge, and they all had to pay.
She walked through the corridor, knowing where she needed to go, even as they tried to radio her. Even as she heard Young's voice over the ship's main PA system. She didn't care if an incursion was about to happen, or that the Lucian Alliance were coming. They all had to pay now.
"We've been informed that this ship faces an incursion by armed forces of the Lucian Alliance, the group responsible for the attack on Icarus Base. All military personnel on board have been placed on high alert. If the enemy has acquired the means to dial Destiny, their point of ingress will be the Stargate…"
She managed to sneak into the Gate room, hiding behind a console, as she heard them sealing the doors and darkening the room. Good, they were helping her out with her plan. Still hiding behind the console, she looked at the gun she had in her hand, cocking it, before stashing it behind her back.
"So the Gate room is off limits. All surrounding corridors have been placed in lock down. No one may enter without proper authorization. I have provided Homeworld Security with intel on the planet from which the Lucian Alliance intends to launch their assault. They are dispatching forces as I speak."
She knew the Kino had been set up high above the room, but with the dark, she knew it would buy her some time. Standing up, she activated the console. After taking a few moments to look over everything, she activated some buttons. She started to transfer all control to her console, closing her eyes.
"I'm transferring control right now. Once I gain full access, I'll send you the gate address."
"It will take us a good bit of time to get our stargate properly activated. Do you think you can hold them off until then?"
"Yes Sir."
"Good Omega."
"So you'll follow orders as long as I explain everything to you beforehand?"
"No, sir, that is not what I meant."
"Well, that's good, because if it was, we'd have a problem, Lieutenant. Do we have a problem?"
"Actually, Sir, we do have a problem. Lily is missing. She's not in her quarters and no one has seen her since running off."
"Tell everyone to be on high alert, but search for her again."
"But Sir-"
"That's all, Lieutenant."
He couldn't wait to get back on Destiny and away from these people. Getting stabbed when he almost faced death was not something he was ready for. He was physically and mentally tired. The only thing that was keeping him going now, was her. How he wanted to go back to her, see her face, hear her voice. Get the comfort he knew she had waiting for him. She would feel his pain and know of the means to soothe it away. She always did. He knew why Gloria chose her. Gloria was intelligent like that.
He glares at the henchmen, watching over his every move, as he clicked away on the laptop. He had never been so annoyed with his work before. Now, he wanted nothing more than to just crawl up with her. Shaking his head and rubbing his face, he sighs to himself.
"I can't wait to come back to you…"
"Someone is draining all control to the Gate room."
"That's impossible, Eli. We had the room sealed off."
"Well someone is doing it."
"Sir, we haven't found Lily yet."
"It's got to be her then. James, go get her, now."
"Yes Sir."
"Is there anyway to gain control back, Eli?"
"No. Whatever she's done, she's blocked anyone from accessing the systems. Even Rush couldn't crack this."
"It must be her alien influence then."
She froze when she saw the gate dialing, looking down at the console. So, someone was trying to dial in. She growls, knowing exactly who it was. She clicked a button, sending the gate address, before shutting down the console. No one would be able to tap in but them. And she was going to be ready for when the Lucian Alliance come. She heard the whoosh sound, and ducked behind the console, hidden by its bulkiness and the darkness. Her arm went behind her back, hand ready to seize the gun. She waited patiently, waiting for when she needed to attack.
She started to hear people and objects coming through the gate, much like they had that one day. She saw Telford come through finally, though she remained frozen, unattached. She grits her teeth, which she hadn't realized some had become sharp and pointed, more alien changes. She looked like a predator, and she was waiting to pounce on her prey. Just waiting for the right moment…
"What happened?"
"Colonel?"
"No, no. No, it's me."
"Rush."
"Yeah."
He looks around anxiously, before he remembers everything that has happened.
"The ship; the Lucian Alliance ..."
"Yeah, no, we know everything. Telford told us."
"So what are we doing about it, then?"
"Let's just say it'll all be over in a few minutes."
"What?"
They look up as Young comes into the infirmary, and he immediately wastes no time.
"Where is Lily?"
"We believe, she has locked herself in the gate room."
"With this madness taking place-"
"Rush, she's adverted all control to herself."
"What? What do you mean? You did tell her of the plan, didn't you?"
"Well no, not at first."
He threw his hands up in the air, shaking his head.
"She didn't take Young's plan of getting Telford out of the brainwashing technique either."
"Wait, what plan?"
He heard Young sigh, before addressing him.
"The only way I could get David back, and to come clean about everything, was to suffocate him, then bring him back. Lilith ran off before I could explain to her what happened-"
"So wait a minute. You mean to tell me she still thinks I'm dead?"
He chuckles, shaking his head. He wasn't chuckling because this was funny. He was chuckling because of how worse this day has gotten.
"Colonel, that was a big mistake. I believe we're rather screwed now."
"What are you talking about, Rush?"
