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Tripping Down

I opened my eyes to the bright early sunlight streaming through my window. My eyes felt puffy and 10 times heavy. I propped myself up, placing my hand on the pillow to support me. Wait, why is my pillow soaking wet? It took me a long while to get my jumbled thoughts together to actually remember what happened last night.

The totally bland date, the spark-less kiss on my doorstep with Blake, seeing Chad on my spot in the park, the spark-full kiss with Chad…

And the worst of all… I… I think… I… like… Chad… more than Blake. I shuddered.

I hate it. I hate what I'm feeling right now. Other than the fact that I kissed Chad last night when I still have a boyfriend… I've been crying my eyes out making my eyes feel puffy and giving me a headache… and me actually choosing the guy, Chad, over my guy, Blake… all in all… I feel… bad… and well I feel like crap who doesn't deserve anything.

I'm… I'm a filthy cheater. I started crying. Great. I'm crying my eyes out feeling like utter crap and I've only been awake for 10 minutes.

Something's telling me that this is going to be a rough day.

"Sonny? I called in to the studio. I told them you're not feeling well today." My mom said as she slowly entered my door.

"Thanks mom." I sniffled as I put my knees up to my face.

"So… what happened?" I just shook my head.

She sighed. "Okay… but you know you could tell me right?" She sighed again when I didn't respond. "Breakfast is on the table."

I sniffled. Great. Now my mom is pissed at me too.

I sighed. What else could go wrong?

You know what they say is true. Ice cream really helps when you feel… well sad and confused. Presently… I am walking down the very same park where I was last night, holding on to a chocolate ice cream cone sprinkled with almonds.

It's so annoying how sometimes when you avoid people they keep on bumping into you. I looked up and I saw Blake, buying some hotdogs from a hotdog stand.

I was about to turn around and start walking the other way when…

"Sonny!" He called out.

I took a deep breath and forced out a happy smile. "Blake!" I turned around and half ran to him.

"Hey there, Sonny. I was looking for you at your studio but they said you were out sick." He said as he gave me a sweet hug. I inhaled the scent of him and smiled softly. But suddenly the guilt of what I did pushed the smile out and I had to rearrange a less genuine one.

"Hey Blake. Sorry about that. I wasn't feeling so good this morning." No need to tell him why…

"Ah. Are you okay now?" He asked me worried as he held me out to arm's length.

"Yeah. I feel better." I grinned half heartedly. It must've looks sooo convincing. (sarcastic)

"Blake, there you are!" A high pitched voice said from behind us. We faced that way and I saw a petite girl standing there grinning at us with a confused expression.

I looked at her curiously. Blake was here with a girl? With a really… beautiful girl. She has strawberry blonde hair and really pale skin. She has bright green eyes, that looks so familiar, and an angular face that really complemented her. She was model thin, which really complemented her petite frame. She was wearing designer looking black skinny jeans, a light pink tank top, and a purple shirt over it that clung to her figure, and a bright hot pink scarf.

I know that I shouldn't be jealous… especially after what I did last night.

"Oh. Sonny, this is my cousin, Ryanne. She's visiting me here for the weekend and I was showing her around." Blake released me and placed an arm around my shoulder as he smiled at Ryanne.

"Hey there." I grinned at her. I might have probably looked pained right there.

I could see a hint or worry and confusion in her eyes but she immediately pushed it away and smiled at me. "Hey. I hear my cousin has a girlfriend." She winked at me. "But he never said that it was famous Sonny Munroe."

"Naw. I'm not famous." I laughed nervously. Not as famous as Chad Dylan Cooper.

"Are you kidding me?! I love So Random. I can't believe that Blake is dating YOU!" She laughed.

"Oh c'mon. Blake is awesome." I grinned. I liked Ryanne. She's funny.

"Oh c'mon. Did you know. Once when he was still in 8th grade, he…"

"Okaaaay! Ryanne now you've met Sonny." Blake said loudly as he pushed Ryanne backwards lightly.

I giggled. "Aw. Blake, she was trying to tell me something." I puppy pouted.

"Yeaaaaaah. About that…" He scratched the back of his head. He looked so adorable doing that.

I laughed lightly. "Fiiine. Hey I got to go you guys."

"Aww… you can't stay?" Ryanne asked.

"Sorry. Byee. It was nice meeting you." I gave Ryanne a hug and turned to face Blake. "See you some other time okay?"

"Okay." He hugged me once again and kissed my forehead. My happy mood, that Ryanne gave me, suddenly vanished as I remembered the sparked kiss with Chad last night.

I gave them one last smile and wave then walked away. I am presently so annoyed with myself that I couldn't even say it. I don't even deserve someone like Blake. He's so sweet and nice and would never cheat on me with anyone.

I choked a bit and I let a few stray tears fall to my face.

Great, now I'm a blubbering cheater walking down the park. I don't know… I know that I like Chad way more than I do to Blake… but I don't get how that's helping right now.

I sobbed.

I sighed… I guess right now I have to chose and carefully plan what I'm going to do…

But… am I ready for this? I just need to know who I LOVE. This is a really big step for something… but I have to know…

Who knows how many hours later…

I was sitting at his door strep when he opened the front door. I watched as his eyes grew wide in shock.

"Sonny?" He asked in disbelief.

I couldn't blame him. I must've looked horrible, tears streaming down my face… guilt showing for the decision I just made… It just wasn't pure coincidence that I ended up at Chad's mansion's front door.

Okayy… before all of you murder me for this confusing, dramatic, and Sonny breaking down at random places chapter let me explain..

You see… Sonny kept breaking down because of the guilt of what happened with Chad the night before that keeps on crushing her. Then she sees Blake and his cousin and she sees how much he likes her… and she doesn't feel as if she deserves someone like Blake… blah blah blah…

Then… its dramatic coz it's the build up for the next chapter! And the trailer for that chapter will be posted soon along with the chapter.

Note: nobody knows what she did for those missing how many hours. though we could find out later on... or maybe not. depends.

..Asher time for chapt 11..