Chapter 10
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He slammed the book shut and tossed it behind him. Sesshomaru sat at the desk dropping his head into his hands. He had combed over two dozen books and not a single thing to be found about what was happening to him. Surely there had to be something written somewhere about his experience. Is he crazy? An abnormal demon perhaps? Maybe this qualified as one of the things that demons didn't talk about. He had a sinking feeling in his stomach that he wouldn't like the answer if he did find it.
Standing from the book filled desk and floor around him he stalked towards his room not bothering to clean up his mess. He was too focused on his problem to think further about much else. Looking at the alarm clock next to his bed as he sat down on it, it was seven a.m. Sesshomaru decided that he was in no state of mind to go to class today and see the woman who had embedded herself in his mind. He NEVER missed a class, he could not believe that this priestess had caused this to come to pass. Leaning back he placed his hands behind his head and closed his eyes hoping to get some rest.
She had gotten up this morning feeling a little odd. She had never had an encounter with Sesshomaru as she did last night. At first she thought it was going to be awkward because of what happened Saturday. She noticed that he seemed more tense than normal but she knew he wouldn't say anything about it. He was beyond adorable as he was sleeping in that chair. It was a bit unnerving to her that he would fall asleep in her presence. She had wanted to let him sleep but he had started to groan and whimper which concerned her and caused her to wake him up. Kagome had thought he was possibly having a nightmare.
As soon as his eyes had opened it was just straight confusion and his body demeanor was as if he did not want to be there anymore. She could not get over the feeling that this had some connection to what happened Saturday. Sitting down on her bed as she was getting ready for the day, she pulled out a phone number she had received from a guy that came to Kaede's shop on Sunday. He was cute and seemed nice enough; he had asked her out for a date Friday. She hadn't thought about him until this moment, maybe she needed to just get her mind off of any weird physical reactions to these two demons that have wiggled their way into her mind.
Grabbing her phone she texted the number belonging to this Hojo. She had always heard that in order to move on from someone, you had to be with someone else. Shaking her head she waited for him to respond. It would be a nice change to the demons that she seemed to be constantly in contact with.
It was now 8:57 p.m. and Kagome couldn't help but glance at the front door. She hadn't felt the pull of Sesshomaru's aura yet and he hadn't contacted her in any way today. It was an odd day indeed because he didn't show up to class. As far as Kagome knew he NEVER missed a day at school and it was just odd.
Standing up from her spot in the kitchen she finally felt his presence on the other side of the door. Waiting for his normal knock she opened the door forgetting to smile this time. Leaving a look of concern on her face, he shook her off acting as if he hadn't seen it and walked into the kitchen.
Getting back into routine, she began pouring the tea, when she asked him what was finally bugging him.
"Is everything alright with you Sesshomaru?"
"Hn, it is none of your concern," He replied coldly.
This answer to her question had a sense of finality to it, telling her to drop the conversation. Sighing she handed him his tea and opened the door to the backyard to set up. She couldn't help but be discouraged as he was giving her the cold shoulder, she didn't know what she had done to get this reaction from him.
He was looking at her from out of the corner of his eyes and noticed the frown that had settled on the priestess's face. She was giving off the vibe of being upset and it made him cringe. He didn't want to make her feel this way; he just had no idea how to go about getting back to normal around her.
They spent the rest of their night in silence both lost in their own thoughts as they thought about each other. The overwhelming silence tonight between them made her try to think about her upcoming date on Friday instead. His thoughts drifted from Kagome to his father. This amount of emotion he was feeling towards the woman, made him come to grip with the reality of having to actually talk to his father about his problem. Over the course of the night before they parted ways they had made decisions about the things on their minds.
He had arrived home feeling worse than he had in the last few days. It was now Friday afternoon and he decided he needed to seek answers from his father. This turmoil seemed to be tearing through his soul. All of this spiritual emotion over a female? A human female? Seriously? He could not understand what was going on. It wasn't something he wanted to deal with for long if it was avoidable.
Walking through the house to where his father's study was, he knew he would be there since he didn't sense Izayoi's presence in the house. Stopping in front of the door he let out a sigh, how did it come to this?
Inutaisho heard a knock on his study door and both brow's had risen at this. He had felt Sesshomaru hesitate on the other side of the door and had figured that finally whatever was bugging his oldest he had, had enough of. For the past few weeks he had observed a difference in his son and he just couldn't pin what it was.
Replying as he turned his attention back to his paperwork in front of him. He heard his son enter and sit down in the chair opposite of him.
