Chapter 10

Three weeks had passed since hanging out with Edward, and it was always the same routine now, get up, get high, go to school, go to class, get high, get in arguments or fights with Lauren and Jessica, come home, get high, hang out with Edward, have dinner with the family, get high, go to bed. Since our talk Edward hasn't slept in my bed, i think it's because he doesn't want to be around another druggie after what happened to his friend, but he says it's because he doesn't want to upset me by stepping over the friend boundary when I'm not ready for it, i think it's a load of crap because i seriously wouldn't mind having a boyfriend now or maybe just a fuck buddy because i am ready to explode if i don't get a release. When i was with Max we had sex a few times a week and now i haven't had sex for three and a half weeks. I will have to convince either Alice or Rosalie to have a party and invite a lot of gorgeous guys so i can get drunk and have fun. Since i told everyone the whole story they have accepted me and are trying to help me, well everyone apart from Emmet who just stays clear of me.

Today is the start of spring break, which means we have two weeks off school. Even though i didn't have school today, and i hadn't set my alarm clock, i still got up at seven because my body was programmed to, it needed another fix. So i got out of bed did my normal routine of shower, brush teeth, get dressed and then get high, which now leads me to here being the only person up in the house , sitting in the kitchen munching on a cracker because I'm really not hungry but i know i need to eat something.

I was sat in the kitchen for half an hour before i heard anyone coming down the stairs. It was Esme and Carlisle; they walked into the kitchen without seeing me. Esme went straight to the cooker probably going to start cooking breakfast for everyone and Carlisle made his way to the table where i was sitting.

"Oh, good morning Bella i didn't notice you sitting there." Carlisle said as he sat down.

"Good morning Bella." Esme said in a chirpy voice, walking over to kiss my forehead and then going back to cooking.

"Good morning." I replied and fiddled with my sleeve on my hoodie, today i was wearing white skinny jeans, studded belt, grey print t-shirt and my black and red hoodie, with my grey converse.

"What are you doing today Bella?" Carlisle asked

"Nothing just hanging around the house" i replied still playing with the loose thread on my hoodie "have you got work today?" i asked

"Yes, I've swapped shifts with Dr Cleaver so i will be working this afternoon and will be home late tonight." He replied. Esme placed a plate of pancakes in front of Carlisle and he poured syrup on them before digging in.

"Would you like some Bella?" Esme asked gesturing to Carlisle's pancakes.

"No thank you, I've already eaten." I replied politely

Esme got herself a plate of pancakes and sat down next to Carlisle and began eating. We sat in silence while they ate, Carlisle was reading the morning paper, Esme was reading a home improvement magazine and i was just thinking about what i was going to do today. It wasn't long before everybody else had joined us in the kitchen.

"Good morning, who wants breakfast?" Esme asked, I've never seen Emmet move so fast, he ran around the table and sat down.

"I'm ready Esme, load me up." He said with a cheeky grin. Esme laughed and placed a plate in front of him with 6 pancakes on it.

Everybody else sat down, Alice sat next to Carlisle who was sitting at the head of the table, jasper sat next to Alice and Edward sat next to Jasper, Emmet sat on the other side of Carlisle and Rosalie sat in between me and Emmet. Esme placed a plate of pancakes in the centre of the table and told everyone to dig in; it didn't take long for them to finish the whole plate.

I was starting to feel sick just watching everyone eat so i decided to just go and hang out in my room until later, i got up and as i pushed my chair in Esme spoke.

"Where are you off to dear?" she asked politely

"Just going to hang out in my room, catch up on homework and listen to music." I replied

"Ok, well before you go, me and Carlisle need to ask you all something." She said gesturing to my seat for me to sit back down. I pulled out the seat and sat down waiting patiently for her to continue. "Well we were wondering if it would be ok if we went on a weekend away together, we wouldn't be gone more than three days and i think you're old enough to look after yourselves so what do you say?" she asked

"Yeah I'm ok with that, but who would be left in charge in case anything went wrong?" Alice asked.

"We would leave Emmet in charge because he is the oldest but he isn't exactly sensible are you?" Carlisle said stating a fact, looking at Emmet who was pouting. "So we decided that being as Jasper is the most sensible you can both be in charge and look after the house and each other."

"Ok i don't mind you going on holiday you deserve it from all the work the both of you do." Rosalie said and Jasper nodded agreeing.

"I'm ok with it as well." Edward said giving his opinion. Everyone turned to Emmet to see what his opinion was as he hadn't said anything yet.

"Emmet are you ok with us going on holiday and leaving you in charge?" Esme asked sweetly.

"Yeah I'm ok with that, but what rules do are there and what about Bella, I have no idea of how to handle that whole situation." He said seriously it probably should have offended me but it didn't because i know it wasn't meant that way.

