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You all have been trying to place faces to names of SHINee's exes when in all actuality: there are no faces! Everyone is an original character- yes, even Tiffany wasn't really based off of Tiffany from SNSD. However, if you want you can pretend; it really won't make a difference. Soo Min, Chul Young, Camael, and Victoria are also all original characters. (Chul Young is an Indian kid, haha~ Definitely not Cheolyong!)
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"Onew-Jinki you idiot.. I told you that was a bad idea..." Kibum sighed as he cleaned off Jinki's cuts, a proud smile on his face, "I can't believe you won Onew-Jinki... Soo Min is twice your size." Kibum smiled and kissed Jinki's forehead affectionately, "I love you Onew-Jinki.." Kibum sighed and wrapped his arms around Jinki's neck, hands coming up to hold Jinki's face into his chest. "I'm glad you're okay... If anything horrible would have happened to you... I don't know what I would have done with myself."
Jinki smiled toothily, reaching around to return Kibum's embrace. "You gotta have more faith in me, Key!" he laughed. "Soo Min didn't know what hit him, did he? What did it look like from the sidelines?"
Jinki was still excited by the fight. His toes were wiggling furiously as he attempted to stay still while Kibum cleaned him up. He felt like he could take on the world, and that typically happened after winning, but not ever to this extent.
The younger smiled and ran his fingers through Jinki's hair, "You were amazing Jinki, I dont think anyone will ever look at you the same..." Kibum laughed and shook his head, "Jinki, I'll never doubt you again..."
Kibum smiled and pulled away, leaning down to kiss Jinki softly on the lips, "I love you."
A knock on the door prevented either of them from saying anything further, and Jinki hopped down from the counter while placing his lips warmly against Kibum's cheek in one fluid motion. "I hope that's not Soo Min, because I've still got a lot of fight left in me~" he called, opening the door.
What he saw was way worse than Soo Min. His ex-fiance filled his vision, and Jinki's shoulders slumped. "Oh. You."
"Do not use that bitter tone with me, Lee Jinki!" Victoria huffed. "I came to tell you something but now I think I have changed my mind."
Jinki shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly. "I've heard it all anyway." He winked, and Victoria's jaw dropped.
"You cur!"
With a gentle smile, Kibum walked over to the two, "Onew-Jinkiii, don't be an ass.." Kibum pinched Jinki playfully and looked at Victoria with a smile, "Hi!" Kibum held out his hand sweetly, "My name is Kibum..!"
Victoria smiled back at Kibum, taking his hand delicately. "I am sure you are sweet," she said. "And if you will please pardon me, I would like to steal away your boyfriend for just a few moments. It will not be long!"
She took Jinki by the wrist and tugged him away, the two of them disappearing around the corner. Victoria didn't stop until they were alone, and immediately upon halting she rounded on Jinki, eyes flashing dangerously. "I have never seen you behave in such a way in all my time of knowing you. That was the ugliest thing I think I have ever seen in my life and I am appalled."
However, Jinki wasn't really listening. He was rolling his eyes and looking around and pretending to be anywhere but standing there with her. So she hit him on the arm, successfully catching his gaze afterwards. "It was also quite possibly the most romantic thing I have ever seen in my life. You took on a man twice your size for a boy who is half. You would not even take on my father for me."
Jinki interrupted her, "That was completely different and you know it!"
She silenced him with a smile. "Yes, I do know it Jinki. That is what I am trying to say. You must really love him." Victoria shifted her coat, clearing her throat. "I resented you for months for leaving me for a man, but now I see that it would have happened anyway. Soul mates are funny that way, you see."
Jinki looked at her questioningly. Soul mates? He'd only just taken to the idea of love, and now he was supposedly a soul mate? "Do not look at me like that, let me believe what I wish to help me sleep at night. I just wanted to let you know that I will no longer be a bother to you, and I wanted to say goodbye. So, goodbye."
She did not give him a hug, or even touch him in any form. The elegant woman simply bowed, and then left him to his thoughts- all of which were swelling his brain with their constant repetitions. Jinki returned to Kibum with a puzzled expression, but still did not fail to greet the man with a kiss. "I'm kind of hungry," Jinki grew a smile, taking on a mockery of Victoria's accent, "What say you to exploring Taemin's food choices for the week?"
Kibum laughed, a warmness spreading through him, and shrugged his shoulders, "I don't see why not, do you want me to cook you something Onew-Jinki...?" Kibum smiled and watched Jinki with love filled eyes, "I'm a really good cook, almost as good as my mother~."
