A/N: OHMYGAWD! I have 100 reviews!! I luff you all! Srsly.
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR MYSPACE!! How many times do I have to say it?!
Chapter 10 -- Dangerous Game
You stand before me
Now we stare eye to eye
Before another second clicks away, one of us will die
You reach for your metal as I reach for mine
The sound of bullets flying through the air is followed by a cry
And there cryin'
What will we do, what will we say when it's the end of this game that we play
Will we crumble into the dust, my friend
Or will we start this game over again
The young man lies alone but fastened into the ground
The sound of fleeing feet and the cryin' eye will be his last sound
But do we gain from all this?
Now, was it worth a life? no
We throw all of our hopes away
And set our dreams aside
Now we're cryin'
What will we do, what will we say when it's the end of this game that we play
Will we crumble into the dust, my friend
or will we start this game over again
It's coming back to me
It's coming back to me
What will we do, what will we say when it's the end of this game that we play
Will we crumble into the dust, my friend
or will we start this game over again
BPOV
I hate Valentine's Day. It's a stupid Hallmark holiday and has no point. It's just a stupid excuse for guys to hit on girls and give them chocolate and candy in hope that for one day out of the year, they might actually say yes. I sigh and trudge up the stairs. Of course Valentine's Day wouldn't be so bad if a certain someone was here and not in Chicago and I could celebrate with him. So I admit it; I am in love with Edward! I am hopelessly, unconditionally, and irrevocably in love with him. How sad is that? Seriously. I've never even met the guy. I toss my book bag on my bed, sit in my computer chair, and turn on my computer. I stare off into space as it boots up, thinking of his smile, his hair, his eyes, his body, his velvety voice. Jeezey Chreezey! I log into my profile and connect to the internet. I log into my instant messenger and IM Edward.
:BellaNuit: Hey!
:EmoVampGuy08: Hey. How are you?
:BellaNuit: I'm okay. You?
:EmoVampGuy08: Same. How was your Valentine's Day?
:BellaNuit: I hated it. The guys around here are such pigs.
:EmoVampGuy08: How so?
:BellaNuit: These guys Mike and Tyler like me and are always asking me out. They just can't take 'no' for an answer. They kinda went all out and got me balloons and flowers and stuff and got offended when I said 'no.'
:EmoVampGuy08: That sucks. Guys can be pretty stubborn.
:BellaNuit: I can't disagree.
:EmoVampGuy08: So, are you anyone's valentine?
:BellaNuit: Haha. No.
"I don't want anybody else
When I think about you
I touch myself
I don't want anybody else
Oh no, oh no, oh no"
I grab my phone and smile as I pick it up. "Hello, there!"
"Hello" his velvety voice answers me. "So I was wondering… Since you don't have a valentine, I was wondering if you would be mine… my valentine." I can hear his nervousness in his voice and decide to tease him a little.
"Hmmmm…. I don't know… what would I get for it?" I tease.
He chuckles "Well, I was thinking, you know, the usual; I would do anything you want forever. Sound good?"
"Okay… And what do you want for it?"
"You would be my valentine, of course."
"Huh. Iunno. You don't want anything?"
"It doesn't matter to me."
"I'll make you a bracelet. It's the one thing I can do."
"Haha. Okay. Sounds good. But how would I get it?"
"I'll carry it around with me all the time and I'll give it to you if we ever meet."
"Sounds good."
There's a small noise at my window and I go look outside. To my surprise, Jacob is standing there. We haven't talked since we broke up. I open the window.
"What is it, Jake?" I call out.
"Can we talk?" He calls back.
"Sure, front door's unlocked."
He disappears around to the door and I remember that I'm on the phone with Edward.
"Hey, I'm going to go. Jacob wants to talk."
"Okay, well, I'll be online whenever you're done."
"Talk to you in a bit then."
"That we shall. Bye."
"Bye." I hang up the phone and prepare myself for this talk with Jake.
I can hear him coming up the stairs, so I take a seat in my computer chair. He comes in and sits on my bed, never making eye contact with me.
"So, what did you want to talk about?" I prompt.
"I just wanted to come and see you. See how you are. I haven't seen you and I was kind of getting lonely." He finally looks up at me and I can see the desperation on his face.
"Oh. I was starting to miss you too, Jake." I smile reassuringly at him.
"Really?" He answers hopefully.
"Yeah."
He breaks out into a glorious smile, but then it seems to falter. "Do you think we can go back to being just friends?"
"I think I can go back to being friends. Can you?"
He takes a deep shaky breath and looks down at his hands "I don't know."
I watch him, waiting for him to say something.
"Bella…." He starts. His voice gets really soft, "I've wanted to tell you this since we were 12…. I love you, Bella." He looks up at me, his eyes pleading. "I'm serious, Bella, I love you."
I stare at him, not quite sure how to respond. He looks back down at his hands. I don't know how long we sit there like that, but it seems like an eternity. I know I'm supposed to say something, but I don't know what.
"Bella, please say something." He whispers, still staring at his hands.
"I don't know what to say. I'm sorry, Jake. I love you, but as my best friend, not my boyfriend."
