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time brings out the sun and the rain,
time brings joy andpain,
time turns men from boys,
time gives you a choice,
time is beautiful,
time is sad at a funeral,
time brings out the best of me,
time brings you out of misery,
time is a mistery,
time creates history,
time is something you can't rewind,
time is something you can't search or find,
time could make you lose or win,
time makes all of us sin,
time could be the enemy or the friend,
time has a beginning but no end.

by Jose Murguia.

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Two months. A lot changed in those two months. Her son gave her his first laugh two weeks ago. A wide spit wad smile, with a goofy look in his eyes.

It had made her so proud.

Cameron sighed at the memory of it. Sure, moments like that made her proud...happy even! But still... it wasn't the same to have to experience them alone. His father should've seen it,too.

But he didn't.

Cameron looked at the overflow of dirty dishes in her sink. She closed her eyes and squeezed a lone tear out of her left eye, before sniffing slightly. She scrubbed at the never ending pile and started thinking about how lonely she felt. She knew she had her son, a few good friends, her parents. Despite all that she still felt alone...somehow. Someone was missing.

He was missing.

She could hear her son babbling happily in the living room. Chase had moved out a month ago, right after she'd told him the truth about Nathaniel.

At least she had the courage to talk to Chase. Finally. One problem less to think about. Now she had to face the consequence she had feared all along: Nathan and her were alone now.

And she felt guilty for hurting Chase.

Flashback...

She leaned against the doorframe and watched father and son playing peek-a-boo. Cameron blinked and a small smile crossed her face, but her heart was burning. She had to tell him. NOW! She couldn't do it anymore. She couldn't keep lying like that. It was just too much for her to handle. She walked further into the living room and sat beside them. She took Nathans hand and stroked his little cheek sadly, knowing full well, that the happy times were over now.

´Chase?´

Chase looked at her.

´Why do you whisper?Is everything alright?´ He looked at Nat and then at Cameron again.

´What's the matter?´he asked slowly, knowing that something bad was about to come.

Cameron looked down and tried to force her tears back.

´We have to talk...´

Chase let go of Nathan and put him in the baby-carrier which rested on the coffee table. He sat beside her again and tried to look into her eyes, but he couldn't because she'd turned her face away from him.

´It is over, isn't it?´

Cameron looked at him, tears falling freely now.

´Chase...´

´I always knew, that you would never be able to forget about him.´

´Chase...this isn't about him...´ A lie

´I'll never know what you see in him but I know, that I will never be as good as he is.´ Chase looked at his hands, which were resting on his lap.

´You never opened up to me. It took you two damn years to offer me a turned my first proposal down, without thinking about me and about my feelings. It'd hurt me deeply and it was damn hard for me to ask you again 3 months later, because I was scared you would turn me down again...´

Chase looked at her and she started feeling guilty again.

´Sometimes I had the strange feeling you would be turning into a female replica of House.´

´Chase...´

´Let me finish.´

She nodded.

´At times you are just so...cold. When I want to put an arm around you I can feel you clench and it seems, that those arms are not the ones, you want to be in. Sometimes you bark at me without a reason and when I want to kiss you, you always turn away, saying you would be too tired to make out or something. I aren't even allowed to kiss you anymore. Just tell my why? What did I do wrong?´

He looked at her and she gasped when she saw, that Chase was at the verge of tears, his light, blue eyes sparkling with sadness.

´Chase. You did nothing wrong. Really. I tried everything.´

She walked over to the baby carrier and scooped her son up into her arms.

She needed him.

Then she returned to her place on the couch and continued...

´At first I tried my hardest to get House to like me...but it didn't work. After that I tried to forget about him, to not love him, to hate him like most people do but that proved to be harder than I thought....´

She took a deep breath.

´And then I quit. I finally distanced myself from him and wanted to start a new life without him. But it didn't work either.´

Chase looked away from her.

´I hate myself Chase. I really do. I hate the fact, that I don't feel content in your arms and can't love you the way you deserve. But I can't get that cold, abrasive, rude asshole out of my mind.´

She looked down sadly.

