Chapter 10:
After a few uncomfortable moments, I was able to tear my gaze from Renesmee.
"Sorry" I said quietly. She lifted her eyes to my face and shrugged her shoulders.
"Its okay" she said as she made her way into the room. Her voice was angelic.
"I made you lunch" she said, blushing deeply again. "Emmett said you'd eat anything. I hope this is okay." She put a tray down in front of me, a bowl of steaming tomato soup and a pile of grilled cheese sandwiches. I chuckled to myself.
"It's perfect...thank you." I said, trying not to get caught up in her again.
"Um...what would you like to drink? I have coffee, soda" she grinned down at me "hot cocoa?"
I smiled widely. "Hot cocoa if it's not too much trouble."
She waved me off "Of course not, I'll be right back with it" She made her way to the bedroom door, but stopped and glanced over her shoulder at me "Marshmallows?" she asked.
I couldn't answer her out loud, so I just nodded. She was so perfect. I stood staring at the empty doorway for a few seconds after she was gone, finally shaking my head and clearing my throat. I picked up the spoon and began eating. The food was ridiculously good. It was probably just canned soup, but it was awesome. The grilled cheese sandwiches reminded me of the kind my mother used to make me...perfectly gooey. The soup was gone and I was down to one sandwich when Nessie returned with two big cups of steaming hot chocolate.
"Wow...hungry much?" she asked giggling. I nodded around my full mouth. Nessie put the mugs on the side table and pulled a red wing chair over next to the bed. Then she sat down, folding her long legs underneath her and reaching for her mug. I finished chewing and grabbed the hot chocolate. I took a steaming sip...delicious.
"This isn't from a packet is it?" I asked.
She smiled around the coffee cup. "Nope..I prefer it homemade."
"Well, uh thank you for lunch. You didn't have to do that." I said.
"No problem." she said, looking down at her lap. "Are you feeling better?"
I sat up a little straighter. "Yeah, much better" I began "Thank you, you know for bringing me here. You saved me."
Nessie blushed deeply again. "You're welcome Jake." She looked out the window then, "More snow. I get so sick of it sometimes." she mused.
I looked out the window as well, the swirling snowflakes falling fast. "Do you, uh do you feel the cold?" I asked. I had no idea how her body worked.
She shrugged her shoulders. "Sometimes, I don't really feel it like a normal human would, but sometimes I get chilled" she looked down at the mug in her hands "Like now, the hot chocolate is warming me up a bit."
We sat in comfortable silence for a few minutes. I didn't know where to start. "You make a good grilled cheese, nice and gooey, like my mom used to make them." I said. Way to make an out of nowhere dumb ass comment Jake! She blushed again. "Two kinds of cheese and really thick toast." She said. "Glad you liked them." She turned towards me again. "Are you close to your mom?" She asked. I looked down at my lap. "Um, no not anymore. She died when I was little...I still remember her cooking though." I said with a laugh. She reached out and put her hand on my leg. My breath caught in my throat. It was like an electrical shock only pleasant. She jerked her hand away. Did she feel that too? "I'm so sorry Jake. I didn't know." She said her eyes wide and innocent. I just shook my head at her. "It's okay." I said breathlessly, I honestly couldn't remember what she was apologizing for. All I could think of was how wonderful her touch was. She sat back in her chair and began sipping her coco again. "What about you? Are you close to your mom?" I asked. She glanced over at me. "We used to be. When I was young I was close to both my parents." She answered shortly. I saw her as she began to bite on the inside of her lip. "My uncles told you everything?" She asked. I nodded my head at her. "And they told you everything about me?" I asked her. She nodded her head. "I'm sorry for what my family did to you Jacob."
"It's not your fault Nessie." I said.
"Nessie?" She asked, raising her eyebrows.
"It's what I used to call you, that name of yours is a mouthful." I winked at her. "Does it bother you?"
She shook her head no, smiling at me. "I like it actually." Our eyes met as she looked up and I could feel the tension all around me. I couldn't look away, and it seemed she couldn't either. Finally she blushed and looked away. "Um, so Grandpa says you'll be all better tomorrow. What um, what are you going to do?" She looked back up at me; I could see the fear in her eyes.
"You're not going to be out here alone anymore. Some of pack is on their way here now. One of us will be with you until this is all sorted out." I reached for her hand and it wrapped it in both of mine. "You know about the imprint. It's my job to protect you. I have to keep you safe and happy. Please don't fight me on this." She looked down at my hands. "I wasn't going to fight you Jake; I was just scared that you would be leaving." My heart seemed to double in size. She was scared of me leaving. "I can't explain it, it's probably this imprint thing, but I feel safe with you here." She blushed and looked back down. She needed me. I couldn't hide the wide smile on my face. "I'm not going anywhere right now Ness, you are my priority." She nodded her head and tucked a stray lock of hair behind her ear with her free hand. "What are you and your pack going to do?" She asked quietly. I looked deep into her eyes. "We're going to find your dad." I answered simply. "And then?" she asked. I couldn't tell her that we'd kill him. I didn't know what to tell her. "He won't go down without a fight Jacob." She said quietly. "I don't want you to worry about what I'll think. He's been dead to me for 3 years." She looked out the window then, "Rip him apart, burn the pieces,...he needs to die." She said, looking right into my eyes. I locked eyes with hers and nodded my head. "Okay."