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"You're a... a what?" Dawn asked. Buffy sighed and Joyce crossed her arms.
"Buffy... inside..." Joyce said trying to keep her cool.
"But mom..."
"Now!" Joyce said very bold. Joyce walked inside. Dawn followed. Buffy looked at Spike.
"Buffy I..." he said, taking a step toward her. She held a hand up and back away. A single tear dropped from her eyes.
"Please... stay away from me," she choked out. His light blue eyes changed colors with his emotions. He spoke in soft whispers.
"Buffy... please, baby, I love you Buffy Anne Summers, I'm drowning in you Summers, I'm drowning in you," he said softly in his sexy British accent. She held her hands to her face and more tears fell.
"Then why did you do that to me? How? I mean when I saw you 2... you hurt me so much... and I think we rushed into everything... I mean I don't know anything about you and I... I need a break, please, just give me some time," she told him. She turned and walked began walking to the door.
"Buffy!" he called after her. She muffled a cry and walked in the door of her apartment. She closed the doors and leaned against the door, sadly.
"Goodbye Spike," she whispered and walked to the living room where her mom and sister were waiting.
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"Buffy, I want you to explain all of this to me now, starting with the boy" Joyce told her, her voice deep and sounded angry.
"Mom, his name is Spike," she said softly, tears stains were noticeable on her face.
"Oh how nice, Spike, what a trustworthy name," Joyce said. Buffy looked down and sniffled.
"I thought it was, I thought he was," she said in a soft whisper not even her mother could hear. Dawn was looked from Joyce to Buffy, not knowing what to think. How could Buffy lie to her?
"Buffy... all I want to know is when you had sex with this... Spike guy," she asked.
"Mom... please," she choked out. Dawn sighed.
"Buffy, I need to know this! Did you have protection? Was it your first time?" she asked hesitantly.
"Mom... come on, I really don't..." Buffy began. Joyce cut in.
"Don't think what?! Buffy you're 16 years old. I can't you would do this... and I thought you were with Angel?"
"I... I was, he broke up with me," Buffy replied sadly.
"I thought you were responsible but then little after little I noticed a change in you... last year you would get into trouble in school and you got suspended Buffy for fighting... I just don't know what to do," Joyce said rising a hand to her head. She got up from her seat in the living room and walked to the kitchen. Dawn walked outside for a breathe of air. She hated when he mother and sister fought. She poured herself a glass of wine. Buffy walked in.
"Mom, it isn't easy! I know you want me to be home, talking on the phone about boys and painting my nails but I can't! I am the vampire slayer mom and I can't change that. There is another one too. Her name is Faith... I may hate her but I respect her very much and you don't know how much pain and suffering we go through just to keep the world and everyone we love safe. You think I am not responsible and maybe I'm not in your eyes but I have a responsibility to save the world and you will never understand that... just have another drink" she spat. Joyce angrily tossed the glass aside as it broke on the floor.
"Don't you talk to me that way! You can't just dump this all on me and pretend it's nothing! I am your mother and you will make time to explain yourself," Joyce yelled. Buffy turned towards Joyce.
"What do you think has been happening for the last year and a half mom? How many fights have I been in? The weird occurrences... how many times are you going to wash blood out of my clothes and you still haven't figured it out!"
"Well it stops now!"
"No mom! It doesn't stop... it never stops! Do you think I chose to be like this! Do you know how lonely it is... how dangerous?! This is what I have to do." she yelled, tears falling. Joyce sighed. Buffy's beeper went off and she looked at it as it vibrated. It said 911 and it was Giles. 'Damn' Buffy thought as tears fell. She wiped them away.
"I have to go," Buffy replied softly.
"No, Buffy... you need help,"
"No I don't! What I need is for you to chill, now I need to go," Buffy told her, heading for her room. She got her jacket and her bag of weapons.
"No. I am not letting you out of this house!"
"You can't stop me."