Jinki could not stand the way Kibum was looking at him. It made his heart hurt and his stomach do flips and it made him want to do things like what he was about to do.
Jinki reached out and wrapped his arms around Kibum's waist, pulling the man into him as he pressed their lips firmly together. His eyes closed and his heart fluttered happily, and it was all he could do to hold on to Kibum tightly while his knees threatened to give beneath him.
Heart threatening to beat from his chest, Kibum smiled into the kiss and moved his lips along with Jinki's. "Onew-Jinki... I love you..."
In return to this, the elder man pressed his nose against Kibum's cheek, unable to do or say anything because his insides were just going completely crazy. He could barely even breathe.
When he'd finally gotten himself under control, Jinki let out a breath of relief and laughed, pulling away from Kibum so that he could look at him. "I'm pretty sure I love you too."
Kibum gave a small intake of breath as butterflies attacked his stomach, heart feeling like it was ready to just explode. Even though Jinki hadn't exactly told him he was in love with him, he had told him that there was emotions there, and that made Kibum happier that anything in the world. "Oh Jinki.."
Jinki stole a short kiss and then smiled widedly at Kibum. "I would love for you to cook for me, Key."
They smiled at each other for a few moments longer, neither unable to let the other go and both just marveling at how strong their emotions were. Eventually, though, they did make it to the kitchen, and Kibum soon found himself digging around the kitchen for ingredients. "What do you want Onew-Jinki..? We have enough food in the house for me to cook you anything you wanted... Taemin obviously knows how to stock a house."
Jinki rummaged around himself, specifically in the freezer, and released a short sigh when he didn't find what he was looking for. "He missed one very important thing," he said with obvious disappointment, and walked over to the board that Taemin had set up so they could request food.
Frozen Pizza
He turned and smiled at Kibum. "Just make whatever you want. I'll eat anything."
Kibum nodded and pulled out ingredients for a pizza. If Jinki wanted pizza, Jinki would get pizza. Kibum put his favorite toppings on it: cheese, pepperoni, sausage, and anything else that had looked good at the moment. When he was finished, he placed the pizza in the oven, hoping that Jinki would approve.
Sitting at the counter, Jinki twirled the marker around in his hand absently, glancing over at Kibum. Victoria had left a great many thoughts in Jinki's mind, and looking at Kibum now... Well, Jinki decided that he'd never seen anyone more beautiful. Taemin was gorgeous, and so was Victoria, but Kibum was just... augh, he was something else. He'd always been something else. But to Jinki, for reasons he never bothered to name, Kibum had also been off limits.
Until now.
A devious smile spread slowly across his face, playing about Jinki's lips for a brief moment before he grabbed the man's hand gently with his own and lifted the marker to pull the cap off with his teeth. "Don't move," he directed, holding fast in case Kibum tried to pull away.
At the man's expression, he rolled his eyes. "I'm not going to write anything bad," he assured him. He pressed the tip of the black marker against Kibum's pretty, light skin, and unnecessarily tainted it by slowly dragging the marker down from wrist to knuckle to make a solid line.
P
He could already tell what he wanted to write would not fit on Kibum's tiny, feminine hand. He'd have to abbreviate it.
O
Jinki paused, pulling the marker back and tapping it against his lips thoughtfully. What he originally had in mind would look a little strange-
And then he thought of something and his wry smile grew wider.
O
Jinki added a small heart at the end for good measure and then recapped the marker, setting it down on the table with a soft tap. "There," he said with a snicker, completely satisfied with himself. "Poo."
Kibum studied his hand for a moment before looking back up at Jinki with a curious glint in his eye, "Onew Jinki..? Why did you write the word Poo on my hand..? Are you trying to tell me something..?" Kibum raised an eyebrow and smiled, "I'm not poo to you..? Am I..?"
Jinki could only grin. "You are exactly poo to me," he said warmly, and kissed Kibum.
Not understanding the joke, Kibum sighed and rolled his eyes, "What does it mean Onew-Jinki..? Why would you call me poo..?" Kibum stuck out his bottom lip and pouted, "I don't understand."
Jinki pulled Kibum into him, nuzzling beside his ear so that he could whisper slowly, "Property... Of... Onew-Jinki."
And then he bit down on Kibum's ear playfully and pulled away.
