NAOMI POV – Just being with you!

Chapter 10

My day had been rubbish, Emily had pestered me for most of it, I accidentally seem to have entered into a sex bet with Cook and to top it off I fell off a stack of papers and showed my knickers! Plus I have caved and think I am going to enter the student elections. Which I think in fairness is my only way is to stop Cook becoming president and possibly having to sleep with him. Oh Christ.

Kieran gave me a lift home from school, well he nearly did but his car was fucked, that man really is a massive mess, but he is alright. He walked me home which was weird but nice at the same time, he listens and he is honest.

I got in and mum instantly started questioning me about the man I was with, could she not see he was an old hairy guy. Most mums would be like.... who the fuck is that hanging around with my 17 year old? But she seemed please. She was holding another randomers baby and she didn't even know its fucking name. Jesus when is this free living bullshit going to stop. There better not be a baby living in the house now, that is the last thing I need.

I stormed to my room cursing my life, my house wasn't a home it was a freaking hostel.

I swung open my door looking forward to a bit of peace and quiet! JESUS I thought when I saw Emily Fitch sat on my bed . Typical, I don't know why I was even surprised its just how my day was going.

Firstly what the hell was she doing her, and secondly how the hell did she get into my house, my bedroom. This was just too bizarre.

Turns out she had brought me over an election form and been let in my the guy who I found in my bed this morning. I told her she was annoying and she told me I brought it out in her! Brilliant... I make people annoying! Great to know!

She offered to help me but I told her I didn't need her help and then she left. I didn't expect her to just go, I expected her to put up some kind of argument for staying, but she didn't and when she walked out I cant explain it but I felt a bit sad. When I had walked into my room I had just wanted some time to myself and now I was being given it I felt .. well a bit lonely. I think I had got used to Emily following me about and hanging around me and when she left without putting up a fight, without trying to talk about "us" without anything. I felt disappointed.

I just stood for a bit, a bit in shock of what had happened, I thought about going after her but that so wasn't my style. Then it happened she came flying back into my room. She looked pissed off.

She was different, I was so used to her being sweet and meek. She said something along the lines of not wanting to fuck me everytime she saw me and how she just wanted to spend time. I think she said kissing me was nice too. Nice?

I really didn't know what to say, but I did know I didn't want her to walk out of my room again. I was a bit pathetic saying thanks. I am not sure if thanks was the most fitting reply when someone tells you they don't want to fuck you. But it was the only thing that came into my head.

Then before I knew it I was asking her to stay. I figured after her outburst the least I could do was let her help me with the application form.

There was understandably awkward tension in the room, Emily had just told me she didn't want to fuck me and I had told her to stay, and obviously she had brought up the fact we had kissed. Quite loudly actually, I hope my mum didn't hear. I knew the only thing that was going to stop this turning into a disaster was vodka, I was always alot more chatty on vodka!

In short I got wasted, I dunno how but we ened up laid on my floor after filling out the very random application form. It had asked for a campaign slogan.... my input was "Naomi, get to know me" which Emily found hysterical. To be fair it was a shit slogan. I didn't even want people to get to know me.

I lay on the floor and felt happy, I had not felt happy since I could remember. I didn't really have friends who I was close to and I wondered if this was how it felt. Then I remembered the fact I had kissed this girl, there was more to our friendship than just being mates and it scared me. But at the same time under a haze of vodka it intrigued me. Despite Emily not being out, I was pretty convinced she was gay and I liked that she knew it and knew her feelings. I wondered whilst lying on the floor whether she had been with girls before, I wanted to find out if she kissed other girls, or just me.

Before I knew it I was asking, in probably a more upfront way than I had anticipated

"What do lesbians do?" Shit did I just actually ask her that.

She smiled mischievously but looked embarrassed at the same time, swigging on her vodka. I thought maybe she didn't get what I was getting at. "In bed I mean"

She laughed telling me she knew what I meant which made me sound a bit silly

"How would I know" Was her eventual response.

Brilliant now was my chance to delve a bit more into her history, I asked her if she had ever.