"Oh yes I..." Joyce began as she grabbed her arm but Buffy shoves her back into the small table, making her knock over several things. She heads for the door, opens it and steps out.
"You walk out of this house don't even think about coming back," Joyce spat angrily. Buffy gives her one final look and turns, walking away.
~~~
She walks down the streets alone and cold. She couldn't believe all of this. Her life was completely changing and she couldn't handle everything. A very familiar car pulled up next to her. The window rolled down.
"Buffy?"
"Angel? Hi..."
"What are you doing walking around by yourself?" he asked sweetly.
"Going to Giles' place, 911 call," she told him.
"Well Buffy... do you want a ride?" he asked. She smiled and began walking toward the car door.
~~~
As Dawn walked up to the Bray's house, she knocked softly. 'Coming' she heard on the other side of the door. Within a few seconds the door swung open. It was Kennedy. She smiled.
"Hi Dawn, what are you doing here... it's like 11 o'clock at night," Kennedy said, straightening her pajamas and smoothing back her hair. Kennedy's smile faded when she saw Dawn's hurt look.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
~~~
As Buffy hopped in the car, Angel drove slowly at first. He noticed Buffy's sad face.
"Buffy... what's wrong?" he asked, looking at her for a second and then put his eyes back on the road. Her voice began to crack as she spoke and tears began to form.
"I got in this big fight with my mom and then she told me to never come back again if I walk out this door and I did and..." she cried and it sounded like all her words bled together. He looked at her and took one hand off the steering wheel. He picked up her hand and rubbed it with his thumb.
"Shhh, sweetie it's alright... you'll see it'll be all better really soon... trust me," he said kissing her palm. She sniffled and gave a soft smile.
"Now come on, tell me what it was about?" he asked. She sighed.
"She found out I was the slayer and kinda' flipped, I... I can't stay there right now..." she stated sadly. She couldn't tell Angel the other reason she got in a fight with her mother. That would break his heart, she liked Angel and telling him she slept with Angel wouldn't help any.
"Don't worry, you'll figure it out," he told her softly. She looked at him and gave a weak smile.
~~~
"She did what?!" Kennedy practically yelled.
"Shhh... I know I couldn't believe it either. I mean Buffy... a slayer... and I didn't think she would sleep with anyone right now... I at least thought she would tell me... but also it's weird... a guy with a name like that? I mean... Spike?" she laughed. Kennedy looked away.
"What's wrong?" Dawn asked. Kennedy faced her again.
"That's my sister's boyfriend!" Kennedy told her. Dawn's face expression was mixed.
"What?!"
~~~
Buffy stayed in the car until Angel came around and opened the door for her. She smiled and politely said thank you. They walked toward the school library together.
As they entered, Willow was already there, Xander, Cordelia and Doyle. Buffy could see Willow give Cordelia evil glares and Xander was looking through a magazine. Just then Giles walked in with about 5 thick books.
"Well hello Buffy," Giles said. Buffy gave a soft wave. Angel took a seat on the counter and Buffy helped Giles with the book. He panted as they set the last of the books on the table. Giles looked at his watch.
"Hmmm, where could they be? I told Spike to pick up Faith and meet me here... well I guess we will have to start without..." he began when the doors swung open. In walked a happy Faith walking next to an emotionless Spike.
"Hello Spike, Faith," Giles said. Faith smiled and Spike gave a dull nod. Buffy couldn't help even to look at him. She couldn't stand being so close to someone that would hurt her so much. She sighed and looked towards Faith for a short moment. She grinned happily and mouthed the words 'You'll never get him.' Buffy angrily picked up her belongings and ran out of the library.
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"Kennedy, please don't tell anyone... I have to go right now; my mom might be worried so I'll see you tomorrow?" Dawn asked. Kennedy nodded and led Dawn to the door.
~~~
Kennedy sat on the couch deciding what to do. Faith was like her best friend. Sure they get into fights a lot but Faith deserved to know. Then again she did promise Dawn. Kennedy sighed in frustration. She picked up her cell phone and dialed nervously.