Kibum couldn't fight the gooseflesh that rose at Jinki's playful touch. "So I'm yours now Onew-Jinki..?" He could deal with that. Kibum buried his face into the crook of Jinki's neck, "Mmm.. Does that mean you're mine as well..?"
Jinki petted Kibum's head, brushing his fingers through the younger's hair gently. "If that would make you happy," he answered slyly, knowing it wasn't the answer Kibum was looking for.
Kibum looked up at Jinki with love filled, hopeful eyes and smiled, "I don't think anything could ever make me as happy as having you Onew-Jinki..."
At that answer, Jinki softly pressed his lips to Kibum's forehead. "Then you'll have me until you tire of me."
It was an interesting word choice, and Jinki hadn't meant to phrase it that way. But now that he had, he realized something. He was the one who usually tired of people, not the other way around. His longest relationship was six months, and it's quite obvious how that turned out. Nobody had ever been able to keep his attention.
But, looking at things differently now, Jinki saw that Kibum had always kept his attention. From day one of kindergarten, Kibum had caught his attention and kept it.
And that was when Jinki knew.
"I love you," Jinki said suddenly, and the fact that he'd just come to terms with this showed in his tone and expression. "I love you, Kibum."
Overwhelmed by happiness, Kibum could only smile and kiss his love, tears spilling over and flowing steadily down his cheeks. Jinki loved him. Jinki honestly and truly loved him and it was real... Every thing that was happening right then was real, and Kibum almost didn't believe it.
Kibum pulled away from the kiss and pressed his forehead to Jinki's, "Onew-Jinki.. I wish.. I wish you knew just how happy that truly makes me, and I will never tire of you." Kibum smiled and kissed Jinki gently, "So I guess that means I'll have you forever."
Forever. What a long, long word. Almost as long as eternity.
Jinki pulled away, eyebrows furrowed slightly. "Uh... I'll- I'll be... right back." And then he pulled out of Kibum's arms and walked out the glass door, onto the deck outside.
He needed some fresh air.
Kibum watched Jinki walk away, not even attempting to hold back the laugh that tore from his throat. Of course Jinki would be afraid of commitment, and why wouldn't he...? It suddenly became very clear for Kibum at that moment.
Life..? Yeah... It hated his guts.
Jinki moved over to one of the foldable chairs they had set out by the grill and fell down inside it, dropping his head into his hands. It wasn't that he didn't want to be with Kibum, because he did. Words like "forever" just... They never worked out when it came to Jinki. It was always when they started saying things like "forever" that he lost interest.
He didn't want to lose interest in Kibum.
Jinki sat out there for a while, just looking up at the sky and counting stars while he tried to clear his head. He considered walking down to the pond, but he wasn't sure. Something was holding him there on the deck.
Letting Jinki have his space for now, Kibum waited in the kitchen for the pizza to finish. When it beeped, he couldn't suppress a short sigh and took the pizza out of the oven. After setting it on the counter to cool, Kibum turned and followed after Jinki, finding him out on the deck.
He made his way over to the love of his life, standing beside him with a small, willing-to-understand smile. "Onew-Jinki..?" Jinki looked up when Kibum called his name. He'd been so preoccupied with his own thoughts that he hadn't even heard the man walk out there. Kibum ran his fingers through Jinki's hair lovingly. "I love you."
Kibum leaned down and pressed his lips against Jinki's lovingly, shuddering as electricity shot through him... "And well... You love me too right..?"
Jinki's lips twitched into a smile at Kibum's words, and he reached out to pull the man into his lap.
"It seems to be that way, yes."
Kibum gave a quiet chuckle and laid his head against Jinki's shoulder. "Then I think everything will be okay... and well... if not, then... I don't know... We'll see when we get there..."
Kibum kissed Jinki's neck, "But... until then... let's just make the most of it okay..?" Kibum sighed against the warm flesh of Jinki's neck and closed his eyes, a rightness settling inside him. "I don't want to scare you away Onew-Jinki... so... Tell me what scares you so that I can avoid it."
Ever the one full of jokes, Jinki looked up to the sky thoughtfully. "Clowns... and ghosts and the Boogeyman and all things that go bump in the night. Oh, most definitely spiders- can't stand the ugly things. And your mother, and my mother and just angry mothers in general..." He smiled mischievously, mirth dancing in his eyes.
Kibum smiled and rolled his eyes, pulling away from Jinki's neck to kiss him firmly on the lips. "I love you.. I love you sooooo much..." Kibum laughed and shook his head, "I'll be sure to check the closets and under the bed every night.."