"Speak," He said, still sifting through the pages he was needing to read in order to make a decision about investing in this smaller company that had come to him with a proposal earlier in the week, he waited for Sesshomaru to speak.
Seeing his father focused on the paperwork and ears perked to what he had to say, helped calm his nerves somewhat.
"I find myself in need of some information father," He replied looking his superior in his face waiting for him to make eye contact.
"And what my dear son, can I help you with today?"
He hesitated slightly before continuing on, "I have been having hallucinations lately..." he trailed off watching his fathers eyes pause and raise up to peer at him.
"Hallucinations?" he questioned raising his eyebrow at his son, he would need him to be more specific to get an idea of if he was crazy or if the boy's beast was trying to communicate with him about something. "I am afraid I am going to need more to go off of, do explain."
Breaking eye contact with his father briefly he picked his brain trying to figure out the best way to explain this without giving it away completely. "Lately when I close my eyes, the only way I can describe it is that I am having realistic dreams."
"Realistic dreams? As in they could happen in real life or are you experiencing physical interactions in these dreams?" he asked dropping all paper work and sitting back in his chair.
He had an idea of what was possibly happening, but as far as he was aware Sesshomaru hadn't had been around any female's to invoke this kind of reaction from him. Where did he meet a woman? And who was she to get his beast to speak up for? When this happened to demon's it didn't necessarily mean that it was their for sure intended. That came later after said woman accepted and what feelings came from the demons soul and instincts as they got physical.
"It is the latter part, I am experiencing physical touches in them." He replied, he could immediately feel an excitement from his old man.
He smiled at his son as he clapped his friends in front of him. "Who is she?" he questioned looking into his eyes.
Sesshomaru raised a brow at this response. How did he know it was involving a woman? What was going on with him that his father was so elated? He wished he would just tell him what he needed to know.
Seeing his son's confusion he continued to smile as he began to think of the best way to tell his son that he had found his mate.
"These hallucinations are actually dreams and your beast's way of communicating with you." He said getting some pleasure out of his sons bewilderment. "Basically you may have met your mate."
His jaw dropped, Sesshomaru's jaw actually dropped in shock. His mate? The priestess is his mate? This has to be a mistake there is absolutely no way! He would not accept this.
Smirking now at his son's reaction the waves he was sending with his aura was denial. Chuckling slightly he shook his head trying to contain himself.
"Yes mate, and it is only a possibility that she is the one, it's not guaranteed. When you get to the point where you combine your soul's with each other, only THEN will you know whether she is your mate or not."
Scoffing slightly, "I will be doing no such thing with her."
"I am afraid dear boy that only she can decide whether she wants you or not. This thing comes in phases, the dreams will start happening when you are awake if you ignore it. When you come around her you wont be able to hold yourself back, if she decides that she doesn't want you then you will have the beast stop bugging you."
Gaining a bit of hope in his heart, he knew there was NO way that Kagome would want him. This knowledge made him feel a lot better.
"So if she turns me down then I will be back to normal?" He questioned making sure he understood this correctly.
"Her soul has to be a hundred percent sure she doesn't want you but yes if she really truly doesn't it will go away." he said doubting that any sane woman would turn down his son. Now he just had to find out who this mysterious future daughter-in-law was.
"If she gives me the word no then that should suffice?"
"She can tell you no and her soul means yes, so words are nothing when it comes to this, you my stubborn child can not go off of word alone, she has to feel it in her soul that its a no." he said trying to get his son to see that he would just need to give in and accept reality. "Take your mother for example, my beast gave me dreams that I should be with her, but when it came to the actual moment of mating, we could not form the actual mating bond due to us not being wholeheartedly involved in it. This is why Izayoi is my actual mate and your mother and I could never be."
A sinking feeling settled its way in his stomach. "And there is no way to stop this or choose someone else..." he trailed off, having a hint of what was to come.
"None, if you deny yourself it will only get worse. If you try to get with someone else your beast will punish you." He stated turning back to his paperwork, he had given his son the information he needed. It was obvious the boy needed some time to himself to reflect. "Now if that is all, I must get back to work."
Nodding at his father even if he couldn't see it, Sesshomaru took his leave. He felt overwhelmed with the information he was just given. How did it come to this? Why would his beast choose the half-breeds ex girlfriend? Why did she have to be human? This was the worst. His father had stated it would just get worse; he had to see this woman practically everyday. For once he had no clue what to do or how to approach this. Dreading seeing her tonight, he found that he had made it back to his room where he sat and reflected on how to do this.
Authors Note: Keep an eye out this weekend. I live in midwest and we are expecting an ice storm, soooooo when stuck inside write :) More to come soon.