~~~
Buffy stopped at the door, noticing it was raining outside and she didn't have a ride. Tears ran down her cheeks softly along with her mascara. She went outside despite the rain and looked around. She held her face in her hands. The door opened and someone walked to her.
"Luv, please, come back inside," he told her as he began walking to her. She was soaked and Spike was soaked also. He touched her shoulders and she jerked away from him.
"Stay away from me," she told him slowly, but full of force. She let a few more tears fall but he didn't notice because the rain fell on her. He heard soft sniffles and exhaled deeply.
"Please baby, no more tears," he whispered, now completely soaked. He pulled her in to a hug. She layed her head against his chest. He stroked her wet hair and hugged her tiny body.
"I'm so sorry pet, please, please forgive me," he whispered, soft and silently.
"Spike, I really like you but right now... can we just... be this? Can we just be friends? I'm just not ready and I... I want to get to know you more first," she told him, her tears slowing down. She smiled and nodded soflty.
"Of course, take it slow,"
~~~
As Faith sat in the library, her cell phone rang and she looked at the screen. It said 'Kennedy Cell.' She let the phone ring one last time and picked up the phone. Faith stood and began to walk.
"Hello?" Faith said into the phone.
"Um... Faith... I have some *mega* news, just listen..." Kennedy began.
~~~
As Buffy looked at the blue eyed hottie, he grinned at her. He began to walk to the door with Buffy by his side when the door swung open fast and a very angry Faith came out. She gave one evil glare at Buffy and swung back her arm.
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A/N: Ok, hoped you liked it! I know I haven't updated in a while, it's been hectic. I'm trying here so it might take a bit of time. The next chapter won't be up for about a week or 2, sorry for the long waiting. I'll try to update soon.
~*~Special Shout Out to: My Sweet Audrina. I wanted to thank you with a few things for this fic and you've helped a lot! :-* (Check out her awesome fics!)
"You're a... a what?" Dawn asked. Buffy sighed and Joyce crossed her arms.
"Buffy... inside..." Joyce said trying to keep her cool.
"But mom..."
"Now!" Joyce said very bold. Joyce walked inside. Dawn followed. Buffy looked at Spike.
"Buffy I..." he said, taking a step toward her. She held a hand up and back away. A single tear dropped from her eyes.
"Please... stay away from me," she choked out. His light blue eyes changed colors with his emotions. He spoke in soft whispers.
"Buffy... please, baby, I love you Buffy Anne Summers, I'm drowning in you Summers, I'm drowning in you," he said softly in his sexy British accent. She held her hands to her face and more tears fell.
"Then why did you do that to me? How? I mean when I saw you 2... you hurt me so much... and I think we rushed into everything... I mean I don't know anything about you and I... I need a break, please, just give me some time," she told him. She turned and walked began walking to the door.
"Buffy!" he called after her. She muffled a cry and walked in the door of her apartment. She closed the doors and leaned against the door, sadly.
"Goodbye Spike," she whispered and walked to the living room where her mom and sister were waiting.
~~~
"Buffy, I want you to explain all of this to me now, starting with the boy" Joyce told her, her voice deep and sounded angry.
"Mom, his name is Spike," she said softly, tears stains were noticeable on her face.
"Oh how nice, Spike, what a trustworthy name," Joyce said. Buffy looked down and sniffled.
"I thought it was, I thought he was," she said in a soft whisper not even her mother could hear. Dawn was looked from Joyce to Buffy, not knowing what to think. How could Buffy lie to her?
"Buffy... all I want to know is when you had sex with this... Spike guy," she asked.
"Mom... please," she choked out. Dawn sighed.
"Buffy, I need to know this! Did you have protection? Was it your first time?" she asked hesitantly.
"Mom... come on, I really don't..." Buffy began. Joyce cut in.
"Don't think what?! Buffy you're 16 years old. I can't you would do this... and I thought you were with Angel?"