"No I have never" she responded a bit shocked. I thought it was a valid question, however I was happy with the answer. I don't think I would have liked it much if she had said yes.

She then proceeded to tell me what she thought happened, and I just got a bit engrossed, when she said "what we do to ourselves, but to each other, just a bit more aggressively" my heart started to beat slightly faster as I imagined for the first time ever doing things in my head with Emily. I tried to disguise my discomfort. Having sexual thoughts about a girl who is just inches away was something I never thought would happen and I didn't want her to be able to see in my face what I was thinking. She mentioned oils which made me laugh, alot! Where the hell did that come from, and what kinda porn has this girl been watching!!

Then we just kinda stared at each other, I didn't know what Emily was thinking but I kinda felt like if she had been going to kiss me again now would possibly be a time where I would accept the kiss. Shit, what the hell!

I quickly lay back down returning the conversation to Oils! Breaking the intense mood that had just enveloped me. Stop it I thought to myself shaking my head. Your drunk!

We had been talking for hours, and I had tried to keep the conversation off Lesbian Sex, Oils or anything in anyway related. Eventually we just lay there, neither saying a word. Until Emily let out a little yawn which prompted me to look at my watch.... fucking hell 2 am ! Jesus she has been here since like 4.30pm.... never in my life have I spent that long in someone's company without getting supremely bored of that person.

I helped a quite drunk Emily to her feet, trying myself to stop my head spinning. Drinking whilst lying down and then standing up quickly is not the best idea.

When the room did stop spinning I saw Emily with her shoes on and her bag over her shoulder. She looked so innocent and sweet, there was no way someone who looked so fragile and young could be walking the streets at 2am on her own, specially not drunk.

Plus it wouldn't hurt for her to stay over, that's what friends do right, sleep over at each others houses. I told her she couldn't walk home at this time and she could stay as long as she didn't try it on!

She didn't respond but smiled and slipped her shoes back off, I took this as a non verbal "yes I will stay and no I won't jump you"

I threw her an old top and got a t shirt for myself, I all of a sudden became very conscious that if I got undressed Emily would be looking at me. It wasn't so much this that bothered me, but I wasn't overly body confident and I felt shy. So I told her to turn away, I felt like a right twat. Then just as I had pulled my top off. I heard her cough slightly I looked up and could see her staring straight at me through my massive mirror with a cheeky grin on her face.

I told her she was a pervert and quickly pulled the same t shirt back over my head. I would just wear that!

I got into bed quickly and when I looked up Emily was stripping off with none of the same shyness as me, she was stood in just her bra and pants unashamed. I caught myself looking and panicked. I tried to find something else to divert my attention to but it seemed like my eyes were battling against me and drawing themselves back to Emily. God dammit, I ended up just looking at my finger nails with great interest.

Emily got into bed next to me, and I lay down and looked up at the ceiling, the vodka was wearing off slightly and I became very aware I was in bed with a girl who I was pretty sure fancied me quite a bit. I wasn't ready for this, I didn't know what was going on but I knew I was freaking out. I just stared at the ceiling avoiding eye contact and conversation with the girl next to me. I got hotter and hotter and I was sure she was staring at me. I calmed myself down and braved facing her.

I was sooo right she was on her side facing me, big brown eyes looking into mine

"What" I asked, knowing exactly what!

"nothing" she lied, I could tell she was thinking something but I was to scarred to find out exactly what. It was one thing lying on the floor talking about personal stuff but talking about that kind of stuff in a bed was only going to lead to one place.

I said goodnight in a way I tried to make sound final making it clear to her now it was time to sleep.

She smiled knowingly, just like she got exactly what I meant and copied my tone whilst saying goodnight back.

Then she turned onto her back and within a few minutes drifted off to sleep. I waited for her breathing to change so I knew she was definitely asleep before braving facing her. I turned and studied her face. She was very pretty and I had never had the chance to look at her properly this close. She had gorgeous skin and her hair was so vibrant. My last thought before I joined Emily in sleeping was

"She is lovely"

And with that I fell asleep with Emily Fitch in my bed. What a random day!