Chapter 10

(A/N well hello everybody! How's it going :) once again I'm sorry it's taken me soo long. Much thanks to Captara :P. This chapter is more focused on whats going through Yuki's head as this is all happening.

Without further ado,

Chapter 10

Shuichi slowly made his way down alley after alley way. Not knowing where he was going, but somehow knowing where he was going at the same time. He leaned against the wall of the alley as he tried to catch his breath. He could feel his heart pounding in his chest, each beat sending a stab of pain through his body. Shifting him self so he had his back to the wall, the sudden pain was over whelming.

Shuichi collapsed onto his knees, clutching his chest as the stitches pulled even more on his cut. Each ragged breath caused his ribs to scream in pain. The pain killer's effects had slowly been dwindling over the last hour, and finally they had stopped having effect all together. The pain was fresh and as sharp as when he had first gotten hurt.

It was at that point that Shuichi started to see red. He collapsed onto his stomach and lay there as the world began to spin, then went dark all together.

Yuki swerved around a corner, continuing his break neck speed as he sped down the street. He scanned the faces of everyone he passed, looking for a familiar sight. Waiting for a tuff of pink hair to bob out of the crowd.

It had been just over an hour since Shuichi had left the hospital, and since the moment the doctor told him that Shuichi could die, he had been in his car racing through the city, leaving no street unchecked.

He almost went to their apartment, just to check to see if he had made it home.

Half way there he turned back around, cursing at himself for wasting time. Shuichi wouldn't remember where they lived, and besides… he was too injured to make it that far.

He was bleeding too much… he had too many things broken… he had been hurt…too badly.

"He has suffered some internal bleeding."

No one would ever do that to Shuichi. It didn't happen, not to Shu… the doctor made a mistake.

"If he's not found and properly treated very soon, then he will die."

He's going to be fine damn it!

"The poor boy was raped repeatedly, and beaten."

No!

Yuki pulled over to the side of the road. His hands were shaking and he tucked them into his stomach to make them stop.

"He was raped multiple times."

No…not Shu…not my Shu.

Yuki closed his eyes and leaned his head against the steering wheel, taking deep breathes to try and push off the sudden wave of emotions.

Shuichi burst through the door to Yuki's office, his face glowed with happiness and his eyes sparkled as he ran in and jumped on Yuki's lap.

His warmth warmed Yuki, who had been sitting there for three hours.

Shuichi nuzzled Yuki's neck, placing a small kiss on his collarbone.

He looked up, the soft light caught in his pink hair making it shine. He smiled… his smile. A smile that belonged to no one else but him. A smile that took no effort that appeared on his face as naturally as breathing. A smile that was full of his energy and love. A soft smile. Shuichi's smile.

How Yuki had wanted to kiss that smile. To hold that warmth close to him and breath in the sweet scent of strawberries. But no… today he couldn't. But oh how he wanted to…but…not today.

Instead of drawing him closer he pushed him away. He glared up at those innocent eyes and pushed him away.

"I have work I can't have you here tonight."

The boys face became stunned, as he tried to hide the hurt. But the hurt shone in his eyes, eyes that could never lie, that bore all his emotions for the world to see. That showed what was in his heart and soul.

He backed away slowly, and nodded.

Just like that, he nodded.

Turning quickly he went into their bedroom and grabbed some clothes. He put them all into a duffel bag, and Yuki just stood and watched. He wanted to tell him to stay but bit the words back. He needed to finish his work. He would make it up to Shuichi later. He would.

Shuichi walked to the door, and looked over his shoulder. His eyes were sad but he smiled a soft smile.

Yuki stayed at the door to his study, afraid that if he walked him out he wouldn't be able to let him leave.

Hand on the door knob, Shuichi glanced back one last time. The door opened and he stepped out, his words hanging in the air.

"I love you Yuki."

The door closed, and everything went black.

He didn't have time to be confused because suddenly screaming surrounded him.

He knew that voice but he didn't want to see who it belonged to. He didn't want it to be real.

"Stop it please. Leave me alone."

Yuki could hear him crying, crying and begging. Begging for them to stop, begging to go home.

"Please…. Please let me go…please. Yuki, Yuki help me."

And now Yuki could see him, he could see Shuichi.

He was lying on the ground, his shirt off and his chest bleeding, tears streamed down his cheeks as he reached out to Yuki. Begging him to help him.

"Yuki, please help me Yuki. Please Yuki please."

Then black hands reached out of the darkness behind Shuichi, pulling him in.

"No please no, leave me alone! Yuki help me. Yuki!"

And he was running, running forward to help Shuichi. He reached out and Shuichi reached out.

Their fingers were so close that Yuki could feel the warmth coming off of them.

"Shuichi grab my hand."

He reached as far as he could; the black hands were running over his chest and trying to pull him back. Voices were laughing at them as they struggled to reach each other.

Yuki looked into Shuichi's eyes. He saw the fear and the tears that were still falling. Those eyes…stayed in his mind, as Shuichi was pulled into the darkness.

Then once again, the room was filled with his screams.

Yuki jumped up so fast he hit his head on the roof of his car.

His vision was blurred and it took him a moment to realize that he was crying. He roughly tried to brush the tears away but they kept coming, streaming down his cheek like they would never stop.

Yuki gulped as he took ragged breaths through the tears. Leaning his head against the head rest he squeezed his eyes closed, trying desperately to get the images out of his head. But they wouldn't go away.

He pushed both palms of his hands against his temple in an attempt to drive them out but still it didn't work.

He could still see everything, so clearly.

Shuichi beaten and bloody, screaming for him to help him. And he couldn't, he couldn't do anything. Yuki had been sleeping in his bed when Shuichi was getting raped and he hadn't been able to stop it from happening.

"That's not true," A voice in his head said, "if you had let him stay, this would never have happened."

"Shuichi would never have been hurt. He would never have had to suffer like you did. Worse…then you did."

"It's all my fault." Yuki leaned his head into his hands, as he gave up trying to stop the tears from coming. He needed to get this all out so he would be able to concentrate on finding Shuichi.

After a couple of minutes Yuki once again roughly rubbed his face and took a shaky breath.

He put his hands on the wheel and closed his eyes one last time. The image that greeted him was that of the last time he had seen Shuichi. As he left the apartment, closing the door behind him. The last thing Shuichi said was, "I love you Yuki."

"Oh God Shu I'm so sorry."

He peeled away from the curb before he could start crying again. He needed to concentrate, he had to find Shuichi. With the guilt clawing at his stomach, he made the drive to the hospital so he could check in with everyone else.

A cold breeze blew, ruffling Shuichi's clothing. He lifted his head, trying to focus on what was around him. The first thing he saw was a black Mercedes at the end of the alley way. There was a man sitting it the car but Shuichi didn't get a good look at him because at that moment he drove away.

Slowly pulling himself up, Shuichi winced as every movement brought a fresh stab of pain. He closed his eyes and tried to remember. He tried to find that strand of memory that was so special to him, that he hadn't forgotten it completely. The memory that would help him find the man.

He slowly staggered out of the alley way, walking as if by instinct.

The wind blows, it's a cold night. A white dove flies through the air, bringing me to you.

(A/N Well there is Chapter 10, how do you guys like the story so far, I would like 10 reviews please!! But if I don't get them that's ok I will still love you guys :) Lol :P neways please review and I will see you all again in Chapter 11 )