[I don't own Death note or any of it's character...or something like that...]
****Authors note: I've been really busy recently. Okay, no. Let me not lie, I've just been out partying all night and haven't updated. So I'm positing two updates right now. Agent 003 has also been updated. Anyway, I'll try to update more and party less...who am I kidding. I might be able to do both. So, please review and the next chapter will come quickly before I pick up on my partying ways again.

Helpless time

Mello reclined on the bed tired of staring at the monitors for so long. The laptop with the Gothic N had been quiet for hours and now more than ever he was happy about the complementary wine that came with the suite. He circled it slowly in it's glass before downing even more, this had to be his third...fourth...fifth? He wasn't sure anymore he just knew that the bottle wasn't anywhere near empty and so he wasn't anywhere near done. He deserved it, finding out he was being tracked by Near, his boyfriend was a cheating whore and the man he suspected was Kira was playing vacation with the group. Life sure did have a way of kicking him in the ass any chance that it got that was for sure. He'd have the right mind to take a good bullet to the head right now but if he did that he couldn't catch Kira and he certainly couldn't win his Matty back from that...that...he was too drunk to come up with insults. Great.

Somehow he wondered if his Matt would answer the phone if he bothered calling but he'd be better off just texting the man in his current state. Of course that didn't occur to him as he scrolled though the nameless numbers until he found the one he knew better than any others and hit dial. It rang for several seconds before Matt answered.

"Yeah?" His voice was as nonchalant as ever and Mello couldn't help the feeling that rose in him once he heard that beautiful voice. The same feeling that rose through him when he saw the man or even thought of him. That pitter patter of love, it had grown from the friendship they built all those years ago and blossomed years later but now things had come to this. "Mell, are you there?" He questioned softly.

The blond pressed the feeling away as best as he could before replying, "Yeah, where are you?" He didn't sound angry just tired but with the way Matt acted recently he might have thought it to be anger. "I went out and you were gone when I came back." He somewhat wondered if the red head would out right lie to him if he questioned him but he was already growing annoyed, "Well?"

Matt was silent for a few seconds as Mello took a chance to glance at the monitors, the red head was laying curled up in the sheets the dark haired man no where in plain sight so he guessed he was in the bathroom doing something. "I left a note." He replied blankly shifting a bit in bed, "And I'm not telling you where I am. You said I can have a vacation."

"From me." Mello finished. "But I also said if there was something you were keeping from me there would be hell to pay. Anything you want to tell me Matty? Anything at all, I won't be mad." He was giving the other chances left and right to admit his infidelity but he either wasn't picking up on them or was just ignoring them all together. As was the way of Matsuda's Matt and not Mello's.

Matt grunted, "Like what?" He questioned softly watching Matsuda come out of the bathroom with a questioning look on his face. "Mell your talking crazy. I went on vacation, there's nothing to tell." He was lying through his teeth and it hurt. He wasn't sure why but it hurt more than anything else ever had.

Mello sighed, "I see." He wasn't going to confront the other right now, somehow it would make him feel like a stalker. Instead his gaze traveled towards the lap top that was blinking. Near must have wanted him for something, great. The white haired boy could wait, "Well I hope you're having fun. I'll see you when you get home. Love you."

Matt blinked, "Yeah...Love you too." He said slowly looking toward Matsuda who had turned his back. "Bye Mell." He sighed gently hanging the phone up and sliding it across the bed curling into a ball. "Bye Mell."

Mello leaned forward fingering the button to answer Nears call before pressing it slowly. "What is it? I'm not in the mood." He hissed reading over the wine bottle several times. he had guessed it came with every room but this was imported, Near had sent this for him. How nice, trying to make peace with the enemy, that certainly was going to fall on deaf ears today. "Well? You heard me."

The computer was silent for a few more minutes, "I was surprised you took the room." He started as Mello opened his mouth to respond but the boy continued, "And then I noticed Matt traveling with the party and believed it was all plan. Judging by your actions Matt is here against your will and judging by his actions you two are not longer, what do people call it? An item."

He laid his head down continuously hitting it against the table, "Near. I. Don't. Need. Your. Judging." He hissed. "Go. Die. Somewhere."

Near again was silent, "I wasn't judging. I was just telling you what I've seen since they have arrived. Light Yagami and Misa Armani are also traveling with the dark haired man and your ex." Mello hissed at the word, "I'm not trying to upset you. If anything I-"

"I don't need your sympathy Near." He snapped cutting the communication. "I know what I've seen."

Matt stared at the wall unblinkingly ignoring Matsuada's words of comfort. Mello had said he loved him, he'd popped the words out but somewhere deep inside him he knew that the other had felt it. He knew that he had felt it because Mello still loved him. All the beatings and slapping and kicking and stomping in the world wouldn't change that. Nothing could change that. Mello was still in love with him and with all his being he believed he was still in love with him.

"Matt come on." Matsuda petted him gently running his fingers over the boys gently, "How about we go out for a night on the strip. Come on there's bound to be something out there to cheer you up beautiful." He smiled hopefully and Matt couldn't help but reciprocate it. "Come on Just Matt, get dressed as we'll take a look around. Even go see a bit of the beach."

He nodded pulling himself up and watching the other man, "That sounds nice." He smiled as the other wrapped his arms around him, "He said he loved me."

"They always say that."

Matt nodded, "He sounded like he meant it. I think I still love him to but I don't think I feel obligated." He nuzzled the other gently.

Matsuda was silent for a few minutes, "If that's how you feel. We can always remain friends." He seemed pained as he pulled away but his face quickly recovered. "Get dressed and meet me down in the lobby. Okay?" He kissed the other gently on the lips before giving Matt some private time.

"Mello's not a they...he's in his own league." He said to himself smiling gently. "Mell."

The blond didn't bother pulling his hood up as he followed Matsuda. He didn't need to he already held the air of intimidation. This was the man that had put his hands on his Matty. The man that had touched all over his lover. His angel. His darling. Oh, if he had to get rid of him, that would be no problem.

****Authors note: Mell is following Matsuda. And there will indeed be a confrontation in the next chapter without Matt to stop anything. Review and I'll post quickly. Agent 003 has also been updated. Still thinking if I want to kill anyone off, I'm not sure. Anyway sorry if this chapter was short, I'm tired the next will be better. I'll make up for not updating. Please Review!