Chapter 10

We were drawn from the weeds

We were brave like soldiers

Falling down under the pale moonlight

You were holding me

Like someone broken

And I couldn't tell you

But I'm telling you now

Just let me hold you

While your falling apart

~Rob Thomas-Ever the Same~

So yeah last night was wonderful and Dean and I agreed to take things slow but I still wonder if this is the right thing to do. I mean he told me why he did what he did and about going to hell and everything but still I feel like he is holding something back. I know that sometimes he does this because he thinks he is protecting me but I just wish he would be honest and not matter the consequences tell me the truth. Anyways I have been up for about three hours. At first I didn't want to move at all. I was just happy to be in Dean's arms and happy that I didn't have to pretend that it didn't affect me. I love Dean and I always will, nothing is going to change that. But right now I think it would be best if I got up considering that if I don't my stomach growling might wake him up. Without waking him I gently remove myself from his grasp and go to my suitcase to find some clothes. Then once I have changed and fixed my hair I start looking for the keys so that I can go and get us some breakfast. I found the keys on the bedside table but just when I grabbed them there was something else grabbing me.

As soon as she left the bed I was awake. At first I thought that she was upset about what had happened last night so I watched her trying to figure out what she was doing. When she went to grab my car keys I thought she was going to leave so I had to stop her. Before I could think of to stop her I reached out and grabbed her before she could get the keys.

"What are you doing?" she asked laughing.

Her laughing caught me off guard but I still told her, "You aren't leaving," I whispered into her ear.

She moved around until she was facing me and then she told me. "I wasn't leaving; I was just going to get breakfast."

"Really I thought that. . . "

"You thought that I was leaving. That I was running away. That I was leaving you because of what happened last night," she finished for me.

"You know me to well," I told her leaning in and giving her a kiss on the forehead.

"Would you like to come with me?" she asked.

"You know maybe we shouldn't go anywhere," I told her leaning in and kissing her on the lips.

"Hmm.. but I'm hungry and it would only be for a few minutes," she answered me and smiled as she leaned down for another kiss.

"But I don't wanna," I told her playfully.

But then my stomach betrayed me and growled. She looked at me and smiled and then she grabbed the car keys and started for the door.

"You go take your shower and get ready while I go get breakfast," she told me and then she was out the door.

Well I wasn't one to usually take orders but I thought that I would make an exception, at least this time. So I hopped up and prepared to do what I was told.

I can't believe he gave up so easily. I actually thought that he would come after me telling me that I couldn't drive his car. Considering that she was his baby and I might hurt her. It made me realize how much he trusted me and how much I wanted to trust him again. So from this moment on I will let go of all the pain and hurt and just try to learn to trust Dean again. Alright so now where do I go to get breakfast? I drove to the store that Dean and I went to where we met Sam and decided to get breakfast there. I never noticed his car sitting out front, I didn't even know that they were there until I walked into the store and Ruby walked up to me and started getting in my face.

"What are you following us?" she sneered.

"No, I came here to get breakfast," I told her and then tried to walk around her.

"I don't believe you," she told me stepping in front of me so I couldn't move.

I didn't see Sam anywhere and I really didn't want to get into something this early in the morning so I decided to try and be nice, "Listen I know we got off on the wrong foot. But right now I would really just like to go and get some breakfast. So if you would move, please, so that I can go and do that?" I asked her.

She moved but what she said next really got my blood boiling, "You know you mean nothing to him. You're like a stray dog following him around and you just won't leave. Dean doesn't have serious relationships. He follows the rule of nail and then bailing. So I hope you're having fun because it isn't going to last very long."

It took all my energy to contain myself from punching her right then and there but I held myself back. But that didn't stop me from getting even, "You think you're so smart. That you have Sam wrapped around you're little finger. You just wait. See I have known Sam my whole entire life and yeah you might fascinate him now but not too long form now you will be nothing but the past. Sam still thinks that he is trying to save the world but when we show him what you are doing you better be prepared to lose everything," I told her smiling at the look of worry on her face.

"No, Sam and Dean are just pawns in my game. Sam will follow me until my plan is complete and then I will discard him just like the useless playing card he is. And Dean trying to convince him that I am evil and that I only want him to do evil is working perfectly. Sam thinks that Dean is just against me because I want Sam to use his powers but he has no idea," she said with a smile.