Kibum pushed Jinki's hair out of his face with a smile, "Annd... I'll squish every spider in the world for you Jinki.. and uh... about our Mothers..? Well.. They don't have to know." Kibum winked and kissed Jinki again, going along with the man's playful attitude.
Jinki made an unnecessarily loud exclamatory noise and squeezed Kibum to him as tight as he possibly could. "Oh thank you, thank you my dearest Kibum!" he cried. "You're the greatest, the best! I don't know what I would ever do without you! You're a lifesaver, really!" He loosened his hold and met his lover's gaze and positively beamed at Kibum, kissing him forcefully on the lips. "My hero~!"
Kibum ran his fingers through Jinki's hair, expression somewhat dazed. "Mmm Jinki... I'll be your hero every day if you kiss me like that..." Kibum smiled and pushed his hair out of his eyes, lips pursing in thought, "I... Are you afraid to be with me Onew-Jinki..?"
Jinki didn't even have to think about his reply. "A little," he admitted, but then he changed his mind. "Actually no. I'm afraid to lose you." It was more than he'd ever confessed to anyone before. But it was okay, because he trusted Kibum not to antagonize him for his fears. He trusted Kibum with his secrets. Which, in a way, was really like trusting him with his heart.
Kibum smiled, and then shook his head, "The only way you'd lose me Jinki... is if you told me to go away.." Kibum pressed their foreheads together and sighed, "I've been in love with you since elementary school so.. Why would my heart stop any time soon..?"
Jinki locked his fingers together around Kibum's waist, arms resting comfortably where they hung. "That's a really long time, Key," he commented. "How come you never said anything before? You had all those chances... but you made it out to be like you were in love with someone else. I don't understand."
Kibum smiled and sighed, "I.. I didn't think you loved me back. I never thought it would be possible that you'd even consider liking me..." Kibum sighed, "And I'd rather protect our friendship than not have you at all Jinki... even if it was torturous.."
Kibum laid his head against Jinki's shoulder, "That's why I had to stop being your fuck buddy Jinki, because what was just fun and sex to you, was love making to me..." The younger of the two closed his eyes, remembering how awful it had been to see Jinki acting like it had been nothing for him afterwards, while Kibum was laying there with his head spinning and heart pounding with love.
Jinki's heart burned. Yes, it burned with guilt and there was nothing he could do about it. There were no taksies backsies anymore, they were long out of kindergarten. What Kibum had just told him... Well, Jinki had legitimately hurt Kibum without even realizing it, and he couldn't even say he was sorry- because sorry could not cover for this.
He couldn't imagine what that must have been like. Sitting here, loving Kibum like this... No, he couldn't imagine Kibum not loving him in return. Jinki couldn't imagine having sex with Kibum and having Kibum not feel anything back.
Jinki was a very playful, fun-loving guy. But that's not all he was. He was also very down-to-earth, and intelligent, which was why he was sitting there realizing all of this in one go.
"I wish you had told me..." he whispered, eyes falling to the ground as he felt nothing but shame. He fought so hard to protect Kibum, all the time, and in the end it was him who was hurting him.
"Jinki... Do you honestly think that you would have loved me back...? That.. that me loving you wouldn't have been weird, and crazy, and just down right scary for you..? Kibum shook his head with a sad smile, "Jinki... I think everything would have played out so much differently had I told you about my feelings.."
Kibum looked at Jinki sadly, "I'm okay, I've always been okay... I was honestly happy with just.. being friends with you.. I just needed you in my life Jinki, because when I really was without you I was horribly depressed... I need you Onew-Jinki, I need you, and now that I have you, everything will be okay."
Jinki laughed, almost meanly, and shook his head. "You weren't happy. You were anything but happy. You cried all the time and bit my head off for reasons I didn't understand and... No, you weren't happy." He paused, and then softened his voice a little. "Which is what I mean when I say I wish you had told me. I... if I had known- Yes, it probably would have been a little awkward between us at first, but I wouldn't have been constantly breaking your heart."
He took in a sharp breath as his own heart seized for a moment. All these weeks he'd been really hurting Kibum and he had had no idea.
But then after a moment taken to recompose himself, Jinki smiled playfully again and caught eyes with Kibum. "Besides... what did I tell you? ... There isn't anyone who won't fall in love with you, Key. Including me, obviously~"
Kibum smiled and looked down, unsure of how to word his next sentence. "If I... If I would have told you before Jinki then you would have denied me.. you would have denied me and broken my heart and everything inbetween." Kibum sighed, "If I would have told you before, then what I was feeling would never compare to how I'd feel then."
