It was later that day, I was in Kaoru's and my usual meeting place, writing down ideas to do for the date. Kaoru was laying down next to me, tossing a baseball up and down.

"How about you make her pizza." Kaoru suggested "A lot of people like pizza."

"Yah, but I don't think pizza is considered a date food." I said while tapping my pencil on the notebook.

"I guess you're right about that." Kaoru grew silent for a couple seconds, then sighed. "Do you remember me telling you that I kissed one of our former guests with the long brown hair and bows in her hair?"

"Yah." I said, not looking up from my notebook.

"Well…" Kaoru said as he continued to toss the ball. "...I lied…"

I looked at him with a surprised expression. "So, that means you haven't had your first kiss?"

Kaoru nodded, avoiding my gaze as he looked at the ball.

I gave him a soft smile. "Hey." I said, drawing his attention. "You're not missing much."

Kaoru rolled his eyes. "Don't try and make me feel better, I know you enjoy it when you kiss Haruhi."

"Well, that's different."

"How so?"

"Because I actually like Haruhi, that's why. My first kiss wasn't anything special, it was actually kinda gross. The girl licked me as if she were a golden retriever." I shuddered at the memory. "That's the second thing I regret in life."

"What's the first?"

I looked at him with a frown. "You know what it is." I said as I began doodling in my notebook. "Sneaking out to go to that stupid graduation party."

"Oh yah." Kaoru said sadly. "I guess sometimes I forget because it feels like I'm still here."

I didn't say anything and just continued to doodle, I then heard a bing come from my phone. I took out my phone and saw that it was time to head back to my house. I sighed sadly and Kaoru looked over at me. He smiled at me sadly and placed a hand on my knee, I looked down at him.

"Go have fun on your date." He said. "Then when you come back you can tell me all about it."

I smiled back at him and nodded. "I will, I'll see you tomorrow."

Kaoru gave me a nod and I got up and left. As Kaoru was watching me walk away, his smile fell and was replaced with a sad expression. He sighed then looked up, watching the blue sky begin to turn orange.

"I should be happy, Hikaru's finally going on a date with Haruhi, he's been wanting this for so long." He said, making his frown grow. "But why don't I feel happy for him..?"

"So how was your day in Karuizawa?" I asked Haruhi as I poured her a glass of wine.

"It was good." She said. "But I don't really remember some of it."

I looked at her in concern. "Is it because of the gash on you head?"

"Maybe." She said as she took a sip of her wine. "But I think it's just because I was just so tired that I don't remember it."

I chuckled a bit. "Must've over worked yourself, huh?"

She smiled. "Yah, I guess so."

I took a sip of my own drink then cleared my throat. "So are you done eating?"

She nodded and I took both of our empty plates to the kitchen. Haruhi stood up and walked over to my desk. She looked through a couple papers I had, and noticed that some were journal entries from a while ago.

She picked one of the entries up, that was dated four years ago, but before she could read past the date, she heard the sink in the kitchen turn off. She put the entry back down and I exited the kitchen. When she faced me, she noticed in the corner of the room there was a pile of cardboard boxes.

She cleared her throat as she pointed to the boxes with the hand she held her wine glass with. "Are you moving."

I looked over at the boxes. "No." I said. "That's all Kaoru's stuff."

"Oh." Haruhi said. "Even though she died when I was little, I still can't get rid of some of my mother's stuff either."

We just stood there silently for a bit, I then pointed to a box and began walking towards it.

"This one over here contains all the pictures and souvenirs we got from the host club."

"Really?"

"Yep."

"Why would you keep all of that from the host club?"

"Because." I said. "You guys were the first group of friends I ever had. And also…" I looked back at the boxes and ran my hand on it. "Kaoru was always enjoying his time with the host club. That's why I can't throw any of them away."

"I understand what you mean." She said. "After Kaoru died, I couldn't look at a picture of the host club without crying, but they were still great memories we all shared together. So I just put them all in a box, so when time passed, I could look at them again."

I took a sip of my drink, not taking my eyes off of Haruhi. I gave her a soft smile.

"You look beautiful tonight." I said.

She smiled back at me. "Thank you."

She was wearing a white dress that ended at her knees, it was nothing special, but it made her look beautiful. Her hair was down like usual, and she had white flats on.

She pointed to one of the pictures that were pinned to my wall. "Can I have this photo someday?"

I walked over to her, our faces barely touching as I took the photo down and handed it to her. "It's yours now."

She smiled and she took the photo from me. "Thanks."

She looked at the photo, it was the photo we took when we all just got to Boston.

"So." She said as she walked past me. "Even though we've been hanging out a lot, we still haven't fully caught up yet."

As she walking to her bag to put the photo away, I noticed that she was walking weird.

"You're limping." I said.

"Yah, I know. I think I might've pulled something, but I'm fine."

I nodded and walked up behind her as she was putting the picture away. I wrapped my arms around her waist and placed my chin on her shoulder.