"Our Lilith, is gone. I can almost guarantee you that she's gone. Now, we have her body, hosting a brain that is being taken over by those aliens. She's become one of them now, no doubt."
They all grow silent, at how real and dangerous the situation has become.
"How much control does she have?"
"Everything. She can contact them, dial them in, everything."
His eyes widened, and he felt his blood go cold. The thought of running into these aliens again scared the crap out of him. He shook his head, knowing what she'd do. He just knew she had to be 5 steps ahead of them already.
"Fuck. We better get ready for an invasion, not an incursion."
She felt her eyes widen and her hand shake as she saw Telford come through the gate, alive and well. So, they staged Nick's death? It didn't matter now, she had her commands, and she knew what her job was. She waited, she would be able to spot who the leader was, once they came through. And that was the person she had to deal with first. She knew exactly what it was the Alphas wanted to do, what they desired. They wanted Destiny, and that meant capturing everyone on board. Including Nicholas. And she held no remorse, no sorrow, only carrying out her orders. And making them pay.
"Sir?"
"We have an even bigger situation. Gather all the military personnel. We have reason to believe Lily has contacted the aliens, and they will probably be on their way, or possibly, coming through the stargate."
"Sir?"
"She's gone, Lieutenant. It's not the Lily we know. Take every precaution necessary. I believe she could be dangerous now."
"Yes Sir."
There. The lady that just came through, in the leather trench coat, she just knew that had to be the leader. Especially the way she was interrogating Telford like that. Thinking it was Nick. She was sorely mistaken. And she was mistaken if she thought she would spoil the plans of her Alphas. She stood up, and immediately saw everyone who had weapons, draw them on her. She acted as if she had been mistakenly locked in the gate room, playing with them. Trying to make it seem like she was innocent.
"Oh God, please don't hurt me!"
She clutched at her stomach, as the commander stepped up to her, up in her face.
"Who are you?"
"I'm Lilith Dalhberg-"
"Why are you in here?"
"I came in here, when I was upset and scared after what happened to Nick. Please don't hurt me, I'll comply with whatever you wish."
"You have better, for your sake."
She had to stall them for a few more seconds; she had feeling they would be dialing in soon.
"Where is Dr. Rush?"
"I don't know, honestly. I swear, I don't know anything!"
There. The gate just illuminated; her Alphas were coming. The commander, obviously not happy with her, raised her gun and pointed it at her.
"Why is the gate dialing?"
She smirks, taking a moment to laugh, before addressing the commander.
"You might want to put that gun down. The Alphas are on their way, and they really do cherish me. This baby. I'm very important to them. You might anger them, and that wouldn't be good. See, we're taking over this ship, not you."
"You had better answer me now!"
"Did I stutter? I said the Alphas are coming. I know you can see my appearance. Being half Tau'ri and half alien. You think I was born this way?"
"Then you should be dealt with accordingly-"
Before she could, she took her gun out of her back pocket so quickly and pulled the trigger. It was all over in a split second. She watched the other woman fall to the ground, suffering a bullet wound to the head. Just as the others were about to surround her, the Alphas came through. That caused enough surprise and fright for the other Lucian Alliance to freeze. The Alphas moved quickly, some LA lost their lives, others were quickly rendered unconscious and being taken away. She bows as she saw her leader walk up to her, before walking over to the console. She activated the ship's PA system, speaking to them all.
"Destiny. Surrender now. We now control this ship."
He felt his pulse quicken and felt his breath get caught in his throat. It was good to hear her voice, but at the same time, he heard the command. He heard she was serious and was not joking. This was not his Lilith at all, not one bit. She was gone.
Forever.
Author's Notes: I wanted to show that Lily and Rush shared a lot of things, not just their feelings for each other, but now that they are really connected in more ways than one. I wanted to have a little bit of history thrown in there, that's why I mentioned a bit about their parents. Show that maybe it was fate that got them together after all. That they are more than just "dating" I guess you can say. That they can sense when one of the other is in pain, and can maybe feel it, without it actually happen. That they know something has happened to the other, without really having to get a visual confirmation. That they are getting in more tuned with each other.
I also wanted to show the raw emotion, how crushed she was when she thought she lost him. And how desperate she was to make the pain go away. To have purpose again. She allowed her walls to come down enough for the aliens to take full control. And for now, she isn't thinking about anyone but helping these aliens. And she's ruthless and with no account to others, including Nick. This is a darker chapter, but if you want to see what happens, I'd keep tuning in. Reviews are love. Let me know what you think, please. Also, jump over to my LJ account: erin_marie_s and partake in the poll. I've decided to let my readers, my fans of "RTTE" vote on what their unborn baby's name should be.
And thanks again!
Also: No music. I'm sure I could have found something to throw in there, but it hasn't really come to me. Music will be featured in future chapters, so no worries.
Takes place during episodes 18 and 19: "Subversion and Incursion Pt. 1" All dialogue that came directly from the show were used from episode transcripts. Again, no right to the characters, show, etc. I don't own anything except Lily and the unborn baby, of course.