I could of, let me rephrase that, I should of turned around and just walked away. But I couldn't force myself to do so. Before I knew it I was standing right in her face and telling her, "I will destroy you. Sam will figure out what you are doing and he will leave you. Then Dean, Sam, and I will kill you. Once that is done I will make sure that there is no way that you can escape from hell again. You think everything is going your way that no one can stop you. Well, game on bitch, and don't forget to watch your back."

After that I did turn around and start to walk away but she followed me and just had to try and have the last word, "No, you see when I go back I won't be going alone. Both Winchester boys will be with me and you will be left all alone. You see you can't win. Both their souls are mine and there is nothing you can do about it."

To hell with being nice, I didn't think twice before my fist connected with her face. Ruby fell to the ground and I couldn't help the smirk on my lips. Of course Sam picked this time to walk into the store. Damn so much for keeping my cool.

"What in the hell is going on?" Sam asked looking at me angrily as he helped Ruby up.

"She just hit me. I have no idea why. I was standing here and she just walked up and hit me," Ruby told him.

By the look on Sam's face I could tell that he actually believed the little twit so there was no use in arguing. Before he could say a word I looked decided I wasn't even going to try. I walked right past him and then said "excuse me," and went on my way looking for breakfast foods. It wasn't long before Sam was behind me and I could tell he wasn't going to leave me alone.

"You want to know what happened?" I asked already knowing the answer.

"You know I do," he answered.

"You wouldn't believe me," I told him grabbing a package of honey buns and a pack of gum.

"How do you know that if you don't tell me?" he asked.

"I just do," I told him walking up to the counter and paying.

"So you're not even going to try and tell me what happened?" he asked following me out to the Impala.

I opened up the driver's side door and hoped inside catching a glimpse of Ruby standing over by Sam's car. I was just about to shut the door when Sam stepped between the door and me.

"Just let it go Sam. There is no use in me explaining what happened when you will listen and take Ruby's word over mine," I told him.

"Katie I know you and I know that you usually don't get in a fight unless you have to. So why did you hit her? That's all I want to know," he told me.

It was my turn to decide what to say. Should I tell him the truth? Would he believe me if I did? Probably not. So I decided to tell him the semi truth. Something that he would believe and just enough to get him to leave me alone, "She said something about Dean that she shouldn't of said."

"What did she say?" he asked.

"She told me that I was just a plaything for him and that he would get tired of me after awhile. It just hurt to hear it and I guess I lost my cool. Look I'm sorry but she shouldn't have said it," I answered him.

He looked like he believed me and a little part of me hoped he did. If he did then maybe this might drive a little rift between him and Ruby and maybe that little rift would be all we needed to drive them apart. Without another word he moved and started walking towards his car. I wanted to stay and watch what happened but I knew that if I didn't get back soon Dean would be worried so I decided to go. With one last look towards Sam and Ruby I started the car and headed back towards the hotel.

When I reached the car I couldn't hold back my anger. "YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO TELL HER THAT!!" I yelled at Ruby.

"To tell her what?" Ruby questioned acting innocently.

"You know exactly what you said. I can't believe that you would do that. It's not Katie's fault, its Dean's. So next time you run into her I want you to be nice otherwise you might just tick me off more alright. You know that Katie was no I mean is by best friend," I rambled.

"Alright I get the picture. Can we just go?" Ruby asked.

It sounded like she was angry but I didn't give a damn. Katie was my best friend and if Ruby kept acting this way then she might run her off. I had already lost my brother, not a big loss. But losing Katie's friendship was something I didn't want to do. So if I made Ruby mad in the process of explaining to her what she could and couldn't do where Katie was concerned than that was how it was going to be. Getting into the car I looked at Ruby and could tell that she was fuming. Hoping that I had gotten my point across I started the car and then started down the street that would take us out of town.

I can't believe that he stuck up for her. I guess she is more of a threat than I thought. This means I am going to have to work a lot harder to make sure that Sam is with me a hundred percent. I can't have him leaving me and teaming up with Dean again. That could ruin my whole plan. Suddenly Katie's words came back to haunt me.