"So you want to catch up?" I asked.

"Uh yah." She said. "When we were at the, uh, at the beach house. We, uh...we didn't really…"

I moved her hair out of the way and began kissing her neck, making her stumble over her words.

"We did...didn't really get to...to catch up…"

She then turned around to face me and I kissed her. She fell softly against the wall as we deepened the kiss. Then after a couple seconds, she separated from me and lightly grabbed my face.

"Hikaru." She whispered.

"What?"

"What are we doing?"

I gave her a slight smirk. "I don't know."

She moved her hands from my face to my chest, our faces still only centimeters apart. "Hikaru, I leave in a week."

"I know." I said.

She pushed me away lightly. "I think I should go."

"Can I walk you?"

"No." She said.

"Come on, let me walk you."

"No Hikaru, I…The timing, and…" She sighed, shaking her head. "I really just can't right now. I'm sorry."

I gave her a small nod and she walked away from me, leaving my house. I sighed and leaned on the table, looking down at the floor. Then I suddenly heard knocking. I looked up to where it was coming from, then I made my way to the door. I opened it, but nobody was there.

I grabbed the candle that was on the table then exited my house, closing the door behind me.

"Haruhi?" I looked around, but I didn't see her. "Haruhi?!"

"Come find me." I heard her say in the distance.

I smiled and began running towards the direction her voice was coming from. When I made it to the graves, I began to walk again, using the light of the candle to help me find her in the fog. Then suddenly, I saw a figure run past a couple headstones.

I followed the direction of where the figure went, scanning the area to see where it was.

I then felt something touch my back. I turned around to see what it was and was greeted by Haruhi. She kissed me, which I returned the favor and kissed her back. After about a minute of kissing, we separated.

I gave her a playful smirk. "I found you."

Haruhi chuckled, then blew out the candle and ran away laughing. My smile grew and I began following her down the trail. As I reached the end of it, I saw her just standing there, looking at me as she played with her hair.

I slowly walked up to her and placed my forehead up against hers. She then grabbed my flannel and slowly began unbuttoning it until it slid off. Then she grabbed my shirt and lifted it over my head and dropped it on the floor next to my flannel. She then caressed my cheek, then moved her hands back to my chest.

We stared into each other eyes, then we kissed. I cupped her face with my hands, then soon my hands traveled down to her waist as she wrapped her arms around my neck as we deepened the kiss.

We were laying in the grass, nude underneath a blanket. Haruhi and I were looking at each other. She had her head on my chest, rubbing her hand on one of the scars on my chest.

She looked down at them. "What are these?"

I looked up at the stars, trying my best to not look at my chest. "Burn marks." I said. "It's where the paramedics shocked me."

She looked up me. "Is that why you were facing your chest away from me during that time at the beach house?"

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "Yah, they're just another ugly reminder of what happened that day."

Haruhi looked back down at one of the scars as she continued to trace it.

"They're beautiful." She said.

I smiled. "Hardly."

She looked back up at me. "Hey."

I looked down at her.

"They saved your life." She put her face close to mine. "They're beautiful."

She kissed me for a couple seconds, then rested her head back onto my chest, wrapping her arms around me.

It was the next morning. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes. I then looked to my left and was greeted by a pair of eyes.

"This doesn't change anything."

The goose just looked at me, then waddled away.

After I finished putting my clothes back on from last night, I walked back to my house. As I walked up to the door, I noticed a note with a poorly drawn horse on it.

I took it off the door and noticed that there were words on the back.

Come find me.

I looked at the poorly drawn horse again, then a light bulb lit up in my head. I put the note in my pocket and began running to the horse barn.

When I got there, I saw Haruhi petting Comet's head. I walked over to her and she smiled at me.

"I knew you would find me." She said.

I gave her a slight smirk. "It actually took some time to figure out what you drew. The horse you drew looks like it's handicapped."

She glared at me. "Shut up, I drew it in a hurry."

I laughed a little and began to pet Comet as well. "So why did you bring me out here?"

"I wanted to go out on a ride with you."

I gave her a confused look. "But you don't know how to ride."

"Well for your information, I actually do."

I looked at her shocked. "Really?"

"Well, kinda." She said. "When Tamaki senpai and I were still dating, we visited a ranch with the other club members and went riding for a week." She looked over to me. "We thought about inviting you, but we had a feeling you wouldn't come." She continued petting Comet for a little longer. "So are we going for a ride or not?"

I smiled at her. "I guess we can. But we'll have to get you another horse because that one's mine."

Haruhi smiled and went over to another stall. I lead out a dapple gray mare named Pepper. I helped Haruhi saddle up Pepper, then I saddled up Comet. Then we began to ride out on the trail.

"Remember to keep your reins short." I reminded her. "You don't want her taking off."

"Alright." She said as she shortened her reins.

"And if you want her to go a little faster, just lightly kick her."

Haruhi nodded and kicked Pepper, making her take off.

