Month One:

BPOV

Its been a month since Emmett left and I miss him terribly. I have not had much contact with him unfortunely since ,well, when he first arrived. He was able to skype with me for a bit and although it wasnt much I was glad to know he made it safetly to his destination. The house has been pretty quiet with the occasional visit of Alice, Rose and Lillian. I like when they visit but at the same time I like to be alone in my babys room. It relaxes me since I know it is all of Emmett's doing. My sweet Emmett. I cannot wait until he's back here with me and our baby, but yet I cant let go of this feeling I have deep within. I try to ignore it but theres just something that wont let me. The only way to get rid of it is by thinking of my baby. My beautiful baby. I just turned two and a half months and feel, well, pregnant. My nauseas are still there but seem to come and go all the time. I know its too early to be craving stuff but I always want chocolate. Might be because of the baby or because I had not had chocolate in a long time. Currently I was in the living room when I heard the doorbell.

"Bella open the door now!" Is all I heard before I even got to the door. As i opened it I saw Alice and Rose which I weird since they told me the other day they wouldn't be here.

"What are you both doing here?" I asked them.

"Well obviously to take care of you and the dog." Rose said. "Yeah and your house cause damn girl it reeks in here." Alice said as she pushed through to get inside.

"It does not reek Alice I do clean you know?"

"Yeah but not as good as me." She said and disappeared off into the backyeard.

Rose entered too and we went into the kitchen. "How are you holding up sister? Still depressed?" She asked.

"I'm doing alright and I was not depressed. It would cause harm to my baby and I dont want that. Although I do miss him terribly." I told her. Every night before I go to sleep I've gotten in the habit of praying I dont know why it just came to me with all these feelings I get that Em isnt coming back. I cant help but think they might come true.

"I know you do. We all do and we want nothing more for him to come back and Im certain he will. Now there is a reason why we came and not to clean your house or your dog. Alice wantss help planning the twin's birthday."

"I still cant believe theyre turning five already. Time goes by so fast."

" I know its like just yesterday that they were born." Rose said. Alice then turned up and I guess she had fun with the dog.

"So I heard Alice that youre planning the twins birthday party already?" I told her as she sat down next to Rose.

"Yeah my babies arent babies no more but Its getting hard planning what to throw them because they both like their own things now. Emily is about princesses and then Jackson is into race cars and stuff so I have no idea what to do." She said.

"You still have two months to go I'm sure we'll be able to get an idea by then." I told her.

"Yeah Alice dont stress it. We should get help from Lillian too after all she is the twins grandmother." Rose said. "Speaking of grandmother, how's baby McCarty Bells?"

" She or he is fine I had a doctors appointment last week and its growing healthy every day." I told them. I loved talking about my baby and I could give you an essay but since my baby is still very little, there isnt anything to talk about.

"We wish we could have gone with you but we couldnt get out of work." Alice said and Rose agreed. "We really wanted to be there and see the little kid but for sure the next ultrasound we will and screw what our boss says." Rose said and laughed.

"No worries girls I got pretty lucky that my mother in law is the best. She had no problem coming with me." I told them. "Although I sure hope you guys are there next time or else I'll kick your guys ass pregnant or not." We all laughed. I had fun when they were here. They helped me forget a little of my feelings and knowing Emmett isnt here.

EMPOV

Its been a month since I left and I've had minimal to no contact with Bella. I miss her so much as well as my little baby. She isnt born yet and barely visible but I know shes in there. And I know theres a possibility shes could be a boy but I knew deep in my heart Bella has a little princess inside her. I havent told any of my soldiers yet but I will soon. And I still need to talk to my Colonel and telling him I want to get out.

"Good Morning Captain McCarty I heard you needed to talk to me?" Colonel Campbell said.

"Yes sir I wanted to speak to you about my leave from the Army. I feel like I've had enough of it and It's time to move on." I told him.

"I'm not sure I want to do that though, you are the best we've had in years and we cant possibly think of retiring you just yet." He said and I almost lost it. They wanted to keep me here for selfishness , thats incredible for their selfishness I cant go home and be with my baby and my wife. Maybe if I told them about the baby they would understand? Doubt it so I didnt say anything.

"Is that all you had to say?" He said looking impatient.

"Yes sir."

"Very well I have some runs to do see you later." He said and walked away. There was no way I would allow this to happen. He cant possibly keep me here because of his needs. I'm not letting him get away with it which means Im going to have to go with the higher rank if i want to get out.