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Summary: Jacob writes a letter to Renesmee

A.N. I know I haven't updated this in forever so here it is.

I would like to dedicate this chapter to all my reviewers, Especailly BraidedTissues for reviewing Chapter 9.

My goal is to get to 15 reviews for this chapter. That is only four reviews and it is definently possible.

Jake=Jacob. Just in case you get confused.

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I saw a letter on my bed. I opened it. It was from Jacob. I felt somewhat sick, like I was about to throw up. I did not want to read this, but I felt compelled to read it. It said:

Dear Renesmee,

When I read your letter I was confused, hurt, and I felt like crap.

I was kind of pissed at what you had said to me.

I thought I was reading a bunch of lies.

But then I realized that when you writing this you were probably pissed. Hell, I wouldn't blame you if you still were.

It was only till today that I realized that you were telling me the truth.

Renesmee, I realize that I was a jerk.

You were my true love, but I didn't respect that.

I ended it, all the trust that we had built up, I let it all fall.

I let my guard down.

Instead of loving you, I hated you.

You stopped me from loving Addie.

I denied you my love and gave it to someone else.

You were everything to me, and I was everything to you.

But then I screwed it all up.

I fell in love with her, when I should have loved you.

Renesmee, I know I am asking too much here, but I will ask it "Can you forgive me?"

It's all right if you say no. Because I know I hurt you.

But I want you to know that I made a mistake and I want you back.

I want things back to the way they used to be.

I want you and me to laugh like we used to.

I want us to smile at the little things in life.

I want us back.

I want the times we shared back.

I want you back.

Renesmee, Forgive me.

I was a jerk to you. I was nothing but mean to you.

Nessie, I just realized that I was wrong in loving Addie.

She didn't love me, she deceived me.

Renesmee, I realize that I made a mistake.

I should have stayed true to you.

I was jerk and I'm sorry.

Renesmee, Please forgive me.

Forever in your gratitude,

Jacob Black

P.S. Do you really think my ass is big?

I cried throughout reading the whole letter. I wanted to forgive him with my whole heart. I wanted to love him.

I realized that he made a mistake, and was asking for my forgiveness. I loved him.

And then when I read the last line I laughed through my tears.

I picked up the phone to call him, but I needed to talk to him face to face. So I put the phone down and ran to his house.

I knocked on the door.

Billy answered "Hi Renesmee, Jake isn't feeling to good. So, I can tell him you came."

I ran past him. I didn't care if he didn't want me to see Jake. I had to see him. I had to talk to him.

Billy said "Wait, Renesmee. The truth is he's feeling horrible. Renesmee, I think he's dying."

It took a second for his words to sink in. Jake was dying. Tomorrow I may not be able to see his smiling face. He might be dead by then. My Jacob might die.

"Billy, please I need to see him."

He smiled and said "Alright."

When I saw his face I nearly screamed. He was even worse than I saw him about half an hour ago. What happened?

I whispered "Jake?"

"Ness, is that you?"

"Yes, yes, it's me! Jake I love you. Please don't die. You can't."

I was crying.

A week ago, I hated him. Now I loved him, such weird emotions of the teenage soul.

"Don't worry, Ness. I won't die."

We both knew that was a lie. He tried to comfort me with his words. But somehow I found little, if any comfort in his eyes. We both knew that he was dying and there was nothing I could do to stop it. There was nothing that anyone could do to stop it, not even Carlisle could save him.

Then he closed his eyes. Shit! Shit! Oh… no. he was dead.

"Jake, please don't die on me."

I was sobbing now.

"Don't leave me… Don't leave me… Don't leave me." I whispered.

Then he opened his eyes. He was alive. I began to make a little shaky smile. He was alive. Yes!

Then I realized that maybe Jacob could still alive. He smiled at me, and I saw the light in his eyes. It was his signature smile. He had this light in his eyes. He always had it, whenever he looked at me. Well before he met Addie. Ever since he met Addie, the light faded. But now the light was here. He was with me, and nothing could ever separate us, not even death.

Somehow he got the strength to get up. He smiled at me, and we walked outside.

"Ness… I am so sorry for everything. Can you ever…"

"Shh… Yes. Yes. I forgive you."

We sealed the deal, with a kiss. It was the best kiss I had ever had.

We pulled away, and I saw that more color had come to his face.

He would live.

Then I saw a wolf running throw the woods. A minute later, I saw Addie.

I wanted to rip her guts out. Drain her completely. I wanted to kill her. I couldn't help let a growl escape from my throat.

She laughed.

"Oh… look little Baby Nessie, wants to be tough."

I wanted to tear her limb from limb. I wanted to kill her right there. "Come here, Addie, and I'll show you what I got."

"Wow… Nessie. I guess you didn't know that I could tear you limb from limb blindfolded."

That does it. She was in for it now. "Really? I take that as a challenge. You're on."

"Sorry Ness. Now is not the time for the fight. But I look forward for the time when it is."

She turned around to Jake "Hey Jake. Love you wanna catch a movie and forget about baby Ness. We can hire a baby sitter if you want."

Now Jake was furious. "I will never ever do anything with you again you little bitch."

"You know you're dying. You will die. I have left you weak, just another easier kill. I fear that Renesmee might actually put up a fight."

"Bye Addie."

"Bye Jake, Bye Loch Ness Monster."

She ran into the woods. Jacob and I both knew that she would be back, with more power. She wanted a war.

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