"We will discuss the rules with you and Jasper before we go. And as for Bella, I think you can look after yourself cant you?" Carlisle asked looking at me.

"Yeah, i don't need to be taken care of." I replied nonchalantly fiddling with the loose thread on my hoodie.

"Actually Bella i think your wrong you do need to be taken care of." Alice said accusingly

"Ok that's enough we don't want arguments." Esme said stopping it before it could begin. "How do you feel about this Bella? You haven't said anything." She asked

"I'm ok with it as long as those two don't start bossing me around just because they are in charge." I replied "may I be excused to go and do my homework now?" I asked

"Of course dear and nobody will boss you around."Esme said smiling at me.

I got up from the chair and made my way to my room. I shut the door behind me but didn't lock it there wasn't any need to anymore because they all knew what i did when i was up here and if they didn't want to see it they didn't need to come in.

I got all of my wok out of my school bag and scattered it around the floor. There was a lot of it because i never did homework; i left it until the school holidays for something to do to pass the time. I also had catch up work to do for the days that i hadn't gone in.

I started on my homework first as there was more of that than catch up work. I started up my laptop and started on English because it was my favourite subject, we had to write about a favourite day of our lives, so i wrote about a day when i was seven, we had all gone down to the lake as a family, dad and Emmet were sat on a jetty fishing and me and mum where sat on the bank talking and waiting for the boys to join us for lunch. Just before Emmet got up, a fish pulled on his line but it must have been a big fish because it pulled Emmet straight into the water. It was a funny sight to see. When Emmet was out of the water we all sat around on the blanket eating lunch, talking and just being a family. After lunch we got out the spare bread we had packed and went to feed the ducks and geese. Emmet was teasing the geese so it wasn't a surprise when they started chasing him around the river bank and field, nipping him; it was funny because if he had just dropped the bread he was still holding they would have left him alone.

A knocking on my door brought me out of my memories.

"Come in." I shouted to whoever was at the door. The door opened and Alice walked in the room.

"Hey." She said while sitting on my bed.

"Hi." I replied, looking at her to continue.

"Esme and Carlisle just left, said they were going to the travel agents to book their holiday, i though i would come and let you know." She said

"OK." I replied

"Ok well that's all." She said getting up from the bed and walking to the door.

"Oh Alice there was something i wanted to ask you." I said, she stopped and turned to face me, so i carried on. "When Carlisle and Esme are away i think we should throw a party, what do you think?" i asked hopeful

"Yeah, i think that's a good idea we just have to get Emmet and Jasper to agree which shouldn't be too hard because i can convince Jasper and I'll get Rosalie to convince Emmet. I'll let you know what they say." She replied before walking out the room and closing the door behind her.

I carried on with my essay going into detail about what had happened that day, it was taking a really long time, but it didn't matter because i wanted it to be good, well more than good because i want to be a writer, and whether it be an actual book or a homework assignment I'm going to take my time, so that the reader enjoys it.

I had just finished writing the essay when there was a knock on the door.

"Come in." I said softly i didn't know if the person had heard me so i said it again a bit louder. They heard that time because the door opened and Edward walked in.

"Hey." I said i greeting

"Hey, erm i was just on my way to bed and saw your light on and wondered if you were ok." He said, I wondered what he was going on about; surely it couldn't be that late. I looked to my alarm clock and the time read 11:30pm, i had really lost a whole day by getting stuck in memories and writing and essay. Wow.

"I didn't realise it was so late, I'm fine just got caught up in homework and memories." I said while picking up all the homework and shutting down my laptop.

"Ok well Carlisle and Esme booked their holiday they go this Friday and will be back late Sunday evening." He said filing me in on what had happened during the day.

"Ok thanks for letting me know." I said getting up from the floor with the papers in my hand; i put them back in my school bag to start again tomorrow.

"Well I'm off to bed, I'll see you tomorrow Bella." He said

"Ok goodnight." I replied and he walked out the room and closed the door behind him. I picked my laptop off of the floor and but it on my desk that i never use. It was then that i noticed how bad my hands were shaking, i didn't even notice that i hadn't taken anything today because i got so caught up in writing the story and making it good, but i would defiantly have to take something now, because there is no way i would be able to sleep with the muscle pain, shaking and the sweating.

I got out what i needed to inject heroin and did it quickly before snorting two lines of blow, instead of sitting in bed and waiting for the drugs to take effect i decided to have a quick shower, the warm water helped to relax my muscles. I got out of the shower and towel dried my hair, i then got dressed in short shorts and a printed t-shirt. I climbed into bed and felt the drugs overtake my system and helped me find a peaceful sleep.

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