Prompt#10

First Kiss

I still haven't had my first kiss….and I'm already 19. I know crazy to hear coming from a male, but…it's true unfortunately. I've never been an expert in the dating department, maybe because I was always busy into my studies and the only girl best friend I had moved to a boarding school, that I never had a girlfriend.

I guess I just need to take charge and find someone…anyone.

Of course it's never that easy and I end up falling for someone unattainable. This person is already taken, like a committed taken, they are engaged I would know because this girl named Vanille who loves gossip told me when I was staring at them.

Oh yeah…Vanille. I would like her and maybe consider her to be someone I'd like to date, but she's lesbian. That's nice to know three days after I try to kiss her, so no first kiss there.

Then I fell for this person. A guy named Snow Villiers.

Yeah a guy…I mean it's not that bad. Except for that fact he's popular, attractive looking, a lot of girls and some guys have crushes on him, and well he's engaged.

I've been the smarter one and just stayed hidden keeping my profound crush secret. Even Vanille doesn't know.

I just sometimes wish and wonder if I could have my first kiss with him. The feeling of his lips on mine as he breathes in my scent and just allows me to melt within his strong looking arms and…

I sighed out loud closing my book. I wasn't going to get anywhere if I kept thinking of Snow. I leaned back in my chair and looked around the library. Snow worked here, well mostly helped out, around Eden University and he's always been popular.

He probably was like that in high school, but of course he settled for Serah Farron.

Vanille told me Serah's background history. The bubbly girl knew Serah back in high school. Serah is just the perfect sugar-coated girl you could meet. She was calm, pretty, nice, fair, humorous, and ambitious…

I stood up and picked up the book I previously was into and walked to the bookshelf to place it back where it belonged. I held it against my chest as I stopped midway down the aisle.

Snow stood there placing books back into their respective area and I clenched my nails on the book. I've never spoken to him nor be so close to him or anything that dealt with his being except just ogle at him from a distance.

I chewed on the inside of my gum and decided to just stand my ground and calmly put the book away before hurrying off.

Simple as that.

I took a step forward and checked the book's number and glanced at the number listing on the book shelf. I mentally cursed as I realized the spot where my book is supposed to go was right next to Snow.

I took a deep breath and ignored Snow putting the book back. Okay so maybe I couldn't ignore him. I briefly glanced at him and saw the headphones in his ears and his content smile as he placed each book away.

I didn't know I was staring until he look at me back and pulled out an earphone.

"Do you need a book?" He asked and I lost my voice all of a sudden.

He was talking to me.

Ugh damn it Hope you love struck fool, say something.

"Uh…I- umm…N-No." I gave a slightly shake of the head and turned around.

Snow shrugged and placed back the earphone when I had turned to look at him and then I decided to just leave the library.

I shivered as the wind picked up and I look up at the night sky. Classes were longer than usual on weekends, so I was heading back to the dormitory. I heard the slight giggle to the side of me and I turned to the source of the noise.

There stood Serah and Snow against the tree. Snow was leaning over Serah's frame as he grinned at her and she smiled back. I bit my lip and looked away once they went in for a romantic kiss.

I wasn't going to have my first kiss with Snow, so why did I still crush on him?

I needed to find someone soon.

I continued on my way hoping.

I was back at library as usual since I have no life…Well I just have nothing to do. I sat against the bookshelf with a pile of books around me in a circle as I flipped through them absentmindedly.

I yawned shortly and tossed it to the side.

"Well ow." A voice stated and my eyes widen as I turned to the side to see Snow rubbing his side of the head and bent down to pick up the thrown book.

I stood up and apologized.

"Uh sorry, I was kinda being careless there." I muttered looking down.

Snow passed the book to me.

"It's fine, oh wow seems you are having quite the study session." He commented looking over my circle of books.

I glanced back and smiled a bit.

"Yeah…just killing time." I gently placed the book down and sat down. Snow placed his hands on his hips and stared at me.

"Where have I seen you before?" He asked.

I organized the books into stacks of three and avoid his gaze.

"Uh I don't know…here I guess? I'm always here…" I replied. I was quite surprised I wasn't stuttering that much or being so nervous, although I'm just about to melt and lose my voice soon or do something stupid.