"I will destroy you. Sam will figure out what you are doing and he will leave you. Then Dean, Sam, and I will kill you."

She had no idea how much those words had hurt me. Sam has become more than a thing to get the job done. She has no idea how right she was either. If Sam finds out what I am doing than all hell is going to break loose. And this time it will cost me more than a sore cheek.

Where is she? She left like an hour ago and I know that it usually doesn't take her this long. There are so many bad ideas running through my head. Things that could have happened to her, things that could have gone wrong, but they all disappear when she walks through the door.

"What did you bring me for breakfast?" I ask trying to not show her how worried I was.

I can tell that something is wrong and when she takes the package of honey buns and throws it on the bed that confirms it. She looks like she is mad but sometimes with her you can't tell, so I decide to ask.

"What's wrong?"

She looks at me and I know that something is really bothering her. I get up off the bed and walk over to her pulling her into a hug. "What's wrong?" I ask again.

"I ran into Ruby," she tells me and I can tell instantly that things didn't go very well.

"What happened? Did she do something to you because if she did so help me I will. . ."

"We just got into an argument and it ended badly," she told me smiling a little.

"How bad are we talking about?" I asked amused.

"My fist connected with her face," she told me now with a full fledged smile on her face.

"Now I wish I would have gone with you," I told her laughing trying to imagine Ruby's shock at being punched.

Then Katie's face went back to being worried and I wondered if something else had happened. Before I can say anything she asked, "You're not going to leave me Dean? Are You? Cause I don't think that I can take that."

I look at her and she seems on the verge of tears. She is about to cry and that is something that she never does. This has to be because of something Ruby said to her. I want to punch her myself now. Maybe do a little more than that but I can tell that my silence is worrying Katie and I need to answer her.

"No, what in the world gave you that idea," I tell her pulling her back into my arms.

"Ruby said some things and got me thinking. I know that it is going to take a little bit but I want to be well I want to be with you again. I know we can't just start how we were but I was hoping that we could try," she rambled.

"Katie listen to me," I tell her pulling her back so that her face is level with mine. "I Love You. I have and will always Love You. The only reason I did that stupid thing so many years ago was because I thought I was protecting you. I was stupid and if I could do it over again I would," I explain to her.

"What about the other girls?" she asks taking me by surprise.

"What do you mean?" I ask.

"I know that you have slept with a lot of other girls and some you were pretty serious about. What about them?" she asked again.

"I slept with those girls because I couldn't have the one that I wanted if that makes any sense. There was only one girl that I actually became serious about but I finally realize the only reason was because she reminded me so much of you. I wanted you back so bad that anyone who reminded me a little bit of you would do for a little while. But none of them lasted because they weren't the real thing. They didn't make me feel the same way you did and I doubt they ever could," I explained now bending down and kissing her on the forehead.

She still looked a little bit confused. "So they didn't mean anything?" she asked me.

"I know this sounds really bad but no. None of them meant anything. They were just a way for me to be connected to you for a little bit. But after a little while I realized that they weren't you and that is all that I wanted," I told her.

She started to ask me another question but I stopped her by pulling her into a kiss. It took me a second to pull back. "I promise you I won't leave you. I know that you don't trust me like you did but believe me leaving you is the last thing I want to do. We said that we were going to take things slow and that is exactly what we are going to do. So don't worry so much and just enjoy yourself. I know you have a lot of questions but right now I think that we just need to take a step back and breath. Right now I am hungry so let's eat breakfast, pack our bags, and get out on the road. I know that Sammy and Ruby have already left and we have to catch up to them."

"I thought that we weren't going to follow Sam anymore?" she asked.

"I never said that. Anyways we have to follow Sam it is the only way that we can end this thing," I told her.

"Alright," she answered getting the package of honey buns off the bed and opening them up.

It didn't take twenty minutes and we were on the road. Headed to wherever Sam happened to lead us to. Katie has passed out in the passenger seat and all the worry is gone from her face. I hope that we can find a way to end this. For her sake and mine. Otherwise, I don't think I can live with the other alternative.

A/N- The song at the beginning of this chapter is Rob Thomas-Ever the Same.