"You look happy" Uriah and I were sat together in the training room, resting after the extra bit of training we usually did together. We were sat opposite each other, our knees touching. My hands were resting lightly on his, just the lightest of touches sending electricity through my body. He was looking at me, smiling in a way that made me wonder what he was thinking, made me think what he thought of me.
"Of course I'm happy, silly, I just completely beat your butt in training today" I winked and he laughed and shook his head slightly. "I totally just let you win, you know" He went quiet and looked down, his lips going into a straight line as if he wanted to say something else. I nudged his knee with mine, to make him look up, and tried to encourage him by smiling. He laughed, but it seemed to work though.
"No, I mean, lately, you've just been so much more happy than usual. Like, I know my presence is completely God-like, but I don't think it's me. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy you're happy it's just...I don't know, I guess it's just I haven't seen you this happy since you were all friendly with Four before it happened"
Uh-oh. Okay, so I still hadn't told him Tobias and I had sort of forgiven each other. I don't even know why, it's not like I'm doing anything bad. I just haven't got round to telling him yet, or, well, found the right way to tell him. Okay, so I'm a wimp. A really big wimp.
Just as I was about to explain (driven by a sudden bit of courage that seemed to just appear whenever I thought of Tobias) the doors to the training room burst opened, and who else to saunter in, none other than Mr Tobias himself.
Uriah was on his feet quickly, getting into a defensive stance, half hiding me from Tobias. The look on Uriah's face, usually so full of amusement and happiness, now told me that he had definitely not forgiven him quite yet from the murderous look in his eyes and the slight snarl on his mouth. Tobias saw me and smiled before turning to Uriah and acknowledging his position. Tobias laughed quietly and shook his head.
"Stand down, Uriah, I'm not here to fight. I'm just here to talk...well, apologise really" He was only addressing Uriah, having already said his apologies to me.
Uriah regarded him with shock and he let himself move into a more casual and relaxed position. "I don't want your apologies, Four" He said coolly, looking at Tobias levelly. At this point, I had managed to move myself so that I was more next to Uriah instead of behind him.
"Nevertheless, I still think that you should hear them. Listen, Uriah, I don't dislike you. What I did was completely wrong, and you have every right to hate me. I hate myself for doing it. Not only did I hurt one of the only people I was able to call my friend, but I hurt the person she cares a lot about. I'm ashamed of what I did. I know you probably want me gone, and, hey, that's alright, I just thought you needed to hear that" He took a deep breath and seemed to physically relax.
Both Uriah and I were staring at him, mouths hanging open in complete shock. That was completely out of character I thought. I looked over to Uriah, and to my surprise, he was smiling.
"Yeah yeah, alright Four. Look, it's not permissible what you did, but I don't blame you. I mean, look at her-" At which point, both Tobias and Uriah looked at me and I felt myself blush. Uriah held out his hand. "Truce?"
Tobias looked at me, obviously not expecting to be forgiven quite so quickly. He shrugged his shoulders and grabbed Uriah's hand. "Truce" By this point, I could have nearly fainted with a mix of emotions. Relief because, well, at least I don't have to hide being Tobias' friend. But also suspicion, because no matter how much of a good guy Uriah is, he's not one to forgive and forget.
After a few awkward comments thrown back and forth, Tobias left. "See you later, I suppose" By later, I guess he meant dinner. He patted Uriah on the shoulder and winked at me before exiting the room.
"Well that was...fun" I said, turning back to Uriah. He didn't look like he was having fun though, in fact, he the look he regarded me with sent a cold shiver up my spine. All the amusement had gone from his face, and he was looking at me, his eyes, usually so full of warmth, were cold. He looked at me as if he didn't even recognise me.
"You know, the fact that you didn't even bother to tell me that you and him her all buddy buddy again sort of suggests that something is going on, something you don't want me to know about" He shook his head, the hurt in his eyes so prominent for that brief moment. "I'm not even pissed at the fact that you didn't tell me. I'm just pissed that you seem to be happier with him than you are with me. I should make you happy Tris, but I don't, do I? At least, not like he does" He rubbed his face with his hands, his breath unsteady. I just wanted to reach out and comfort him, but I knew he wouldn't want me to touch him, not now.
"Uriah, it's not like that. I would have told you, I promise, I just didn't because I...well, I didn't want you to think that I was going against you" I took a step closer to him. "And for the record, Uriah, you make me happy. More than anyone here. I haven't been this happy before. Sure, I like Four but he's just a friend, Uriah. Trust me, please" He looked at me, and I took another step closer to him, but he stepped back.
"Just...give me some time to think, please, I just need to think this over" He reached out to me as if he wanted to cup my face, but he stopped himself. He clenched his fist and spun on his heel, half running out of the room.
And so I was alone. I took a few calming breaths before I also walked out of the training room, back to my dorm where I could enjoy a nice hot shower to think things over.
I knew what I did was silly, how I didn't say anything, but it's not like I did anything with it. It was just a silly mistake, and now my Uriah is not only angry with me, but hurt. And I never ever wanted to hurt Uriah. But, unfortunately, this was just the beginning of it.