"I... I was, he broke up with me," Buffy replied sadly.
"I thought you were responsible but then little after little I noticed a change in you... last year you would get into trouble in school and you got suspended Buffy for fighting... I just don't know what to do," Joyce said rising a hand to her head. She got up from her seat in the living room and walked to the kitchen. Dawn walked outside for a breathe of air. She hated when he mother and sister fought. She poured herself a glass of wine. Buffy walked in.
"Mom, it isn't easy! I know you want me to be home, talking on the phone about boys and painting my nails but I can't! I am the vampire slayer mom and I can't change that. There is another one too. Her name is Faith... I may hate her but I respect her very much and you don't know how much pain and suffering we go through just to keep the world and everyone we love safe. You think I am not responsible and maybe I'm not in your eyes but I have a responsibility to save the world and you will never understand that... just have another drink" she spat. Joyce angrily tossed the glass aside as it broke on the floor.
"Don't you talk to me that way! You can't just dump this all on me and pretend it's nothing! I am your mother and you will make time to explain yourself," Joyce yelled. Buffy turned towards Joyce.
"What do you think has been happening for the last year and a half mom? How many fights have I been in? The weird occurrences... how many times are you going to wash blood out of my clothes and you still haven't figured it out!"
"Well it stops now!"
"No mom! It doesn't stop... it never stops! Do you think I chose to be like this! Do you know how lonely it is... how dangerous?! This is what I have to do." she yelled, tears falling. Joyce sighed. Buffy's beeper went off and she looked at it as it vibrated. It said 911 and it was Giles. 'Damn' Buffy thought as tears fell. She wiped them away.
"I have to go," Buffy replied softly.
"No, Buffy... you need help,"
"No I don't! What I need is for you to chill, now I need to go," Buffy told her, heading for her room. She got her jacket and her bag of weapons.
"No. I am not letting you out of this house!"
"You can't stop me."
"Oh yes I..." Joyce began as she grabbed her arm but Buffy shoves her back into the small table, making her knock over several things. She heads for the door, opens it and steps out.
"You walk out of this house don't even think about coming back," Joyce spat angrily. Buffy gives her one final look and turns, walking away.
~~~
She walks down the streets alone and cold. She couldn't believe all of this. Her life was completely changing and she couldn't handle everything. A very familiar car pulled up next to her. The window rolled down.
"Buffy?"
"Angel? Hi..."
"What are you doing walking around by yourself?" he asked sweetly.
"Going to Giles' place, 911 call," she told him.
"Well Buffy... do you want a ride?" he asked. She smiled and began walking toward the car door.
~~~
As Dawn walked up to the Bray's house, she knocked softly. 'Coming' she heard on the other side of the door. Within a few seconds the door swung open. It was Kennedy. She smiled.
"Hi Dawn, what are you doing here... it's like 11 o'clock at night," Kennedy said, straightening her pajamas and smoothing back her hair. Kennedy's smile faded when she saw Dawn's hurt look.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
~~~
As Buffy hopped in the car, Angel drove slowly at first. He noticed Buffy's sad face.
"Buffy... what's wrong?" he asked, looking at her for a second and then put his eyes back on the road. Her voice began to crack as she spoke and tears began to form.
"I got in this big fight with my mom and then she told me to never come back again if I walk out this door and I did and..." she cried and it sounded like all her words bled together. He looked at her and took one hand off the steering wheel. He picked up her hand and rubbed it with his thumb.
"Shhh, sweetie it's alright... you'll see it'll be all better really soon... trust me," he said kissing her palm. She sniffled and gave a soft smile.
"Now come on, tell me what it was about?" he asked. She sighed.
"She found out I was the slayer and kinda' flipped, I... I can't stay there right now..." she stated sadly. She couldn't tell Angel the other reason she got in a fight with her mother. That would break his heart, she liked Angel and telling him she slept with Angel wouldn't help any.