I can almost hear his heart breaking at my words. "Okay." He whispers. "I'm going to get going then. I just need some more time."
"Okay." I say at his back as he walks out the door. I stare at the door for who knows how long, hoping that this isn't the end.
EPOV
I start to worry when Bella hasn't been on in two hours. Wonder what Jacob had to say, hope it's okay between them. I get up off my chair and walk around my room. I can finally get up on my own and walk around comfortably. Generally, I still stay home though. I go in to school for a couple classes that were getting difficult missing like Calculus and Physics. The plans for spring break are finalized and Emmett and Jasper are just as excited as I am. I told them about meeting Bella and they're both hoping that her friends are hot. When they asked me about them, I just laughed and said that I didn't really know. I just knew that the next two months or so are going to be hell waiting to see her and not being able to tell her.
:BellaNuit: Hey, I'm back.
:EmoVampGuy08: How'd things go?
:BellaNuit: Apparently he loves me?
:EmoVampGuy08: Oh. Ok.
:BellaNuit: Yeah, he told me that he's loved me since we were like 12.
:EmoVampGuy08: Wow.
:BellaNuit: I told him I love him, but only as a friend. I'm worried that I really hurt him.
:EmoVampGuy08: Look, the thing is that he knew what he was getting himself into. Give him time and he'll probably be over it in a few months.
:BellaNuit: I know. I'm just worried about those few months before he gets over it.
:EmoVampGuy08: If he does anything, you are not responsible for it.
That's all she needs, him offing himself. She would definitely blame herself then.
:BellaNuit: I know.
After that, we chat for a couple more hours about random stuff, me still trying to get as much information out of her about spring break as I possibly can without sounding strange about it. I already knew that she is pretty oblivious, but I'm really starting to push the limits.
After Bella goes to bed, I sit back and let my mind wander. Eventually, sometime between thinking of Bella's smile and morning, I drift off to sleep.
I open my eyes to a bright warm sun, a nice contrast to the sand beneath me. I look to my side and there is Bella, as beautiful as ever. Her pale skin practically glows against the dark blue of her bikini and her dark brown hair is spread about her. From the looks of it, she is asleep. I lean on my side and bring my hand to her face, caressing her cheek softly. Her soft lips part in a slight smile. I softly kiss her; her forehead, her eyelids, her nose, her cheek, and finally her lips. I sit back and watch her as she wakes up. She stretches slightly then opens her eyes.
"Hello." She smiles at me, her voice still slightly fuzzy from her nap.
"Hello" is my brilliant answer.
She looks at me and pouts.
"What?" I ask, wonder what could possibly make her unhappy.
"You're too far away."
I chuckle softly and lie down next to her, wrapping my arms around her tiny waist. She snuggles close, placing her hand on my chest. She reaches up and kisses my lips; she tastes like the strawberries we were eating earlier. Slowly, her hand slips down my chest to my stomach, sending shivers down my spine. I wind my fingers into her hair and pull her closer, practically on top of me. Her fingers are still burning their trail down my stomach and start playing with the waste band of my swim shorts…
A/N: Song is "Dangerous Game" by 3 Doors Down and Bella's ringtone for Edward is "I Touch Myself" by The Divinyls. And y'all know this is rated "T" so I didn't finish his dream. You are imaginative people; you can finish it for yourselves. Sorry this chapter was short, the next few should be longer.
Btw, "Jeezey Chreezey" is a joke from Eddie Izzard. He's a standup comedian from England who wears women's clothing. He's pretty amazing. He was also in the show called The Riches and in random other movies, including Across the Universe playing the character Mr. Kite, ya know… the acid trip they're on with the circus people? Yeah, that's Eddie.
Anywho…
He does this sketch and it's God and Jesus talking to each other. And God goes "Jesus Christ!" and Jesus tells God to not say his name in vain so God goes "Jeezey Chreezey!"
And I'm currently watching Ever After because it's on E. I seriously have to watch this every time it's on. "You will marry Gabriella by the next full moon or I will strike at you anyway I can! I will simply deny you the crown and… live forever!" Sorry, that's the best line in the movie. And the second is "I shall go down in history as the man who opened a door!"
Mrs Masen aka Amanda: I knoooowwww. Arrgh. Chicago construction is sooo annoying. Something is always under construction.
Karren1109: See, I don't mind Jake sometimes, and because it was Bella, she wouldn't want to hurt him.
And She Loves Mr Jasper Hale: Thanks!
Kyla Cullen: Sorry. 'kayla' is just more common and spell check likes it… Lol. I really am sorry. And I already have all my songs chosen. But thanks for the idea. : )
Disgruntled Female: Hahaha. It happens to me all the time and it's soooo annoying. I tell them I don't talk to people I don't already know and then they leave me alone.
Joykohl: Stalkers AREN'T GOOD! seriously. Yay Christmas? Time will fast forward, don't worry. : ) Spring break is only a chapter or two away and then it will last a few chapters.
Aubrinna: Haha. I didn't hear anything. : ) and I try to update every other day. Key word: try. This week that's just not happening.