A/N: I have to admit that I dreamt this story recently and I just couldn't wait to write it and post it here. I'm a Literati sucker, what I can say? Hehe. I hope you like this one. It's completely different from the other one. It's a little more drama and it's a little more complicated. The characters are little more dramatic and not easy to write, but I loved them in this way. As the previous story, I put something very personal in this one too. What Jess is going to live here, it was a state close to me before. The territory I'm about to enter hits close to home for me. But I think you're gonna like it despite the drama. I hope for your support as always and please review if you like what you read. That keeps my muse alive!
P.S. English is not my first language, but I'm really trying here. So, if you think that it's hard for you to read - just don't read it! The reason I'm in this alone it's because I have updates every day. I love my readers and I want to pleased them in that way.
Rating: T (maybe M for some chapters, but we'll see);
Story:
Rory comes back to Stars Hollow to try and pick up the pieces of her ruined life. But she is not the only one who want to do that. Jess is there too, but he is not the same.
Chapter 10 See my heart
Rory stared at his eyes and saw the short flick of the pain there. It was so quick that Rory would miss it if she had blinked. His hand fell on his lap again. His eyes stared through the window and Rory frowned. She wanted to ask him now. She wanted to understand what had led him to here. Why he had shut himself out so completely? He was hiding something in himself and she was sure. Jess was a strong person. She knew how strong he could be. He had let her go even though that had cost him pain. She could see that in his eyes then. It was hurt her to leave him in Philadelphia, but she thought she was doing right.
"Okay." Rory forced her smile. "We have time for everything, but now you have to eat." She waited until he looked at her again. "Come on." She turned and took the tray in her lap. "It's time for your breakfast."
It was a tough day for her. Her thoughts were a mess. She kept wondering what brought him here. What was the reason made him to jump off that building. Rory was sure of only one thing – it must have been awful. But what it was? What was the reason for him to jump?
"Hey look." Rory pointed through the window. It was early evening and it snowing. It was the first snow for this year. "Jess, it's snowing!" She looked at him. His eyes stared through the window, but his face remained blank. "Do you know what time is it? It's time for the Winter Carnival!" Rory smiled and leaned her head on his shoulder. He trembled under her touch, but it was single move. He remained calm after that. "Do you remember our visit to the Winter Carnival few years ago?" Rory smiled at the memory and took his hand in hers. "I won a bear. Do you remember? And the night after that? We were sitting at the bridge and you told me about your dreams to become a writer. Strange, huh?" Rory sighed warmed from the memory. "Then I talked to my mom and she waited for me. We ate snow cones and I told her about you. I told her how good it was to have someone like you in my life."
Jess did not move. She did not expect that from him. She knew it was too early. He had done enough until now. But she felt good even to lie her head on his shoulder. It was so comfortable and it felt so right. Her hands had captured his right one and she felt good.
"I want you to feel better, Jess." Rory whispered. "I'm going to do whatever it needs to make you feel good again. I won't give up on you!" She lifted her head up and looked at his face. He still watched through the window. The snow kept falling. "I want you to be as stronger as you were before. This life is not for you, Jess. You are not that weak and you have to live again!"
Then she kept quiet and lay her head on his shoulder again.
That was how Luke found them. He opened the door with Jess' dinner in his hands. Rory turned around and looked at him with a smile. But there was something in that smile he did not like it. It was sad. Even he could see it. Luke frowned and put the tray with the dinner on the table. His eyes stared at his nephew. Jess was the same as this morning. He looked through the window. His eyes blinked from time to time but that was all. Then Luke saw his hand laced with Rory's and frowned.
"Rory?" He looked at her with confusion.
"He would be fine." Rory nodded. "There is a long way before us, but we're gonna make it!"
"You?" Luke saw his nephew looked at Rory. "Is there something I have to know?"
"He could understands us." Rory almost whispered. "I think that his senses are coming back."
"That's great!" Luke could smile now, but he remembered Rory's sad smile. "What is the problem then?"
"He is still locked inside." Rory met Jess' look and tilted her head. "I wish I could find the right key."
"And I wish I could help you." Luke murmured. "But I don't know anything. I just saw him after his jump." He winced. "It wasn't pretty."
"I understand." Rory smiled and touched Jess' face. He did not shiver this time. "I guess he has to tell me."
"How?" Luke frowned. "He can't speak."
"He don't want to or… he thinks it's too early." Rory watched as Jess turned his head back to the window. "Or… he doesn't know how." She finished. "I have to read more about it."
"Your mother told me." Luke coughed and looked at her. "She thought that you are to involved in this and you may hurt yourself."
"What do you think?" Rory asked him carefully.
"I'm going to play the selfish here and… Damn! If you can help Jess, I'm with you!" Luke frowned. "I can't look at him like this and I was about to give up!"
"You don't have to give up now." Rory sighed with relief. "There is a hope now."
"I can see." Luke allowed himself a smile. "Maybe he would be able to talk soon."
"Maybe." Rory whispered and looked back at Jess. "I just have to find the right key for him. Then everything would be good."
She took a deep breath and took the tray with Jess' food. Luke watched her she fed his nephew. Jess let her. She whispered soft words while she fed him. Her smile touched her eyes and Luke winced from the feelings he saw there. Lorelai was right. Her daughter was too involved in this. She was more than involved; she loved Jess. The scary part was that she probably did not realize this. But now Luke was convinced in her will to help Jess. Love could do miracles. Maybe Rory was Jess' miracle. Maybe she was his cure and she was the only one that could help him live again.
"I'm going downstairs." Luke coughed and took Rory's attention. "Do you need something, before I go?"
"Nope." Rory smiled." We are fine here."
"Sure." Luke smiled and touched the door.
"Luke?" Rory called him right before he could open the door.
"Yes?" He turned around and looked at her.
"You are doing great!" She gave him a smile. "I know that Jess realize that."
"I wish you are right, Rory." Luke sighed and closed the door behind his back.
Leaving Jess was the hardest part of her day. Rory left him sleeping in his own bed. She touched his forehead with her lips and then took her coat from the nearest chair. Luke had put him to sleep and now he waited for her outside the door. Rory threw a last look to Jess and walked out of the room. Her mother was waiting for her along with Luke. He just nodded and walked in Jess' room. Rory sighed and accompanied her mother on their way out of the diner.
The night was cold and the snow had covered the ground.
"How was your day?" Lorelai asked her carefully.
"Good." Rory shrugged. "The day was good."
"But you look sad." Her mother frowned.
"I hate that part of the day." Rory murmured in her scarf.
"What part?" Lorelai looked at her daughter.
"The part where I have to leave him." Rory shrugged.
"Rory…"
"I know it sounds stupid, but… I just hate it!"
"Luke saw you two today." Lorelai said carefully. "He said you two looked pretty close."
"I just remembered the last Winter Carnival with Jess." Rory shrugged. "That was all."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah." But Rory avoided her mother's eyes. "I am sure."