"Haruhi!" I called out in panic.

I kicked Comet, making him go into a gallop.

"Hold on Haruhi!" I said as I began catching up to her.

When I caught up to her, I grabbed one of her reins and slowed Pepper down to a stop.

"God Haruhi, I said kick her lightly, not almost break her rib."

"I know." Haruhi said. "I did it on purpose."

"Why would you do it on purpose? You could've gotten hurt if you don't know what you're doing." I said growing angry.

"I told you." She said looking up at me. "I know how to ride. I took more riding lessons then I did at the ranch. I took about six months of lessons. So I know what I'm doing."

My anger began to fade, I sighed and released her rein.

"You could've told me that, I thought you only rode for a week."

"Sorry." She said.

"It's alright, I'm just glad you're ok." I then smirked at her. "Are you ready to ride then?"

Haruhi smiled at me, then we nudged our horses so they could go into a trot, then into a canter. We began laughing as we were riding down the trail. I turned to the left for a secret short cut, then jumped over a fallen tree and was now in front of Haruhi.

I looked back at her, smirking at her shocked expression. "Come on, you need to be a little faster than that."

Haruhi's smile returned and she nudged Pepper to go faster.

After racing for a bit, we slowed down to a walk, I looked at Haruhi with a loving smile.

"Thank you." I said.

She looked at me. "For what?"

"For this, being with you for the past couple weeks have been the best times I had in years."

She smiled back at me, and we held each other's hands as we continued walking down the trail.

After we got back and we put the horses away, Haruhi and I went over to a lighthouse at the beach of the lake near the graveyard and sat up there. I had my arms wrapped around her as we watched the waves of the lake.

Haruhi intertwined our fingers and leaned into my chest. "Today was so much fun."

I smiled. "Yah, it was."

"I wish we could do this more often, I haven't had this much fun on a real date, I think ever."

"Not even with Tamaki?" I asked with a smirk.

"Nope, not even with him."

I chuckled a bit and held her closer. "Too bad you have to go to Karuizawa soon."

"Yah." She said as she looked at me. "I wish you could come with me."

I tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. "You have school work to do."

"So, we can stay in two different rooms that are connected to each other and when I'm done with my work we can hang out."

I let her go and grabbed the railing. "No, I can't."

"Why? Come on, you don't have any holidays?"

I looked down, my smile faded. "I just can't."

She gave me a look. "You just can't?"

I looked at the lake for a bit, then back at Haruhi. "I just can't."

We just stared at each other, then all of a sudden my phone's alarm goes off.

My eyes widened and I took out my phone. "Oh shit."

"What?"

"Nothing." I said as I began climbing down the latter. "I just left something at work."

"What? Well, hold on." She said as she faced me. "I'll come with you."

"No." I said. "I won't be long. I'll meet you back at my house."

I hopped off the latter and made my way into the forest. I ran on the trail that I always took to meet up with Kaoru. As I reached the end of the trail, I saw Kaoru slowly walking away.

"Kaoru." I called out to him as I stopped. "Kaoru!" He continued to walk. "Kaoru stop."

Kaoru stopped then turned to me with a tearful glare, he took in a ragged breath.

"You're late." He said.

"I'm sorry, I couldn't help it Kaoru."

"I knew you'd be late." He said as a couple tears ran down his face. "I could feel you...forgetting me."

Thunder began to rumble in the distance, but I just ignored it.

"No Kaoru."

"It's like...without you…" He began to cry. "I feel myself...start to disappear...to be nothing."

I looked at him sadly. "There's nothing to be scared of Kaoru."

"Do you want me to go?" He growled.

"No."

"Then why did you bring her?!" Kaoru yelled as he pointed behind me.

I looked behind me and saw Haruhi standing there with a concerned look on her face.

"I didn't mean to spy on you." She said. "Hikaru, it's ok."

I looked back at Kaoru, but saw that he wasn't there. I then looked back at Haruhi.

"Kaoru and I made a deal." I said.

"Hikaru, you don't have to explain anything to me." She said as she walked over to me. "You don't."

"No, we made a pact...that every day at sunset, I would meet him here."

"Hikaru." Haruhi said as she grabbed my hand and put it to her mouth, kissing it.

"I can't lose Kaoru, Haruhi." I said, tears burning my eyes. "I can't lose him."

"Let's go." She said.

"No."

"Let's go."

"The more I'm in your world, the less I can be in his." I said.

"Hikaru." Haruhi said. "At some point we all have to let go."

I just looked at her, swallowing the lump in my throat. "I can't lose Kaoru, Haruhi."

Haruhi looked at me sadly as I pulled my hand out of her grip. I then turned my back to her and slowly began walking away.

"Goodbye Haruhi." I said. I then stopped walking. "Good luck in Karuizawa."

"You didn't die in that car crash Hikaru." She said, a couple tears running down her face.

I just stood there silently, until I heard her beginning to walk away.

"Actually, I did."