Jinki gave a soft sigh as well and toyed with the hem of Kibum's shirt while he fell silent with his thoughts. It only took a minute of sitting there quietly before Jinki was acting like Jinki again and he scooped Kibum up into his arms.
He carried his new boyfriend bridal style over to the hot tub, where he- without any warning or mercy whatsoever- promptly dropped Kibum inside and laughed.
Kibum resurfaced and coughed a few times, white shirt clinging to his skin as he looked at Jinki with wide eyes. What would he do that?
Kibum smiled evilly and crawled out of the hot tub, "Oh Onew-Jinki~" Kibum ran over to Jinki and wrapped his arms around his beloved's torso, using all of his body weight to pull him into the hot tub as well.
One second Jinki was admiring how Kibum's clothes stuck to him in all the right ways, and the next he was plunging into the water of the hot tub. It took a whole three seconds for him to resurface and clear his lungs.
"That was unnecessary!" he complained, rubbing the water out of his eyes. His nose burned now.
With a satisfactory smile Kibum pinned Jinki to the side of the hot tub, a mischievous glint in his eye as he straddled Jinki's waist. "I'll show you unnecessary." Kibum smashed their lips together, hands fisting into Jinki's wet hair as their tongues twisted in a battle of dominance.
Jinki groaned into Kibum's mouth, caught pleasantly off guard by Kibum's sudden aggression. His hands found the hips of Kibum's small waist and pulled Kibum into him as he kissed back, actually having to fight for his dominance.
When it seemed that Kibum wasn't going to relent, Jinki pushed at Kibum a little and spun them around so that it was Kibum who was pressed against the side of the hot tub, and Jinki who was climbing on top of him and forcing him into submission.
Kibum moaned, loving it when Jinki took control. Kibum fisted his hand into Jinki's hair, leg rubbing against Jinki's arousal sexily. Kibum pulled Jinki's head away and placed kisses all down his neck and face before returning his lips to his lover's with a moan.
Jinki was getting really turned on. Kibum was brushing against him and moaning and just being all-around very sexy. Jinki couldn't keep his lips away from him. His neck, his lips, his cheeks, his chest- pretty much anywhere Jinki could reach, Jinki was kissing.
Kibum pulled away again, but this time with a jolt of realization. They were in a hot tub; he wasn't going to have sex in a hot tub- especially now that it would be the first time with Jinki for real. Kibum panted as he stared at Jinki, trying to fight back his arousal as he took in Jinki's wet and messed up hair, his lust filled eyes, and his clinging clothes. It was almost too hard for Kibum to resist.
Kibum may have pulled away, but Jinki still couldn't stop kissing him. He moved forward, licking and sucking underneath Kibum's ear. "What's wrong?" he asked, breathless. He wasn't done yet.
Kibum bit his lip and sighed. This was even harder with Jinki all over him. "I just.. I want my first time with you to be special Jinki.. at least.. the first time we really do it.." Kibum laughed at how ridiculous he sounded. "I know that sounds ridiculous, but.. I just can't help it. I love you, and I want it to be something great."
Jinki sighed, showing his disappointment but pulling away nonetheless. "I guess I have to respect your wishes," he said, lips curved into a smirk. "Well, since we're already here..." Jinki reached under the water and grabbed the hem of his shirt, pulling it up and over his head and then carelessly slinging the soaked cloth over the side onto the deck.
He climbed off of Kibum and settled next to him, slipping an arm around his waist.
Kibum smiled at this and kissed Jinki lovingly on the cheek. "Thank you Onew-Jinki... It means more to me than you know." Kibum rested his head against Jinki's shoulder with a contented sigh, enjoying being around the man and just.. finally being with him. "I love you."
Jinki shivered. Kibum's words had struck him somewhere deep and gave him a delightful chill. He smiled softly and wiggled a little closer to the man. "You too~~" he replied, and then discreetly frowned a little at himself.
He was actually still a little uncomfortable saying the whole phrase out loud. It wasn't that he didn't feel it- because he did, he felt a great deal- he just... it was new and strange and those words meant a lot, and they were scary. So he had difficulty saying the full phrase.
Kibum smiled and closed his eyes, knowing that it would take a while for Jinki to get used to the idea of being in love, but Kibum was okay with that because the man did love him, and that's all that mattered.