Snow nodded.

"I guess so. Hey can I ask something? I need a bit of advice and you seem like a smart guy. Oh I'm Snow by the way." He announced and sat down next to me.

I stiffened a bit at the close proximity but reassured myself to keep cool.

"Um sure…" I responded softly.

He leaned back and stared up at the bookshelf.

"I have a fiancé, Serah's her name, and well sometimes I feel as if she doesn't like me anymore. There's this new guy and he's just…mysterious and charming and I'm not one to get jealous or anything, but…I want to show her that I'm so much better than that dude." He explained.

I frowned slightly and stared down.

"I- uh…Well I could say talk it out with her or…take her out on a very special date, but…it's hard to give advice when I've never dated anyone." I whispered.

Snow glanced at me.

"For real? You've never dated anyone?"

I shook my head.

"I haven't even…" I stopped and sighed, "I haven't even had my first kiss…and that's stupid and embarrassing." I muttered.

"No it's not." Snow said soon after looking at me. I held my gaze feeling completely pulled in.

"It's not stupid or embarrassing, teenagers these days make it seem like a race. They have their first girlfriend-boyfriend, first kiss, and first time, at such a young age. Don't worry Hope; you'll get your time soon." He said with a smile.

My heart raced.

"How do you know my name?" I murmured.

He grinned.

"It says 'Hope' on your glove." He pointed down.

I looked down at my left had where my name was embroidered into the glove. Vanille's gift for Christmas.

"Oh right…" I laughed a bit. I smiled looking down.

"Thank you." I whispered.

Snow leaned over and kissed my cheek.

My face flushed with heat and I touched my cheek looking over at him. He had on a big smile.

"Wha-?"

He stood up.

"Your first kiss doesn't have to be on the lips ya know. Of course that'd be much more meaningful, but a first kiss is a first kiss. A cheek counts too." He explained and sighed stretching his arms.

I bit my lip and glanced to the side.

"I see…uh well I'm glad it was you." I froze and cursed inside. I stood up and reached down to pick up the many books and put them away with shaking hands.

Snow stood there watching me before coming behind me and grabbing some of the books.

"I'll help you." He stated and I viewed at the corner of my as he placed them away and then turned to me with a smile.

I averted my eyes and took out my cell. I closed it and nodded.

"Uh…well nice to talk to you…Snow. Um see you later I guess." I turned around walked away.

"Hold on." Snow cut in grabbing my wrist.

I looked into his eyes.

He searched mine before muttering.

"You need something more meaningful and it can be our secret okay?"

I was about to ask what when I felt his lips touch mine.

My heart thumped against my chest wildly and my eyes were filled with surprise.

Snow Villiers is kissing me… In the library where someone could just walk by and see.

I needed to savor this moment before it ended for good. I clenched his arm and kissed back closing my eyes. I felt him push me against the bookshelf as he explored my mouth even more.

It was supposed to be a kiss. Just a sweet simple kiss, but it became heated. He let go of my wrist and pinned both arms against the book shelf as I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him down further for a deeper kiss.

I let out a sigh of breath as he moved back his lips lingering on my gently and then he opened his eyes looking at me.

I stared at him out of breath knowing full well how flushed I looked. How in love I am…

He rested his forehead against mine.

"Now that's true first kiss huh?" He chuckled.

I smiled nodding and gulping. This didn't seem real, but it is.

He brushed my hair to side and rubbed his thumb against my lips and swooped down for a second short kiss and finally moved back.

"I think we better cool down before something inevitable occurs." He joked lightly and I touched my lips looking down.

"Yeah." I looked back at him as he sighed running a hand through his hair and smiled sadly at me.

"You are a great person Hope and soon you'll-

"Find that special someone…yeah I know." I smiled at him and moved away from the book shelf.

"I'll see you later Snow…thank you so much." I whispered and walked away.

I didn't turn to see if he was looking at me leave. I didn't turn because I didn't want to hurt myself any further.

I got what I wanted.

My first kiss with Snow.

I smiled to myself and touched my lips.

I may never have him as a boyfriend, but we shared something special and I'll treasure that moment we had.