"Don't worry, you'll figure it out," he told her softly. She looked at him and gave a weak smile.
~~~
"She did what?!" Kennedy practically yelled.
"Shhh... I know I couldn't believe it either. I mean Buffy... a slayer... and I didn't think she would sleep with anyone right now... I at least thought she would tell me... but also it's weird... a guy with a name like that? I mean... Spike?" she laughed. Kennedy looked away.
"What's wrong?" Dawn asked. Kennedy faced her again.
"That's my sister's boyfriend!" Kennedy told her. Dawn's face expression was mixed.
"What?!"
~~~
Buffy stayed in the car until Angel came around and opened the door for her. She smiled and politely said thank you. They walked toward the school library together.
As they entered, Willow was already there, Xander, Cordelia and Doyle. Buffy could see Willow give Cordelia evil glares and Xander was looking through a magazine. Just then Giles walked in with about 5 thick books.
"Well hello Buffy," Giles said. Buffy gave a soft wave. Angel took a seat on the counter and Buffy helped Giles with the book. He panted as they set the last of the books on the table. Giles looked at his watch.
"Hmmm, where could they be? I told Spike to pick up Faith and meet me here... well I guess we will have to start without..." he began when the doors swung open. In walked a happy Faith walking next to an emotionless Spike.
"Hello Spike, Faith," Giles said. Faith smiled and Spike gave a dull nod. Buffy couldn't help even to look at him. She couldn't stand being so close to someone that would hurt her so much. She sighed and looked towards Faith for a short moment. She grinned happily and mouthed the words 'You'll never get him.' Buffy angrily picked up her belongings and ran out of the library.
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"Kennedy, please don't tell anyone... I have to go right now; my mom might be worried so I'll see you tomorrow?" Dawn asked. Kennedy nodded and led Dawn to the door.
~~~
Kennedy sat on the couch deciding what to do. Faith was like her best friend. Sure they get into fights a lot but Faith deserved to know. Then again she did promise Dawn. Kennedy sighed in frustration. She picked up her cell phone and dialed nervously.
~~~
Buffy stopped at the door, noticing it was raining outside and she didn't have a ride. Tears ran down her cheeks softly along with her mascara. She went outside despite the rain and looked around. She held her face in her hands. The door opened and someone walked to her.
"Luv, please, come back inside," he told her as he began walking to her. She was soaked and Spike was soaked also. He touched her shoulders and she jerked away from him.
"Stay away from me," she told him slowly, but full of force. She let a few more tears fall but he didn't notice because the rain fell on her. He heard soft sniffles and exhaled deeply.
"Please baby, no more tears," he whispered, now completely soaked. He pulled her in to a hug. She layed her head against his chest. He stroked her wet hair and hugged her tiny body.
"I'm so sorry pet, please, please forgive me," he whispered, soft and silently.
"Spike, I really like you but right now... can we just... be this? Can we just be friends? I'm just not ready and I... I want to get to know you more first," she told him, her tears slowing down. She smiled and nodded soflty.
"Of course, take it slow,"
~~~
As Faith sat in the library, her cell phone rang and she looked at the screen. It said 'Kennedy Cell.' She let the phone ring one last time and picked up the phone. Faith stood and began to walk.
"Hello?" Faith said into the phone.
"Um... Faith... I have some *mega* news, just listen..." Kennedy began.
~~~
As Buffy looked at the blue eyed hottie, he grinned at her. He began to walk to the door with Buffy by his side when the door swung open fast and a very angry Faith came out. She gave one evil glare at Buffy and swung back her arm.
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A/N: Ok, hoped you liked it! I know I haven't updated in a while, it's been hectic. I'm trying here so it might take a bit of time. The next chapter won't be up for about a week or 2, sorry for the long waiting. I'll try to update soon.
~*~Special Shout Out to: My Sweet Audrina. I wanted to thank you with a few things for this fic and you've helped a lot! :-* (Check out her awesome fics!)