´I need him and it is hard enough to know, that it will always be the same. I will never be able to forget about him Chase. I...I just can't.´

She looked at him and could see how hurt he was. Of course he felt hurt.

´Did you sleep with House Cameron?´ He called him Cameron, not Allison. A bad sign.

He'd asked her that once a few months ago but she hadn't answered the question then.

He had to know because suddenly it started to make sence to him. She'd never denied that she'd slept with House.

Cameron closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Chase nodded bitterly, knowing that this was answer enough for him. He looked at the baby in her arms and saw those piercing blue eyes peering up at him. He never realised how blue they were. He'd trusted Ally too much to even think about the fact that she could've slept with House.

´He isn't mine, right?´ he whispered and looked at the tiny boy in Camerons arms. He'd been so blind. Stupid.

´No´, she whispered and started crying again.

´I´m so sorry Chase. I never wanted to hurt you.´

End of Flashback...

Chase had quit two days later and moved to Australia without telling anyone. Just Cuddy had tried to call him, but he'd changed his number and didn't left an address or something. It seemed like he didn't want anything to do with anybody from PPTH.

Maybe it was better that way, but the thought just killed Cameron. She'd hurt Chase deeply. She never wanted that. The next days after telling Chase had been very hard for her. She had been depressed and got really sick very often. The baby she'd to care for alone, hurting Chase and the fact, that House ignored her and his son were too much for her.

Now...weekes later Cameron felt a little better.

Cameron sighed again and dropped the dishes she'd been working on for two hours. She had a dishwasher. Why didn't she use it right away?

She shook her head and headed torwards the living room, where Nathan sat in his bouncy-chair. She smiled lightly and picked the baby up in her arms.

´Hey sweetie´, she whispered and hugged him closer to her. She placed him on the couch and tickled his stomach. The little boy giggled happily and wriggled his little legs.

´You're a happy baby right?Yes you are.´ Cameron had a huge and warm smile on her face now and leaned down to kiss the babys cheek.

´I love you with all of my heart Nathaniel.´ Since he had no father it seemed like she had to love the little boy even more, but that wasn't possible. She couldn't think she could love anyone more powerful than him. He needed to know it everyday and someday he would understand...

She looked at the watch and sighed, before looking at her son again. She needed some time for herself. Some time to think. She put her son down carefully and grabbed her phone.

´Hey mom, it's me Allison.´

´Hey honey, what's up?´

´Uhm. Could you come over for a few hours? I wanted to get out a bit and need someone to take care of Nathan.´

´Oh, I would love to. When can I come? Now? In 15 minutes? When? I don't care.´

Cameron smiled. Her mother LOVED her grandson and couldn't get enough from him. Cameron knew she could call her mom, because she knew her son was safe in his grannys arms.

´Uhm 15 minutes are alright. Thanks mum.´

´No problem honey. I will be there in 15. Bye.´

´Bye.´

Cameron hung up and turned her attention to the little boy again, who looked up at her curiosly.

´Did you hear that buddy? Granny is coming over now.´

Nathan simply blinked up at her.

Ding-Dong.

Cameron opened her front door and welcomed her mother, who was beaming from ear to ear.

´Hello honey. How are you? Where is he?´

Cameron laughed and pointed at the little boy, who was sitting in his bouncy-chair.

´There he is´, Ms. Cameron squealed, looking like Jesus had returned to earth.

Cameron rolled her eyes and closed the door behind her.

´Thank you for watching him Mom.´

Ms. Cameron smiled warmly and pulled her daughter into a tight hug.

´Don't worry sweety. I know, I know you need a time out...Where are you going anyway?´

´Uhm...I don't know yet. Maybe I'll go get a drink or something.´

´Alone?´

´Nah, I will ask Lisa or Remy. I don't know.´

Cameron smiled and put on her jacket. She went to her son, who was in his granny's arms and placed a kiss on his forehead and cheek.

´Please behave, honey. Mommy will be home soon. I promise.´

The little boy looked at her confused and turned to look at his grandma, who was beaming at him.

´Have fun baby.´

´Thank you Mom.´

Then she was out the door.

Sooo!What do you think?Where will Cameron go now?Or where do you want Cameron to go?Tell me what you think.Please review!!!